21 Grams (2003)

[ Chattering ]
- [ Rock ]
- Check, please.
Look, Daddy,
a volcano.
It's very pretty.
Now drink up your volcano.
All right. We're going.
Mommy's waiting.
Daddy, please.
Just one more minute.
No. We're going.
No.
- Yes. Yes.
- No.
No.
Until I ended up
flatlining at the hospital.
But I survived.
And instead of
letting that scare me,
I kept on going.
Until...
my first daughter
was born.
And now,
I look at my girls...
and my husband,
who has been standing
by me for so long.
Think which one
you're gonna pull out.
I always think, man.
No, you don't.
They didn't lock you up this time
'cause you're not 18 yet.
Next time, they're gonna
lock you up, brother.
Come on.
Well, you're not thinkin'.
Stealing might get you money,
you can tap
some cheerleader's ass,
you can show off riding
in some pickle-colored Thunderbird,
but tell me what's gonna happen
if you shoot a pregnant woman
or an old man, huh?
[ Liquid Pouring ]
You know what'll happen?
The guilt will suck you
down to the bone.
Stealing ain't worth it.
Going to church,
reading the Bible...
and believing in Jesus, brother,
that's your ticket.
[ Snickers ]
Yeah.
You think
it's a fantasy, right?
Huh?
Come here, man.
Get up. Come here.
[ Traffic Noises ]
See that truck?
Beauty, isn't it?
[ Horn Honks ]
I won it
at a friend's raffle.
No shit.
No shit.
You know what?
It wasn't luck.
It was Jesus who wanted me
to have that truck.
That's bullshit.
I bet you stole it.
Jesus gave me that truck.
And as He who gives
and He who takes away.
Yeah, right.
He doesn't give a shit
about us.
Come back.
Come back.
Take off the hat.
Take off that hat.
God even knows
when a single hair
moves on your head.
You're wrong, Nick.
[ Machines Beeping ]
[ Man Thinking ]
So, this is death's waiting room.
These ridiculous tubes.
These needles swelling my arms.
What am I doing
in this pre-corpse club?
What do I have to
do with them?
I don't know when
anything began anymore...
or when it's gonna end.
Who will be the first
to lose his life?
He, in the coma?
Or me?
[ Buzzing ]
[ Sniffing ]
[ Sniffing ]
[ Sighs ]
[ Paper Crinkling ]
[ Clattering ]
All right.
You can get dressed now.
Your Fallopian tubes
are severely damaged.
It, uh, looks like you had
some kind of an infection...
that, uh, wasn't taken
care of properly.
We can try surgery,
but I have to tell you,
I think, uh,
the probabilities
are pretty slim.
Look.
Excuse me for asking this,
but it's important
that you tell me the truth.
Have you ever
had an abortion?
Yes.
Any reason?
I had already separated
from my husband
when I got pregnant,
and l--
No. I meant
a medical reason.
My husband's dying.
I'm sorry?
Paul, my husband,
he's dying,
and I want to have his baby.
We can operate then
and hope you get pregnant
within three or four months.
[ Snickers ]
He's got one month left,
at most.
How'd it go?
Not good, Reverend.
In one ear,
out the other.
Be patient.
All it takes is one sheep
in a thousand,Jack. Come on.
Afternoon, Reverend.
Hey, Wolf, you still having
that birthday party Wednesday?
My place, brother.
Cool.
I may be late,Jack.
I have Bible class on Wednesday.
What the fuck
is wrong with you, man?
[ Arguing Continues ]
- I will hurt you, boy.
- Paul. Paul!
Back off.
Back off.
I told you to think.
Fuck you!
- Hit me! Hit me!
Hit me! Hit me!
-Jack!Jack!Jack!
Hey, hey,Jack!
Come on! Come on!
Leave it,Jack.
He's a kid,Jack.
- He's a punk, Reverend.
- No, he's a kid.
You think,Jack.
You think.
[ Man On Radio ]
Those who are making decisions
that affect our life,
we must call out to God
to give them His wisdom.
Daddy's home.
I'll see you tomorrow, Tam.
I'll pick the boys up after school
if you want me to.
[ Door Opens,
Warning Signal Beeping ]
[ Girl ] Daddy!
Hello.
Hey, babe.
How's my queen?
[ Wife Chuckles ]
And Hercules.
[ Girl ]
You don't have a queen.
Freddy, help me out.
I got the cooler
from the religious center.
Good.
- Dad, are we gonna
go buy a dog now?
- Help me out.
Freddy, we agreed no dogs.
Grab the other handle.
Lift it up.
You said if I got good grades,
you'd buy me one.
Your sister has allergies,
and dog hair is bad for her.
Bad for her, not me.
Get me a dog.
Freddy, leave it alone.
Well, at least
get me a hamster.
Well, we'll see.
We'll see.
You always say
you promise.
[ Chattering, Echoing ]
[ Man ]
Hey, Wolf.
You back, motherfucker?
Lock down six!
Six down!
Whoo! I win.
Age before beauty.
You're such
a sore loser.
[ Cell Phone Ringing ]
Do you wanna go
to theJacuzzi for a while?
Shit.
No, I can't.
Michael and the girls
are waiting for me already.
Okay.
Well, call me later.
I'll call ya.
Cristina?
[ Chuckles ]
[ Reverend ]
And you get away from leading
your family like a man of God...
ought to lead his family
in prayer...
and reading the word of God
and the things of God...
and bringing them
to the house of God,
[ Man ] Amen.
then you're opening the door
for the devil to come in
and slay your family.
[ Congregation ]
Amen.
Jesus is our light.
[ Congregation ]
Jesus is our light.
Jesus is our hope.
[ Congregation ]
Jesus is our hope.
Jesus is our forgiveness.
Jesus is our forgiveness.
Jesus is the water
that quenches my thirst.
Jesus is the water
that quenches my thirst.
If you're saved
and you know it, say "Amen. "
[ Congregation ]
Amen.
Everybody up on your feet.
- Jesus is our light.
-Jesus is our light.
[ Keyboard Clacking ]
[ Groans ]
[ Clattering ]
[ Oxygen Hissing ]
[ Hissing Stops ]
[ Wheezing ]
[ Coughing, Gasping ]
[ Wheezing ]
[ Door Opens ]
Hey, honey, I'm home.
[ Toilet Flushes ]
[ Coughs ]
Hi.
Jesus, you scared me.
How are you feeling?
I feel great.
Have you been
smoking again?
Oh, for fuck's sake, Paul.
You know if they find out
you're smoking, they'll take you
off the transplant list.
If I don't smoke,
I'll go fuckin'nuts.
Better nuts than dead.
[ Coughs ]
Is that necessary?
I don't know
how the hell you get them.
[ Wheezing ]
[ Whimpering ]
Baby! Baby! Baby! Baby!
Baby!
Oh, God!
Call an ambulance!
[ Sobbing ]
Baby!
Call a fucking ambulance!
Goddamn it!
Please, do something.
Baby!
Come on, please.
[ Doorbell Rings ]
[ Doorbell Rings ]
[ Chattering ]
[ Men Laughing ]
[ Man ]
Hey, Al,you want a Coke?
Jack, boss wants to talk to you.
He wants to see you now.
Come on. We both know
I'm not a caddie yet,
but I'm working at it.
And I'm learning, Brown.
Man, I swear to God,
I'm not going to let you down.
No,Jack,
that's not the problem.
What's the problem?
The problem is some members
have started complaining
about your tattoos.
I got a long-sleeved shirt.
No, man--
No long-sleeved shirt...
You can't see it.
is gonna cover that one
on your neck right there.
You're gonna
start wearing a scarf.
Look,Jack.
This club is for people
different from me and you.
No. You know, I don't drink.
I don't steal.
I'm clean.
Tell me, why me?
Look, I know you're clean.
That's why I hired you.
But this decision
comes from the administration.
If I don't follow through,
they're gonna fuck me too.
[ Sighs ]
Look, I cut you
a hefty severance check,
and you can pick it up
on the way to the cashier's.
Try to understand.
[ Ice Cubes Rattling ]
Okay. Good.
So, is there any pain?
My head hurts a little bit.
That's normal.
That's because of
the blood pressure medicine.
We'll get you something else
to make you feel better.
Thank you.
I brought...
- what you asked for.
- Oh, my God.
Oh. Is that my heart?
The culprit.
Which one is he?
That's him
with the brown vest.
He's putting the bag
up on top right now.
You okay?
[ Breathing Heavily ]
Come here.
I wanna kill him.
We have to kill him.
Thank you, Lord,
for keeping us together,
for filling us with love
and for giving us this meal.
Amen.
[ All ]
Amen.
I got fired
from the club today.
'Cause of your
good pal Brown, right?
He had nothing
to do with it.
It's mine!
- Believe that,Jack?
- Yes, I do.
- [ Children Arguing ]
- Ow!
- Freddy, stop it.
Mommy, Freddy
hit me in the arm.
Which arm, baby?
This one.
Jack, don't start.
Hold out your other arm
and let your brother hit you.
- Give me it!
-Jack, no!
Hold it out.
Whoever slaps you
on the right cheek,
turn the other to him also.
Hit her.
Don't be afraid.
- Jack, no!
- [ Pounds Table ]
- Hit her!
Isn't that great. Wonderful.
Great parenting,Jack.
Good job.
It's okay. Shh.
He didn't hurt her.
[ Sighs ]
There's no hitting
in this house.
Understand?
Get in the corner!
Do I put the chocolate chips
in now, Mommy?
That's right, honey,
and then stir.
[ Radio, Indistinct ]
Stir really quick.
Laura, put that back.
Come on.
When is Daddy coming?
Soon. Now let's
get this finished, honey.
- Mmm!
- None for you.
Mmm!
[ Chuckles ]
- No, Laura, stop it now.
- [ All Laughing ]
Next Friday, ask Lupe
to stay the night.
I can't stay, 'cause I invited
the company managers
over for dinner.
I fired her.
What, you fired her?
Why?
She made me feel
like a cripple.
Oh, goddamn it, Paul.
So, now who's going
to cook for you?
Who's going to clean up after you?
Who's going to take care of you?
Who?
I can do it for myself.
Oh,you can do it
by yourself.
I can't do it anymore, Paul.
Really, I can't.
[ Kissing ]
What are you doing?
I'm just-- What?
What does it feel like
I'm doing?
Don't. Don't.
You might hurt yourself.
I'm not gonna
hurt myself.
Besides, I need you to--
Huh?
I went to
a fertility clinic.
Oh good, more doctors.
Mary, I can't have
this discussion again.
No, this is a--
this is a specialist.
He said that with surgery,
I might get pregnant.
You need to donate
sperm and then--
Mary, no.
I could take care ofhim.
But I can't.
So what's the point?
This is what I most want
in the world.
Do it for me, please.
[ Machinery Whirring ]
This'll be $58.95.
[ Cash Register Beeping, Dings ]
[ Cashier ]
Thank you.
[ Bottles Clang Together ]
Find everything you need, sir?
I'll have, uh--
Oh, you know what?
I left my wallet.
[ No Audible Dialogue ]
[ Chattering, Laughter ]
[ Stereo ]
Gonna be hot.
Great.
When does my brother
plan to show up?
He said he'll be back
by 6:00.
One hundred percent
pure golden lager.
You outta your mind?
[ Chuckles ]
Pretty much.
Oh, it's warm.
Okay, well, hey, if you wanna
drink lemonade all night--
No, no, no, no.
Just give it here.
Give me--
Katie? Laura?
Where are you guys?
[ Keys Clatter]
[ Cell Phone Beeps ]
[ Answering Machine On Phone,
Indistinct ]
Hi, sweetheart, it's Dad.
I was hoping we could have lunch
one day next week.
Give me a call.
[ Phone Beeps ]
Hi, honey.
I'm on my way home.
If you need me to pick up
anything along the way--
[ Girl ] Look, Daddy, a pigeon!
Girls, no, don't touch.
Laura, stop it.
[ Cristina Chuckles ]
Gimme a call on my cell.
I'll see you in a bit. Bye.
[ Woman's Voice ]
To send a message, press--
[ Chuckles ]
[ Clattering ]
[ Phone Ringing ]
[ Ringing ]
Hello.
[ Caller Inaudible ]
Speaking.
What?
Where?
[ Siren Chirps ]
[ Police Radio Chatter ]
[ Siren Chirps ]
Stay here.
I'll be right back.
[ Siren Wailing ]
[ Door Slams Shut ]
Now, Mary,you understand
that even if the operation
is successful,
artificial insemination
doesn't always work.
It doesn't matter.
We want to try.
Paul?
Yeah.
Now, Paul, um,
this is about
having a child.
And with your condition,
you know you probably
won't ever meet him.
Mm-hmm.
Well, life goes on, right?
Yeah, right.
I'd like you to put on
one of these gloves to avoid
contaminating the sample.
And, uh, try to make it
all land in the receptacle.
When you're done,
just leave it in here.
In case you need
a little inspiration.
[ Woman On Video ]
Hey, big boy, what are you doing?
Oh,yeah,you ready to party?
[ Man On Video ]
Yeah, well, I'm here now.
[ Video Continues, Indistinct ]
[ Woman ]
Yeah! Yeah!
Oh, there you go!
[ Moaning ]
Good, come on. Come on!
[ Woman On P.A.]
Dr. Swann, call the operator.
Excuse me.
My husband and daughters
were in an accident,
and I was told
to come here.
What were their names?
Michael, Catherine
and Laura Peck.
Okay.
[ Keyboard Clacking ]
Excuse me for a minute.
Cris.
What happened, sweetheart?
I don't know.
They haven't told me
anything yet.
It's gonna be all right.
Yeah, everything
will be okay. Don't worry.
[ Rock ]
Okay, what is
the most important question
for safe sex?
What time does
your husband get home?
[ Man ]
That's good, huh? Yeah.
His Highness has arrived.
Let's see
what he comes up with.
Serve up that chili.
Uh-uh-uh-uh.
[ Squirts ]
[ Chuckles ]
It's 7:00.
What are you gonna make up
this time-- traffic?
You preaching the word?
The entire congregation
has been waiting for you.
It's your party, remember?
What's wrong?
Have you been drinking?
No.
You didn't drink again,
did you?
I just ran over
a man and two girls.
You're lying, right?
I was driving home.
Took a turn...
a little too quickly.
I didn't see them crossing.
[ Rock Continues ]
- [ Horn Honking ]
- Can't you go any faster?
[ Honking Horn ]
Baby, hold on.
[ Revs Engine, Honking Horn ]
I love you.
[ Inhales ]
[ Exhales ]
Deep breath.
[ Inhales ]
[ Exhales ]
Good.
- Your lungs are clear.
- I got a question for you.
Yeah.
Whose heart do I have?
Uh, I can't tell you.
It's hospital regulations.
Just like the donor's family
doesn't know your name either.
- But you know.
- [ Chuckles ]
Yes.
This is your heart now.
That's all that should
matter to you.
- I wanna know who saved my life.
- If you want,you can write...
an anonymous letter to the family
through the donor's association.
Personally, I think it's better
that you don't know.
Mrs. Peck?
I'm Dr.Jones.
What happened
to my family?
Please, sit down.
No, l-I'm okay.
What happened?
Well, your husband
and your daughters
were hit by a car,
and we had to perform
emergency surgery on your husband.
[ Man ]
Your husband suffered
multiple skull fractures,
and we had to remove blood clots
from around the brain.
He's in critical condition,
and we're concerned that
he's showing low brain activity.
What?
Is he gonna be all right?
We're doing the best we can.
And what about
my daughters?
Your youngest daughter
was brought in with severe bleeding.
She just wasn't able
to get here in time.
I'm very sorry.
They-- They both died
in the accident.
[ Shuddering ]
[ Cristina Sobbing ]
No.
No. Oh, my--
Oh! Oh! Oh!
Oh, my God!
No! Oh, my God!
Do-- Oh!
Wh-- Where are they?
Where-- Where are they?
Mrs. Peck,your girls are here,
and you can see them
if you like, but--
I wanna see them.
Mrs. Peck,
I wouldn't recommend it.
[ Cristina Sobbing ]
Oh, God, Daddy.
Oh, Daddy!
[ Doctor ]
I'm very sorry.
If you'll excuse us,
we have to get back
to Mr. Peck.
[ Sobbing ]
Uh, I'm very sorry.
[ Sobbing Loudly ]
Oh, God! Oh!
[ Men Chanting ]
We want dinner!
Marianne, we'd like
some dinner in here!
[ Rock Continues ]
Tell Reverend John to stay.
Make sure no one notices
and get everyone to leave.
What happened?
Trish,just do
what I tell ya!
Okay, baby.
It's gonna be okay.
It's gonna be okay.
Yeah.
Come on.
Start the truck up.
Start the truck up.
Pull it in.
Come on, baby.
[ Vehicle Engine Starts ]
[ Horn Honks ]
[ Brown ]
Hey,Jack.
What are you
doing here, man?
Just came to pick up
my things, Brown.
Why don't you let me
buy you a couple of beers?
I don't drink, Brown.
How about a Diet Coke?
You know, I've been talking
to a buddy of mine about
hooking you up with a job.
Been telling him
all about you.
So, what do you say, huh?
I've been feeling shitty
about what went down.
Come on.
I understand.
So, what do you say?
As you know, the doctors
did everything they could
to save your husband's life,
but he has shown
no brain activity.
We're here to help you
with some of the final decisions
that need to be made.
We have a patient...
who is gravely ill.
I'm here to give you
some information
on organ donation.
Are you willing
for your husband
to donate his heart?
- Can we discuss this another time?
- I'm afraid not.
I can give you time to discuss it,
but this is a decision
that needs to be made soon.
[ Beeping ]
[ Mary ]
Paul?
Paul, the beeper.
[ Beeping Stops ]
It's the hospital.
I think they've
got a heart.
Hello? Yes,
I'm calling on behalf
of Mr. Paul Rivers.
Yes.
Okay.
Yes, I understand.
Where do I
have to take him?
[ Beeping ]
[ Clippers Humming ]
Good luck, my love.
[ Chair Scrapes On Floor ]
Hello.
Hello.
Does your shoulder
bother you?
Why?
Because I was watching you
swim before,
and you have a wide stroke.
If you bring it in tighter,
you get a better glide.
Thanks for the advice.
Do you mind
if I join you?
- Actually, I was just leaving.
- Here you go.
Maybe just until you finish?
No. Maybe next time.
Did you know that eating alone
can cause kidney damage?
And that's bad.
[ Chuckles ]
Well--
Okay, sorry.
[ Ice Cubes Rattling ]
[ Beeping ]
[ Line Ringing ]
[ On Phone: Rock ]
[ Man ] Hello?
Hello, is Ana there?
What?
Is Ana there?
Hang on a sec.
Ana. Ana!
Telephone.
Hello.
[ Continues ]
Hello?
Who was that?
[ Whirring ]
Hi, honey, I'm on my way home.
If you need me to pick up anything
along the way, let me know.
Look, Daddy, a pigeon!
Girls, no, don't touch!
Laura, stop it.
Gimme a call on my cell.
I'll see you in a bit.
Bye.
[ Door Opens ]
Did you go?
Are they dead?
I'm gonna turn myself in.
John says nobody saw you.
Nobody.
They don't know the license plate
or what kind of car. Some asshole
even swears it was a cab.
Marianne, what would you do
if these were our children?
Tell me.
But they're not.
It didn't happen to us.
No, it didn't happen to us.
It happened to me.
[ Opens Door ]
[ Licks Finger]
[ Wedding Ring Clatters ]
What the fuck do you gain
by turning yourself in?
It's my duty, Marianne.
No,Jack, your duty
is here with us.
With your family.
[ Clattering ]
My duty's to God.
Please.
Marianne,
get outta my way.
Jack.
[ Chattering, Laughter]
Oh, buddy,
right there!
Yes!
My turn.
[ Laughter]
I think I better
go back to the hospital.
Hey, he deserves it.
I thought your doctor said
you're not supposed to eat that.
I'm making up
for lost time.
Lost time, not lost pounds.
We're gonna have to
send you back for liposuction.
Well, here's to all those
who didn't think I was going to die.
[ Man ]
Hear! Hear! Hear! Hear!
To the first day
of my new life.
Congratulations.
Cheers.
It's good
to have you home, man.
I knew you'd make it.
I told you.
[ Clanging ]
I also have
an announcement to make.
I wanted to tell you
that Paul and I
are going to be parents.
That's great.
There's a scary thought--
Paul being a parent.
- You kept this real quiet.
- Have you told your parents yet?
We're going to be parents.
We just don't know when yet.
I'm going to have an operation,
and then we're going to try
artificial insemination.
Terrific. Terrific.
Artificial insemination, huh?
Professor, do your female students know
you no longer have lead in your pencil?
Hey!
Come on!
[ Raspberry ]
[ Woman ]
Play nice!
Let's have more cake.
Let's pass the cake around.
[ Overlapping Chattering ]
Mr. Donneaud?
Mr. Rivers?
Yeah.
Thanks for coming.
Sorry I couldn't cancel
this appointment, but the way
I'm bowling today, probably should have.
Have a seat here.
Park it right there.
[ Breathing Heavily ]
[ Sobbing ]
[ Murmuring ]
Can I bring you
something to eat?
I'm not hungry.
Honey, you need
to eat something.
I'm fine, Dad.
When your mother died,
I thought I wasn't going to make it.
I felt the world was falling
on me and that I was never
going to get up.
But, sweetie,
life goes on.
You know what I thought
when Mom died?
I couldn't understand
how you could talk to people again.
How you could laugh... again.
I couldn't understand
how you could play with us.
And no--
no, that's a lie.
Life does not just go on.
Louise is getting fat,
don't you think?
She's done nothing but eat
since Robert left her.
What?
She looks okay to you?
Why did you tell everybody
we're having a baby?
I wanted to share
our plans with them.
Oh. That's what I mean,
they're our plans.
Why does everyone have to
know our private life?
Why the fuss?
They're our best friends.
Yeah, but we haven't
even talked about it.
Oh, we haven't?
I thought this was
more than settled.
Things change, Mary.
Something we have to
think about.
I don't have anything
to think about.
I've already
made my decision.
Would you help me
with the glasses?
[ Murmuring ]
[ Woman ]
So young.
You want me to stay
with you tonight?
I'm okay. Thanks.
I just wanna be alone.
[ Sniffles ]
Cris,
the police called.
They said you need to
go and press charges.
I'll go with you
if you want.
I'm not going to do anything.
Y-- This guy was--
was some ex-con.
Are you really gonna let him
just walk the streets?
What do you want me to do?
Well, he ran over
Michael and your daughters.
Nothing I can do
is going to bring them back.
Do you get that?
Hey, how you doin'?
You found it okay?
Yeah, I did.
The donor's name
was Michael Peck.
He was 37 years old.
An architect
and married.
This is the authorization
for transplant signed by
his wife, Cristina Williams Peck.
I have a copy
of the medical report
if you care to see it.
And I also have the widow's
phone number and address
just in case you're interested.
How did Michael Peck die?
You might have seen it
in the newspaper.
This guy named JackJordan
ran over Mr. Peck
and his two little girls...
October 10
at 6:50 p.m.
This JackJordan's a piece of work.
He's been in and out of jail
since he was 16.
Car thief,
small-time crook, drugs,
bad checks, alcoholism.
Last time he was in jail
has only been a few years ago.
[ Coughing ]
You feeling okay, Mr. Rivers?
This is what you wanted,
isn't it?
Okay, I just, um--
You want some water?
He was, uh, an architect.
What's the point
in getting involved?
Mary, I wanna know
who I am now.
I don't think
that's the way to do it.
What is then?
Look for it with me.
Let's look ahead together,
not behind.
Damn it,Jack, it's your birthday
and you didn't even have
one drink with me.
Why don't you come over to my place?
I'm having a party.
Yeah, I bet they're all
as boring as you are.
[ Laughs ]
You'd be surprised.
No, man, I'll pass.
Listen, I'll call you later
about that job, okay?
All right, man.
All right.
Thank you.
[ Horn Honks ]
Hey, Brown, you should.
I will.
[ Wheezing ]
Okay, now, we can schedule
the surgery, um,
I could get you in
as early as Monday.
Yeah.
What's the percentage chance
that Mary will get pregnant?
Well, I can't offer you
a real number on that.
Um, you know,
there's the damage
from the abortion...
that wasn't handled properly--
the blockage--
[ Paul ]
What abortion?
What abortion, Mary?
I can explain.
Explain what?
There is an explanation.
Uh-huh.
All that drama
about artificial insemination.
Kids' names.
You got pictures
of our friends' babies
all over the place.
Why?
So you can flush it
down the fuckin' toilet?
We've been a fraud
for a long time, Mary.
Oh, yeah?
Why didn't you tell me that
when you were sick, huh?
Or did you expect
one of your girlfriends
to come and take care of you?
You came back
because you wanted to.
Don't blame me for that.
I came back to take care of you
because I love you.
Or because
you were feeling lonely.
I'm sorry. I'm sorry.
I can't keep going like this.
The insemination,
the child.
It's like we're trying to
put a Band-Aid on something
that's just been bled dry.
It's finished.
But it-- it isn't finished
if we give it a chance
and have this baby.
When we could have,
you didn't want to.
We were separated, goddamn it!
It's different now!
Yes, it's different.
We gonna go?
You only know how
to think about yourself.
[ Guard ]
Close six!
Well, thanks
for finally seeing me.
They tell me
you don't want to eat.
I'm not hungry.
Jack,Jesus didn't come
to free us from pain.
He came to give us
the strength to bear it.
Maybe He wanted
this pain for me.
No, He had nothing
to do with this.
It was an accident.
No, it wasn't an accident.
Jesus chose me for this.
Jack,
ask for the mercy
ofJesus Christ.
If it was an accident,
why do I have to ask
for His mercy?
"I will have mercy
on whom I will have mercy.
"I will have compassion
on whom I will have compassion.
- Don't be so prideful. That's a sin.
- "And the fearful and unbelieving.
"And the abominable,
the murderers, the warmongers,
Jack, listen to me.
"the sorcerers and the idolaters
and all liars...
Jesus came to save us,
not to damn us.
"shall have their part...
in the lake which burneth
with fire and brimstone."
Revelation 21:8.
Jesus, loves you.
But He also knows how to punish
arrogant sinners like you.
"As many as I love,
I rebuke and chaste."
Revelation 3:19.
-Jesus betrayed me.
- Stop this shit, or you're
going straight to hell!
Hell?
This is hell.
Right here!
You're damning your soul!
You shut up now...
and ask Christ
to forgive you!
Hey! Forgive me?
I did everything
He asked me to do!
I changed!
I gave Him my life,
and He betrayed me.
He put that fucking truck in my hand
so I could carry out His will.
Made me kill that man
and those girls.
But hey, He didn't
give me the strength
to stay and save them.
Don't blaspheme, you bastard!
Christ had nothing to do with this!
God even knows
when a single hair
moves on your head.
And you taught me that.
We're gonna pray
for you,Jack.
[ Chattering ]
[ Car Engine Starts ]
Good evening, sir.
[ Rock ]
Excuse me.
[ Rock Continues, Indistinct ]
Using discrepancy, lyric weaponry
lessens your chances of testing me
Stop and freeze M.C. 's
I block atrocities
Philosophies from the lips
ofblack Socrates
The pocket-penciler
in your peninsula
Killing Dracula M.C. 's
who bit from my vernacular
I can back it
The ill scene we occupy
No lullaby, got you high
when I rock a fly
Verse, for my people
let me breathe slow
Give a heave-ho
and stimulate your cerebral
System, cut chemist grip the fader
Tuna the group debater
[ Continues, Indistinct ]
Hey,just like
old times, huh?
How the hell
have you been?
Did you end up marrying
that hunk you brought
around here last time?
Yep.
Yeah?
Is he a good lay?
How they make us suffer, huh?
It's all right.
I got some great candy for you.
I got Special "K, "angel dust.
I got your all-time favorite.
And I got the newest
of the new-- R-2.
This shit is all the rage.
You take two of these,
-you go straight to heaven.
- I'm not into chemicals.
Cristi, you're not
a cuddly little kitty now, are you?
Look, if you don't like 'em,
you don't pay for 'em.
That's my girl.
It's busy.
[ Knocking ]
Hey, go easy on the booze
tonight, right?
- [ Neck Bones Cracking ]
- [ Gasping ]
[ Yells ]
What the fuck?
[ Yelling ]
What the fuck
are you doing?
[Jack Sobbing ]
[ Chattering ]
Would you get
my car keys?
Sure.
- What do you care, asshole?
- I can get you a cab.
- I don't need a fuckin' taxi.
-Just give me the glass, ma'am.
Here's your fuckin' glass.
- [ Crash ]
- [ Man ] You okay?
Stupid fucking asshole, move your car!
I'm fine. Get away from my car!
There's no damage.
I'm fine.
Get away from my car.
There's no damage.
Excuse me, I know her.
I can drive her home.
Is this any of your business?
I'm your friend Paul
from the sports club.
Yeah, well--
Remember?
Yeah. Well, can you
tell these assholes
to get away from me?
I'll drive her home.
It's not a big deal, okay?
Okay. All right?
You can't drive like this.
What do you care?
You're gonna get arrested.
Let me drive you.
Please?
Damn it.
[ Parking Brake Clicks ]
[ Engine Off]
[ Keys Jangling ]
[ Seat Belt Clicks ]
[ Horn Blowing, Distant ]
[ Chattering ]
I sold the truck
to pay for the lawyer.
I didn't ask for a lawyer.
Marianne,
I didn't ask for a lawyer.
You want your children to spend
another two years without you?
Is that what you want?
This is God's will.
So be it.
Two years ago,
you didn't believe in anything.
Now everything
has to do with God.
I think I preferred you
the way you were before.
I was a fucking pig before.
Is that what you prefer?
At least it was you.
Now I don't have the slightest
fucking idea who you are.
[ Zips Jacket ]
Life has to go on,Jack,
with or without God.
Hey, how you doin'?
How are you?
Fine.
Were you able
to find anything out?
JackJordan's living in
a cheap motel lost out
in the middle of nowhere.
Phone records.
One of his prison fishy pals
is from there.
- That was quick.
-Just a matter of checking the calls.
Phone number and address
for the motel he's living in.
[ Coughs, Sniffles ]
Here's a pretty recent photo
ofJordan.
It was taken the last time
he was in jail.
Were you able to get that
other thing that I asked about?
Mm-hmm.
This is a clean gun, no record.
They call this an "orphan."
It is loaded.
Whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa.
Careful there, Hoss.
You don't have to cock it.
Just pull the trigger to shoot it.
This releases the cylinder.
I think we're set to go.
That's all I want to know.
Thank you.
Good luck to you.
Ma'am, it's been an hour
since I called.
Forty-six St. Vincent Street.
Thank you.
Hello.
Hello.
Some rain.
Do you not have your car?
No, but my taxi
will be here in a minute.
I'm right over here.
I'll give you a lift if you like.
No. Thanks.
I'm the guy who drove
your car home last week.
I'm sorry.
I don't remember.
I left my jacket with you.
I'm sorry.
I'll bring it by tomorrow.
Sure I can't give you a ride?
I'm right here.
Or do you want to swim?
[ Chuckles ]
Okay.
Hello.
Thanks.
You're very welcome.
Let me just give you
my cell phone number
so you can have it.
Would you have
lunch with me tomorrow?
What for?
Uh, you're gonna have to eat
at some point, and I'm very worried
about those kidneys.
Come on. Lawrence's, 2:00.
It's very nearby.
Please.
Okay.
I'll see you tomorrow.
Great.
[ Woman On Radio ]
...report we have construction on the ramp
coming from southbound 240 at Summer.
That ramp is closed until 6:00 p.m.
Use Arlington Pike as an alternate.
Also--
Forty at the new bridge,
they have the center lane closed.
Use southbound l-20 as an alternate.
Safe Driving believes so strongly
in minimum coverage.
They're easy, fast, affordable and reliable.
They're serious about minimum coverage.
Minimum coverage is the best option--
[ Both ]
Look, Daddy, a pigeon!
Daddy, look!
Girls, no, don't.
Don't touch it. Laura, stop it.
[ Machine Whirring ]
Gimme a call on my cell.
I'll see you in a bit. Bye.
[ Machine Stops Whirring ]
Good night, Mr. Peck.
Hey, Lucio, don't forget
to do my garden on Saturday.
No, sir, I won't forget.
[ Machine Revs, Whirring ]
[ Screeching Tires, Thud ]
[ Vehicle Speeding Away ]
Son of a bitch.
Leave it to me, Marianne.
Sometimes it happens,
sometimes it doesn't.
Everybody reacts differently.
That's why you've been
vomiting so much.
So, what are you saying,
I've got to change medication?
Okay, I'm gonna be
frank with you, Paul.
The heart that you're carrying
is gonna give out soon.
I need you to stay in the hospital
until I can find you another heart.
You want me to wait
for a new heart.
We don't have another choice.
I can't do that.
I can't wait for someone else to die,
locked up in a fucking room.
I can't-- I can't do it.
Y-You're dangerously close
to heart failure, Paul.
You might die a lot sooner
than you think.
Let me ask you something,
and I want you to be really honest
with me, okay?
[ Sighs ]
If I stay...
will I be saved?
I can't guarantee it.
But if you don't
come back to the hospital,
you're condemning yourself
to a terrible death.
Your heart won't work anymore.
You'll die, asphyxiated.
It's an awful death, Paul.
You can't imagine it.
At least here
we could help you to--
You can help me die better.
That's what you're saying.
You can help me die better.
Well, I'm not gonna do that, okay?
I'd rather die outside.
I'm not gonna do it again.
How much did the lawyer charge?
Marianne, how much did
the fucking lawyer charge?
[John ] Enough.
How much is enough,
Marianne?
Enough so your children can
remember your fucking face.
You keep asking stupid questions,
I'm getting out at the next corner.
[ TVPlaying ]
[ Growls Softly ]
[ Marianne ]
Hi, guys. We're home.
Daddy! Daddy!
What'd you bring us?
I brought you a kiss.
You didn't bring me
a present, huh?
No,just a kiss.
We made you a cake.
Thank you, sweetheart.
Freddy put the icing on it.
Freddy, are you gonna
say hello to your father?
[ Marianne ]
Freddy drew those for you.
I drew those ones.
Mommy made the cake.
Come here.
[ Girl ]
Come look at the cake, Daddy.
[Jack ] She did?
[ Girl ]
Come on, Daddy.
There is a number
hidden in every act of life,
in every aspect of the universe.
Fractals, matter--
that there's a number
screaming to tell us something.
Am I boring you?
No. No. l--
I'm sorry.
I guess I try to tell them
that numbers are a door...
to understanding a mystery
that's bigger than us.
How two people, strangers,
come to meet.
There's a poem by
a Venezuelan writer that begins--
"The earth turned
to bring us closer.
"It turned on itself and in us...
until it finally brought us
together in this dream."
That's beautiful.
There's so many things
that have to happen for
two people to meet and--
Anyway, that's--
that's what mathematics are.
[ Paul ]
How long have you been swimming?
[ Cristina ]
Oh, for years.
It doesn't bore you?
No. It's what makes me
feel normal.
If I didn't swim or walk
or do something,
I think I'd go crazy.
Thanks for lunch.
Yeah. Bye.
Do you want to come in?
No.
Thanks--
Yes, I do want to come in.
[ Chuckles ]
[ Wheezes ]
[ Wheezes ]
[ Coughs, Wheezes ]
[ Whistle Blowing ]
[ Wheezing ]
[ Wheezing ]
[ Trash Can Clanging ]
[ Coughs ]
Hey, can I ask you--
- Huh?
- Okay, I have a gun. Okay?
Don't look at me.
Don't look at me.
Don't look at me. I'll shoot--
- I don't have any money.
- Turn around. Turn around.
I'll shoot you.Just turn around. Go.
- I don't have any--
- Walk. Walk. Walk!
P-Put 'em up!
P-Put your hands up!
Why?
- Wait.
-Just walk. Go!
We're gonna go down that
path right there. Do what I say
and then you won't get hurt.
- I don't have any--
- Go!
I'm not looking.
Come on. Keep walking.
Go right down here.
Just keep walking. Keep walk--
I said don't look at me.
I'll shoot you in the head.
Keep your hands up!
Walk! Over here.
Over here. Hey!
Come on, don't look at me.
Okay, keep going!
Stop! Stop!
Right-- Okay, uh--
Stop!
T-Turn around.
But keep your hands on your head.
Keep your hands on your head!
G-Get-Get--
Take your shoes off
and get down on your knees.
Uh, take off your shoes.
No, not that-- not that one.
J-Just get down on your knees!
Get down on your knees!
Sir, please.
You shouldn't have done it.
[ Wheezing ]
Done what?
You shouldn't have done it!
Close your goddamn eyes!
She looked me in the eyes.
What are you talking about?
One of the girls that I killed,
she looked me in the eye.
She wanted to tell me something.
[ Sobs ]
I just-- I left her there.
[ Sobbing ]
[ Sobs ]
I ran away.
I ran away.
I ran away.
I ran away.
I ran away.
Shh. Shh. Shh. Shh.
You sticking with red?
Sure.
Are you okay?
Yeah.
I, um...
Sorry. I, uh-- Dizzy.
Can I get you a glass of water
or something?
I think I should go home.
I'm sorry. I just, uh--
I like you a lot, Cristina.
It's been a long time since
I liked someone so much.
Can I see you again?
I'm a married woman.
I figured.
Thanks.
Good-bye.
I've got peace like a river
I've got peace like a river
-I've got peace like a river
in my soul
- Everybody!
I've got love like an ocean
I've got love like an ocean
I've got love like an ocean
in my soul
I've got joy like a fountain
I've got joy like a fountain
I've got joy like a fountain
in my soul
-Look, Daddy. These are the zebras,
these are the lions.
- Very pretty, Gina.
How could you draw a zoo
if you've never been to one?
I've seen them in--
Stop fighting.
The lawyer called to remind you
you have to go sign on Monday.
If you want, I'll go with you
to the church again.
Daddy, in school they said...
you killed two girls
and their daddy.
Is that true?
Yes.
- No.
- Yes.
- He killed them.
- [ Marianne ]
It was an accident, sweetie.
You understand?
Oh,Jesus, every time
I look at my children...
[ Mumbling, Indistinct ]
[ Cell Phone Rings ]
Hello?
Hello?
[ Cristina ] Paul?
Wh-Who is this?
Cristina.
Did I wake you?
Hang on a second.
Hi.
Did I wake you?
No, that's okay.
Um, c-could you come
to my house?
Is something wrong?
No, I just--
I just want you to come
if you can.
Or if you want to.
Yeah.
I'll be right there.
Thanks.
Okay.
It's 2:00 in the morning.
Who are you talking to?
I won't be long.
Where are you going?
I said I won't be long.
Exactly where and with who
are you going?
I thought you'd change
after the transplants.
And I thought you'd change
if I did. Neither of us changed.
[ Horn Honking,
Tires Screeching ]
What's wrong?
He's been shot in the chest.
- [ Cristina ] Come on.
- Shot in the-- in the chest.
He's been shot in the chest.
[ Cristina ]
Come on.
- Okay, how long's he been like that?
- He's dying, okay? We need a--
Okay, I'll go get a stretcher.
- [ Man ] Ma'am, he'll--
he'll be right back.
- It's okay.
Hang in there, baby.
I shot him.
-[ Man ] You did what?
- I shot him.
Patrol, I need you
to call the police.
It's an emergency,yes.
I'm right out front.
[ Doorbell Chimes ]
Hi.
Are you okay?
Cristina?
You kept me thinking all day.
You see, I haven't spoken
to anyone in months,
and, uh, I barely know you...
and I already
need to talk to you.
And...
there's something
the more I think about,
the less I understand.
Why the hell did you tell me
that you liked me?
Answer me, because I didn't
like you saying that at all.
You can't just walk up
to a woman you barely know
and tell her you like her.
You-You can't.
You can't do that.
You don't know
what she's going through.
Or what she's feeling.
I'm not married.
l--
Come here.
[ Sighs ]
It's okay.
[ Sniffles ]
I'm sorry.
No.
[ Sobs ]
Cristina, wait.
I have to tell you something.
Okay.
I have to tell you something.
Please, kiss me.
Wait. Cristina. l--
Cristina.
I have Michael's heart.
What--
I have Michael's heart.
You understand what I'm saying?
It was transplanted into me
at St. Francis Hospital
on October 11.
No. No.
I tried to tell you.
I just didn't know
how to tell you.
How dare you.
How dare you!
Cristina--
How fucking dare you!
I'm here for a reason.
Get out of my house!
Cristina--
Don't touch me!
Get out of my house now!
You make me sick!
I had a reason.
Can't you see that?
You get out of my fucking--
Get the fuck out of my house!
Okay.
You make me sick!
Get out!
[ Slams Door]
[ Sobbing ]
[ Groans ]
Good morning.
Why did you look for me?
Because I needed to.
I don't want your fucking pity.
That wasn't it.
I was sick, Cristina.
I was very sick.
I was dying when Michael
gave me his heart.
He saved my life.
I tried in every way that
I knew how to find out...
who had given me this heart.
And that's how I found out how
he and your daughters had died.
And it's very painful for me
to know how I got this heart.
And I couldn't sleep.
I just-- I wanted to thank you.
I wanted to help in some way.
I just want to
thank you for--
[ Sighs ]
But I couldn't find you.
And then I saw you...
that day.
And now I can't
be away from you.
I can't.
You don't have to be afraid.
I've got a good heart.
I'm scared too.
[ Marianne ]
Why did you leave us,Jack? Why?
I am where I have to be.
Gina got really sick because
of the hamster.Jack, we need you--
The past is like the Atlantic Ocean.
Back when I was mean,
about the decisions I make,
that's my mirror.
Just come back, please.
That's my mirror.
Jack, it doesn't matter.
And I have to live with them
alone. Alone.
Just come back to us,Jack.
And I can't erase it.
No one can erase it.
Your family needs you.
Jack--
[ Sobbing ]
We need to stabilize him before
we can get him to the hospital.
But right now what we really need
are units of B-positive blood.
l-I'm O-positive.
Will that work?
Okay, open and close your fist
several times.
[ Woman On Radio ]
Unit 35, go ahead.
Okay, pal,you're free to go
for lack of evidence.
Your story doesn't check out
and contradicts our investigation...
and the statements made by
Mrs. Peck and Mr. Rivers.
I just need you to sign here.
What if I really am guilty?
Yeah, well, it happens.
Won't be the first time,
won't be the last.
What are you doing?
You've been lost for too many days,
don't you think, you prick?
Mary, I don't want to fight.
I want this to end well.
Oh, you think ending well means
disappearing for a few days?
You just waited till you got better
to tell me to fuck off.
I'm going back to London.
We can't keep doing this.
Really?
I'll have surgery and I'll be
inseminated with your child,
with or without you.
Mary, what for? Why?
Because I want to.
Well, I won't authorize that.
No.
Oh, no?
Well, you already have.
I have a signed copy
of your authorization
to use your semen.
Would you excuse me?
I get what I want.
What do you gain? What do you gain?
You decide if you come
looking for me or not.
[ No Audible Dialogue ]
[ No Audible Dialogue ]
[ Michael's Voice ]
Hi, honey.
I'm on my way home.
If you need me to pick up anything
along the way, let me--
Girls, no! Don't touch!
Laura, stop, it.
Gimme a call on my cell.
[ Sobbing ]
I'll see you in a bit.
Bye.
[ Woman's Voice ]
To repeat the message, press one.
To delete, press two.
[ Beeps ]
[ Michael's Voice ]
Hi, honey.
I'm on my way home.
If you need me to pick up anything
along the way, let me--
Girls, no! Don't touch!
Laura, stop, it.
Gimme a call on my cell.
I'll see you in a bit. Bye.
[ Sobbing ]
[ Paul ]
I'm grilling some chicken.
You want anything to eat?
No. Thanks.
I can make you a sandwich if you--
No. No, no, no! No!
Cristina. Cristina.
Listen to me.
You don't need that shit.
You don't need it.
Don't tell me what I need.
Katie could have lived.
What?
She'd be alive right now,
but that bastard left her there...
lying in the street.
He left the three of them
like animals. He didn't care.
[ Sniffles ]
At least she could
be here with me.
That son of a bitch is walking
the streets, and I can't even
go into their room.
What do you mean
he's walking the street?
[ Sighs ]
I want to kill him.
You want to kill him?
I'm gonna killJackJordan.
I'm gonna kill that son of a bitch.
Slow down. Wait.
Just-Just slow down.
Slow down? Slow down
while I what? Huh?
While I what?
Take it easy.
Take it easy?
My husband and my little girls
are dead and I'm supposed to
take it fucking easy?
I can't just go on
with my life!
I am paralyzed here!
I am a fucking amputee,
do you see that?
Who are you?
You owe it to Michael--
No,you've got his heart.
You're in his house
fucking his wife
and sitting in his chair!
We have to kill him!
No, we--
Not like this. Not like this.
Then how?
Tell me how!
Katie died
with red shoelaces on.
She hated red shoelaces.
[ Sobbing ]
And she kept asking me
to get her some blue ones,
and I never got her
the blue ones.
She was wearing those fucking
red shoelaces when she was killed.
[ Sobbing Continues ]
Oh, God.
You shouldn't have done it!
Close your-- Close your goddamn eyes!
Oh.
You... murderer.
You just let them
lie there on the street.
Those two little girls,
you just let them die like dogs.
I should have killed you.
Now you disappear.
Don't even go back to the motel
and get your things.
Just disappear.
[ Wheezing ]
[ Coughing ]
[ Wheezing ]
Mrs. Peck.
How is he?
We weren't able to use
your blood for his transfusion.
We found very high levels
of illegal substances in your blood.
You're taking very high risks here.
Well, that's my problem.
In your state, I suggest
you stop using these substances.
What are you talking about?
You're pregnant, Mrs. Peck.
You sure?
You really need to start
taking care of yourself, Mrs. Peck.
We'll let you know when
Mr. Rivers is out of the O.R.
[ Sighs ]
Where were you?
Did you kill him?
Did you?
Why didn't you wake me up?
Where's the body?
Nobody will ever
find the body.
[ Coughs ]
I'm sorry.
We're gonna go home now.
[ Wheezes ]
Let's just get
out of here, okay? Yeah?
[ Coughs ]
You okay?
It's okay, baby.
Just lie down.
Need rest.
I need rest.
I know. I know.
I'm sorry.
[ Wheezes ]
I love you.
I love you.
Oh.
[ Doorknob Rattles ]
[ Wheezing ]
Wake up.
[ Coughs ]
[ Footsteps ]
Hmm? Hmm?
There's somebody outside.
[ Cristina ]
Oh, my God!
- Oh, my God!
- You want to kill me?
[ Cristina ]
What's he doing here?
Here I am.
- [ Wheezing ]
-Shoot me.
[ Cristina ]
Go ahead. Kill him. Paul.
Oh, my God!
Do something!
[ No Audible Dialogue ]
[ No Audible Dialogue ]
[ Gunshot ]
[ Panting ]
[ Cristina ]
Oh.
Oh, baby.
Oh, no.
No. No.
Oh, my God.
Baby. Baby. Baby.
Oh, my God. Oh.
Baby.
Oh, my God.
Baby. Baby. Baby. Baby.
Baby. Oh!
Oh, God!
Call an ambulance.
Call a fucking ambulance!
[ Wind Blowing ]
- [ Paul Narrating ]
How many lives do we live?
- [ No Audible Dialogue ]
How many times do we die?
They say we all lose 21 grams...
at the exact moment of our death.
Everyone.
And how much fits
into 21 grams?
How much is lost?
When do we lose 21 grams?
How much goes with them?
How much is gained?
How much is gained?
Twenty-one grams.
The weight
of a stack of five nickels.
The weight of a hummingbird.
A chocolate bar.
How much did 21 grams weigh?
One last kiss
One only
Then I'll let you go
Hard for you
I've fallen
But you can't break my fall
I'm broken
Don't break me
When I hit the ground
Some devil
Some angel
Has got me to the bones
You said always and forever
Now I believe you, baby
You said always and forever
Is such a long
and lonely time
Too drunk and still drinking
It's just the way I feel
It's all right
Is what you told me
'Cause what we had
was so beautiful
But I feel heavy
Like floating
At the bottom of the sea
You said always and forever
Now I believe you, baby
You said always and forever
Is such a long
and lonely time
Some devil is
stuck inside of me
I cannot set it free
I wish, I wish I was dead
And you were grieving
Just so that you could know
Some angel is
stuck inside of me
But I cannot set you free
You said always and forever
Now I believe you, baby
You said always and forever
Such a long, lonely time
Stuck inside of me