I WANT TO GO CAMPING
ONE DAY.
I'VE NEVER DONE IT BEFORE.
I WANT TO DO THAT.
WHOO HOO!
CAN YOU IMAGINE PLAYING
PAINTBALL UP HERE?
IT'D BE HARD.
IF YOU TRIPPED
AND FELL DOWN THIS HILL,
YOU'RE DONEZO.
OH, GOD... OH, GOD.
WHAT THE HELL?
DID THEY TAKE
WITH THE GROUP, GUYS?
COME ON, A.J.,
YOU CAN DO IT.
ALL RIGHT,
A.J.'S COMING.
YES, IT'S GONNA
TAKE ME A MINUTE.
THIS IS REALLY SHITTY
FOR MY KNEES.
BACKSTREET BOYS!
BACKSTREET BOYS!
BACKSTREET BOYS!
BACKSTREET BOYS!
BACKSTREET BOYS!
FROM 1999 TO ABOUT 2002,
WE WERE UNSTOPPABLE.
I MEAN, WE'RE THE BIGGES BAND IN THE WORLD.
WE DREAMED, BUT NOBODY
THOUGHT IT WAS GONNA BE
AS BIG AS IT WAS.
WE SOLD OVER 130 MILLION
ALBUMS WORLDWIDE.
THEN KINDA OUT OF NOWHERE,
IT JUST STOPPED.
ONCE RADIO AND MTV
AND THEY THINK THA YOU'RE OVER,
I MEAN, THEY'RE GONNA JUS SCRATCH YOU.
YOU CAN GET SO MUCH
CRITICISM BEING IN A BOY BAND.
THE BEGINNING WAS MANUFACTURED.
THERE'S NO DOUBT ABOUT IT.
BUT IT'S LIKE PINOCCHIO.
HE WAS MANUFACTURED.
BUT HE TURNED INTO
A REAL BOY.
THEY ARE THE BEST-SELLING
BOY BAND IN HISTORY,
CELEBRATING 20 YEARS
OF MUSIC-- THE BACKSTREET BOYS.
KEVIN IS COMING BACK!
WHAT DO YOU DO WHEN
YOU'RE A FULL-GROWN MAN
IN A BOY BAND?
I DON'T KNOW,
LET'S SEE.
COME ON!
THANK YOU.
DON'T GIVE UP!
DON'T GIVE UP!
THAT'S IT.
KEEP IT GOING.
HEY, HEY, HEY, HEY!
YEAH!
PASS IT, BRIAN.
WE NEED YOU, COME ON.
2006,
I QUIT THE GROUP.
I WANTED TO JUS BE A NORMAL GUY FOR A WHILE.
I DIDN'T FEEL INSPIRED
AS MUCH AS I USED TO.
I DIDN'T LOVE IT.
I DIDN'T HAVE THE PASSION
THAT I USED TO HAVE,
AND THEREFORE I LEFT.
OH!
I HAD THIS IDEA TO GO
TO LONDON JUST TO GET AWAY,
JUST THE FIVE OF US,
BRING EVERYBODY TOGETHER,
'CAUSE WE HADN'T SEEN
EACH OTHER IN FOREVER.
AND, YOU KNOW,
TO RECORD AN ALBUM.
NO FAMILIES, NO GIRLFRIENDS,
NO-- JUST US.
NEVER, EVER PLAYED,
AND NOT TOO BAD,
NOT TOO SHABBY.
HOWIE, TWINKLE TOES.
NOT BAD.
I LIKE GOLF WAY BETTER.
YEE!
- SEE, I REMEMBER THAT.
- HEY, DON'T GET USED TO ME
BRINGING YOU TEA.
OH, YOU'VE SEEN "DRIVE,"
RIGHT, THE MOVIE "DRIVE?"
UH-HUH.
- YEAH, BUDDY.
I'M SO HAPPY RIGHT NOW.
OH, MY GOD,
YOU'RE SO--
- NICOLE GOT IT, MADE FOR ME.
- THAT IS HILARIOUS.
HOW DOPE IS THIS SHIT?
COME ON, MAN,
YOU KNOW IT'S DOPE.
GOOD, GIVE ME A LINE.
GIVE ME A LINE.
HE DOESN'T SAY ANYTHING,
LIKE, THE ENTIRE MOVIE.
WELL,
GIVE ME THE LOOK.
YOU GOT TO PU THE JACKET ON.
OKAY, WAIT, WAIT, WAIT.
- MAN, DON'T--
- I CAN'T LOOK AT YOU.
YOU'RE NOT-- YOU'RE NOT GONNA BE
VERY GOOD AT ACTING
AT THIS POINT, OKAY, COOL.
I FEEL THAT.
THAT WAS THE LOOK?
YOU DON'T HAVE NO WORDS?
HE REALLY DIDN'T SAY SHI THE WHOLE MOVIE.
SO WE FINALLY GOT TO
THE TOP OF THE HILL.
TEN YEARS AGO,
EVERYTHING WAS SO FAST-PACED.
YOU DIDN'T HAVE TIME TO REST.
YOU DIDN'T HAVE TIME
TO THINK.
YOU DIDN'T HAVE TIME
TO EAT.
CRAZY KID.
EVERYBODY WAS SICK
OF EACH OTHER,
AND EVERYBODY WANTED TO DO
THEIR OWN THING.
WE'RE ALL OLDER NOW.
SO MUCH HAS HAPPENED.
WE'VE SEEN THE BES AND THE WORST OF EACH OTHER
FOR 20 YEARS.
MY WHOLE MANTRA COMING
INTO THIS
IS I JUST WANT TO BE PROUD
OF THE MUSIC THAT WE'RE MAKING,
AND THE SHOWS THAT WE'RE PUTTING
ON AND HAVE A BLAST.
ENJOY IT.
ONE, TWO, THREE--
WE DON'T HAVE A RECORD
DEAL. IT'S AWESOME.
IT'S LIKE
STARTING ALL OVER AGAIN,
HAVING THE FREEDOM TO CREATE
SOMETHING FROM SCRATCH.
THIS IS SOMETHING
THAT WE FELT LIKE
WE WANTED TO DO OURSELVES.
IT'S OUR MONEY.
SO THIS NEW CHAPTER THA WE'RE EMBARKING ON
IS, TO ME, EXCITING,
AT THE SAME TIME,
CRAZY AND SCARY.
IT'S A BIG YEAR FOR US,
KEVIN'S BACK.
WE HAVE AN ALBUM
THAT WE GOT TO RELEASE,
20TH ANNIVERSARY,
BRAND-NEW TOUR.
IT'S HUGE.
WE USED TO SHOW UP
AND THEY'D SAY,
"GO IN AND SING THIS,"
AND YOU'D GO IN
AND SING IT.
THE PRODUCER WOULD
MAKE IT SOUND MAGICAL,
AND THE RECORD EXECUTIVES
PICKED THE SINGLES
AND THERE WAS NO
DECISION MAKING.
WHEN WE WERE KIDS,
IT WAS DIFFERENT.
WE WERE TOLD WERE TO GO.
WE WERE TOLD WHAT TO DO.
WE WERE TOLD WHAT TO SAY.
AND NOW IT'S LIKE,
YOU KNOW WHAT?
I DO HAVE A VOICE.
I WANT TO THINK FOR MYSELF.
I WANT TO MAKE MUSIC
FOR ME.
YOU KNOW, I WANT TO MAKE MUSIC
FOR OUR FANS.
I WANT TO MAKE
EVERYBODY HAPPY.
I'VE BEEN IN THIS BAND
FOR MORE THAN HALF OF MY LIFE.
I AM THE FIRST, THE ORIGINAL
OLD SCHOOL BACKSTREET BOY.
I MET LOU PEARLMAN
IN 1992.
HE WAS PROBABLY ONE OF
THE WEALTHIEST MEN
IN ORLANDO AT THE TIME,
AN ENTREPRENEUR.
YOU KNOW HE WAS JUS AN ALL AROUND WEALTHY,
WEALTHY MAN.
YOU KNOW, LOU HAD SEEN
THE SUCCESS OF BOYZ II MEN,
JODECI,
NEW KIDS ON THE BLOCK,
AND I THINK ONCE THAT GO IN THE BACK OF HIS HEAD,
HE WAS LIKE,
"WELL, I CAN DO THIS."
I CAN PUT TOGETHER A GROUP--
FIVE PRETTY FACES
THAT CAN SING AND DANCE.
AND THAT'S EXACTLY
WHAT HE DID.
LOU WAS GIVING US
A $75 WEEK CHECK,
AND I STILL HAVE I IN MY MOM'S HOUSE FRAMED.
IT WAS THE FIRST CHECK
I EVER GOT.
IT WAS LIKE A PER DIEM,
AND 75 BUCKS FOR A 14-YEAR-OLD'S
A LOT OF MONEY.
I'D BEEN WORKING
ON A SOLO CAREER
SINCE I WAS 6 YEARS OLD.
IT WAS DEFINITELY BETTER THAN
WORKING AT UNIVERSAL STUDIOS
OR DISNEY'S BACK LOT, YOU KNOW,
OR McDONALDS, THAT'S FOR SURE.
I REALLY HAD THIS CHOICE
BETWEEN BEING A MOUSEKETEER,
$50,000 CONTRACT, OR DOING
THIS THING WITH LOU PEARLMAN
AND THE BACKSTREET BOYS.
MY MOTHER GAVE ME THE CHOICE.
I DON'T KNOW WHY
SHE LEFT THAT DECISION
UP TO AN 11-YEAR-OLD CHILD,
BUT IT JUST KIND OF HAPPENED.
I DIDN'T WANT TO GROW UP
AND BE A BACKSTREET BOY.
I TOLD MY MOM WHEN
I WAS A LITTLE BOY
THAT I WAS GONNA GROW UP
AND PLAY FOR THE UNIVERSITY
OF KENTUCKY BASKETBALL TEAM.
I WAS WORKING IN ORLANDO,
FLORIDA, WALT DISNEY WORLD.
I WAS A NINJA TURTLE,
ALADDIN, PLAYED GOOFY,
BUT DREAMED OF BEING
A RECORDING ARTIST.
SO THIS WAS A HUGE
OPPORTUNITY FOR ME...
A SHOT, A CHANCE.
LOU OWNED SOME WAREHOUSE
SPACES OUT HERE
- IN THIS INDUSTRIAL PARK--
- HE WAS LEASING THEM.
HE WAS LEASING THEM,
THAT'S RIGHT.
WHICH WE'RE GONNA TRY TO SEE
IF WE CAN MANAGE TO FIND.
UM, IT'S BEEN MANY
YEARS AGO.
- WE'RE GONNA TRY TO FIND THEM.
- ALMOST 20 YEARS AGO.
THIS ONE.
I THINK IT WAS ON
MICHIGAN, GUYS.
- NO, I THINK IT'S--
- I THINK IT'S THIS ONE.
ALL I KNOW IS I GOT LOS COMING HERE THE FIRST TIME.
I ALMOST DIDN'T GE IN THE GROUP BECAUSE OF THAT.
SO MAYBE DON'T ASK ME.
HI, GUYS.
I REMEMBER THIS AREA, THOUGH.
I REMEMBER THAT CHURCH.
IT IS DOWN ON THIS ROAD,
I'M TELLING YOU.
THEN WE TRUST HIS MEMORY
AND NONE OF THE OLD GUYS.
YEAH, THIS IS IT.
- HOLY CRAP.
- THIS IS IT.
IT IS.
WE'RE HERE NOW.
26/42
WE WERE BUSTING OUR FUCKING
ASS IN THIS WAREHOUSE HERE,
DAY IN AND DAY OU ALL DAY LONG.
IT WAS LIKE
A WOOD STAGE THAT WE PUT UP.
WE HAD A BUNCH OF MIRRORS.
IT WAS HOT AS HELL.
IT WAS A CONSTAN WORK IN PROGRESS.
WE HAD TO BE WORKED ON.
OH, OH, YEAH!
WE PUT IN SOME CRAZY
HOURS IN THE EARLY DAYS.
THE BACKSTREET HARMONY,
THE BLEND,
IT WAS ALWAYS
A WORK IN PROGRESS.
YOU KNOW,
IT WAS SOMETHING THA WE HAD TO, KIND OF, FIND.
I REMEMBER HOWIE
IN THE VERY BEGINNING.
HE WAS PRETTY MUCH
THE LEAD SINGER.
AND THEN BRIAN CAME IN.
HE HAD A GREAT VOICE.
WITHOUT HIM, YOU KNOW,
THE BLEND WOULDN'T BE THE SAME.
THE VOICES ARE FIVE.
THEY CREATE A CHEMISTRY,
A SOUND
THAT IS UNLIKE ANY OTHER.
YOU JUST KNEW IT,
LIKE THIS MAKES SENSE.
THIS WORKS.
OUR VOICES BLEND PERFECTLY.
I THINK
I'M GETTING STRONGER.
YOU KNOW,
I THINK I'M GETTING BETTER.
YOU KNOW, I THINK
YOU'VE HELPED ME A LO WHICH HAS BEEN GOOD.
YOU GET THIS JAW WORKING
A LITTLE BIT.
AND YOU LET YOUR JAW
HANG DOWN AND BACK.
THE BLESSING THA WE'RE GEARING UP FOR A TOUR,
AND, YOU KNOW,
THE BACKSTREET BOYS' WORLD
IS, YOU KNOW,
ABOUT TO EXPLODE AGAIN.
YOU KNOW, BUT YE IT'S STILL PRESSURE.
- YOU KNOW BECAUSE IT'S
THIS ANTICIPATION OF...
- RIGHT.
YOU KNOW,
BRIAN'S GOT TO BE BRIAN.
YOU KNOW, I WISH THERE
WAS A MAGIC WAND
THAT JUST COULD--
NOT WITH THESE MIND/BODY--
NOT WITH THESE
MIND/BODY CONNECTIONS
WHICH IS RIGHT WHERE, YOU KNOW,
RIGHT WHERE THE PROBLEM LIVES
IS RIGHT IN BETWEEN
THE NERVOUS SYSTEM
AND THE MIND.
JUST BREATHE.
LA LA LA...
UH-HUH. LET IT GO.
YOU KNOW MY VOICE IS,
YOU KNOW, IT'S MY LIFE.
YOU KNOW,
WE TAKE IT FOR GRANTED,
- BECAUSE IT'S JUS SOMETHING THAT'S GIVEN.
- RIGHT.
AND...
AND FOR ME IT'S, UM,
IT'S NOT A GIVEN RIGHT NOW.
IT COMES AND GOES.
IT'S HARD FOR ME TO TALK ABOU TO BE HONEST WITH YOU.
UM... I TRY TO...
I TRY REALLY HARD
TO BE OPTIMISTIC ABOUT IT,
UM, BUT I'M FACED
WITH IT EVERY DAY.
UM, THE DOCTOR
MENTIONED
VOCAL TENSION DYSPHONIA,
WHICH IS THE TIGHTENING
OF THE MUSCLES
AROUND THE VOCAL CHORDS
WHICH 'CAUSES THE VOCAL CHORDS
NOT TO WORK CORRECTLY.
IT'S FRUSTRATING.
IT'S VERY FRUSTRATING.
BECAUSE I WANT TO YOU KNOW,
I JUST WANT TO BE ME.
I WANT IT TO BE EASY.
AND I WANT TO HAVE
THE CAREFREE ATTITUDE,
YOU KNOW, THAT I HAD
YEARS AGO.
HERE WE ARE
WITH THE BACKSTREET BOYS.
- HOW OLD ARE YOU ANYWAY?
- I'M 16.
- AND HOW OLD ARE YOU?
- 19.
- AND?
- 20.
- 20.
- AND?
- 14.
- OOH!
LOU PULLED EVERY RESOURCE
HE COULD WITH THIS
AND PULLED AS MANY STRINGS
AS HE COULD
TO GET US TO BE AS BIG
AS WE COULD BE.
HE HAD ALL THESE THINGS
THAT A RICH BILLIONAIRE
ENTREPRENEUR SHOULD HAVE.
WE'RE A BUNCH OF YOUNG GUYS
THAT'S LIKE,
GOING INTO A FRICKIN',
LIKE DISNEY WORLD.
I MEAN, EVERY TIME WE ALL WOULD
HANG AT LOU'S HOUSE,
IT WAS A DIFFERENT ADVENTURE.
HE HAD THIS UNBELIEVABLE,
LIKE, ARCADE/MOVIE ROOM.
THAT HAD A COOL POOL TABLE,
ONE OF THOSE OLD-FASHIONED
COKE MACHINES.
IT WAS THE BEST DAMN TASTING
COKE YOU'VE EVER HAD LIFE
IN YOUR LIFE.
IT WAS SO GOOD,
IN THESE GLASS BOTTLES,
BUT IT WAS LIKE,
AN OLD-FASHIONED ONE.
AND THEN HE HAD THIS--
THE ORIGINAL DARTH VADER MASK.
AT THE END OF THE NIGHT,
WE'D PULL OUT ONE
OF LOU'S PORNS AND WE ALL
WATCHED THOSE EVERY SO OFTEN.
THE FIRST TIME I'D SEEN TWO
GIRLS EVEN KISSING EACH OTHER
WAS ON ONE
OF LOU'S VIDEOTAPES.
AND I WAS LIKE,
"WHAT IS THIS?"
I'M LIKE,
"MY EYES ARE GONNA BURN."
I CAN'T EVEN TELL MY MOM
ABOUT THIS.
HI, LOU.
- WOW! I'M ON CANDID CAMERA.
HELLO.
HI.
LOU WAS BIG PAPA.
HE WAS LIKE ANOTHER FATHER
TO A LOT OF US,
LIKE KEVIN, ESPECIALLY.
YOU KNOW, BECAUSE KEVIN
WAS THE ONLY ONE, AT THAT TIME,
THAT DIDN'T HAVE A FATHER.
HE ALLOWED ME TO QUI MY TWO JOBS AND PURSUE MY DREAM,
AND I'M VERY APPRECIATIVE
OF THAT.
WE ALL CLAIM TO KNOW
EVERYTHING ABOUT EACH OTHER,
BUT THERE'S STILL
SO MUCH LEFT UNSAID,
SO MUCH LEFT UNLEARNED
SO WHILE WE WERE IN LONDON
MAKING THE RECORD,
WE TALKED ABOUT DOING THESE
LITTLE HOMETOWN TRIPS
TO REALLY KIND OF GO BACK
TO OUR GRASS ROOTS
TO KIND OF SEE WHERE EVERYBODY
REALLY CAME FROM.
SEE THESE PLACES,
EXPERIENCE IT TOGETHER,
AND GET THAT BOND TIGHT AGAIN.
WE GONNA PARTY TONIGHT!
COME ON, Y'ALL SHOULD STAY!
THAT'S WHAT THEY SAY.
AND THEY'RE HAULING BUT IN THAT THING.
I'LL DO IT.
ALL RIGHT,
THIS IS WHERE I GREW UP.
MY FATHER
WAS THE MANAGER OF THIS CAMP,
AND WE LIVED ON
THE PROPERTY YEAR-ROUND.
I WOULD LOOK OU AT THIS GRASS RIGHT HERE
AND UP AT THOSE TREES
AND ENVISION A CROWD,
LIKE AN ARENA,
AND LIKE I WAS A ROCK STAR,
AND I'D HAVE A BROOM
IN MY HAND
AND PLAY AIR GUITAR AND JUS IMAGINE LIKE THE TREES
AND THE GRASS IS LIKE--
YEA-EA-EA-EA-H, OOH!
I LIVED HERE UNTIL
I LEFT FOR FLORIDA IN 1990.
WE LIVED IN THIS HOUSE
RIGHT OVER HERE.
THIS IS LIKE WHERE MY DAD,
YOU KNOW,
KIND OF SPENT HIS FINAL DAYS.
WHEN I WAS LIVING IN FLORIDA,
MY FATHER HAD HAD A--
WAS DIAGNOSED WITH CANCER,
BUT THEY DIDN'T TELL ME
AND THEY SAID
HE JUST HAD A LITTLE SURGERY,
SOMETHING WAS UP
WITH HIS STOMACH.
THEY DIDN'T WANT TO WORRY ME.
A COUPLE OF MONTHS AFTER THA MY MOM CALLED ME
AND SAID THAT, "YOU KNOW
THAT THING THAT WE TOLD YOU
YOUR DAD HAD A LITTLE PROBLEM
WITH HIS STOMACH?
WELL, WE DIDN'T WAN TO WORRY YOU,
WE DIDN'T, YOU KNOW,
WANT YOU TO WORRY,
BUT IT WAS CANCER,
AND IT'S COME BACK
AND IT'S NOT DOING VERY--"
I KNOW WHAT YOU
WENT THROUGH, BRO.
SO I CAME BACK HOME
AND MY FATHER HAD BEEN
IN THAT BED FOR,
I DON'T KNOW HOW MANY WEEKS,
AND I PULLED UP...
PULLED UP IN MY CAR
AND HE HADN'T BEEN
OUT OF BED IN WEEKS,
AND HE DIDN'T WANT ME
TO KNOW HOW BAD HE WAS DOING
SO HE MET ME
AT THE FRONT DOOR.
YEAH, SO ANYWAY,
THAT'S JUST MY DAD,
YOU KNOW, HE DIDN'T WAN ANYBODY TO WORRY ABOUT HIM.
HE WANTED ME TO GO BACK
TO FLORIDA
AND DO WHAT I WAS DOING.
HE DIDN'T WANT ME TO STAY
UP HERE TO WATCH HIM DIE.
UH... SO ANYWAY,
I SPENT SOME TIME WITH HIM
WENT BACK HOME, GOT MY STUFF,
MOVED BACK UP HERE
AND SHORTLY AFTER
HE PASSED AWAY,
BUT MY FATHER'S
ALL OVER THIS PLACE.
UH, GREAT MEMORIES
LIVING HERE.
COME ON DOWN THIS WAY.
I USED TO COME IN HERE
AND SING.
WE DIDN'T HAVE A TON
OF DRAMA IN OUR HOUSEHOLD.
MOM AND DAD, THEY SUPPORTED US
IN EVERYTHING THAT WE DID.
SO NOT A WHOLE LO OF TURMOIL IN THE HOME,
JUST A LOT OF LOVE.
THIS IS PRETTY ISOLATED,
RIGHT?
SO IT WAS ME AND MY TWO
BROTHERS.
IN THE WINTER, IT CAN GE A LITTLE DARK AND GRAY UP HERE
AND GET A LITTLE DEPRESSED,
BUT MUSIC, YOU KNOW,
I WOULD HOLE MYSELF
UP IN THE HOUSE,
AND IT'S SO COLD
YOU CAN'T GO OU AND PLAY MUSIC AND THA WAS MY WINDOW TO THE WORLD,
AND I COULDN'T WAIT TO LEAVE
THIS PLACE.
I WAS LIKE,
GOD, I WANT TO GET OUT OF HERE
AND TRAVEL AND SEE
WHAT'S OUT THERE
AND EXPERIENCE OTHER PLACES
AND NOW THAT I'VE DONE THAT,
AND I COME BACK HERE,
AND I SEE HOW BEAUTIFUL IT IS
AND I REALIZE WHA A SPECIAL PLACE
AND WHAT A SPECIAL,
UNIQUE SITUATION IT WAS FOR ME
TO GROW UP IN
A PLACE LIKE THIS.
A LOT OF IT REALLY
CAME INTO PLACE
WHEN LOU BROUGH IN JOHNNY WRIGHT.
AND JOHNNY WRIGH WAS A ROAD MANAGER
FOR THE NEW KIDS ON THE BLOCK.
SO HERE'S SOMEBODY
THAT HAS EXPERIENCE.
AND SAID,
"I GOT THIS THING
THAT I WANT YOU GUYS
TO GO OUT ON--
ESM HIGH SCHOOL TOURS."
HIGH SCHOOLS AND MIDDLE SCHOOLS
ALL ACROSS AMERICA.
WE HOPPED ON A WINNEBAGO
WITH NOBODY KNOWING
WHO THE EFF WE WERE.
I DON'T KNOW IF IT MAKES SENSE
BUT WE'RE GONNA GO OUT THERE
AND GIVE IT A BIG SHOT.
WE WEN ALL OVER THE COUNTRY--
ARIZONA, PENNSYLVANIA,
TEXAS, NEBRASKA.
I'LL NEVER FORGE WE DID A SHOW IN A SCHOOL
THAT WAS 75% BLACK,
20% HISPANIC, 5% WHITE.
IT WAS LIKE A REAL
INNER CITY HIGH SCHOOL.
HERE WE COME,
A BUNCH OF CORN FED, LIKE,
MIDDLE AMERICA,
STRAIGHT OFF THE FARM BOYS.
AND OUR DAMN P.A. WENT OUT.
MUSIC IS LIKE...
WE HAD NO MUSIC
AND IT GOT OUT OF HAND.
I'LL NEVER FORGE THERE WAS A GROUP OF GUYS
IN THE FAR BACK.
THEY STARTED BOOING US.
"GET OFF THE STAGE,
WHITE BOYS."
YOU KNOW,
THROWING STUFF AT US.
BOO!
UH, NEW KIDS, WANNABES,
NEW KID WANNABES.
AND WE'RE UP THERE
ON STAGE, LIKE,
NOW WHAT THE FUCK
DO WE DO?
AND BRIAN WAS LIKE,
"ALL RIGHT, EVERYONE SHUT UP!
SHUT UP, SHUT UP!
AND LET US JUST DO
WHAT WE CAME TO DO,
THAT'S SING FOR YOU."
I TURNED AROUND,
LOOK AT THE GUYS,
AND THEY WERE GIVING ME THA LOOK LIKE DEER IN HEADLIGHTS.
LIKE, HOLY-- BOOP!
WE DID EVERY A CAPPELA RENDITION
OF EVERY SONG THAT WE KNEW.
THOSE GUYS SHUT UP.
THE GIRLS WERE KIND
OF GOING CRAZY,
WHICH WAS KIND OF COOL,
I THOUGHT.
I WAS LIKE, "WOW,
THIS IS KIND OF INTERESTING."
AND EVEN A BUNCH OF GUYS
WERE LIKE--
"YO, MAN THA WAS A GREAT JOB, MAN.
LOU, MUCH RESPECT."
AND I WAS LIKE,
"WOW!"
YOU KNOW,
WE DID OUR JOB.
WE ARE A VOCAL HARMONY
GROUP.
WE CAN SING WITHOUT MUSIC
AT THE DROP OF A HAT.
WE'RE THE HARLEM GLOBETROTTERS.
HEY, WHERE'S-- DO WE HAVE ANY
PUBLICITY PICTURES?
- YEAH.
- GO GET SOME.
I WANT YOU TO
GO SING SOMETHING.
WHAT ARE
YOU GONNA SING?
DON'T ASK ME.
FIVE, SIX, TWELVE,
ELEVEN,
WHAT YOU LOOKING AT?
BACKSTREET BOYS--
I ATE A MUFFIN
AND I GOT HEARTBURN.
IT WAS AN UNSPOKEN BOND
THAT WAS CREATED
BECAUSE OF LOU.
YOU KNOW, NICK AND BRIAN,
BACK IN THE DAY WERE
INSEPARABLE.
I MEAN, THEY WERE LIKE
THE BOPSY TWINS
WHEN IT CAME TO, LIKE,
HARMONY AND JUST BEING CLOWNS
AND PRANKSTERS.
I FELT LIKE NICK
WAS THE LITTLE BROTHER
THAT, YOU KNOW,
I NEVER HAD.
WE'D ALWAYS BE ON
THE BASKETBALL FLOOR.
WE'D ALWAYS LOSE
'CAUSE WE WERE SHORT,
BUT YOU'D ALWAYS FIND
ME AND NICK
ON THE BASKETBALL COURT,
THAT'S JUST WHERE WE WERE.
21 TO 13,
THAT'S A BIG GAP THERE.
YOU KNOW,
I WAS ALWAYS THE LITTLE BROTHER
IN MY FAMILY,
AND NOW I HAD FOUR.
IT WAS LIKE A CONTINUOUS
SUMMER CAMP.
IT WAS JUST FUN.
IT REALLY WAS FUN.
MAKE SOME NOISE
FOR THE BACKSTREET BO-O-O-YS!
WE THOUGH WE WERE SUPERSTARS.
YOU KNOW, THERE WERE PEOPLE
AT OUR SHOWS?
WELL, THEY WEREN'T EVEN
PAID SHOWS,
THEY WERE JUST FREE SHOWS.
BUT, AGAIN, WE THOUGHT--
WE THOUGHT WE WERE STARS.
LET'S GO.
YO, LET'S GO.
LET'S GO.
THEY'RE WAITING.
WE'LL CATCH UP.
LET'S GO.
WELCOME TO TATE'S CREEK!
- KEEP IT DOWN, HOWIE.
- OKAY, SORRY.
WELCOME TO KENTUCKY.
WHEN I WAS DOING WRESTLING,
WE'D HAVE PRACTICE RIGHT HERE.
MY TEAMMATE
HE WAS ON MY BACK,
WE HAD TO RUN THESE HILLS HERE,
AND IT SUCKED, MAN.
YOU'D GET SICK
AND YOU'D VOMIT.
YOU'D BE LIKE...
HOW DO YOU RUN DOWN THE HILL
WITH SOMEBODY ON YOUR BACK
AS STEEP AS IT IS
WITHOUT FALLING FORWARD?
YOU HAVE TO SIT--
YOU HAVE TO SIT--
I COULD SEE GOING THIS WAY,
BUT THAT WAY?
- LET'S TRY.
OH, DEAR, GOD.
NOT WITH YOU.
HE ALREADY BLEW IT OUT ONCE.
I'D LIKE TO SEE THA RIGHT NOW.
A.J., DUDE, YOU'RE GONNA
BLOW YOUR KNEES OUT.
YEE-HA!
NOW WAIT... AND NOW I'M GONNA
TURN AROUND GO BACK UP.
- MY UNDERWEAR.
- COME ON!
- AND THE BEST PART--
WHAT DO YOU REMEMBER
ABOUT PERFORMING HERE, THOUGH?
'CAUSE IT-- REMEMBER
OUR SUITS?
I REMEMBER
YOU HAD A BURGUNDY SUIT,
GREEN SUIT, BLACK SUIT,
GOLD SUIT, PURPLE SUIT.
AND I HAD A HORRIBLE
CAESAR HAIRCUT.
YEP, YOU DID.
- Brian: AND CURLS.
- YOU DID.
- IT WAS BAD, DUDE.
WE HAD A LO OF GOOD MEMORIES HERE.
IT WAS FUN.
I SAY,
THAT'S REALLY NICE.
OH, OKAY. GOOD SHIRT.
HOW MUCH ARE THEY?
- $7
$7. ALL RIGHT.
HOW YOU DOING, SIR?
- I'M GOOD.
- IT'S GOOD TO SEE YOU.
- YOU DOIN' ALL RIGHT?
- I'M GOOD, I'M GOOD.
COME... ALL THIS WAS OUTSIDE.
OH, OKAY.
IT WAS SEVENTH GRADE--
THIS WAS THE FIRST DAY,
I REMEMBER, THAT YOU AND ME
GOT A CHANCE TO MEET.
IT WAS DAY ONE.
HE HITS A NOTE ON THE PIANO.
HE JUST TELLS EVERYBODY
TO START SINGING SO WE DO THAT,
AND THEN HE SAID, "OKAY,
I WANT Y'ALL TO STOP SINGING.
AND HE JUST KEP WHITTLING THROUGH EVERYBODY
UNTIL HE GOT TO MYSELF AND THREE
OR FOUR OTHER YOUNG LADIES,
'CAUSE I WAS SITTING
IN THE SOPRANO OR ALTO--
- ALTO SECTION.
- ALTO SECTION.
SO I WAS--
ME, ME, ME, ME.
AND HE SAYS, "OKAY, LADIES,
I WANT YOU ALL TO BE QUIET."
AND THEN HE SAID,
"YOU, SIR, YOU KNOW, GO!"
AND I SANG IT,
AND I WAS A NERVOUS WRECK,
AND HE LOOKS UP AT ME
AND HE SAID,
"YOU CAN MAKE A LOT OF MONEY
WITH THAT GIFT THAT YOU HAVE."
LIKE EMBRACE IT,
YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN?
'CAUSE YOU DON'T--
AS KIDS YOU DON'T KNOW--
YOU DON'T KNOW THE TALENTS
THAT YOU HAVE
OR HOW YOU CAN TOUCH
PEOPLE'S LIVES
IF YOU DON'T HAVE
INSTRUMENTAL PEOPLE
THAT HELP SHAPE YOUR VISION
OF WHAT YOU WANT FOR YOUR LIFE,
AND YOU DID THA AND IN THAT ONE STATEMENT,
AND IT'S BEEN WITH ME
FOR OVER 20 YEARS NOW,
TO BE WHERE I'M AT,
AND I APPRECIATE YOU.
IS THAT RIGHT?
IT WAS JUST A CLEAR,
VERY PURE HEAVENLY SOUND
THAT YOU DON'T HEAR THAT OFTEN
COMING OUT OF A YOUNGSTER,
BUT I KNEW HIS VOICE
WAS GONNA CHANGE,
AND I HAD TO BE EXTREMELY
CAREFUL ABOUT THE DIRECTION
THAT I WAS GONNA TAKE HIM IN,
SO IT WOULDN'T RUIN HIM
'CAUSE YOU CAN ACTUALLY
DESTROY THAT,
YOU KNOW, THAT SOUND.
SOMETIMES IT COMES OUT...
AND SOMETIMES IT DOESN'T.
OUCH!
YOU DRAWERS JUST WENT DOWN.
I CAN'T THROW THA THAT FLAT BALL FAR!
WHY NOT?
YEAH, YOU CAN.
- OH, DEAR GOD.
- OH, THAT'S FOR--
YOU GOTTA GO, DUDE!
HERE YOU GO, READY?
REPEAT.
WELL, THAT WAS FUN.
OW.
IT IS VERY IMPORTAN YOU GUYS WORK THE STAGE,
CONNECTING WITH
THE AUDIENCE,
BECAUSE I THINK IT'S IMPORTAN FOR YOUR 20TH ANNIVERSARY
TOUR RIGHT?
I'M JUST SAYING,
COMMEND YOURSELVES
'CAUSE WE'RE WORKING HARD.
I MEAN, WE FUCKING DID THA ROUTINE ALMOST 15 TIMES.
YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN?
WE'RE WORKING IT.
WE'LL KEEP DOING IT.
YOU GOT TO REMEMBER
WHEN YOU GET OUT...
NICK FARTED,
LADIES AND GENTLEMEN.
IT WAS HIM. IT WAS HIM.
HE DID IT!
THANKS, BRO.
GOD ALMIGHTY.
BRING THE SHOTGUN!
- YOU SEE YOU DON'T--
- YOU'RE ON THE OTHER NOTE.
THIS IS RICKY.
LISTEN TO THIS.
LISTEN TO THIS,
HOLD UP A SECOND,
DO IT AGAIN.
NICK, DON'T, DON'T,
YOU'RE NOT HELPING.
YOU'RE MAKING IT WORSE.
THE MUSIC WE WERE MAKING
IN ORLANDO WAS SUB-PAR.
IT WAS NOT GOOD.
SO 1995 WE FINALLY GO A RECORD DEAL
WITH JIVE RECORDS.
THE VERY FIRST PRODUCERS
THEY SET US UP TO WORK WITH
WERE DENNIZ POP
AND MAX MARTIN.
THEY HAD A LO OF SUCCESS IN EUROPE.
THEY PRODUCED AND WROTE
MOST OF THE ACE OF BASE ALBUM,
AND I HAD THAT PUMPING
IN MY CAR EVERY DAY.
IT WAS OUR FIRST TIME
OUT OF THE COUNTRY EVER.
I WAS ALMOST 18.
SO MY MOM WASN'T WITH ME.
I MEAN, IT WAS JUS THE COOLEST THING.
YOU WALK INTO THE STUDIO
AND YOU LOOK AT THE WALL
AND YOU SEE PLATINUM RECORDS
WITH ACE OF BASE,
AND ROBIN, ABBA
AND ALL THIS STUFF,
AND YOU'RE LIKE,
"OH, SHIT.
THIS IS LIKE THE REAL THING."
LOU ALWAYS TALKED ABOUT IT.
JOHNNY TALKED ABOUT IT.
NEVER DID I THINK
THIS WAS GONNA HAPPEN,
AND THEN IT FUCKING HAPPENED.
HERE WE ARE.
WE'RE IN STOCKHOLM, SWEDEN.
WE'RE ACTUALLY, LIKE--
WE'RE MAKING A RECORD.
FROM THE STUDIO
EXPERIENCES IN FLORIDA,
IT WAS COMPLETELY DIFFERENT.
BECAUSE MAX AND DENNIZ
HAD THIS SOUND
WHERE IT WAS LIKE,
A EH EH SOUND.
JUST THIS LIKE
EH... EH EH.
HIS DRUMS AND HIS BASELINE,
I MEAN,
THAT SHIT WAS FUNKY.
ALMOST OLD SCHOOL LIKE
PARLIAMENT FUNK TYPE SOUND.
I DUG IT.
I WAS EXCITED.
IT HAD EDGE.
IT HAD BALLS, YOU KNOW.
I WAS LIKE,
"JUST PUT ME ON A SONG.
I JUST WANT TO SING ON SOMETHING
AND I'LL DANCE TO IT."
THAT WAS MY TAKE
ON THINGS.
HE HAD A SOUND
THAT WAS DEFINITELY,
UM, I CAN BE HONEST, NOT EXACTLY
THE HOWIE D SOUND ANYMORE.
NOTHING LIKE ANYTHING
WE HAD EVER DONE BEFORE.
RELEASED
"WE GOT IT GOIN' ON"
IN THE U.S.
I THINK IT PEAKED AT LIKE,
I DON'T KNOW, 60-SOMETHING,
BUT IT DIDN'T REALLY
MAKE A DENT.
AHHH!
ALL RIGHT, GIVE IT UP
FOR THE BACKSTREET BOYS.
FIVE YOUNG FLY
F-TO-THE-L-TO-THE-Y GUYS.
THEY'RE FROM FLORIDA.
CHECK 'EM OUT.
YOU GUYS
ARE DEFINITELY DESTINED
FOR SOME BIG-TIME STARDOM.
THANKS A LOT.
AT THAT TIME,
RADIO WAS PLAYING NIRVANA
AND SNOOP DOGG, AND DRE.
SO THERE WAS NO ROOM
FOR BOYS LIKE US.
JOHNNY WRIGHT SAID,
"I THINK YOU GUYS
SHOULD GO TO EUROPE.
THERE'S THIS BOY BAND KIND
OF MOVEMEN THAT'S GOING OVER THERE."
WE SHOW UP IN USA HOCKEY
JERSEYS LIKE,
"WE'RE FROM AMERICA.
WE CAN SAVE YOU."
AND IT'S LIKE
THIS HUGE ARENA.
THAT'S... PACKED.
OUR TAKE WAS THESE BANDS
ARE ALL LIP SYNCHING.
EVERYONE IS LIP SYNCHING.
LET'S GO ON STAGE,
SING FOR REAL,
LET'S SHOW THEM SOMETHING
THEY'VE NEVER SEEN BEFORE.
WE HIT THAT STAGE
AND THEY WENT NUTS.
WE WERE LIKE,
"OH, YEAH, HERE WE GO, BOYS."
PUT YOUR HANDS UP
AND SING!
IT WAS JUST A FULL-ON
HEAD SPIN.
IT JUST BECAME LIKE
THIS WHIRLWIND.
WE WOULD GET ON A PLANE
GO TO A COUNTRY,
DO A PERFORMANCE, THAT SAME DAY
HOP ON A PLANE,
GO BACK TO ANOTHER COUNTRY
DO A PERFORMANCE THERE,
GET MAYBE LIKE FOUR HOURS
OF SLEEP,
WAKE UP THE NEXT MORNING,
DO A MORNING SHOW.
THAT WAS THE SCHEDULE
FOR YEARS.
WE'RE NOW IN HAMBURG.
THIS IS MUNICH BY NIGHT.
BERLIN BY NIGHT.
THE FIRST THREE YEARS
WE WERE THERE SO MUCH
THAT AFTER A WHILE, WE ENDED UP
HAVING GERMAN GIRLFRIENDS.
THAT MEANS
"IT'S SO GOOD TO SEE YOU."
HOWIE B.
THAT'S ME, THAT'S ME.
IF WE WANTED TO COMMUNICATE
THE INTERNATIONAL
LANGUAGE OF LOVE,
WE HAD TO LEARN SOME WORDS
REALLY FAST.
THAT'S "WILL YOU GIVE ME
A BLOW-JOB?"
WE COULD NOT GO ANYWHERE,
COULD NOT GO OU BY YOURSELF.
POLICE ESCORTS EVERYWHERE,
EVEN IF YOU JUS WANT TO GO OUT TO DINNER.
YES, CAN WE HAVE
A TABLE FOR 400, PLEASE?
I MEAN, IT WAS--
IT WAS CHAOS.
OH NO, SHE'S ON TOP
OF THE ROOF.
NO, NO!
MY CAR!
OH, MY GOD!
UH, I GUESS WE'RE TAKING
HER WITH US TO MUNICH.
UH, FIVE HOUR DRIVE.
DON'T DO THAT, MAN.
HEY, THIS IS GONNA
HAPPEN IN THE STATES, TOO.
IN EUROPE, WE SOLD 14 MILLION
ALBUMS OFF OF OUR FIRST CD,
AND IT NEVER CAME OU IN AMERICA.
YOU KNOW, YOU'RE TELLING
YOUR FRIENDS AND FAMILY
"YEAH, WE'RE HUGE IN EUROPE."
REALLY?
I MEAN, I'VE BEEN IN THIS
BUSINESS FOR OVER 30 YEARS.
I GREW UP DOING MODELING
AND ACTING AND STUFF.
I JUST WANTED TO PERFORM
ON STAGE FOR PEOPLE,
ANY WAY I COULD.
THIS HAS BEEN A LIFELONG DREAM,
AND HERE I AM
STILL MAKING MUSIC
WITH THE BACKSTREET BOYS.
YOU KNOW,
EVERYTHING STARTS SOMEWHERE.
I WOULD SAY EVERYTHING FOR ME
STARTED RIGHT HERE.
- HEY!
- OH, HOW ARE YA?
I'M GOOD.
HOW ARE YOU?
I'M GOOD.
MY VERY FIRST ACTING JOB
WHEN I WAS STILL GOING HERE
WAS AT LITTLE PALM.
I DID SNOW WHITE,
BUT THEY PICKED ME TO BE DOPEY,
BECAUSE I HAD TWO
SPEECH IMPEDIMENTS
AND DOPEY'S-- AND DOPEY
WAS AN ACTUAL MUTE.
SO I JUST HAD TO LEARN
LIKE LITTLE LIKE RAIN AND COLD,
BUT I COULDN'T TALK,
'CAUSE I HAD A STUTTER
AND I HAD A STUPID LISP,
BUT, YOU KNOW,
I FINALLY GOT RID OF IT.
I STILL HAVE THE STUTTER
EVERY SO OFTEN.
- WHEN YOU GET NERVOUS?
- NERVOUS OR IF I'M TELLING
A LIE, USUALLY.
OH, YEAH.
BOTH OF YOU.
- MWAH.
- I LOVE YOU.
THESE ARE MY TWO OTHER MOTHERS,
LITERALLY, LITERALLY,
GROWING UP, I MEAN,
YEAH.
YOU STILL REMEMBER
YOUR MONOLOGUES?
- I STILL REMEMBER--
DO ONE FOR US, A.J.
WITH THE ACCENT? OKAY.
"MANY MOONS
AGO IN A FAR OFF PLACE,
LIVED A HANDSOME PRINCE
WITH A GLOOMY FACE,
WE DID NOT HAVE A BRIDE.
OH, HE SIGHED, ALAS,
AND HE PINED, ALAS,
BUT ALAS, THE PRINCE
COULDN'T FIND A LASS
WHO WOULD SUI HIS MOTHER'S PRIDE.
FOR A PRINCESS
IS A DELICATE THING,
DELICATE AND DAINTY
AS A DRAGON FLY'S WING.
YOU CAN RECOGNIZE A LADY
BY HER ELEGANT AIR
BUT A GENUINE PRINCESS
IS EXCEEDINGLY RARE."
BRAVO, BRAVO!
BRAVO!
I LOOK VERY MUCH FORWARD
TO WORKING WITH YOU
IN THE NEAR FUTURE.
THANK YOU.
I SWEAR, HE IS-- YOU'VE USED
THAT TO HIT ON GIRLS.
YES! I WAS JUST GONNA SAY
YOU DON'T KNOW HOW MANY GIRLS...
YOUR WHOLE LIFE!
HOW MANY GIRLS
I'VE USED THAT WITH
I WOULD LITERALLY HANG OU WITH A BUNCH OF GIRLS
AND I'D BE LIKE,
"HEY, DO YOU GUYS
WANT TO SEE SOMETHING?"
AND I WOULD STAND UP
ON THE BED OR ON A CHAIR,
NO WONDER YOU REMEMBER
IT SO GOOD.
YOU'RE BUSTED.
I'M LIKE, NO,
I WAS GONNA CALL MYSELF OUT.
THE DAINTY THING.
I TOTALLY REMEMBERED THAT NOW.
IT'S NEVER GONNA GO
ANYWHERE.
HE STILL SAYS I TO THIS DAY.
HOW DO YOU THINK
I GOT MY WIFE?
BY '97,
"WE GOT IT GOING ON,"
"QUIT PLAYING GAMES"
ALL BECAME HUGELY SUCCESSFUL
IN CANADA.
AND THEN ALL OF A SUDDEN,
IT JUST KIND OF RAINED
BACKSTREET BOYS ON THE U.S.
FANS CALL IN,
"PLAY BACKSTREET BOYS,
PLAY BACKSTREET BOYS."
IT WENT FROM LIKE ZERO
TO 60,
I WOULDN'T SAY OVERNIGHT,
BUT DAMN NEAR CLOSE.
WE WERE COMING OU OF THE GULF WAR,
AMERICA KIND OF
NEEDED SOMETHING
THAT WAS A LITTLE
BIT MORE UPLIFTING.
I THINK PEOPLE JUS WANTED TO FEEL GOOD AGAIN.
AMERICA, AT THAT TIME,
WAS OPEN TO THE IDEA
OF FRESH-FACED YOUNG BOYS
WHO COULD DANCE AND SING.
THEY WERE OKAY
WITH TURNING THE RADIO ON
AND JUST LISTENING TO I WITHOUT A CARE.
THAT VIDEO, WE LOOKED
LIKE A BUNCH OF BEEFCAKES.
WE WERE WET AND HAD OUR SHIRTS
OPEN AND EVERYTHING.
I'M LIKE, "I DON'T KNOW--
NOT I DON'T KNOW.
I KNOW THAT'S NOT THE FIRS IMPRESSION I WANT TO MAKE
IN THE U.S.
BUT IT WORKED OUT.
SOME OF US BOUGH THEIR FIRST HOUSES,
SOME OF US CHANGED CARS
FROM HONDA CIVICS TO MERCEDES.
YOU BECAME A ROCK STAR.
YOU WERE LIVING THA ROCK STAR LIFESTYLE, YOU KNOW.
I'M STILL A TEENAGER 18, 19,
LIKE LIVING THE DREAM, DUDE.
I'M HAVING A FUCKING BLAST!
DON'T BLOCK THE DOOR,
PLEASE.
I WAS GONNA MAKE ME
A CUP OF COFFEE.
WHAT IF YOU-- WHAT IF YOU
DID THAT AS A TAG,
LIKE AFTER THE CHORUS?
THAT'S COOL.
PUT THAT DOWN
'CAUSE THAT'S--
THAT'S A BETTER SECOND LINE,
I THINK.
IT NEEDS TO BE, UH,
HEART WRENCHING,
OR IT NEEDS TO BE DARK.
OR IT NEEDS TO BE--
I DON'T KNOW.
BUT THEN THAT CONTRADICTS
IF I'M IN THE SPOTLIGH AND THEN YOU'RE WAITING
IN DARKNESS, NO?
NO, BECAUSE THE DARKNESS
ISN'T NECESSARILY THE LIGHT.
THE DARKNESS
IS THE EMOTION.
WAITING IN DARKNESS,
I STOOD WITH SADNESS.
THAT'S HOW-- THAT'S
HOW I TAKE IT.
YOU KNOW WHAT?
I LIKE THE--
LIKE SING IT MORE LIKE
OFF THE FUCKIN' BEAT.
- YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN?
- THAT'S A GOOD IDEA.
- SOMETHING LIKE THAT, YEAH.
- UH.
BUT I MEAN, WE'RE NAIVE
TO THINK WE COULD COME HERE
IN THREE WEEKS
AND CUT AN ALBUM.
YEAH, I KNOW.
I FELT LIKE
WE WE WERE GOING IN CIRCLES.
WE WERE OPTIMISTIC--
- I DON'T THINK WE WERE NAIVE.
I NEVER IN A MILLION YEARS
THOUGHT THAT WAS--
- YOU'RE OPTIMISTIC.
- DON'T GET ME WRONG,
GUYS, WE'RE ONE WEEK IN
AND HOW MANY SONGS DO WE HAVE?
FIVE ALMOST.
- THAT'S WHAT I'M SAYING.
- IT'S NOT BAD.
- LET'S--
- NO, I KNOW--
IT'S A SHOT.
LET'S JUST KEEP--
I THINK WE'RE GETTING
THE CART BEFORE THE HORSE HERE.
ALL RIGHT, LET'S JOIN HANDS.
WE'RE GONNA HAVE A BLESSING.
COME ON.
THAT'S GOOD.
REALLY, FOR REAL.
COME ON.
GOOD TO BLESS THE FOOD.
OH, DEAR LORD,
THANK YOU FOR THIS DAY.
THANK YOU FOR THE BLESSINGS
THAT YOU BLESSED US WITH.
THANK YOU FOR THIS CIRCLE.
WE ASK THAT YOU BLESS
THIS FOOD
TO THE NOURISHMEN OF OUR BODIES
AND BLESS THIS RECORD,
HALLELUJAH.
IN CHRIST'S NAME WE PRAY.
AMEN.
- AMEN.
- AMEN.
LET'S TOAST.
HERE'S TO ANOTHER 20.
YEP.
AND THIS IS OURS.
- HOWARD.
WHEN THE GROUP
FIRST STARTED,
I WAS DOING A LOT MORE
OF THE LEADS.
AND LITTLE BY LITTLE,
WHEN WE GOT WITH MAX MARTIN,
OUR SOUND CHANGED,
SO THROUGHOUT THE YEARS
I REALLY HAD A HARD TIME,
I STRUGGLED WITH THAT.
I RESENTED THE SITUATION.
I ALWAYS FEEL LIKE
WHY AM I ALWAYS HAVING
TO BE PUSHED
IN THE BACKGROUND?
I WANTED TO HAVE MY VOICE
HEARD JUST LIKE EVERYBODY ELSE.
PERFECT.
I GOT A LITTLE TWO
IN MY HEAR ON THAT ONE PART THERE.
WITH THE NEW RECORD
AND THE NEW DYNAMIC
I TOLD THEM, I SAID,
YOU KNOW WHAT?
IN ORDER FOR ME TO FEEL
COMFORTABLE
BEING A PART OF THIS,
I REALLY NEED TO BE ABLE
TO NOT BE IN THE BACK.
I NEED TO BE UP IN THE FRON WITH YOU GUYS.
YOU JUST GOTTA IT TWICE
AND YOU'RE DONE.
YOU'RE BUTTER.
THAT'S HOW YOU DO.
THAT'S HOWIE D.
AT LEAST MY TOES LOOK SOMEWHA PRESENTABLE TODAY.
NORMALLY, THEY'RE TOO LONG.
I COULD FUCKING CLIMB A TREE.
IT'S VERY EMBARRASSING.
CRAP! SORRY.
A.J.?!
I'M HOWIE.
I'M SINGING ALL THE LEADS
ON EVERYTHING FOR THIS RECORD.
IT'S GONNA BE A GREA RECORD, DON'T WORRY.
IT'S THE BEST EVER.
HELLO THERE, MY FRIEND.
HOW ARE YOU DOING?
GOOD, I'M GOOD.
DO YOU REMEMBER
WHO THIS IS?
THIS IS LITTLE HOWIE.
YEAH, HOWARD
FROM DOWN THE STREET.
I USED TO HAVE HIS MOM
GOING, "HOWIE, HOWIE."
YEAH, COME IN, COME IN.
TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF.
WELCOME BACK.
WHEN I WAS BORN,
WE HAD NO CENTRAL HEATING HERE.
I SWEATED MY BUTT OFF.
SO THE FIRST THING I DID
WHEN WE MADE A LITTLE MONEY,
I PUT CENTRAL HEA AND AIR IN THIS HOUSE.
I WAS TIRED OF SWEATING.
DUDE, LOOK AT THIS.
- DID YOU WRITE THAT?
- I DID. ME AND MY DAD.
- HOKEN HOWARD--
- HOKE D. HOWARD.
HOKE D-- I THINK
I GOT A LITTLE CRAZY.
I DECIDED I WANTED TO DO
MY AUTOGRAPH ON EVERYTHING.
WELL, THAT'S CRAZY, I LIVED
MY WHOLE LIFE IN THIS HOUSE.
IT'S BEEN A PAR OF MY LIFE FOR 39 YEARS.
AND TO ACTUALLY
STAY HERE WITH YOU.
I KNOW YOU HAVE.
YOU HAVE.
DOWN THE STREET, ACTUALLY,
UM, WAS ONE OF MY FIRST KISSES
WAS HIS COUSIN, CHELSEA.
- MY NIECE, MY NIECE.
- YOUR NIECE.
- THANK YOU, SIR.
- THANK YOU, KEVIN.
AS A LITTLE KID
BACK HERE,
I HAD A BUNCH OF RABBITS.
IT STARTED OFF
WITH LIKE ONE
AND THEN I THINK
WE HAD ANOTHER ONE,
AND THEN LIKE THE NEXT YEAR
WE HAD LIKE 45 OF THEM
'CAUSE YOU KNOW
THEY GET BUSY.
MY DAD CALLED ME OUT HERE
AND SAID,
GOT TO FINISH OFF
THE REST OF THE RABBITS.
SO I DIDN'T KNOW
WHAT HE WAS TALKING ABOUT.
OH, NO.
SO I GOT MY FIRST TRUE
EXPERIENCE
OF HAVING TO KILL A RABBIT.
OH.
I WENT AFTER THE ONE
THAT WAS THE MEANEST ONE,
THE ONE THAT I HATED
THE MOST.
HE HAD LIKE A SNAGGLE TOOTH
AND I HATED THA BLACK RABBIT SO MUCH,
I'M LIKE, IF I'VE GOT TO
KILL ONE OF THESE THINGS,
YOU'RE THE ONE THAT'S GOING,
SO I'M LIKE TRYING TO HIT HIM
AND HE'S LIKE JUMPING
ALL AROUND.
I'M LIKE-- I'M TRYING
TO HOP ALL AROUND,
AND THIS POOR LITTLE
RABBIT'S-- I COULDN'T DO IT.
MY DAD'S LIKE,
GET IN THE HOUSE, SON.
AND HE'D KNOCK 'EM OU AND JUST KILL IT.
DUDE.
- IT WAS-- IT WAS
- SOAK 'EM IN SALT WATER?
- IT WAS BACK-WOODS STYLE, DUDE.
- YOUR MOM FRY 'EM UP?
YEAH, AND I COULDN' EAT IT.
I COULDN'T EAT I 'CAUSE IT WAS JUST LIKE--
IT WAS TOO HARD GOING DOWN.
I WAS 12 YEARS OLD,
AND WE HAD TO, YOU KNOW,
I'M SURE BEING IN THE COUNTRY
YOU PROBABLY KNOW HOW YOU TAKE
CARE OF YOUR OWN ANIMALS
AND STUFF LIKE THA AND I'D NEVER EXPERIENCED THAT,
BUT MY DAD WAS FROM GEORGIA,
AND HIM GROWING UP,
THAT'S WHAT YOU DID.
YOU KNOW, THE ANIMALS--
WHAT ARE YOU SAYING?
I LIVE IN GEORGIA.
I AIN'T SKINNED
A RABBIT... YET.
THAT'S CRAZY,
THOUGH, MAN.
IN THE BEGINNING,
I WAS HANGING
OUT A LOT WITH HOWIE.
I WOULD COME OVER
AND STAY AT HIS HOUSE HERE.
- WHICH IS KIND OF IRONIC--
- 'CAUSE YOU LIKED MY NIECE.
THAT'S BECAUSE
I LIKED YOUR NIECE,
NO, BUT BRIAN AND I, WE USED TO
GO PLAY BASKETBALL A LOT HERE.
UM, THAT'S BACK WHEN
HE HAD THIS TRUCK
THAT WE CALLED
THE BLEEDING BANANA.
ME AND HIM DROVE DOWN
FROM KENTUCKY IN THAT THING.
NO SHOCKS,
MY KNEES WERE IN THE DASHBOARD.
IT WAS LIKE...
DUDE, I HAD THE SPEAKERS
IN THE BACK.
HE WAS BLOWING IT, MAN.
I WAS A THUG...
THERE WAS ONE TIME THA WE LEFT OUT OF LOU'S HOUSE,
AND IT WAS LIKE
A FRIDAY NIGHT,
WE HAD ALL BEEN PLAYING
AND WHATEVER.
I HAD MY GIRLFRIEND,
AND BRIAN HAD HIS GIRLFRIEND,
AND WE HAULED BUT OUT OF LOU'S HOUSE.
THE NEXT YOU KNOW,
WE SAW THESE LIGHTS
COME UP BEHIND US
AND WE'RE LIKE,
"OH, MAN,"
AND WE WERE GOING FAST.
IT WAS FAST,
LIKE KIND OF LIKE
YOU WOULD HAVE GONE
TO JAIL FOR FAST-WISE.
ALL WE DID, WE SAID WE WERE
AT LOU PEARLMAN'S HOUSE,
AND WE GOT OFF.
I KNEW AT THAT POINT,
THAT'S WHEN I REALIZED
HOW POWERFUL LOU WAS.
IN THE AREA, YEAH.
HE DOESN'T HAVE THOSE
CONNECTIONS ANYMORE NOW.
UH, NO.
THAT'S FOR SURE.
AROUND 1995,
I CAME OFF THE ROAD
AND LOU SAID, "COME HERE
I WANT TO SHOW YOU SOMETHING."
HE SHOWED ME A VHS TAPE
OF THIS GROUP.
THEY DIDN'T HAVE
A NAME AT THE TIME,
AND I DIDN'T KNOW
BUT IT WAS A SHOWCASE
THAT LOU HAD FINANCED,
AND LOU HAD BEEN
WORKING WITH THEM.
IT WAS ALMOST LIKE A BETRAYAL.
YOU KNOW,
WHEN WE STARTED OU WE'RE LIKE,
"YEAH, WE'RE A TEAM,
WE'RE GONNA TAKE OVER
THE WORLD.
AND THERE'S, YOU KNOW,
THERE'S NOBODY LIKE US."
THEN YOU FIND OUT,
WELL, ACTUALLY,
THERE IS SOMEBODY LIKE YOU.
WE'RE MOLDING THEM
IN YOUR IMAGE,
THAT'S WHAT THEY TOLD US.
DAMN, DUDE,
I GUESS ONE WASN'T ENOUGH
SO NOW YOU GO TO HAVE 15 BOY GROUPS.
NEXT THING YOU KNOW,
IT'S LIKE, IF WE GOT TIRED
AND DIDN'T WANT TO TOUR,
DIDN'T WANT TO DO A CERTAIN
TV SHOW OR WHATEVER,
BOOM, N-SYNC WAS RIGHT THERE
PICKING UP THE PIECES.
THEN, NEXT THING YOU KNOW,
JIVE RECORDS SIGNED N-SYNC.
LOU BASICALLY CREATED
OUR COMPETITION.
THANK YOU SO MUCH
FOR ALLOWING ME AND THE FELLAS
TO REMAIN AT NUMBER ONE.
BY 1998, WE'D SOLD
MILLIONS OF ALBUMS.
WE'D BEEN TOURING NONSTOP.
WE'D BEEN PLAYING
IN STADIUMS,
YET, OUR BANK ACCOUNTS
DIDN'T...
MAKE SENSE.
LOU'S EXCUSES WERE,
"I SPENT A MILLION DOLLARS
TO BREAK YOU GUYS.
I HAVE TO RECOUP THAT."
OKAY.
"I AM YOUR MANAGER.
I GET A MANAGEMENT COMMISSION."
OKAY.
"I'M A ONE-SIXTH MEMBER
OF THE GROUP,
SO I GET ONE-SIXTH
OF WHATEVER YOU MAKE."
IT'S ILLEGAL.
YOU CAN'T DO IT AS A MANAGER.
THERE WAS A DEFINITE
FOG SCREEN THAT,
ONCE IT LIFTED,
I THINK THAT'S WHEN EVERYBODY
RAISED THE EYEBROW, LIKE,
"WHAT THE HELL'S
BEEN GOING ON?"
THERE'S A LOT OF MEMORIES
IN THIS ONE PARTICULAR AREA.
LOU'S HOUSE IS UP HERE.
WE HAD A.J.'S BIRTHDAY
PARTY THERE.
MY BIRTHDAY PARTY, TOO,
MY 21ST THERE.
- TO THE RIGHT--
WE'RE GOING
TO THE RIGHT.
I WENT TO HIM AFTER
REHEARSALS ONE NIGHT,
AND I-- I MEAN,
I BEGGED HIM,
I BASICALLY BEGGED HIM
TO MAKE IT RIGHT.
WE WERE BEING TAKEN
ADVANTAGE OF,
AND, YOU KNOW, NOBODY
WAS LOOKING OUT FOR US.
NOTHING WAS THE SAME
AFTER THAT MEETING.
FOR ANY OF US.
WE FILED THE LAWSUI AND THAT WAS THE BEGINNING
OF THE END OF OUR RELATIONSHIP
WITH LOU.
IN 2007,
LOU WAS ARRESTED
FOR RUNNING A BIG
INVESTMENT SCHEME,
ONE OF THE BIGGEST PONZI
SCHEMES IN AMERICAN HISTORY.
AND TO FIND OUT HE'S BEEN
A CON MAN THIS WHOLE TIME,
MAKES YOU THINK,
WAS ANYTHING EVER TRUE?
ANYTHING YOU EVER SAID
TO US OR DID FOR US
WAS EVER-- WAS IT ALL
REALLY TRUE
OR WAS IT HALF AND HALF
OR WAS IT ALL BULLSHIT?
THIS IS WHERE LOU LIVED
WHEN HE WENT TO PRISON.
WHEN THE BANK POSSESSED
THE PROPERTY
THEY SOLD EVERYTHING IN HERE
PROBABLY TO PAY BACK--
I MEAN, $300 MILLION
I THINK HE OWED,
HE STOLE OR WAS MISSING.
SO I'M SURE
THEY TRIED TO SELL
AND SCRAPE UP ANYTHING
THEY COULD.
YEAH.
SO ANYWAY, THIS IS WHERE
THE OLD BASTARD LIVED.
- YEAH.
- RIGHT BEFORE
HE WENT TO PRISON.
NOW HE'S IN A WHAT,
4x6 WHATEVER THEY HAVE IN JAIL?
SO HOW DID THIS
ALL GO DOWN?
DID THE COPS JUST SHOW UP
UNANNOUNCED
AND JUST TAKE HIM STRAIGH FROM HERE OR WHAT?
NO, THEY DIDN'T GE HIM FROM HERE.
THEY FOUND HIM IN FREAKIN'
INDONESIA SOMEWHERE.
I DON'T REALLY
WANT TO GO IN.
HI, KITTY, KITTY, KITTY.
HOWIE,
GET OUT OF HERE.
COME ON, BRIAN,
COME ON.
WANT TO GO UPSTAIRS?
- WANT TO?
- YEAH.
WHICH WAY, THIS WAY?
HEY, LOU, ARE YOU HERE?
WE'RE HERE, LOU.
WHERE'S OUR MONEY?
WOW.
I HATE IT.
I GOT TO GET OUT OF HERE.
I DON'T LIKE THIS PLACE.
I KNOW, RIGHT?
I MEAN, HOW CAN IT HUR BUT THEN YOU STILL FEEL SORRY
AT THE SAME TIME,
IT DOESN'T--
YOU FEEL SORRY
FOR THE GUY,
BUT HE HAD EVERY OPPORTUNITY
TO MAKE IT RIGHT...
AND HE DIDN'T, YOU KNOW?
HE DIDN'T DO THAT.
THAT'S... THAT'S PROBABLY
WHAT HURTS THE MOST.
YOU'VE CREATED A CIRCLE
OF PEOPLE YOU BELIEVE
IS GONNA PROTECT YOU
AND THEN ALL OF A SUDDEN
IT COMES CRASHING DOWN
AND YOU'RE LIKE,
WHO CAN I TRUST?
THE REALITY'S
SAYING DRAW THE LINE.
PERSONAL BUSINESS,
THAT'S WHEN WE LEARNED.
WE EVENTUALLY BOUGHT HIM OUT.
IT WAS SOMETHING LIKE
27 MILLION DOLLARS
THAT WE HAD TO PAY HIM,
BUT TO BE RID OF HIM
AND TO BE ABLE TO HAVE
WHAT WE HAVE NOW
AND THAT FREEDOM AND TO NOT HAVE
POTENTIALLY LOST EVERYTHING,
WAS IT WORTH IT?
YES, IT WAS WORTH IT.
BACKSTREET BOYS RELEASED
THEIR SECOND ALBUM
"MILLENNIUM" TODAY.
AND, MY, OH MY,
THIS IS CRAZY.
THE DAY THAT WE RELEASED
"MILLENNIUM"
WAS A MIND-BOGGLING DAY
FOR US IN HISTORY.
THEY SHUT DOWN TIMES SQUARE
5,000, 6,000 KIDS
OUT IN FRONT OF "TRL."
IT WAS NUTS.
INCREDIBLE.
AMAZING.
THAT ALBUM WAS HUGE
FOR US.
AT THE TIME,
IT SOLD 24 MILLION
COPIES WORLDWIDE.
WE WERE ON FIRE.
RECORD-BREAKING
ONE MILLION-PLUS SOLD
THE FIRST WEEK OUT.
THE NORTH AMERICAN LEG
OF THE TOUR
BROKE EVEN MORE RECORDS.
ALL THE TICKETS WENT ON SALE
THE SAME DAY
AND QUICKLY RAN UP
A COOL $30 MILLION.
ARE YOU READY TO PARTY?
WHOO, YEAH, BABY!
IT WAS OFF THE ROCK.
I MEAN, WE WERE GODS
IN A TWISTED WAY.
AS A 17 YEAR OLD,
I WAS JUST LIKE,
"THIS IS DOPE.
THIS IS GREAT."
I CAN GET ANY GIRL I WANT.
THAT'S ALL I CARE ABOUT.
I CAN GET ANY GIRL I WANT.
I WAS JUST ENJOYING
THIS MOMENTUM.
I WAS ENJOYING
THIS EUPHORIA.
I MEAN, IT WAS-- IT WAS UNLIKE
ANYTHING WE HAD EVER FELT.
EVERYTHING
WAS GOING SO FAST.
IT WAS KIND OF LIKE
A BLUR.
THE WINNER IS--
- THE BACKSTREET BOYS!
- THE BACKSTREET BOYS.
- THE BACKSTREET BOYS.
BACKSTREET BOYS.
"MILLENNIUM"
WAS HIT AFTER HIT AFTER HIT.
WE WERE UNSTOPPABLE.
WE JUST BROKE
EVERY RECORD IN THE WORLD,
PRACTICALLY FOR ALBUM SALES
AND TOUR SALES
AND TOURING AND THE RECORD
LABEL KNOWS
THAT A YOUNG TEENAGE FEMALE CAN
CHANGE HER MIND PRETTY QUICK.
THEY WANTED TO STRIKE
WHILE THE IRON WAS HO AND, YOU KNOW, SELL ANOTHER
20 SOMETHING MILLION ALBUMS
AS SOON AS POSSIBLE.
WE CAME STRAIGH OFF THE ROAD
AND THEN WE WERE RIGH BACK IN THE STUDIO
FOR OUR NEXT ALBUM.
WE SHOULDN'T HAVE DONE THAT.
WE SHOULD HAVE
STEPPED BACK, RECHARGED,
GOT SOME PERSPECTIVE,
GOT SOME INSPIRATION,
AND THEN GONE
INTO THE STUDIO.
IN OUR RISE TO FAME
I HAD OPEN HEART SURGERY
AT 23 YEARS OLD,
YOU KNOW, IN 1998.
WE-- WE DIDN'T EVEN,
LIKE, CANCEL TOURS.
IT WASN'T ABOUT ME
AS A PERSON IN MY HEALTH.
IT DIDN'T MATTER
WHAT I DID.
IT DIDN'T MATTER
WHICH VERSE I SANG.
NOW WITH YOUR EYES
ONLY COME UP TO ME.
YEAH, CRAWL ON UP...
WE WERE A BIG STACK
OF CASH.
THAT THEY WERE GONNA
HAVE A PIECE OF
AT THE END OF THE DAY,
AND GO DO IT.
WE'RE GOING ON A PLANE.
THIS IS THE PLANE.
WE LOVE THE PLANE.
WE DID THIS
AROUND THE WORLD TRIP
IN 100 HOURS.
NICK, I LOVE YOU!
AS A $4 MILLION
PROMOTIONAL THING,
IT WAS BRILLIANT,
BUT, YOU KNOW,
THERE WAS A LO OF MONEY BEING SPENT.
I REMEMBER FEELING
A LITTLE OVERWHELMED,
LIKE, HOW LONG
CAN THIS LAST?
IS THE BOTTOM GONNA FALL OUT?
O-O-O-H MY GOD!
FOR "BLACK AND BLUE,"
WE GOT AN OFFER,
A CERTAIN AMOUNT OF SHOWS,
$100 MILLION.
I MEAN, WE WERE ALL LIKE,
"HOLY SHIT!"
THAT'S A LOT OF MONEY.
IT WAS SO EXTRAORDINARY
AND SO OVER-THE-TOP
THAT I DON'T KNOW I COULD
REALLY COMPREHEND IT STILL,
TO THIS DAY.
FROM LIKE '94
TO ABOUT 2002 WAS JUST NONSTOP,
ALBUM AFTER ALBUM
TOUR AFTER TOUR--
THAT WAS NINE YEARS
STRAIGHT OF TOURING.
WE WERE DONE.
ONE, TWO,
THREE, FOUR...
- OH!
- THANK YOU, THANK YOU,
THANK YOU.
'99 TO 2000,
THIS WAS MY HAVEN.
BECAUSE I COULD DO
WHATEVER I WANTED,
'CAUSE WE PRETTY MUCH
RAN ORLANDO.
EVERYTHING WAS COMPED,
COMPED EVERYWHERE WE WENT.
YEAH. I MEAN, FREE LIQUORS,
FREE EVERYTHING.
- WE'VE BEEN BEST FRIENDS
NOW FOR WHAT, 15 YEARS?
- YEAH, 15.
THIS HAS GOT A LOT OF HISTORY
FOR ME, GOOD AND BAD...
- YEAH.
- WITH YOU.
WE HAD TOPLESS BOWLING.
THAT WAS FUN.
THE GIRLS, REMEMBER THE GIRLS
ON THE BALL RETURNS?
- AHA, STRADDLING THE--
- JUST BOWLING AND--
YEP, WE WOULD JUST CALL
THE GIRLS OVER AFTERWARDS
AND THEY'D COME BY,
AND THEY'D JUST STRIP.
AND DO A LITTLE BIT OF THA - THEY WOULD DO THAT, BUT--
- PRETTIER.
PRETTIER
AND WITH GIANT BOOBS.
WHATEVER!
YOU DON'T HAVE BIG BOOBS,
SO IT DOESN'T WORK.
WHEE!
THAT'S SUPER FUN.
YOU KNOW, LIKE THOSE CLAW
VENDING MACHINES,
WE WON A BRITNEY SPEARS
DOLL OUT OF THERE.
- WELL, I WON.
- HE WON IT AND THEN--
YOU PROBABLY SPENT LIKE
$100 ON IT.
I SPENT A DOLLAR
AND I WON IT.
AND I WANTED TO BOWL HIM
FOR IT.
AND I GOT YOU ANNIHILATED
BY THE FIFTH FRAME.
'CAUSE I CAN'T DRINK
AND BOWL.
- IT'S THE ONLY THING THAT'S--
- AND I HAD A SHO AND I KIND OF THREW UP
A LITTLE BIT BACK IN THE CUP
BUT I STILL FINISHED I WITH A LITTLE BIT OF PUKE
AND BECAUSE OF THAT,
HE COULD NEVER DO SHOTS
EVER AGAIN.
- I THREW UP.
- YOU THREW UP LATER.
NO, NO, NO, I THREW UP
IN THE CUP, AND YOU DRANK THAT.
- OH, IS THAT WHAT IT WAS?
- YES, THAT'S WHAT--
IF IT WAS JUST YOU PUKED
THEN I COULD THEN-- THAT'S FINE.
- OH, SORRY.
- I THREW UP IN THE CUP
- AND THAT WASN'T-- THAT WAS--
- THAT'S A TWIST.
A.J. WANTED TO BE
THIS BAD BOY SO BADLY.
I THINK IN HIS OWN MIND,
HE THOUGHT HE WAS ROCK AND ROLL
NOT REALIZING
HE WAS IN A BOY BAND.
HOW'S EVERYBODY RIGHT DOWN
IN THE FRONT?!
TO ME THAT WAS
THE ONLY TOUR
I EVER DRANK ON STAGE
DURING THE SHOW
I WAS AT MY WORS AT THAT POINT.
YOU IN THE--
I THINK HE WAS REBELLING
AGAINST THIS FACADE
THAT PEOPLE THOUGHT WE WERE
AND THOUGHT WE HAD TO BE.
I LOST SIGHT OF MYSELF,
WHICH IS VERY EASY TO DO
WHEN YOU'RE IN A GROUP.
YOU LOSE YOURSELF.
YOU LOSE YOUR IDENTITY.
IN BOSTON, IN 2001,
WE WERE SUPPOSED TO DO
THE FIRST PITCH
AT THIS SOFTBALL GAME,
OR BASEBALL GAME
UM, AND SING
THE NATIONAL ANTHEM.
I GET A CALL FROM
OUR ROAD MANAGER
THAT A.J. IS NOT COMING.
I WAS IN WHAT PEOPLE
IN THE DRUG WORLD
WOULD CALL A COKE COMA,
'CAUSE I'D JUST BEEN UP
FOR DAYS ON END
AND I JUST NEEDED TO SLEEP.
KEVIN, IN KEVIN'S KEVIN WAY
DID NOT LIKE THAT VERY MUCH.
HE WON'T ANSWER HIS PHONE,
HE WON'T ANSWER HIS DOOR.
SO I BACKED UP AND...
BUSTED IT OPEN,
I WAS AS MAD AS HELL.
KEVIN CAME TO THE OTHER DOOR
WHICH WAS DOUBLE BOLTED
AND I TRIED TO BUST THA THING IN
AND I COULDN' GET IN THERE.
UH, BUT I'M GLAD
THAT I DIDN'T.
I'M GLAD I DIDN' 'CAUSE I WAS MAD.
I WAS ABOUT TO BEA THE SHIT OUT OF HIM,
BUT I WAS MAD.
TO THIS DAY, I WILL FOREVER
BE GRATEFUL TO KEVIN
BEING THE REASON WHY
I EVEN WENT INTO REHAB.
YOU KNOW, HE'S THE ONE
THAT MADE THAT INTERVENTION.
HE'S THE ONE THAT BROKE DOWN
MY HOTEL ROOM DOOR
AND EXCHANGED THE WORDS
THAT WE EXCHANGED
THAT WERE NOT NICE.
YOU KNOW, I MEAN,
I'LL NEVER FORGET HIM
SAYING, "YOU ARE DEAD TO ME."
THAT WAS IT.
I GOT A.J. OVER HERE
NEXT TO ME
PULLED UP IN IS HOT ROD.
HE THINKS HE'S A RAPPER,
I THINK.
AND...
STRAIGHT LINE.
HEY!
I'LL BE IN THE LINE
BEHIND A.J. RIGHT.
- TAKE A MENTAL NOTE.
- I'M TRYING TO GET THERE.
YOU KNOW,
NOBODY TELLS YOU WHAT TO DO
WHEN YOU GET TO THE TOP.
EVERYBODY IS SO QUICK
TO PUSH, PUSH, PUSH,
TO GET YOU THERE,
BUT THEY'RE NOT QUICK
TO HOLD YOU THERE.
THEY JUST WANNA
YOU KNOW WHAT?
NEXT.
YOU KNOW,
AFTER WE LOST KEVIN,
EVERYBODY THOUGH IT WAS OVER,
EVEN THOUGH THE FOUR OF US
KEPT GOING.
WE DID TWO ALBUMS.
WE DID THREE TOURS.
BUT FOR ME, PERSONALLY,
IT WAS JUST NEVER THE SAME.
LOOKING DOWN THE LINE
ON STAGE,
YOU SEE JUST THREE OTHER GUYS,
IT WAS JUST NEVER RIGHT.
YEAH,
GO TO THE RHYTHM.
OBVIOUSLY, THERE'S ALWAYS
GONNA BE DOUBTS AND FEARS.
I MEAN, THIS IS NOT JUS A REGULAR TOUR.
THIS IS A BIG DEAL.
NOW THAT WASN'T RIGHT.
THAT RIGHT THERE--
BRINGING BACK
SOME OF THE OLD CHOREOGRAPHY
WE HAVEN'T DONE IN
15-PLUS YEARS.
YOU KNOW,
IT'S NERVE-RACKING.
I CAN'T EVEN REMEMBER
THE BEGINNING FORMATION.
RIGHT HERE.
- YO, MAN.
YOU... OUT.
WE GOT IT.
DON'T WORRY,
I'LL BE SWEET WITH YOU,
BUT I GOT TO BE HARD
WITH YOUR DADDY, OKAY.
YOU GUYS, ANY QUESTIONS
BEFORE WE MOVE ON?
YEAH.
IT'S JUST LITTLE DETAILS.
KEVIN HASN'T BEEN ON STAGE
WITH US IN OVER SEVEN YEARS.
I'VE HAD TWO KNEE SURGERIES.
AND THEN DEALING WITH
PROBABLY THE BIGGEST ISSUE NOW,
WHICH IS BRIAN.
BUT WE DON'T LIKE TO TALK
ABOUT IT.
AND I DON'T THINK HE LIKES
TO TALK ABOUT IT VERY MUCH.
WE'RE TALKING ABOUT TAKING
THIS THING AROUND THE WORLD.
IT'S NOT JUST 30,
40 SHOWS AND THAT'S IT.
I MEAN, THIS IS GONNA BE 80
TO 100-SOMETHING SHOWS OVERALL.
WE'VE DONE TOURS BEFORE
IN LESS AMOUNT OF TIME.
BUT FOR SOME REASON,
I'M A LITTLE SCARED MYSELF
THAT WE'LL STILL BEHIND
THE 8 BALL.
TIME-WISE,
ARE WE BEHIND RIGHT NOW?
ARE WE ON PAR
THE WAY YOU GUYS ARE?
I'M NOT GONNA, YOU KNOW,
SUGARCOAT ANYTHING.
- WE ARE BEHIND.
- OKAY.
WE ONLY HAVE 14 DAYS
OF REHEARSAL LEFT.
I'M HERE TO FUCKING REHEARSE
WHATEVER.
- OKAY.
- ALL RIGHT, BABY?
- ALL RIGHT.
- I'M HERE.
JUST MAKING SURE BECAUSE
WE'RE FUCKING LOSING TIME.
LOOK, I'M HERE, BABY.
I'M HERE.
WAIT, WAIT,
HOLD ON, LISTEN.
REHEARSING SATURDAYS,
EVERY SATURDAY.
LIKE, WE WERE GONNA
HAVE WEEKENDS OFF,
NOW WE GOT TO REHEARSE
EVERY SATURDAY.
I WAS ALREADY PREPARED FOR THAT.
WE'RE SO FAR BEHIND,
IT'S NOT EVEN FUNNY,
AND IT'S DISAPPOINTING
AND IT'S FRUSTRATING
AND IT PISSES ME OFF,
AND IT STRESSES ME OUT.
WE'LL MAKE IT SIMPLE.
ALL OF THEM, THAT'S A DOUBLE CD.
WE'RE DONE.
OKAY, NO, LET'S NOT TRY
TO DWELL ON SONGS UNLESS--
'CAUSE WE COULD BE
ON ONE SONG FOR AN HOUR
AND WE HAVE LIMITED TIME.
DEFINE
WHAT NOT DWELL MEANS.
THERE'S NO TIME LIMIT,
JUST DON'T DWELL
ALL RIGHT,
PLAY "BE YOUR SOLDIER."
THE CHORUS JUST DOESN' DO IT FOR ME.
- THE SONG IS GREAT.
- BUT AS A SUBJECT MATTER,
I LIKE WHAT THE SONG
IS SAYING, LIKE--
IT DOESN'T DO IT FOR ME.
I DISAGREE, I THINK THE CHORUS
ACTUALLY IS GOOD.
I ACTUALLY LIKE THE VERSES.
I HEAR WHAT YOU'RE SAYING
ON THE CHORUS.
- JUST THAT ONE LITTLE--
I HEAR YOU,
I HEAR YOU.
THAT'S THE ONLY THING
THAT BOTHERS ME.
BUT I THINK IT'S A GREAT SONG
FOR THE ALBUM,
- BECAUSE I LOVE WHAT IT SAYS.
- I THINK IT'S DEFINITELY
A CONTENDER.
I CAN SING THIS
WITH CONVICTION
BECAUSE IT MEANS
SOMETHING TO ME.
I'M NOT COMFORTABLE WITH
CHANGING THE CHORUS
OF THIS SONG.
NO, NO, NO, DON'T-- YOU DON' HAVE TO LIKE DO THAT TO ME.
JUST CALM DOWN.
YOU'RE GETTING FLUSHED.
NICK'S GETTING RED.
- IT'S GOING UP TO HERE.
- I'M TELLING YOU,
I'M TELLING YOU
THAT THIS IS A BIG SONG.
PEOPLE GET-- FUCKING,
IF IT'S NOT ON A RECORD,
WE COULD BE REGRETTING IT.
MY POINT IS IS
I STILL DON'T LIKE IT.
WHETHER YOU CHANGE IT OR NOT,
I STILL DON'T LIKE IT.
- I'VE HEARD YOUR POINT.
- I KNOW, AND WE
SEE YOUR POINT.
ALL RIGHT,
NEXT SONG IS
"SHOW ME WHA YOU'RE MADE OF."
SHOULD WE TALK ABOU THE SONG A LITTLE MORE?
NO. MOVE ON.
- LOOK AT YOU.
- YOU LOOK THE SAME.
I LOOK THE SAME.
OH, THANK YOU.
- HOW YOU DOING?
- YOU LOOK ABSOLUTELY GORGEOUS.
- THANK YOU.
- YOU LOOK BEAUTIFUL.
THANKS, SANDY.
THIS IS THE BACKSTREET BOYS.
YOU WERE SINGING WITH YOUR LOCAL
SINGING TEACHER
AND SHE SAID,
"I'VE GOT THIS GREAT KID.
WE NEED TO GET HIM DANCING
'CAUSE HE'S GOT A GREAT VOICE."
AND I SAID,
"OKAY, BRING HIM OVER."
AND I SAID,
"NICK, RIGHT LEG."
THE LEFT LEG,
I PUT THE LEFT LEG OUT.
OKAY, NICK, LEFT LEG,
AND THEN HE DID THE RIGHT LEG.
HE STILL DOES
THE SAME THING.
COME ON IN
AND SAY HI.
THEY'RE GONNA GO CRAZY.
- WE'RE GOING IN.
- LET'S DO IT.
COME ON IN.
I'VE BEEN DANCING SINCE
I WAS, LIKE, FOUR YEARS OLD,
- SO I--
- REALLY?
- BALLET FOR EIGHT YEARS.
- GOOD.
- JAZZ, TAP.
- WE COULDN'T GET HIM IN BALLET.
WE TRIED.
- YOU DID BALLET?
- EIGHT YEARS OF BALLET.
OKAY, IT WAS THE WEIRDEST THING
I HAD TIGHTS AND EVERYTHING.
I WAS THE ONLY BOY
IN MY BALLET CLASS.
SO MY MOM ENDED UP
PUTTING ME INTO TAP
AFTER EIGHT YEARS OF BALLE 'CAUSE I WAS LIKE,
"I FEEL A LITTLE WEIRD
IN TIGHTS.
I'M A LITTLE BOY
AND I'M SKINNY.
HEY, IT TAKES A MAN
TO DO IT.
THIS IS OUR SENIOR
DANCE COMPANY.
HI.
YOU WANT TO BACK UP A LITTLE BI SO THEY CAN SEE YOU?
I DON'T KNOW ABOUT NOW
I MIGHT ACTUALLY
COME ON, DO IT!
PERFORM, PLEASE.
IF I RIP MY PANTS,
I'M BLAMING YOU.
COME ON.
OH.
WHOO.
YOU'RE GONNA PAY FOR THA TOMORROW.
OH!
DON'T GET ME STARTED.
HE NEVER DONE THAT WITH US
IN 20 YEARS!
- THAT'S INTERESTING.
- YOU GUYS KNOW THE
"BACKSTREET'S BACK" DANCE?
ANYBODY KNOW THAT?
- AH, SEE, I KNEW
THEY DIDN'T KNOW THAT.
- TOO YOUNG.
THEY WEREN'T BORN YET.
FIVE, SIX, SEVEN, GO!
THEY GOT IT ALREADY.
YEAH.
GOOD JOB, BUDDY.
- SHUT THE FUCK UP
AND LET ME TALK!
- YOU SHUT THE FUCK UP!
LISTEN--
GUYS!
YOU SHUT THE FUCK UP.
YOU SHUT THE FUCK UP.
I SWEAR TO GOD, DON'T FUCKING
TALK TO ME THAT WAY.
I'LL TALK TO YOU
HOWEVER I WANT TO TALK TO YOU.
YOU DON'T GET RESPEC OUT OF ME THAT WAY.
DON'T BE A FUCKING DICK
LIKE EVERYONE KNOWS YOU ARE.
- YOU DON'T WANT TO HEAR IT.
- YOU UNDERSTAND
WHAT I'M SAYING?
DON'T BE A FUCKING DICK.
DON'T BE A DICK!
TRUST ME, YOU DON'T WANT I FROM ME, BABY.
- TRUST ME.
- LIKE I'M SHAKING.
I'M NOT AFRAID OF YOU
ANYMORE.
DUDE, WHAT--
YOU WERE AFRAID OF ME?
NO, I'M-- HE KNOWS WHA I'M TALKING ABOUT, DUDE.
WHAT ABOUT FUCKING
VOCALS ON SONGS?
ARE WE GONNA TALK
ABOUT THAT?
ARE WE GONNA TALK ABOU THE FACT THA YOU DON'T NECESSARILY
SOUND AS GOOD AS YOU USED TO?
- THE DEMO VOICE--
- ARE WE GONNA TALK ABOUT THAT?
ARE WE GONNA TALK ABOUT THAT?
AND WE'LL TALK ABOU WHEN WE GET IN THE STUDIO
AND PRODUCERS COME TO US
AND TELL US
THAT THEY GOT PROBLEMS
BECAUSE OF YOUR FUCKING VOICE.
YEAH, 'CAUSE I CAN'T DO
YOUR JOB ANYMORE.
OH, NO, NO, NO, NO!
THIS IS THE TRUTH.
HOW ABOUT SPEAKING
FROM A PLACE OF LOVE
AND NOT A PLACE OF ANGER?
I'M NOT ANGRY.
I'M FUCKING BEING REAL.
BECAUSE EVERYONE ELSE
WANTS TO SUGARCOAT IT.
EVERYONE WANTS
TO SUGARCOAT IT.
LET'S FUCKING BRING IT OU IN THE OPEN.
YOU KNOW WHAT?
WHEN PRODUCERS COME UP TO ME--
STOP!
WHEN PRODUCERS COME UP TO US
AND ARE SAYING,
"WHAT'S WRONG
WITH BRIAN'S VOICE?
WHAT'S HAPPENING
WITH HIS VOICE?"
AND THEN YOU WANT TO
SING ON THE RECORDS, DAWG,
AND YOU SOUND GREA ON RECORDS,
'CAUSE YOU CAN DO
A FUCKING LITTLE BIT OF EDITING,
BUT WHEN GOT TO GO ON STAGE
AND SING THAT SHI AND WE GOT TO GO
DO WORLD TOUR,
I MEAN, THIS IS THE KIND--
THIS IS ALL I'M TRYING TO SAY.
BUT YOU TAKE THE GOOD
AND THE BAD, DAWG.
- NO, BECAUSE--
- YOU TAKE THE GOOD
AND THE BAD.
- WE'RE A GROUP.
- CAN YOU SIT DOWN
FOR A SEC, NICK?
- NO, I DON'T WANT TO SIT DOWN.
- WELL, HERE'S WHAT I THINK.
I JUST WANT SOMEONE TO REALLY
TALK ABOUT WHAT THE FUCK
- IS REALLY GOING ON!
- BUT TIME OUT.
SIT DOWN FOR A SECOND...
- NO!
- AND SHOW SOME
FUCKING RESPECT.
HOW ABOUT RESPECT ME
AND LET ME STAND UP?
I RESPECT YOU.
STAND UP THEN.
YOU'RE GETTING TWO
DIFFERENT ARGUMENTS HERE.
YOU'VE BUSTED YOUR ASS.
I APPRECIATE IT.
WE ALL APPRECIATE IT.
SOMEHOW IT GOT BLOWN UP
INTO AN ARGUMEN BETWEEN YOU AND BRIAN
AND A COMPETITION
OVER LEAD VOCALS.
AND THERE'S A LO OF BAGGAGE HERE
FROM THE FUCKING PAS 20 YEARS
THAT IS COMING OUT NOW,
AND, YEAH,
WE NEED TO TALK
ABOUT BRIAN'S VOCAL ISSUES.
WE NEED TO TALK ABOUT THAT.
WE NEED TO FIND A WAY
TO MAKE IT WORK.
- AND THAT'S WHA WE'RE TRYING TO DO.
- ALL I'M SAYING--
THEY LOOK NICE
WITH THOSE JACKETS ON.
GREAT.
I WANT TO BE
AS SUPPORTIVE AS I CAN.
I MEAN, NOT ONLY ARE
WE GROUP MEMBERS
AND BUSINESS PARTNERS,
BUT WE'RE FAMILY.
AND, UH....
SO I HAVE YOUR BACK
AND I WANT TO HAVE YOUR BACK
AND I WANT TO BE SUPPORTIVE.
I THINK PERSONALLY,
I'M A LITTLE FRUSTRATED.
BECAUSE I FEEL LIKE UM,
I DON'T KNOW WHERE YOU'RE AT.
WHAT-- WHAT HAS HAPPENED
LATELY WITH YOUR THERAPY,
AND I KNOW YOU'RE LIVING IT,
BUT NOT A DAY GOES BY
THAT I DON'T THINK ABOUT YOU.
AND HERE'S MY THING.
YOU KNOW, I THINK
WE SHOULD PUT THE BRAKES ON.
BUT I DON'T WANT TO
STOP THE TRAIN.
THIS IS THE THING.
THIS IS A HUGE YEAR FOR US.
AND I HAVE TO BE IN
TIP-TOP SHAPE SOMEHOW, SOME WAY.
THE FRUSTRATING PART IS,
IS I'M THE ONE
THAT HAS TO LIVE WITH IT,
AND I'M THE ONE
THAT HAS TO HEAR
IT EACH AND EVERY DAY.
YOU GUYS, I COULD TALK TO YOU
TILL I'M BLUE IN THE FACE,
AND YOU'LL NEVER
UNDERSTAND IT.
I DON'T EXPECT YOU TO
UNDERSTAND IT.
WE'RE NOT TRYING
TO DO AN INTERVENTION ON YOU.
BUT IT'S ALMOST LIKE YOU--
LIKE, IN LIKE A PERSON
WHO'S GOING INTO REHAB
WHERE YOU ALMOST NEED
TO REALLY LIKE POSSIBLY HAVE--
TAKE THIS REALLY SERIOUS
AND HAVE SOMEBODY WORKING
WITH YOU, LIKE, EVERY DAY
LET'S STOP PERFORMING LIVE
UNTIL SOME OF THIS SHIT,
WE GET IT WORKED OUT.
LET'S LET YOU DO YOUR THERAPY.
LET'S LET YOU EXPERIMEN WITH WHATEVER THE DOCTORS SAY.
TO BE HONEST WITH YOU,
LET'S FACE IT.
IT'S THE PRESSURE
THAT I PUT ON MYSELF
OF WHAT I WAS, WHAT I AM,
AND WHAT I'M GONNA BE.
BECAUSE THE WAIT FOR ME
AT THE BEGINNING
WAS I HAD TO FIX I FOR YOU AND FOR YOU
AND FOR YOU AND FOR YOU
AND FOR YOU AND FOR YOU.
THEN I WOKE UP ONE DAY
AND I THOUGHT,
"DAMN, YOU KNOW I REALLY
NEED TO JUST FIX THIS FOR ME."
YEAH.
- BECAUSE YOU CAN' FIX ALCOHOL ABUSE FOR ME.
- RIGHT.
- IT'S FOR YOU.
I APOLOGIZE THAT IF
MY BAD PERFORMANCE
TAKES THE STOCK DOWN,
WHICH IS TRUE,
BUT I CAN ONLY DO WHAT I CAN DO
TO BE BEST FOR ME RIGHT NOW.
I HAVEN'T HEARD NICK
SAY ANYTHING.
I'VE HEARD EVERYBODY ELSE
TALK.
WHEN IT COMES TO YOUR
POINT OF VIEW
ON FOR YOURSELF,
I COMPLETELY ACCEPT THAT,
AND I-- THAT IS-- THAT'S YOU
IT'S WHAT YOU GOT TO DO.
I THINK THAT THERE IS A 50/50
THING HERE, THOUGH, AS WELL.
I'VE GONE THROUGH THIS BEFORE
IN THIS GROUP, ALL RIGHT?
WHEN I WAS OVERWEIGHT,
WHEN I WAS DRINKING
AND DOING DRUGS,
WHEN I WAS BEING A MANIAC,
IT AFFECTED THE GROUP.
AND I GOT CONFRONTED
BY YOU GUYS.
EVERYBODY DOCKED
THOUSANDS OF DOLLARS
FOR NOT SHOWING
UP ON TIME.
I HAD TO GET BETTER
FOR YOU.
A.J. DID, TOO.
- A.J. HAD TO AS WELL.
WE'VE ALL HAD TO
IN DIFFERENT WAYS.
AND I'M PASSIONATE ABOUT I 'CAUSE I'M STILL PISSED OFF.
BUT, NICK,
IT STARTS WITH YOU, PERIOD.
- IT STARTS WITH YOU.
- OF COURSE
IT STARTS WITH ME.
YES, IT'S REFLECTIVE,
BUT IT STARTS WITH ME.
SO THIS SHIT HAPPENS
TO BE ABOUT ME.
- SO LET IT STAR WITH ME FIRST...
YES.
AND THEN LET IT FILTER.
I WANT YOU TO GET BETTER.
I REALLY DO.
I GENUINELY WAN YOU TO GET BETTER.
ALL RIGHT?
I WANT MICHAEL JORDAN BACK.
I REALLY DO.
I ALWAYS FELT LIKE
IT WAS JORDAN AND PIPPEN
IN THIS GROUP,
AND I REALLY DID,
AND I THOUGHT YOU WERE
MICHAEL JORDAN.
AND I MISS THAT VOICE AGAIN.
I MISS IT.
AND I BELIEVE
YOU CAN HAVE IT BACK.
I BELIEVE YOU CAN.
I BELIEVE YOU WILL GET IT BACK.
AND I BELIEVE US AS A TEAM
WE-- THE FIVE STARTERS
THAT WE CAN DO I BUT WE NEED MICHAEL
AND I KNOW IT'S GONNA HAPPEN.
I USED TO PLAY IN THIS,
WELL, NOT IN IT,
BUT I WOULD GO
UNDERNEATH HERE.
I WOULD GO CRAWL ALL
THE WAY UNDERNEATH THERE
BACK THERE THERE WAS THIS
ALLIGATOR SITTING ON--
ON THE SHOULDER OR WHATEVER,
AND HE WAS LIKE HANGING THERE
SLEEPING, LIKE, SUNBATHING.
I GRABBED SOME ROCKS AND I
STARTED THROWING THEM AT HIM.
I HAD THIS OTHER KID WITH ME,
ALLIGATOR GOT PISSED,
AND HE STARTED CHASING US,
CAME AFTER US.
I JUMPED UP ON TOP
OF THIS LIKE RETENTION THING
AND I JUST WENT, OH,
DOWN, FELL IN BETWEEN IT,
CAME HOME, I WAS CRYING.
MY DAD STITCHED ME UP.
YOUR DAD STITCHED YOU UP?
YEAH, HE DIDN'T WANT--
HE DIDN'T BELIEVE SORT OF
IN LIKE HOSPITALS AND STUFF,
SO HE KIND OF
JUST BUTTERFLIED
THAT THING ALL UP.
AND THAT'S WHY
IT'S ALL TORN UP.
SEE THAT ORANGE
PUMPKIN PLACE?
THAT'S MY HOUSE.
- RIGHT HERE?
- THAT ORANGE THING.
- 216?
- 216.
IT WAS JUST LIKE-- IT WAS
A HOUSE FULL OF FEAR FOR ME.
WE WOULD BE LITTLE KIDS
AND WE WOULD HEAR MOM
AND DAD, LIKE, SCREAMING
AT EACH OTHER
AND THEY WOULD JUS CONSTANTLY BE DRINKING
AND FIGHTING AND WE'D HEAR
GUNS GO OFF THE WINDOW.
YOU KNOW, OUT THE WINDOW,
SHOOTING,
AND-- NOT SHOOTING
AT EACH OTHER,
BUT THEY ALWAYS FOUGH OVER MONEY.
AND I WANTED TO BRING MY FAMILY
TO A WHOLE 'NOTHER LEVEL.
I WANT TO TAKE THEM
OUT OF HERE,
GIVE THEM BIGGER HOUSES,
BETTER THINGS,
AND ALL THESE, YOU KNOW...
I MEAN, HOW MUCH
CAN YOU GIVE?
ARE YOU LOOKED A AS A DOLLAR SIGN NOW?
ARE YOU LOOKED A AS... YOU KNOW,
WHAT ARE YOU LOOKED AT AS?
AND THAT'S WHAT SUCKS
BECAUSE BEFORE
I WAS LOOKED A AS A SIBLING IN MY HOUSE.
I'VE ACTUALLY BEEN ESTRANGED
FROM MY MOM AND DAD
FOR A WHILE.
I HAVEN'T SEEN THEM
IN MAYBE SEVEN, EIGHT YEARS.
IT JUST--
YOU SEE WHERE YOU CAME FROM.
YOU SEE WHERE YOU'VE BEEN,
AND... YOU QUESTION THINGS
AND YOU WONDER WHERE
YOU'RE GOING...
AND... I DON'T KNOW, MAN.
MOST OF THE KIDS THA I PLAYED WITH ON THIS BLOCK,
MOST OF THE PEOPLE THA I TRIED TO FIT IN WITH,
NOW ARE EITHER DEAD
OR SERIOUS DRUG ADDICTS
OR IN PRISON.
I WOULD HAVE TOTALLY
ENDED UP LIKE A LO OF THESE KIDS OUT HERE.
I HAVEN'T BEEN HERE IN,
I DON'T KNOW,
17 YEARS OR SOMETHING.
I'M, LIKE, NERVOUS.
OH, MY GOODNESS.
DO YOU REMEMBER THIS?
THIS IS CRAZY!
THEY GOT IT SET UP.
- OH, JESUS.
- THE FRONT ROW!
WHO'S THAT BOY?
THERE IS IS.
YOU SEE HIM?
I ALWAYS THOUGH SHE WAS SUPER PRETTY.
SHE WAS.
AND THEN I-- I WAS
THE BIGGEST NERD IN SCHOOL,
LIKE THIS WAS THE ONLY WAY
THAT I COULD GET ATTENTION
- FROM ANYBODY.
- BOY, DID YOU.
BECAUSE WHEN I WOULD WALK
DOWN THESE HALLS.
I WOULD GET PICKED ON A LOT,
AND PEOPLE DIDN'T LIKE ME.
I KNOW.
I WAS JUST THE WEIRD KID
IN THE SCHOOL, YOU KNOW, BUT...
I'VE HAD THIS FOR...
22 YEARS.
AND IT MEANS A LOT TO ME
THAT YOU'VE COME BACK
AND YOU'VE RECOGNIZED
YOUR TEACHER.
ABSOLUTELY.
- YOU KNOW I STILL LOVE YOU.
- I LOVE YOU, TOO.
SHE HONESTLY WAS ONE OF
THE MOST INFLUENTIAL--
I MEAN SHE KIND OF
RECOGNIZED ME, SO...
THANK YOU.
AND WE PUT IT IN A FORMA SO YOU COULD SEE IT NOW.
MAYBE SOMEDAY
FOR YOUR GRANDCHILDREN?
- YEAH. THANK YOU AGAIN.
- YOU'RE WELCOME.
I HAVE NO IDEA
WHY I'M CRYING.
I THINK IT HAS A LO TO DO WITH...
ALL THE BAD STUFF
THAT I HAD GONE THROUGH.
AND THERE WAS ONLY LIKE
A COUPLE OF LIGHTS
AND WHENEVER I'D GET ON STAGE,
IT WAS A WAY TO GET AWAY.
IT WAS A WAY TO ESCAPE.
IT WAS A WAY TO GET AWAY
FROM ALL THE STUFF
THAT I WAS GOING THROUGH.
AND YOU KNOW, I'M SO...
I'VE ONLY GOT, LIKE, A COUPLE
OF THINGS TO HOLD ONTO
OVER THE YEARS,
AND THIS IS ONE OF THEM.
AND WHEN I SEE--
WHEN I SEE THA AND WHEN I SEE THAT VIDEO...
IT WAS, LIKE, REMINDS ME
OF SORT OF, LIKE,
THE GOOD TIMES
AND THEN...
I DON'T KNOW,
I TRIED EVERYTHING I CAN
TO BLOCK OUT THINGS
AND JUST ELIMINATE
SHE WAS, UH--
SHE WAS MY ESCAPE,
AND SHE RECOGNIZED ME.
AND I REALLY...
I'M JUST HAPPY
I GOT THIS RIGHT HERE,
THAT'S ALL.
JUST HAPPY I GOT IT.
READY ON ONE,
TWO, THREE...
WE'RE GONNA LOOK RIGH OVER HERE.
ARE YOU READY?
THANK YOU.
IT'S WEIRD.
THESE DESKS
ARE STILL THE SAME.
STILL THE SAME.
- THIS IS MY CLASS.
- YES.
TOO MUCH EMOTION,
GOT TO ROLL.
- ARE YOU READY?
- YEAH, LET'S GO.
ONE, TWO, THREE...
KIDS, I TELL YOU.
YO, LOOK OUT THE WINDOW.
THERE WAS A LO OF GROUPS THAT CAME AND WEN WHILE WE WERE DOING
OUR THING.
WE NEVER WENT ANYWHERE.
WE JUST KEPT ON GOING.
20 YEARS IS ALONG
FUCKING TIME FOR ANYBODY,
LET ALONE-- FIVE BUNCH OF DORKS
JUMPING AROUND ONSTAGE
SINGING AND DANCING.
THIS IS THE FIRST SINGLE
OFF OF THE BRAND-NEW ALBUM.
THIS IS CALLED
"IN A WORLD LIKE THIS."
A.J., TELL ME HOW
YOU'RE FEELING ABOUT THE TRIP
UP THE HILL?
THAT'S AS FAR
AS I'M GONNA GO.
WHATEVER!
DUDE, DO YOU THINK
WE SHOULD NOT DO THIS MAYBE?
WHAT ARE YOU
TALKING ABOUT?
IT'S PRETTY TOUGH.
YOU WANT ME TO GO UP FIRS AND SHOW YOU?
DID I JUST TELL YOU
HOW SILLY YOU LOOK?
AND THAT WAS ALMOST MY FACE,
BUT IT'S TOTALLY WORTH IT.
WE DIDN'T HAVE ROPES
WHEN WE DID IT.
OH, MY GOD.
- GOOD JOB, D.
- HOLY CRAP.
HOO WHOO!
- GOOD JOB, CAMP.
- GOOD JOB, ROCK.
GOOD JOB, MAN, HEY,
- EVERYBODY, GOOD JOB.
- WE DID IT.
- WHOO!
- WE DID GOOD.
AND YOU KNOW WHAT, GUYS?
I THINK WE OWE IT ALL
TO THE FANS OUT THERE
FOR ALL THESE MEMORIES.
WE HOPE YOU GUYS
HAVE CREATED MEMORIES, TOO
ALONG WITH US.
Y'ALL READY TO PARTY
LIKE IT'S 1999?
YO, JUMP!
KEEP WORKIN'!
GOOD GOD!
HEY, FELLAS,
HAPPY 20TH ANNIVERSARY.
THANKS, BRO.
HAPPY 20TH, GUYS.
- COME HERE--
- OH, GOD!
WHO WOULD HAVE THOUGH 20 YEARS AGO
WHEN WE BEGAN
THIS JOURNEY TOGETHER
THAT THIS WOULD BE
A STOP ALONG THE WAY.
BACKSTREET BOYS!
BACKSTREET BOYS!
LET'S GO NOW!
'CAUSE YOU KNOW THAT--
WAY BACK Y'ALL.