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Being Us (2014)
Very, very important thing
because you always have to be a good girl. And you always have to be a very, very, very good person. Who is it? I work here. Someone scared me. I had to hide. I guess they're gone now. Will you be nice to me? I tried the doors, but everything's locked. I thought I might have to sleep here. You won't. Thank you mister. Bye-bye. You're gonna get such a rush you'll go right down that stairs. Oh yeah. Oh yeah. We've all gotten fucked up on that stuff, darling. Oh butternut, we're practically there. What are you looking at? I don't know. Hey. Let's see some skin. Do you know that it is illegal to eat chicken with a fork in Gainsburg? Well... Gainsburg... I'll tell you one thing I do know. A gentleman should keep his eagerness in check. What lying fuck told you I was a gentleman, huh? Look, I need a lover with a slow hand like that old song. For fuck's sake, give me a fucking break. Would you please? Just get down there. There we go. Huh? Huh? Fucking motherfucker. Fuck your mother. - What the.... - Motherfucker. What did you just fucking say? What did you just fucking say? My mother? No, please, please, please don't hurt me. Please. No? Please. Please don't hurt me. Why don't you talk shit now, huh? Why don't you talk about my mother now? How about you get the fuck out of here, you piece of shit, huh? How about that? Fuck you. Nah, shit. Fuck. Hey. Hey bitch, you forgot something! Double tequila, a beer, and the lady will have... Um, bourbon. Get your fucking hands off of me! Fucking crazy? Touch me again, I'll tear your balls off, motherfucker. I swear to God I fucking will. Ok, let's go, let's go. Fuck you. Fucking maniac. Asshole! I just do not know how they get like that. Sure you do. I'm not feeling well. I think I should go. Fine. Back tomorrow at 7. Are you okay? Don't make it worse. I won't. Promise. Just don't involve yourself in what doesn't concern you, please. You know, normally I wouldn't. It's just, I know that look. I see it every day as part of my work. And I've caught myself staring like them more often than I liked to admit. I might be able to help. Or at least distract you. Okay, but I'm not... I should give you this, too. I'm Walker. Margaret. It's good to meet you. Yeah, likewise. I should be going. Would you like some company? No. Not just now. You won't humor me? I've never humored anyone in my life. Ha. Humor me. It's cozier here. It's just more... it's a cozy vibe. Yeah. Yeah, I... I really didn't think you'd call. Well, neither did I. I don't normally accost women on the street, but you, you seemed pretty down. Not a great night, but I've had worse. You going through a rough time? Things have been interesting. Mm-hm. Leave it at that. I don't mean to pry. It's a bad habit. Big part of my job. Are you a detective? Social worker. Yeah I find the people with the most trouble are usually the least likely to talk about it. What about you? Loads of a trouble and a complete unwillingness to talk about it. No... No, I mean, what do you do for a living? I'm a receptionist. Cool. Very exciting. I don't know. A boring job might lead to an incredible inner life. Blah. People are complex. Ah, I don't know if I believe that. I think people are a lot less complicated than they like to believe. Ah, the reductionist school of human psychology. Mm-hm. In real life, it comes down to who gets to do and who gets it done to them. So, we're just animals. Exactly. Even Shakespeare? Just a real clever primate? You're hiding from me. Do you even know why you're here? I think I'm here to ask you out on a very serious date. Okay. On one condition. What? That you state your intentions, right here, right now. Can I have a couple minutes to figure out what my intentions are? Two minutes. Okay. Starting now. Shit. You got nothing. I got nothing. No. You need three minutes? I need a few more. I was expecting that answer. Yeah... Mind if I take just one more look? I just can't believe that my kids are gone. It's just until you get back on your feet. Then they can come back. You heard the judge. They're never coming back. She's probably right, you know. She'll never get those kids back. Yeah, but that's bullshit. That's what I'm saying. It's not your job to tell her that. Come on, you're there to help her navigate, not to promote an outcome. There's no doubt in my mind that she loves those kids. Love is one of many significant factors. Yes, but it's a goddamn significant one. Listen, listen if you want to keep sane doing field work, you gotta concentrate on the broader context. That, that, that's not enough. Well, that's all you can do. No, I, damn it, I don't believe that. That woman today, she needed a lifeline. You jump in trying to save her, you both end up drowning. Walker, keep a safe distance. Document the pain, don't share it. Oh great. That makes me a cipher. No, it makes you a social worker. You want to be a hero, go join the fire department. If it makes you feel any better, your job is a lot tougher. I know. Checkmate. Bitch. Huh. I'm a not sure I know how to exactly respond to this. Maybe the idea is to make you feel destabilized. Huh. Ah. Um, not sure I really need any help with that. I know how you feel. Oh, they say he was a genius. I know. It also says he went completely nuts. You ever wonder if that'll happen to you? No. No, I'm not, uh, I'm not gifted like that. I intend to lead a very long, safe, uninteresting life. Hmm. No drama? No. I've seen enough drama. I'm ready for easy laughs and barbecue. Well that sounds like a perfectly respectable fantasy. What do you think of barbecue? Yeah, yeah. I like it. I do. Cool. You have a special place you want to take me? Hmm? You gonna show me something pretty and just ravish me, willing or not? What? Cause I'm no stranger to what men want. Where'd this southern belle come from? Uh, somewhere you don't want to know about. I have to go. I don't know what's happening. Wait. Let me give you a ride. Some other time. So, uh. What exactly did I do to mess up the other night? I just. I think we should just, you know, chalk it up to a mixed signal. Okay. Anyway, I'm real glad you decided to investigate further. Me, too. Yeah. You ever been married? No. No, I've been, been close. Couple times, you know, but... Didn't quite work out? Nah. No, I uh-- the women in my life has always been problematic. Ah. Guess there's nothing more compelling than a woman with a tragic problem right? You make it sound like I didn't care about them. No, it's just you know, people that like to fix things just make me a little nervous. That's all. Well, I think I'm done fixing things. So, you ever been down the aisle? Only in criminal court. Is that true? No. All right. What's behind door number 2? Nothing much. Just storage. Behind a padlock? That's just, where I keep my art supplies. I had no idea you were an artist. I mean just because I have art supplies doesn't exactly make me an artist. Maybe that isn't for you to say. It's just, you know, it's something I do when I need to kill time. Mm-hm. No, I'm not buying it. You don't keep a casual hobby behind a padlock. I can't put one over on you, can I? You just don't seem all that apathetic to me, that's all. Yeah, you are right. 'Cause I am about as apathetic as a train wreck. I want to know about you. Yeah? Hmm? Momma didn't love you? Hmm? Aw, you look like a digger of shallow graves. What about you, huh? Southern belle, a wounded bird. I'm all of it. What's wrong? I don't. What's wrong? No, I don't. Yeah, you do. No, not like this. Yeah you do. Not like this. Not like this. I don't want us to be a fling, okay? Well, that's gonna be hard on you. Is this your other girlfriend? No. Okay. Okay. Sorry. She was my sister. Was? She died about 15 years ago. Oh. I'm sorry. Me, too, but it happens. What about you? Your family around here? Uh, no. Not a happy story like mine? Hmm. You're perceptive. I like that about you. Ready to go? Always. This is a little unreal. I take it you don't get out of the city much. The city doesn't like me to get out much. What exactly does that mean? Well... you really don't want me to know anything about you, do you? Ah, come on. That's not true. I just want to control what you know about me. Ah, well at least you're honest sort of. I'm totally honest about that. People show what they want to show. Yeah, regardless of how many questions I ask. Exactly. I think I'm afraid. This is the part you should be enjoying. I am. Even though you make it sound like a bomb is gonna explode as soon as I get close to you. That's what you're afraid of? Not really. I think I'm afraid that it'll go off before we really get a chance to know each other. The fuse is lit. Hey. You Okay? You want to share something deep, but I don't have anything for you. Why not? Because every night I-I-I-I sit here and I read and it's just like the room just keeps getting smaller and--and darker and there's--there's, there's someone putting a hand over my mouth. Then I go out. We all go through tough times. Not like this. Not like this. You don't know. You don't know. Okay. I don't. I don't know, but I don't plan on ducking out, okay? Any offer will be considered, huh? Oh. Working condition right there, excellent item. You can see around the corner with it. See into the future. Find out who's she with, huh. It's, I'm telling ya, bub, is the right tool for the job. Come on man, make an offer. Make an offer. Hey. Hi. You ready for Chinese? Yeah. I want to show you something. Come on. Okay. These... These are... These are amazing. No, don't say that. No, no, no. Don't say anything. I wanted you to see. I'm glad you changed your mind. That one's for you. I... Will you take it? I...I...yes. Yes. Yes. It's beautiful. It's beautiful. Beautiful isn't the point. Then what's the point? To make you forget everything that you know about me. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Fucker. Fuck. Damn it. Fucking miserable fuck. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Put it in her. Fuck her. Come on. That's what you're fucking her for, right, motherfucker? 'Cause you always have to be a good girl. And you always have to be a good person. You've got to find the good in everything that you do today, whatever you think is necessary. Hey! No! No! This is not for you! What is this? I'm sleepy. I feel like there's a conversation for us to have. I'm tired. I want to sleep. Okay. We'll just sleep. Okay. We both know you're spotted, okay? So-- oh come on. How long have you been doing this? I'm not gonna call the cops. Okay, well... All right, I'm going inside. I'm going home now. You, uh, want to come in for some tea? I've got this herbal pervert blend you might like. It's really perverted, like truly. I ran out of milk, but I have sugar. It's hot. Mmm. I feel like I should be afraid of you. I could never... I'm, I'm not that type. Um, do you get off out there? Hmm? Do you watch me have sex? No. I mean, yes, I've been watching, but no, I don't. Outside, it's cold. I just learn. You save it for later? Are you going to do it again? I mean, now that, now that you've been caught, do you think it's still gonna work for you? I don't know. I'm not sure it'll be the same. Well, do you think you love me? I love watching you try to survive. Feels like we're miles away, doesn't it? Yeah. I come out here, I feel like the only, the only living soul on Earth. Ah, that's good. And I listen to the quiet. It's a good thing. I need to know about that thing with the lighter. That's the way I put it-- Don't--don't-- don't-- don't dodge me on this one. The uh, lighter belonged to my mother. It's the only heirloom I've got. The burning happens when I need to be reeled in. Okay. What about what happened with us? I-I don't even know what that came from. Mm-hm. That, that, that sex wasn't something that you did to me, okay. It was something that we did. I know. I know, but... Together. it's just, it's not how it's supposed to be. That's... That's how people respond to me. Has it always been like that? Mostly. But I think it might be different this time. Good. Jesus. Will you stop that, please? You wanted me to see you. Hello? Sorry. I'm used to... I'm not very good at this. Pretty dress. It's uh, for a party with the man I'm seeing. You want to go? I'm uh, not really looking to expand my social circle. He seems nicer than the other ones. How long have you been watching? Since that night at the bar. I held onto this for you. That other guy threw it out into the street. It was you. It was, it was, it was you he was yelling at, wasn't it? You saw. He was getting rough with you. Yeah, yeah. Woulda messed me up. But this one sends you flowers. I know. I should go to the party and give it a chance. It's just... Terrifying to really want something. I'll tell ya what. Why don't you hold onto that? Okay. So, you uh ready to start showing me off? Oh, it's about time I managed to impress somebody. Famous last words. Hey, if you're not having fun, we'll cut out of here, okay? I'm not having fun. Walker! John. Hey, this is Margaret. Margaret, this is Dr. John Madrone. Very nice to meet you, Dr. John Madrone. Not even my patients call me that. Okay. Wow, you are beautiful just like Walker said. What on Earth are you doing with him? Don't trust him. He's a mental health professional. He's paying me. Shh. Come on. That's great. I can't eat another bite. It's delicious. Ah, thanks very much. I'm glad you liked it. Not hungry, Frank? Mm-hm. So, I went by Franklin's office today and he wasn't there. Shock. He never is. But when I went to the faculty lounge they told me he'd been in a shouting match with the Dean of Students. Over the accusations? Oh let's just say the academics are never all that excited about being the subject of investigation, are we, Franklin? Well, none of us are really. Oh, but I did finally find him, though. You wanna know where? In one of the undergraduate cafeterias, holding court and lecturing about faculty feudalism. I'm guessing that you are some kind of artist. With your extreme intuition about these things? Oh you can't tell me she doesn't have a certain air about her. So, you're a sculptor. Uh. I uh, huh, I'm, I'm, I'm not sure it's a title that um, well I, I, I didn't, I didn't know that uh, Walker had shared that about me. Whoops. Looks like you blew it, man. Oh no. It's not a secret. Um, it's just a hobby. I certainly don't care if anybody refers to me as an artist. That's very refreshing. If only more people were content with their place instead of always straining to what, what, what is it now to, to reinvent themselves? Oh, that's a pretty easy thing for a man in your position to say, isn't it? I mean, tenure, status. He has achieved a certain measure of infamy. I'll grant you that. Absolutely. I might add... Yes, not many educators need to keep an attorney on retainer. My husband is a special man. So, what is that you do when you're not defying classification? I listen to people experiencing their own importance, and, uh, it's fascinating. Spoken like a bitter shop girl. Uh-uh, especially middle class intellectuals. Or so you've observed when you're sitting in your room with your little putty knife and your strained imagination. Really, honey, you should mind your table manners. Ladies, we're approaching a breach of civility. Ha. I won't hold out much hope, though. Polite conversation is a lost art to your generation. You don't seem to want to take your own advice. I think maybe we could all use a little refresher course in that one. Further evidence of cultural collapse. You see, contemporary parents are so terrified of inflicting trauma that they've completely forgotten the application of discipline. Ah, yeah. I'd hate to think of what a child would learn at your knee. Education comes often in surprising forms. What about all the parents out there don't know their ass from their elbow? Well, I suppose they keep you social workers employed. We often fail to protect our kids. That's a salient point. Well, I'm not so sure that protecting children should be our first priority. After all, the traditionally the role of children was to serve the family. You mean, like at a sweatshop, or would you rather have them closer to home, you know, mom needs a maid. Dad needs a little plaything. Hmm? Yeah. And you've seen it all, I gather. You feel like getting some air? Uh-uh. Uh-uh. Playing the victim certainly is handy when claiming the moral high ground, isn't it? What the fuck would you know, huh? Huh? What the fuck would you know, bitch? - Fuck you. - Margaret, wait. Fuck you, man. Hey, hey, wait, Margaret. Don't you dare follow me. Fuck you. I'll fuck you on the table, bitch. Fuck. She's moody. No, you're moody. I think she may be something a little more advanced. Look, sometimes she... sometimes she acts a little different, okay. Different? How much do you know about Margaret? How much should I know? I know how I feel about her. You know how you want to feel. Do you know if she's receiving any sort of treatment? She hasn't mentioned anything. Any medication? I don't know. Walker, something's pretty wrong here. I mean, she picks a fight. No, no. She did not pick that fight. When she gets it, she just erupted like that. I can see that she's very lovely, but she seems to be in a lot of pain. Can you do anything to help her? I don't think this is something I should be involved with. She doesn't strike me as the kind of woman who has a lot of options, John. All right. All right. If she's willing, send her to me and I'll see her once. Try and make some kind of basic diagnosis. Maybe I can, I can refer her to a specialist. Alright. Now, I'm going to ask you something and you're not going to like it. Why am I with her? People don't stay with someone above their level of health. Maybe I'm not. Well, she does seem to fit all your normal criteria. Don't make her out to be a tendency, Okay? She's a person. You are reenacting the same relationship over and over. Yeah, kinda like this conversation. Yeah, like the one with the Vicodin. She turned out to be a real charmer. Honey. Maybe we should talk about where this starts, with Elizabeth. No, you never knew my sister. The way you tried to keep her alive a long time past when she wanted to get out. Don't try to pin me with some bullshit diagnosis. Margaret needs me. And whatever it is that's fucking eating at her, she is fighting it and I'm gonna help her fight. All right. All right. A gentleman, mm-mm-mm. Did you know that the door was invented 4,000 years ago by the Egyptians? Of course, no one knows who invented the lock. Nice wallpaper. Hi. Did you know that tiger shark embryos will fight in their momma's womb and only the survivor is born? And I'm gonna fuck you in the ass. Yeah. Yeah. Sweetie, I'm not one to judge, but if you want to make this happen, you will come in the front like a gentleman. Wipe your feet before you do. What is this? It's for us. It protects the rug. Why don't we go into the bedroom? I'm assuming your fine establishment has a bed. No, no, no I prefer to do it right here. Right here. No. I want to fuck you hard right in the ass. Why don't you take me to the bed and I'll show you. Right here. I said here. No, no, no, no, no. No! Here! When's your wife get back, huh? When did she leave? This morning? You have time to do all the nasty shit that she doesn't do, huh? You get undressed right now. No, no, no, man, I don't fuck on towels, and I don't fuck guys that make deals with themselves that everything's okay so long as it's not in the wife's bed. Bitch. Please don't. Please. I'm going to tell someone. I'm gonna tell your wife. Don't! Do as I say. Don't. Do as I say or I'll hurt you. Don't. Just say yes. Just say yes. Say yes! Say yes! That's good. That's good. Yeah, yeah. Right here in front of the steps, all right. Right on the fucking steps. Get away from me! Open this door! Fuck off! Look, this is gonna be much worse for you if I have to break down this door. Open it. You ain't gonna break down shit. How're you gonna explain that to your wife, motherfucker, huh? How're you going to explain that to your fucking wife? Stop talking about my wife! Fuck you! It's safe. See if you can get her to come to the office. Thank you. Good luck. Hey, are you okay? Okay. What? Can I help you? Yeah, I'm looking for Margaret. Look, I was told she's here. She's in there. You know, you know your friend's highly unstable. It was an ordinary evening between consenting adults and she grew frightened. Margaret? You in there? It's Walker. Are you okay? I want you to know that if she's hurt, I'm gonna break your goddamn neck. Can we just go? This. There's no pretending that didn't happen. And at John's, I mean that didn't even feel like you. And the southern one? She's a part of me, too. Are there others? Yeah. Which one of them took you to that asshole's apartment? I'm so sorry. I'm so sorry. I should have told you. But you didn't. But, I just, I, I thought that we could be something else. Is it over? Is it over? Is that how you want this to go? I... You don't know me. You don't know me. I did things you wouldn't like. Tell me. I go out. And I-- I give everything away. To the worst kind of people. Just, men without conscience. You fuck 'em? Everything. You enjoy it? That's not the point. Why? That's not the point. Why? 'Cause it's the only fucking way I know how to keep breathing. Look, I don't want to leave, okay? But I am not going to just stay here and watch you fall to pieces. I can't make promises. Don't you know that? I can't make any promises. I can't make any kind of guarantees. You can get some help, okay? You can get some fucking help. What? Nothing's going to change. No, no, no. Don't you know that? Nothing's going to change. No, no, no, Madrone is willing to see you, okay, as a favor. No, I made it this far, haven't I? I've come this far without some quack, you know, digging through my fucking head. I'm living life. Yes, yes, but couldn't it be a little more peaceful? Ah. Peaceful, yeah. Maybe you mean normal? No, no... I mean less, less, less dangerous. Ah. Fuck. I'll see what he has to say. Okay. Who was it who called me from your house? To tell me where you'd gone tonight? Guess you're not the only one who's looking after me. I suppose I should thank you for offering to see me, but I'm not sure any good could come of this. It's not such an uncommon feeling. Mmm. Let me ask you this. Is there anything going on right now that you might want help with? Feelings or impulses that upset you? Well, yeah. Yeah. Once a month, I want to kill my landlord. More extreme than that. For example, you're looking at someone else's life, you hate what they do. Only it turns out, you're watching yourself. No. What about the party the other night? Business as usual? No. But it is, isn't it? It happens all the time. You don't know a fucking thing. I think maybe I do. I think you should get some of that bullshit and shove it up your ass. There's a part of you that wants all of this to stop. A part that wants to get better. Am I right? Go fuck yourself. In a moment, that person that wants to get well again will speak with me. Nuh-uh. Okay. Are you the one that wants to get better? I don't know. What's your name? Millie. How old are you, Millie? I'm seven. May I ask you some questions? Yeah. Okay. Are there more of you inside, Margaret? Uh-uh. How many? You and three others? Yeah. Do they do things that you don't like? Lisa Mae, she um, she, she dresses up and she goes outside. She, she does things with men. So, like, I go inside. Where it's safe? Yeah. What else don't you like? Tig is mean. People get mad at us. Does that scare you? What else? Corrine. What does Corrine do? My arm. What about your arm? My arm, she hurts my arm. She hurts my arm. Oh, Millie. I'm so sorry. That must hurt. I'm sorry. Millie, thank you very much for helping me. It was nice to meet you and I look forward to speaking with you again soon, but right now, I need to speak with Margaret again. Will you let me do that? Okay. Thank you. Margaret? Yes. Did you know about the ones inside? Did you know that they make you do things that hurt you? Yeah, I--I know. I hear them. And I see the things they do. It's called Dissociative Identity Disorder, Multiple Personality. What's the treatment? I refer you to a specialist who helps people with DID. He helps you reintegrate the parts of yourself that have splintered off. He's very good and I can ask him if he can offer you a sliding scale. What happens to them? Well, if the treatment is successful, they'll... they'll let go. They'll dissolve. You want me to let them die? No. No, integration isn't death. How would you like it if the people you shared your life with for 30 years were taken away from you? Huh? Your friends. Your, your, your siblings, your wife? It isn't like that. It is. It is like that. I know. They're all I know. They're all I know. I live with them every day. They're all I know. This treatment can make you happy and stable. I've seen it happen. No, No. You see what you think is important. Margaret, you can have a real relationship instead of just, just-- Relationship through your eyes, you know I've seen some of your relationships and frankly I don't think I trust your judgment. Okay, what about Walker? Walker? Well I can tell by this fancy office that you're smart enough to leave us alone. Hey. I've been waiting for you at your place. Look, if you want me to go, I'll go. Ask me. Listen... Would you stop, stop trying to do the right thing. Okay? Just ask me. How'd it go? Not as you might've hoped. Oh God, don't. Don't make me out to be the asshole, Okay? My God, you've been lying to me for as long as I've known you. No, I never lied to you. Yeah, you never told me more than half the fucking truth. If I told you how it was, up front, would you have stayed? I know you want to fix me. You don't want me. You want some cleaned up fucking stripped out version of me. Get the fuck out of here. Did you call Walker? You called Walker, didn't you? Oh my God, you're a fucking stalker, okay? How's about some boundaries? Fuck off! Please! Oh yeah, you are. Is that what you think? Absolutely, that's exactly what I think. Oh! Fired your housekeeper, huh? Well, it's so hard to find good help these days. Oh, I hear you. ...installations of bath tubs is prohibited by law. Is that right? It is. Didn't know that, did you? I did not know that. Uh-uh. I've got something for you. Yeah, I bet you do, don't you? Mm-hm. What is this? Open it up. You said you liked cocktails. I made a special cocktail. It's going to make everything better. Even this place? It's gonna make this place into a fucking palace. Shortest distance between two points. Solve all your problems. All of 'em, at once. You don't know anything about my problems. Well, the precise nature of your suffering is irrelevant. All that bullshit that's crowding you out of your own head just dissolves. You empty out inside. And there's room for receptivity. Sounds like I've been waiting for this for a long time. Yeah, I bet you have. Let me see your arm here. Come here. What is this? Yeah, it's, uh, just part of my 401k. Just one big transaction, huh? Buy low, sell high. I tell you something, any woman in their right mind, would just be running out this door, but not me. No, you didn't run, did you? I did not run. Well, God makes us, and we find each other. How much you gonna give me? Enough to help you forget. Does it hurt? No. No, it doesn't hurt. Feels good. How long does it take? A couple seconds. Hmm. Did you know in 1924... never mind. You ready to mainline? Isn't that God's own medicine? Go with it. Just let the river take you. It's going to take you anyways. You watch. Fuck. What're you doing? Pursuit of happiness, baby. No, no, stay down. This is where you need to be right now. You owe me for the scab 'cause I always square up here. Oh, my balls. Fuck, you bitch. Fuck. Get away from me. Oh no, no, no, no. Easy now. Back off. No regrets now. Come on. I'm gonna open you up. No. Would you just fucking relax? This is all so dramatic. Oh. Oh yeah. Well, I guess I won't be making us breakfast after all. What happened? No. What happened? That's the important thing. You always have to be... No. No. Stop. Stop. No. Stop. No. No. No. I can't do this anymore. You don't have to, baby. You don't. You're going to be okay. You're going to be okay. We are not okay. We will never be okay. How can you say that? How can you know? Because the men in our life are killing us and since you, it's gotten even worse. This isn't Margaret, is it? I only want to finish what the lot of you have started. You want to kill yourself? I'm already ruined. There's no recovering from this. No. No. No. Bullshit. You're not being fair. Okay? No, no. You're not being fair to any of them or to me. You want to rescue someone. You want to rescue someone. Is that what you want to do? You can't save us. You can't save us from each other. No, I won't let you No! No! I won't let you. I am no longer willing to endure the humiliation brought on us by the whore. And I will no longer pay credence to the whining of a child or the grinning filth of an adolescent idiot. Babe, if you just, you've got to give it time and then work with the specialist. Time? Time? We were a child when this started. When it was allowed to start. Our mother in the next room, the next county. Our first man, her man. I want you to leave. I want you to leave. No. I want you to leave. No. No. No. Not unless Margaret tells me to, okay? I want to talk to Margaret. Yeah. Margaret, is that you? I'm so sorry. I'm so sorry, but I can't imagine life without them. I can't imagine life without them. They're family. It would mean so much to me if you could see how much we need this. If you could see that you, you, you have to, you have to let me do this. No. Yeah, you do. I'm just supposed to say okay and then walk out? And let you die? This is the one thing left in the world that I really want. Do you love me enough to let me do this? Um, I'm going. I'm going to go for a cup of coffee. You wanna? No. I might be gone for a while. I... I know. What the fuck is wrong with you? Yes, hi, um-- I have an emergency. No, I uh, there's a woman here who's unconscious. She's--yes, she took pills. Uh, uh, Oxycodone. I don't know. Ten minutes. I just got here. Here is, uh, 1429 Stogman Avenue. Apartment 4. It's her apartment. I'm her...friend. There's no... yes, yes, I will. McNair, Surgery 5. Dr. McNair, Surgery 5. She's gonna be okay. Excuse me? I called you. Who are you? I'm uh, I'm her uh... her friend. A friend? We just... drink tea. Was it you who called the paramedics? Why didn't you? I was trying to let her choose. She is in so much pain. I don't have the right to hold her here just for me. But thank you. Have you been in to see her yet? She'll be mad at me. Maybe. She'll want you. Maybe not. Take care of her. If she'll let you. She won't. This belongs to her. I think she might be ready to have it back. It was him, huh? He got me here? Yeah. I'm glad it wasn't you. I'm glad you're not dead. I wish I could say the same. I guess you can't, though. Well, you know how this ends up. Nothing's changed. Yes, it has. I accept you. I'm with you. You're out of your fucking mind. I know. Might be time for you to call you a cab. No, no, I just live a couple blocks away. Suit yourself, but my guy'll help you to the door. You're sweet. What's your name? I'm uh, I'm Jeff. Well, it's nice to meet you, Jeff. Thank you for your kindness. Wait! It's just a thought Running through my mind It don't mean A thing to you It doesn't affect What you do Go on with your life All the day to day to day Affecting A very small change In a land that's not safe I don't wanna do it Without you I don't wanna be Without you When will this change When will this change I don't wanna do it Without you I just can't live Without you babe It's all been explained It's all that you can do You've picked up The things that you found And put them back in row Pieces again You almost can disguise You never know What you can do In this line That you flow yeah I don't wanna do it Without you I don't wanna be Without you When will this change When will this change I don't wanna do it Without you I just can't live Without you babe Live without you babe Live without you babe Live without you babe Can't live without you babe I can't live Without you babe I can't live Without you babe |
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