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Benjamin (2018)
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(slow music) I caught you watching me under the light Can I be light They say it's easy To leave you behind I don't want to try Couldn't recall that day All courage to project Don't want to wait for you Don't want to have to lose All that I compromised To feel a love that high - I mean, come on, now, how old is he? - 20. - He looks about 12. - Well, he wasn't. - Do you love him? - Oh my god. - Well, I had to say it first, though, didn't I? - I said it back very quickly. - One of politeness. What's your fantasy? - What's my fantasy? - Hence. - I don't know, I'm just, just happy to be alive. - [Benjamin] No, no, that's too dangerous. - No, what's the, you want me to dress up or something? Maybe I could tie you to a chair, what about that? - Yeah, that's the thing, like a kidnapper, it would be like a kidnapper. - And then what? - Demand a ransom, call your family and demand a ransom? - You need to find some way to get over yourself, or you're gonna end up alone. - I think, I think I love you, it took a while because if we believe that the self is an illusion-- - What does that mean? - I don't know, that we're, you know, it's physics. - Okay, look, what do those words mean? And you put words to it, I mean, like, I, what is that supposed to be, I mean, I-- - Yeah, yeah, yeah, listen, listen, listen, - What I feel is that we are love. That's the thing, there's no separation, I'm you, you're me, I'm the the table-- - Do you love the table, do you love me more than the table, or the same? - It's all, I don't know what I'm trying to say. - How about you just go fuck the table? - [Benjamin] What's wrong with it? - Nothing. - Was it too funny? - I don't think so. - Would it be insane if I'd made it black and white? Where's he going? (door slams) Maybe we should just, or what if, I don't know. - Ben, it's really good. - Shouldn't I just keep one of the scenes with the monk? Just one, I feel like I've made something about a couple who don't get on. - It's about a man who's so defended that he's incapable of love, isn't it? - Say that again? - Look, what about if we just looked - We're picture locked, why do we need a monk? - I just don't know who I am if this isn't good. Maybe it's not as good, I just want someone to say, you've done a good thing, now you can rest, just rest. - Okay, why don't you come and sit down for a minute? Come on. - [Benjamin] Maybe I could be a farmer. - Maybe. - How is this, compared to-- - Don't do that. Look, some people will quite like it, and other people won't be that into it. - And then, quite soon enough, all of those people, each and every one of them, will die, won't they? - All of them? - We're all going to die. - We're all going to die. Is that better? (slow piano music) - Hello, baby. (slow piano music) (cat meows) (slow piano music) We're all right, aren't we? (slow music) - Everything is dominated by one's self. (slow music) You are defined, not loved. (slow music) Then what? (slow music) To be awakened, to be free is to see there is no self. Can we sit in meditation? Find out who we really are. (slow music) (cash register beeps) (cashier mumbles) - [Television] Get out of my lighthouse, TJ, show these people out. (Benjamin retches) - [Benjamin] Well, what do you suggest? (door buzzes) Hello? - [Benjamin] Yes, come on up, Billy, yeah, come on. (stove clicks) (door knocks) (door bangs) Hi, come on in. - Hi, Benjamin, I am so late. - [Benjamin] No, no, no, you're not late, come on in, hiya. - God, you're quite far out, aren't you? I had to get the tube, which was-- - [Benjamin] Well, thanks for coming to meet, it's great. - Horrific. - [Benjamin] Excuse me, Tim. - No, god, no, I just had a bit of an emergency - Yeah, I thought something smelled a bit odd. - No, it's fine, it's not overwhelming. Is it a big cat? Try one, try one with a smile. - [Billy] Just try one, and then you've got the choice. - [Tim] Can you just pull that, just pull that bit of hair down? - I don't know, no, I don't really-- - [Tim] Fuck it, all right, okay, that then. - [Billy] That's the, that's it. - [Billy] No, what you just did. - Okay. - [Billy] But, like, that expression, like, laugh, laugh. - Laugh? - [Tim] Yeah, sort of nose up a bit. - [Tim] Yeah, yes, and the, and the sort of window. - [Billy] Can you, like, your nostrils look quite big. - I'm not, I mean, I'm not flaring them. And the other one down, by, on your knee, yeah. - [Tim] That's really good, that's really good. - Yeah. Should we talk about the film, just to-- - Yeah, and maybe that will, cool. I really just need, like, two lines for the top of the press release. Should we say it's about an, I don't want to say an abusive relationship, would you say difficult? - Well, I don't know, I think maybe we should focus more on the loss of self-esteem that comes from being, you know. - So loss of, loss of self-esteem. - [Billy] Loss of, loss of self-esteem. - Should we try and get some with the award in the shot? - Yes, yes. - [Benjamin] Well, really? to be like it was there's this thing I won seven years ago-- - Couldn't we open a window? It's been quite a while since Happy came out, which I loved, by the way, as you know. - Thank you. - I guess people will want to know why. - Yeah, well, I think it just took me a while to come up with something I wasn't, I don't know, I think when people say that they like what you've done, it's best to just stop doing it, Ideally, I'd have just made that film, and died. Is that not a good answer? - Should we just say you're a perfectionist? Ugh, do you know what, I'm gonna have to get this, I'm really sorry. - That's okay. - Martha, I'm in the cab right now, yeah. Sorry, he took longer than I thought. No, he was yesterday. He lived alone. Small. Okay, yeah, all right, love you, bye. Do you know Martha Franklin? - No, I don't really know anyone. - She's having a thing on Friday to launch her new chairs, you should come, I'll put your name down. I don't really like going anywhere I haven't been before. - Do you have any wine, is it too early for wine? - I don't really drink. - What? - Sorry, I don't know, would you, what about, do you want some cocaine? - Oh, no, no, no, sorry, I'm joking, I've got coconut water. - [Stephen] It's a chair party? - [Benjamin] It's the launch of a chair. (background noise drowns out speaker) - All right. Pretty sure it's up here. Ow, what are you doing? - So frigid. - So I'll start, you're not allowed to touch me. - No, please do not touch me. (slow music) - You go in, I'll-- - No, what, come on. - [Stephen] It's a children's party-- - Benjamin, you came. - [Benjamin] Oh, yeah, of course we did. - [Stephen] We're in the past. - [Benjamin] We're not in the past. - Hi, I'm Billy. - Stephen. - Stephen's a comedian. - Oh-- - Really? - I'm not funny. - Okay, great, so it's all quite arty, and young in there, but with such great (mumbles), I don't think it's gonna be a problem. - [Harry] Oh (mumbles), Benji! - [Benjamin] Harry, what are you? Oh, you made it. (overlapping chatter) Oh my god, you did a film together. - Hey, I like, I like your clothes. - Thank you, yeah, thank you. - You know I invented Harry, right? - Oh, are you two-- - [Billy] What are you doing? - Harry's not someone who likes to define things, or be specific about words that mean things. of the day, and go, there's some table tennis tables in my local park, and there's a Sports Direct nearby, why don't we just get some bats and balls, and play table tennis? - Yeah. - [Billy] Do you drink, oh, no, of course not, what about you, beer wine? - I'm trying not to drink in a week. - [Billy] Why? - [Stephen] Vodka coke? - I'd really like that it's not something you'd want to sit on. - Oh, thank you. - [Billy] There's nothing I can get you? - Ben-- - Do they have water? - [Man Wearing Hat] Hey, Billy. - Oh, gosh, you're just, like, (mumbles). - [Billy] Try to be cool. - Sorry. (Stephen coughs) - He has a cough. - I'm fine. (slow guitar music) - What is it, what's happening? Why be so shy Come and swim in the park with - [Benjamin] Who's that singer man? Can I watch you play, it's not safe to - Could I do anything to make him want to be with me? - Definitely say that to him, maybe lose the coat. It was really good to see you, meet you, Henry. - Stephen, I knew that, with a V. - P-H. - Good for you. And I don't want to go if you don't come I don't want to leave you here with him Don't make me go But you're braver than you think you are I can meet the monster once a week Just you and me - Can we, can we sit down somewhere? Only me It's only now All the time he'd fade and die the light You know there's something that I'd like - How old is he, do we think? - I don't think we should dwell on it. - Okay. - He's very good looking. - Oh, god, he's ridiculous. I should never have left the flat. That's just it, look, here it is again, the thin boy on stage. - Yeah, you just like people who are well-lit and weak, don't you? (slow music) Oh, oh, oh, oh - Maybe I should wait until the film's out, and I have some sort of success again. - Well, maybe you should talk to him before, just in case. - That film's all I've got. - Just go and speak to him. - Will he laugh at me? - No. - Okay, come on. I can be yours - You go, I'll hold the fort. - What fort are you holding? Anything at all I'd be your toy I'm not the boy you think you want in your life I can be yours I can be anything at all Oh, oh, oh, oh (Benjamin and Stephen clap) Thank you. - I think he looked at me. - Are you sure it wasn't the middle distance? - Sure, it's okay, shh, shh, shh. He's just a person in a room. - [Billy] What's your name? - Yeah, I'm just trying to find my breath. - [Billy] So this is the award-winning Benjamin Oliver, this is the shockingly brilliant Noah. - Oh, Noah, like, Noah, hi, I'm Benjamin. - Hi, nice to meet you. - Great gig, man. - You're really good at singing, congratulations. - Thanks, it was kind of a mess, but. - No, you were very clean, very tight, very solid. And you're French, too, that's exciting, isn't it? - [Noah] Yeah, I suppose so. - I'm a big fantastic of Les Mis. - Oh. - Noah's studying music at Guildhall. - Oh, really, wow, that's the good one, isn't it? Have you had any drugs yet? - You should come to a screening - Oh, yes, I've made a film, I'm a film person. - My inability to love, but I'm fine now, and we're writing a musical about depression. Are you hungry, we should eat, maybe, rather than standing and talking, better to be sitting and eating, right? - I know a vegetarian place. - [Benjamin] Oh, I'm vegan. - We should get married, or for, we could just eat some vegan things. - They have veggie dumplings. - Well, we should get dumplings, then, you like dumplings, don't you? - Yeah. - Dumplings? - I can't eat dumplings. - Okay, I'll see if the band will come? - Oh, the band, they're a relief, yeah. - Okay, find you at the front? - Yes, great news, dumplings. - Oh, god. (laughs) - Well, that was horrific. - No, which was? - Put your number in that. - Okay. (slow piano music) - [Benjamin] Dumplings! (overlapping quiet chatter) - [Stephen] Well, that's how you get dumplings. (Benjamin laughs) - Sorry, it's my laugh, nothing can be done. (slow piano music) (overlapping quiet chatter) - You should probably talk to him at some point. - I think we're fine, he asked me about the asparagus. I mean, he's just trying to make friends. - Maybe he just wants to know more about asparagus. I'm gonna go to the toilet, and then I'm coming right back. and then I'm gonna ask him to move in with me. - [Noah] Hey. - Sorry, I was getting bothered at the end of the table. - Yeah, must be terrible down there. (Stephen's phone beeps) - [Noah] So, (mumbles) to me. - Oh, Stephen and I, we were just talking about the lights. - Actually, I'm gonna head off. - Sorry, I can't, I'm just tired, I'll get the next one. - I'll look after him. - Noah's looking after me. - [Stephen] Make sure he does a wee-wee before bed. Stephen, we're just eating dumplings. - [Stephen] Okay. (overlapping quiet chatter) - So. (Benjamin laughs) Why are you laughing? - I don't know. Your band are so sweet. - Yeah, they're cool. - Yeah. - They liked you. - Really? - Yeah. - Oh, that's very good. All right, well, I guess we better both go to our respective homes, and sleep, right? - Yeah. And how do I see your film? - Oh, yes, yeah, I can sort that out, I know the people, it's in two weeks. Are you free, hopefully you'll be free. Should I give you my number? - Yeah, sure. - Okay. Okay, should I say it loud, or type it in, or? - Oh, no, I don't have a pen, just. - Oh, okay. - Yeah. - All right, right. (laughs nervously) All right, I think, I think that's it, is that it? - Yeah. - Great. - Perfect. - Okay. So should we hug? - Sure. - Okay. Oh, and I (mumbles), by the way, I was mesmerised. - Be careful, there's, there's-- (car honks) - Sorry. (slow piano music) (phone rings) You missed me already? I, yes, I'm, yeah, I just need to figure out how to do that. Where do you live, or do you want, I'm just getting off the bus. (slow music) - No, no, very badly, I can juggle. (cat meows) - Oh, you have a cat. - [Benjamin] Yes, here, have a cat. I don't really have anything, do you want some water? - Yeah, yeah, sure. What is a Person, oh my god, isn't it hard enough? - Well, I haven't read that, I just thought it was a good question, who are we, you know, who are we. - Yeah. - [Benjamin] Do you want to see a bit of the film? - You can tell me if you think it's any good. - Okay. (slow music) - [Atticus] What's your fantasy? - [Benjamin] Okay, all right, then, right. - [Atticus] Tell me what you're gonna do to me. - Oh, boy, I'm, maybe I'll upset you. - How? - With my, no, you can't talk, you're not allowed to talk. Maybe I should gag you, do I have a gag? - What happens if I talk? - Oh my god. - [Benjamin] No, sorry, I-- - I don't know who I'm supposed to be. - Hey, try to do a voice. - Well, what voice should I do? - Scottish. - Here we are, then. (Noah laughs) - [Atticus] Okay, maybe not an old woman, but. - Stop saying, "Here we are," we know where we are. Would it be better if I tied you up? I'm gonna go, and I'm gonna come back again. - [Atticus] Okay. - Hello. (Noah laughs) So, what do you think, funny, sexy? - Both, both. You look kind of elfin. - Really? - Yeah. - Do you like elves? Maybe we should kiss, is that a good idea at this stage in our lives? - Are you okay? - Sorry, I'm a child of divorce. - I'm vegan, this is a dream. Do you want to talk about the divorce? - Not really-- - I was 13. - Do you know it wasn't your fault? (slow music) - Where do you want me? - Stop talking. - Okay, I'll keep, keep talking, no, no? (slow music) - Goodbye, I'm really sorry, my mum's coming over, so it's probably best if you're not here when she gets here, but it was good to meet you. - [Stephen] Sure, sure, well, maybe it's time I met your mother. - [Stephen] No, I'll be quicker. - [Stephen] That was, that was a, that was. What do you think about, maybe we should, would you like to get some dinner sometime? - What do you mean? - Well, would you like to have dinner with me? - Oh my god, I'm still seeing someone (mumbles)-- - Oh, right. The actor? - [Billy] Yeah. Why won't that little shit text me back? - [Stephen] I'm sure he will. - Cool, okay. - [Stephen] I love you. I don't, that was a joke. - Yeah, I got it. - [Stephen] Yeah. - Should we maybe not tell Benjamin about this, just 'cause it's. - It's probably not a good idea, so. - [Stephen] Yeah, good idea, yeah. Well, I'll miss you. - Is that another one? - [Stephen] Yeah. - Cool. See you. (door slams) (slow piano music) - Hey. - Hi. Sorry, I was just staring at you. I'm Benjamin. - Hi, Benjamin, I'm Noah. - What about all that sex, huh? (slow piano music) What was that? - Oh, I don't know. I like your place, it's pretty cool. - [Benjamin] Is it? - Yeah. - [Benjamin] You can take anything you want. Do you want a piano, have a piano. Okay, this is a good porridge, we're all gonna have a lovely time. What's your type, or what do you usually go for? - I always end up with geeks like you. - [Benjamin] Oh, good. - [Noah] Shit. - What happened? - Oh, there was a manager at the party, he just said he doesn't want to manage us. - [Benjamin] Oh, who is this guy, is he? - He's quite a big deal. - Well, I don't know if this is helpful, but external validation isn't everything. Like, what's, what's important is that you know that you're great. - Yeah, that isn't helpful. - Okay, I think you'll get another manager. - Yeah, sorry, I just, I just don't want to go home yet. - [Benjamin] Well, you won't, you mustn't. - Okay, listen-- - [Benjamin] Oh, no, I'll, what, oh, you don't have to eat the porridge, I don't want to pressure you into the porridge. - No, no. Is it, is it weird if we carry on hanging out? It's just that today-- - No, no, I've got nothing. No, that's, yeah, go on, what, what should we do with our lives? - We could, we could get some mushrooms. - Magic mushrooms, or just mushrooms? - Magic mushrooms. - Yeah, that sounds, that sounds fun, let's get some of those mushrooms. - [Noah] Yeah? - Cool, so we eat the porridge-- - Oh, fuck the porridge. No, no, we'll eat the porridge. - Okay. (slow music) Did you hear that? - Oh, shit. (Benjamin and Noah laugh) That's, like, oh my god. The continental breakfast thing, I don't understand what that means. What does that, I mean. What are, what are they trying to suggest? Oh my god, where's she going, where's she going? I'm gonna have to touch your hair, is that okay? (slow music) - [Noah] Yeah. - Oh my god. (slow music) - Yes, we will get water, how will we do this? (slow music) Shop. (slow music) Okay, shh, shh. (slow music) - [Benjamin] You want those ones? - Yes. (slow music) - [Benjamin] Hey. - Yeah, that sounds reasonable, one pound 20. (slow music) There you are, money for the water. There's money for the water. (laughs) - Oh my god. (slow music) We can't go in shops. - [Noah] You know, you are quite funny. - [Benjamin] Am I? but then I lived with someone who didn't laugh, - [Noah] Why did you live with someone who didn't laugh? - [Benjamin] I don't know, I thought it was better than dying alone. (Noah laughs) (slow music) Isn't it weird Isn't it strange Even though we're just strangers On this runaway train We were trying to find A place in the sun But we lived in the (horn honks) (traffic rumbles) - [Photographer] Over here. (overlapping chatter) To your left, yeah, (mumbles), thanks, just smile, thanks. - All right? (overlapping chatter) - Oh, hi, how are you? - Yeah, I'm okay, thanks, yeah, yeah. Are you excited about the film? - Why are you being weird? - You didn't tell Ben, did you? - 'Cause you know nothing's gonna happen, right? - Okay, well it was good to see you. - Okay. - Now, you're being weird, surely you can see that. - Well, why, I haven't done anything. Can we start again? I like your outfit. - You're being really creepy. - [Billy] Okay, so serious, god, I was just saying. - [Billy] Martha, yeah, I'm in the cab now. (overlapping chatter) - What are you doing? - Just have to meditate. - Okay, come on now, time to be someone who can host a screening like a big boy. Ben, everyone has sat, you need - I don't think we should have put the monk scenes back in. - Well, it's about to be screened now, so we'll find out. - [Benjamin] Oh, god, no. - Tonight's film is the second film from Benjamin Oliver, starring Benjamin Oliver himself, alongside Harry Barrage. Here to introduce the film, please welcome Benjamin Oliver, Tessa Houston, and Harry Barrage. (audience applauds) - Hello, and thank you, thank you all for coming. So yeah, this is the, this is the first time I've shown this to anyone, so that's exciting, right? And hopefully, yeah, you'll all like it, so I can continue doing this sort of thing. Well, maybe we should watch it, maybe we should just watch the film, and then you can all write wonderful reviews, I think it's all gonna be fine, should we, or does somebody else want to talk? Do, no, we should just bring the lights down, and we should watch it. Oh, and have fun, everyone. Yeah, yeah, good luck. (background noise drowns out speaker) (audience applauds) - What is it that you want? To be free from problems, yes? But only when you want nothing will you have what you want. Who is it? What? Who are you? Who? Who? (slow orchestral music) (audience applauds) (overlapping chatter) (overlapping chatter) - [Benjamin] Shit. (toilet flushes) - Hey, I looked for you, are you okay? - Yeah, I'm fine, how are they, how are they taking it, are they happy? - Yeah, I think so, yeah. Listen, it was really good, really interesting. - God, did you hate it? - Is the relationship over? - What, no, okay, listen, maybe, maybe it's better for me to go so you can-- - No, no, no, no, it's very important that you come back with me tonight, okay, come on. (overlapping chatter) - Hey, hey, (applauds) bravo, bravo. - [Benjamin] Thanks, it was terrible? - It was good, it was good, I just had a couple talk about your shot composition. - It was fine. - And here, what about the monk? - See, I didn't, I wasn't-- - Okay, yeah, I think I'm gonna go home and try and cry, are you gonna be okay here? - [Benjamin] Maybe you can go say hi to Billy. - No, no, you go, I'm fine. - Okay, just tell me, was it really bad? - It's. (overlapping quiet chatter) - Will you just say no, please? - No. - Hello, hugely talented, multi-skilled wonder man. - Oh, boy, really? - Please, I mean, who has a monk, you're so clever. - I'm gonna get a drink. - [Benjamin] Okay. - Hello, beautiful Noah. - So your Boyfriend's a bloody genius. - Oh, yeah. (Harry whistles) - What's up, maestro, this film. Benjamin. - [Benjamin] Harry. - It's genuinely obscene. Seriously, thank you. Everyone here thinks what you've done is profound. - What, no, who, which, who-- - I cried. - But you only watched the first half. - And I can't wait to see what happens next. Sorry, Martha was having a crisis. - Oh, yeah, Martha, with the chairs. Is there somewhere we can sit? - [Stephen] Hey. - [Harry] What the fuck, man, what was that? to be a playful, you know, a knee behind the knee-- - [Harry] Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, - [Benjamin] This is Stephen, he's very playful. (Stephen mumbles) - This is Noah, he's also a delight. - Just don't touch him-- - We have to go. - [Stephen] Yeah. - Oh my god, shut up, just shut up. - Nothing, it doesn't count, can we go? - What do you mean it doesn't count? - It was only for a minute. - [Harry] What does that mean? (laughs) - Fuck's sake, it wasn't a continuous in and out, it was just an in, then an exit. - Whoa, hang on-- - Nothing happened, okay, bye. - It was normal, actually, it was normal sex. - I really need to-- I was going home, I wasn't even-- - Excuse me, how old are you? - How old are you, you're a fucking psychopath. - What do you want from me, do you want me to dance, huh, you want me to dance, do you want to be sexy? Will that put a smile on your face, a little dance, make it sexy-- - Stephen, Stephen, what are you doing? - I don't know. - [Benjamin] You okay? - Yeah. - That was a very good dance. - Thanks. - [Benjamin] You okay? - Yeah. Go. - [Benjamin] Okay. (overlapping quiet chatter) - [Noah] Hey, sorry, it was crazy down there. - Yeah, it was, wasn't it, are you okay? - Yeah, yeah, I just wanted to say goodbye. - Goodbye, why do you want to say, what, goodbye, that's ridiculous. - I have things to do tomorrow, so-- - Yeah, I got things to do tomorrow, I got things to do, what, what is it? - No, nothing. - [Benjamin] No, go on, it's okay, what, what is there, or what is it? - No, just, like, maybe I'm, I'm not ready for, like, a relationship, you know? - Right, yeah. - [Noah] Sorry. - No, it's okay. - But congratulations on making your film, it's, it's amazing, really. - [Benjamin] Is it? - Yeah, yeah. - Cool, you have to go, you have to get to bed. - [Noah] Yeah. - And sleep, but. - Okay. Thank you. Okay. Bye. - [Benjamin] Bye. (slow piano music) - Which, on the one hand, is this sort of nice, interesting, lovely kind of romantic comedy about him and his non-relationship Harry Barrage, he's in the new Piranoti film, Sibling. But then, the other half of the movie, as implied by the title, No Self, is about the Buddhist idea of the self being a projection and an illusion to somehow protect you from falling in love. the pretentious monk from a film about this Buddhist, and, but it has absolutely no place being in this film at all. And you think, why didn't some producer just go, enough with the monk, just do the thing that you did before, that you can do, less monk, we've had maximum monk. The reason I'm getting slightly exasperated is 'cause I'm sort of disappointed, because, you know, you see somebody, and you're a bit, like-- - He's let you down? - He's let himself down, and the whole-- - He's let everybody down, (laughs) I'm sorry, it's not funny, actually, it's not funny. (slow piano music) (traffic rumbles) - It's actually this way. (overlapping quiet chatter) (slow piano music) (overlapping chatter) - I could just say the Southeast Asian archipelago. (overlapping chatter) You like that? (overlapping chatter) Okay, very good, is it Southeast Asia? - [Director] South Asia. - [Director] Yeah, yeah, yeah, and can I just have one, - [Actor] Yeah, so this is the first shot where you've ever seen. - So how's it looking? - Well, it's all good. - Tell me, what have you been up to? Oh, fantastic having a proper project. Lucy? - Do you go to lunch, or a-- - Lucy, we need to start shooting, or we'll lose the children. Sorry, sorry, I'm listening. - No, I was just thinking, I'm not sure exactly what I want to do next, and I just thought, if you have anything coming up that needed a director or anything, then I'm really up for doing something that doesn't come directly out of my own pain. - What is all this pain that you're in, Ben, I mean, are you really in pain? - [Benjamin] Oh, sorry, am I in your seat? - Yeah. - [Benjamin] I'm sorry. - Oh, no, oh, so sorry, it's just a packed day. - Yes. this is all looking so good, congratulations. - [Danny] Oh, thanks. - [Danny] Oh, you're the competition winner? - No, no, no, I'm no one. Do you know what time it is, do you-- - Oh, I'm so sorry we haven't been able to speak properly. - Oh, it's okay, sure, we'll catch up whenever you're done with all this? - Yeah, I'd love that. - Great. - I'd love that. Lovely to see you. - Yes. Okay. - You know where you're going? - Yeah. Okay, bye. - All right, bye bye. - [Assistant] Can we have quiet, please? - [Benjamin] Oh, sorry, forgot my bag. - [Assistant] And let's turn over. (slow music) Don't make me go - Yeah, my name is Harry Barrage, I'm an actor. My favourite film from childhood? I would probably say The Parent Trap. - Like, my own idea was, like, if there was, say there's, like, a part, or a character, or something that you've never got the chance to play, and you'd love to play it, or, like, if there was a role that you'd never been offered, then I could probably write that for you? - Oh, tell Ben about your big nude scene. It's Harry's cinematic debut, oh, apart from your film. But does that count, I mean, this is being released. - I think it counts, but, so what, you're a bit naked? Or, like, the penis? - Yeah. - How do you, I mean, is that okay, 'cause it's the character's penis? - Ben, I don't know if I should say this, it may be, like, insulting to your craft. - Oh, please, I'm, this is a safe space. - I'd really love us to write something together. so many standard, mainstream bullshit scripts. I love the way you don't chase success, you know? - And it would be so, like, it would be so fucking cool to create something with you that's, like, totally original, but, like, not an easy watch. - Yeah. It can be quite intense writing as a pair. Like, I've actually been writing something with Stephen, a completely different-- - Who? - My friend, Stephen, he-- - Oh my god, we never talk about that again. You slept with that idiot dancer. - She's not an idiot. - It's just obvious. God, Christ, can you take this off me? - Well, it would actually be this funny-- - Yeah, yeah, 'cause he's so funny. - Do you have an idea for a story? - Well, I don't think we should limit ourselves to the idea of telling a story. - [Billy] Okay, so you'll do it. - [Benjamin] Well, I don't know if I should commit to anything right now. - [Billy] Okay, who are you texting? - No one. - [Billy] So weird. (slow piano music) - Wanting this, wanting that. If you are expecting things, make no mistake, you are a puppet. (slow piano music) Many people, they search their whole lives, looking for a false reputation, but finally, there is obscurity, and obscurity, this is the best thing. (slow piano music) - [Benjamin] I don't know, is there, is there a character? Or something that you've got in mind? - I mean, I can see maroon, for some reason. - [Benjamin] The colour? - Yeah. - [Benjamin] Okay, um. Maroon. But, like, if we were to say how we imagined the film beginning, or can you see that? - Well, I think it's, I don't think we should be too literal about it. - No, no. Maybe we open on maroon. - Hmm. And there's a feeling in the air, of, is this blood? - [Benjamin] Okay. And, it turns out to be? - A coat. Yeah. - [Benjamin] Okay, great, yes, and wearing the coat is you, maybe? - Yeah. - [Benjamin] Okay, and you, you're, what are you, what are you doing? - I'm asleep, I'm dreaming. - [Benjamin] Okay, what are you dreaming about? - A swan. - Okay. Okay, and then, sorry, is there a particular kind of message, or an idea-- - Could I sketch you? - [Benjamin] Can you sketch me? - Yeah. - And you should take your top off. - Why, what do you? How are my nipples, good texture-- - Shh. - What do you like to, to paint most of the time, is it-- - It's difficult to talk about. - All right. But is it, is it usually people, or fruit? - Well, it's everything, you know? I mean, if you say, what do I paint, I would say feelings. My paintings are kind of like my journals, so I can look by and say, that's how I was feeling last week. - Oh. How were you feeling last week? - Well, I'd have to go in the other room and look. So, it's not completely what I was trying to do. - Oh, wow. Wow, you, you made me sort of attractive. - You are attractive, seriously, I find conventional beauty so boring. - Okay, then, should we go back to work, or? - And this is the work. - Yes. Should I draw you? (Harry laughs) - Okay, cool. - Oh, wow, gosh, okay. Is that the penis from the film? - How are my nipples? - Yep. Hmm. - You seen my bedroom yet? - Do you have a bedroom? (slow music) Oh, sorry. (slow music) Maybe, oh. - [Harry] You can write here, if you want. Let yourself out whenever, yeah? - Okay, yeah. I'll flesh it out a bit. - You okay, you seemed a bit distracted. - Oh, no, no, I was, I liked it, we did well. What are we gonna say to Billy about this-- - What do you mean? - I mean, will we want to do this again, or? - I think it was kind of an experiment, you know? - Oh, good, what were the results? You let me know. Okay, oh. Okay. (door slams) (slow orchestral music) (bell rings) (overlapping chatter) (slow violin music) Hi. Hi. How are you? - I'm good, I'm good. - Good, is this a bit strange? Was it a good day for music? - Good, I was just wondering if you might still be in the business of being interested in me? by being a lunatic, and I've sort of missed you. - I missed you, too. - Really, have you, how much? - A bit. - Like, maybe we should just have fun? Rather than anything more formal, like, maybe we should just be people, should we just be people? - Is that what you want? - [Benjamin] Yeah, just people. - Okay, I think we can be people. - Great. So what should we, or how should we, a handshake? (slow piano music) - Did you all sleep, or maybe it's just the, the beginning of a love story. Yeah, and there was a moustache, (mumbles). (slow music) - Oh, god. (both laugh) - Did I look cool? - Yeah. (both laugh) (slow piano music) Wait, where's D minor? - Just move your first finger down one key. Yeah, yeah. - Right there? That's it? - Mm-hmm. - Okay, and so then. (slow piano music) That's B minor. - Yeah. - Okay, okay, right, this is all making sense now. - Okay, so play it again slowly, and think of something sad. (slow piano music) Good. (slow piano music) Really good. (slow piano music) - Okay, now play a Vanessa Carlton. (slow piano music) Amazing. This is like what monkeys do. - Shh. - [Benjamin] Right? - No talking in the bath. - Is there a French word? - [Noah] Don't speak. - Okay. Well, what are you doing? - Shh. - Oh, god, no, please, I don't like this. I don't like it. - [Noah] Hey, it's okay. Hello. Would you like to be my boyfriend? (slow piano music) What'd you just do? (slow piano music) (overlapping chatter) (slow piano music) - A funny place, don't mind, but. (audience laughs) (overlapping quiet chatter) Are you in show business, get your foot off the stage. Right. (audience laughs) Let's get the next one out, shall we? All right, tickled, thank god, right. Hey. Nice socks. Nice, you're not gonna need those, 'cause this bloke is gonna laugh them straight off your feet. Here we go, are you ready for your next act? (audience cheers) He's a great friend of mine, ladies and gentlemen, please welcome Stephen Arnold, come on. (audience cheers) (audience applauds) - Hello, audience, how are you? You like to laugh, huh? (overlapping chatter) I laughed so hard, some milk came out of my nipples, which was unexpected. What about all this sexism, right? I mean, how is there any sexism in the world when we all come from a woman? I mean, when do we begin to be sexist, are we just there in the womb, being like, but I think my dad would do a better job. (audience laughs) Sorry, are you okay, is, oh, right. He's getting married. (audience oohs) Oh, there she is, wow, round of applause for the, for the future groom and bride. Wow, congratulations. (audience applauds) You know, everything ends. (audience laughs) That's something you can count on. Any, any orphans in tonight? No, see, that would be tough, that must be really tough, but I do think if my parents were dead, I'd find it a lot easier to kill myself. No, okay, show of hands, who's father hit them? No, come on, come on. You guys know, no, man, Jesus. - [Audience Member] Fuck off, mate. - Oh, this is, this is terrible. Right. No problem, no problem. (audience gasps) You know, actually, I think, I think, I think that's me, good night, everyone. Sorry, did someone say encore? - Are you all right? - I don't know, I suppose. Hey. - Hey. - [Benjamin] Hey. - So that was great, right, perfect date night. - It was, it was very real. - What did you think, Noah, you're the voice of youth. - I think it was funny, maybe it was just the wrong crowd, or, but it was good to see you on stage, and perform. - It's cool, it's cool, it was cool. - Please don't upset Noah, he's very young. - Well, what else would he be? Hey, is this gonna be a film soon, huh? - Okay. I think that we, maybe we need to leave? - But we'll come, we'll come to the next gig. - No, that was my last gig, do you want me to sign any autographs, or? - So when's the next one? - No, that's it, I've been doing it for eight years, I can't write anything new, all that's happening is I'm just, just getting older. Don't waste your life like us, I don't know, this guy knows what I'm talking about. - Okay, I think maybe it's home time, but thank you for all of the laughter. We should just feel grateful for the sperm, right? Sorry, man. Done with you, sorry. Good night, everybody. Drive safe. (birds chirp) (door knocks) (birds chirp) Hey. - Oh my god, what happened? Should I hold your arm? - No, I'm okay, thank you. - Okay. Do you want to talk about it? - I really can't. - We could have a conversation. - Why do you think this kind of thing keeps happening? - I don't know. - Maybe you do. - I don't. - Well, okay-- - Don't talk about it, please, bitch. (Stephen cries) I don't know. It just, it just-- - Okay, yeah, yeah, yeah. Okay, yes-- - It's. - Yeah. - Let it all out, that's amazing. (Stephen cries) What's, what should I, do you want me to do something? Like, what should I do, do you want to make a list? (Stephen sighs) Do you want to hear my song? - Sure. I can't get out of bed I can't get out of this bed Why do I feel this way Is it because of Daddy (Stephen laughs) Yeah? - Yep. - There you go. - It's good. - It's pretty good, isn't it? - It's good. - Just came to me on the bus. (Stephen laughs) (slow piano music) (moves into slow orchestral music) (audience applauds) - Cheers. (Benjamin claps) (speaking in foreign language) - Oh, it was so good, it was so good, well done, oh. (speaking in foreign language) - [Adrienne] You played so beautifully, it was lovely. - Thank you, Mama. - [Claude] And how is the band doing? - Good, good, we have a, we have a gig tomorrow, so it's good. - [Claude] Have you found a way to make any money with it? - But, like, the band are actually, they're so, so good, I mean, there was, I actually saw the band before we met, so I knew nothing about him beforehand, so good, and then, and then we met, and yeah, you're so good, like, honestly. Just a really talented bunch of people. - And you are so very creative, aren't you? Noah said that you write films? - [Paul] Yeah. - [Adrienne] Do you? - Oh, yeah, he does. - Yeah. Oh my god. Sorry. - What is it? - No, it's okay, it's cool-- - No, it's okay, it's just that my ex is here, it was just, it's, that's fine, it's, it's fine, I mean, he's fun. This'll be fun for us, I can, or maybe I should go over and say hello before he sees me, or maybe I should, Paul, hi. - Hi. - [Benjamin] How are you? Are they new glasses? - No. - They're lovely, this is Noah, and Adrienne and Claude, this is Paul. - [Adrienne] Hi, Paul. - Hi. - So is this, is this you meeting the parents? - A bit, we just saw, Noah just graduated from Guildhall. - Of course he did, congratulations. - Thanks. - So what are you, how are you? - Yeah, I'm fine, I heard you wrote a film about me and cast a white guy. - The last film that I did, it was about a relationship, and it was slightly inspired by Paul, but it was mainly about me being an idiot. But, anyway, thank you, thanks, Enrique. Sorry, this is Enrique, Paul, Paul, Enrique, Enrique, Paul. What's going on, are you in love? - Am I in, am I in love? - Have a breadstick, why wouldn't you want a breadstick. - 'Cause you're not really offering me - [Claude] Okay, well, boys, it was lovely to meet you. - Sorry, sorry, who are you? - This is Claude, should we-- - I'm sorry, you write a film about me, and then you fuck the guy that plays me, - Okay, should we, can you take (mumbles)? - [Claude] I think that's a really good idea. - Okay, you need to chill out, Claude. Good luck, mate, hopefully it won't be two years followed by a shit film about how much of a cunt you are. - He's in fashion. Paul. What was that? - What? - Oh, oh, was that embarrassing? Why do you surround yourself with all these stupid children? - Noah's French, I like him, I like him. - Oh, 'cause it's easy. It's safe. How long are you gonna keep doing this? - [Benjamin] I don't know. - You're gonna end up alone, you're gonna end up unhappy. - I know this, I've written this, you're saying words I've actually written. - Because you're still doing the same thing. Have some pride in yourself, what do you think I was with you, it wasn't a fetish. - [Benjamin] Well, how much of that was about what I do? - We were together two years, your work isn't that good. - Okay, I think I'm gonna go back inside-- - But what are you gonna do, Ben? Are you gonna adopt him? I just, I just wanted to mean something to you, that's all. - What, I, you did, you did. - Okay. Do what you want, it's not me who's never gonna feel anything. (silverware clinks) - I'm back. I think in the future that'll all seem quite funny. (slow piano music) I think I'm gonna end up hurting you. - What do you mean? Maybe I hurt you. Hey, what happened? You just had a bit of a shock, yeah? - Oh, god, please, don't look so sad, I can't take it. Please. What can I do to make this not so awful? - Just talk to me, you know. - [Benjamin] I'm sorry, I don't, I can't. - You can't what? You want me to go? - I don't know. I don't know. - You don't know? Okay. Okay. - One way to be happy is to enjoy being sad, understand that. (children shriek) - [Announcer] A new contemporary piece by Anna Block called Womb. (audience applauds) (bell rings) (slow ambient music) (audience applauds) - It was incredible. (audience applauds) - Yeah, man, that was great. - Yeah, that made me think about life and shit. - Anna. Fuck, that was amazing, I mean, I-- - Thank you. - You've met Ben, right? - Hi, yeah, congratulations, that was, it was, how did you come up with it, with all the paper? - Just came together over the year. - Year, no, was that, was that the last time that you were doing it, or will you need more paper? - [Anna] That was it. - Well, good, good, well, otherwise, that's a lot of paper all the time, isn't it? Like, where'd you get such big paper? - I'm sorry, I'm really exhausted-- - Seriously, everything you just did, it was the truth. (Benjamin laughs) - No, no, no, yeah, that's, I know, yeah, the truth. I'm laughing 'cause it's true. - Okay, I'll see you later. - Yeah. That was so fucking rude. - [Harry] I'm gonna go see if she's okay. - She's fine. What are you doing? - I think I'm gonna go-- - Don't leave me here on my own, just stay here until Harry gets back, okay? - Okay. - Do you hate me? (slow music) (Benjamin laughs) - I've. (laughs) It's a hedge. Isn't it weird Isn't it strange Even though we're just strangers On this runaway train, we both (Benjamin groans) (Benjamin gasps and cries out) - Who are you? - Hello. - [Cat] Who? - Hello, Stephen's voicemail, where are you, Stephen? I think my hair is growing. What are they gonna say, they're gonna say, you already got this cut last week, and now you're back again, and now you're back. Call me back, my hair is growing. (bird chirps) (phone beeps) - [Voicemail] Hey, you've got Stephen, please leave a message. (slow music) (phone beeps) Hey, you've got Stephen, please leave a message. (phone beeps) (slow music) - [Benjamin] Stephen! (door knocks) Stephen! (slow music) - [Voicemail] Hey, you've got Stephen, please leave a message. (slow music) - Stephen! Stephen! (slow music) (glass shatters) Stephen! Oh my god, oh my god, thank god. - What the fuck are you doing? - Why didn't you answer your phone? - [Stephen] I was in the shower. - You can't have a bath? - Because answer your phone if you've got depression. (Stephen laughs) It's not funny. Could you, could you just call me first, if you're ever thinking of doing anything, can you just call me, and we'll discuss it? - [Benjamin] Careful, careful, there's glass. - Are you okay? - I broke your window. - Yeah, I saw. (Benjamin cries) - Oh, what's happening to me, ugh. (Benjamin cries) - Benjamin, you're a real boy. - I'm a real boy? - [Stephen] Yeah. (Benjamin laughs) (Stephen laughs) (Benjamin whimpers) - [Benjamin] Oh, shit. - Do you-- - Oh, god. I'm really sorry about the. Oh, god. - [Stephen] Okay, yeah, yeah. (slow guitar music) I still don't know Oh, oh, oh I still don't know Who you thought I would be Where did you go Oh, oh, oh When you were trying to be here with me And you know that you're safe On your own But you lost Or were you lost with me, too Are you longing to be scared forever Are you planning to meet somebody new If you feeling something, say how you feel You know it's safe to let someone hold you Let somebody make you cry Let somebody ache for you Are you longing to be scared forever Are you planning to meet somebody new If you feeling something, say how you feel You know it's safe to let someone hold you Are you longing to be scared forever Are you planning of the meet somebody new If you're feeling something, say how you feel You know it's safe to let someone love you (audience cheers) (audience applauds) (overlapping chatter) - [Benjamin] Hi. - Hi. - You're really good at that, you know? - Thanks. - [Benjamin] Shouldn't you be very famous by now? What's this manager doing? - What are you doing here? - I think I made a mistake. Can we-- - I'm going home. - Home? Home home, when? - [Noah] Tomorrow. - Tomorrow? You can't go tomorrow. - Why? Why wouldn't I? - Do you want to move in with me? - I know, I'm sorry, I was scared I wasn't capable of love, which, I think was actually just covering the really scary thing, which is that I love you. - That's ridiculous. - Can you stay another week, maybe? - No, I can't. Come to Paris. - Paris? I can't move to Paris. - [Noah] Why not? - I've got a career, like, where would I live, who would I be in Paris? Okay. (slow music) Fill your heart with love today Don't play the game of time Things that happened in the past Just happened in your mind Only in your mind Forget your mind, and you'll be free The writing's on the wall Free, yeah And you can know it all If you choose Lovers never lose, 'cause they are free Of thoughts impure And of thoughts unkind Gentleness Clears the soul Love the cleans the mind and makes it Free I used to cry, now I Shut my eyes, still I Hear you cry So I won't cry I needed to hold me Someone to fit me I needed to keep you alive And I don't want to go if you don't come I don't want to leave you here with him Don't make me go And I don't want to go if you don't go I don't want to leave you here with him Don't make me go But you're braver than you think you are I can meet the monster once a week Just you and me and I am all you need All I need And I don't want to go if you don't come I don't want to leave you here with him Don't make me go And I won't ever go if you don't come I won't ever leave you here with him Don't make me go, don't make me go |
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