CHRISTIANE F.
WE CHILDREN FROM ZOO STATION
Piss and shit everywhere
If you look close enough
At first sight it looks fine,
with its lawns...
...and shopping centers.
But the staircases of the
flats stink!
What are the children to do,
when they are playing outside?
They shit themselves waiting for the lift,
so instead they do it in the lobby.
I've lived here since I was six,
together with my mother, sister and a cat.
And I'm tired of it.
The posters hang all over the city...
'Sound' - Europe's most modern discotheque!
I want to go there.
One day I said to my mother:
I'll sleep at Kessi's
Kessi is the coolest girl in my class,
everybody likes her
She already has big breasts;
I admire her
'Sound' is her second home; She's there
every weekend, and knows everybody
This will be my first time
Come on!
Is she 16?
Of course, she's in my class
- Is Atze here?
- When isn't he here?
Please put down the bag. You can't walk
around with a plastic bag in here
Wait a moment..
Cherry Juice, please!
- Come on!
- We're in the Cinema
Here!
- Don't you want any?
- I don't feel like it!
- First time?
- I just don't feel like it!
Stop that shit!
You shouldn't have taken that pill
Can't take it?
Are you OK?
He's Axel
I'm Detlev
I'm going back in
You want to get back in?
See you!
- Pitty, where have you been?
- He's been playing with the kids
- Why weren't you in school?
- I have packed my things
What?
Has the old man won you over?
Is it because of Mother's new friend?
It's dad
He's waiting for me downstairs
Mom is struggling to keep up,
and all you want is to get away from here
You should be glad
More stuff for you
No, I'd rather see you stay
And I want to try living with Dad
- And what about the fights in the past?
- He wants to make up for everything
Follow me down?
Won't you think about it?
I don't understand you
Any message for Dad?
Don't be grumpy
What are you doing in the dark?
Did you meet Sabine?
- Now we're all alone
- She will be back
- You think?
- It won't work
You know what?
We're having a lovely evening together
Turn it over
- Watch out! It runs...
- That's the whole point!
It's Klaus, I invited him
Just so we're not alone. Do you mind?
Can I borrow your shoes?
Are you going out?
Just over to Kessi's
If you have to
I have something for you
Hope you like it!
Thanks!
Shall we go somewhere?
Anywhere?
- Coming with us?
- Where?
I'm really too tired
You can sleep when you're dead
The Police!
I hope they didn't catch Kessi
- My mom thinks I'm sleeping at her place
- And her mom thinks she's sleeping at yours?
Are you often at 'Sound'?
- Will you be there next week?
- Of course!
We're really high up
I get all dizzy
You haven't taken any more trips, have you?
You don't care for them, right?
Not really
Want one?
Did you make that yourself?
- Didn't it hurt?
- Yes, but I was bored
It's almost dawn
- Are you going home?
- What about you?
I'm going back to my place;
come with me, if you like
I live with Axel
Are you angry?
We thought the cops caught you
Look, two Martians
She was that loaded, there was hardly
enough room for her in the lift
The Police
Over here
I think they're still looking for us
You ought to arrest him;
he's an addict
You're coming with me
Keep away from my daughter
Kessi has no use for bad influences
Can you do your homework
with all that noise?
It's Klaus' record
It's the record Klaus gave me
That doesn't mean it should
be played so loud
David Bowie is coming to Berlin
The guy on the record Klaus gave me
You want to go?
Can Kessi come, too?
I often sleep at her place
I might get some tickets
through work
Have you hurt yourself?
It's a tattoo
A what?
A tattoo, it's not finished
But that's permanent?
Well, you have to walk around with it
- I've just met a boy
- And he has one just like it
You know, I didn't really think of
going to the concert with Kessi
I get you
- Are you going to the concert, too?
- I can't afford it
Detlev?
What have you bought?
'H'?
You can swallow three trips at once,
or something else to turn you on
I can get you anything,
but leave 'H' alone
Otherwise, I won't see you again
Axel, Detlev wants to take 'H'
If he fancies it
Didn't you understand me?
If he wants to take it, he will
- Can't you talk to him?
- Me, of all people?
What do you mean?
I thought you were his friend
I thought he lived at your place
Stay cool, kid
Take something before you flip out
Look at them. The cooler they are,
the more shots they've had
What's up?
- You look like a corpse
- Because I'm a blood donor
- Why do you do it?
- Because I need the dough
I'll see if somebody's got
a Valium left for us
Mandrax. I couldn't get Valium
- Is he ill?
- He needs a shot
- Apart from me, who doesn't shoot up?
- No one I know
Got any dough?
Twenty marks
I'll get some. Wait outside
I've got some. And I've got
my old man's car
Ciao, thanks for the dough
Open up
I want to try it
No way
I paid for it
I want my share
Let me in
I don't shoot up, I just sniff
Really?
- Just once
- As they all say
I'm in control of myself
Take that, and you'll soon be
as far gone as me
- You'll be a corpse then
- From giving blood?
Why don't you join us?
Something wrong?
Got a trip for me?
What do you want with a trip?
- Do you want a drink?
- Cherry juice
I'll get it
I won't be long
- What did Babsie want from you?
- A trip
Be careful, don't give her one.
She swallows all she can get
- And what do you do?
- It's not the same at all
Know somewhere I can sleep?
Your own home
I don't want to go home,
I'm fed up with it
There're some sexy guys here
Are you crazy?
- You can talk
- Do you copy everything I do?
I only wanted to know
what you feel like
Groovy, eh?
Axel, it's me
Make yourself at home
This is for you
Axel made it for you
Really?
Does your mother know
where you're sleeping?
Sure, she isn't stupid
We see each other only at weekends
We can meet when I come back
from school
We can't do that
Why not?
I go to Bahnhof Zoo Station
What for?
Pick-ups
Bullshit
Honestly
Really?
With the pansies?
I only jerk them off
It's nothing, considering
what they pay
Don't you go to bed with them?
Yes, but even then I don't do more
What do you feel?
It's a job. They mustn't touch me
I won't let them jerk me off.
It wouldn't be a job then
- So it doesn't excite you
- It's repulsive. Just for dough
Don't you like me so much now?
Good night
You can get up now.
My mother has left
- Are you fourteen already?
- I'm an adult from today on
That looks great
You reckon?
- Have you got anything to wear?
- I didn't come here naked
- You can't wear the same old rags
- Why not?
Clean things. You can wear
my Bowie jacket
Here's something to turn you on
Do you have any 'H'?
Are you crazy?
Don't touch it
I only want to try it
I can control it
As they all say
When you leave, shut the door
properly
Come again soon
Sure, I will
Hey, girl, how much?
Excuse me, do you fuck? I pay a lot
Muhametto, leave her alone.
Go on, clear off
Are you catching a train?
No. Are you? Looking for Detlev, too?
Has he disappeared?
There's "Pissnelke".
He lets me piss on him
- What does he do?
- It's what he wants
Nonsense
Ask him yourself
I stand over him and piss
- I can't do it if I'm watched
- He grabs my prick
Axel, come here
Axel can do that.
The punters like him
Who's that?
'Stuttering Max'. He only comes
when he's flogged
Look who's here
Don't come here. I won't have
my girlfriend coming to 'Zoo'
The scum of the earth.
You don't belong here
Especially not on your birthday
I wanted to bring cake for you
And this. Mother said I was to
buy myself something nice
'Who wants to piss in my mouth?
I drink anything'
Axel, there's something for you
- I want to shoot up today, too
- No way
Whether I shoot or sniff,
it makes no difference
- It does. A shot is like a hammer
- Don't talk shit
It's a sexual climax
Shit, it's clogged. Try and see
if you can get one through
- You can ditch that one after
- Don't talk crap
Can you lend me your kit?
Keep clear of that, girl
Please help me
You've no idea
How was it?
I had a different idea of
a sexual climax
Do you want to sleep with me
during the weekend?
If you like
On one condition
No 'H'
I love you so
We must stop shooting up
You mustn't get hooked
I don't want you to die
Mother wonders why I'm not fatter,
with all these sandwiches
Got a shot for me?
You won't get one from me
Don't be mean. Your pupils are
pinheads, yet you tell me to stop
At least you can stay clean
You just want to hog it all
I want to be on the same level as you
O.K, a small shot
I'll do the next punter for you.
See him?
He's crazy about me
- Don't go to him!
- Why?
Because he has a crush on you
That'll make him pay well
Why didn't you show up?
No time. I've got a regular guy
Sunk really low, eh?
Look who's talking
You fuck?
- She fucks hell out of them
- What makes you so sure?
- You let them stick it in anywhere
- Jealous? You hump with foreigners
- Shall we celebrate our reunion?
- I'm waiting for my dope
I'll lend you some
- I did seven tricks in an hour
- You blew them all?
Seven in an hour. A lot of dough
- With condoms?
- You can do it with them, too
Without you might catch oral clap
"At fourteen he was on drugs. He took
an overdose in a fit of desperation"
One less after the stuff
'As long as something's left to
shoot, I'll never take an over jolt'
'Deeply moving farewell letter of
seventeen-year-old Andreas W'
I know him. That's Atze
Be seeing you
What's up?
- That was my last shot. Must get some
- What about me?
I need some for tomorrow morning.
I can't go to school otherwise
I need some right now, or I'll
have the horrors in two hours
I must go now
It's O.K.
You know what? Maybe I can help you
Maybe I can get something begging
I'll be at Kurfrstendamm
Could you give me a mark?
I need a mark
Could you give me a mark
for the subway?
Old jerk!
- Are you crazy?
- Get in
- What's up?
- What do you think?
I don't do humping
- Why not?
- I'm going steady
- You'll blow, then
- That makes me puke
That doesn't leave much
All right, just jerk me off
For one hundred marks
First the dough
I've got some
You got a lot
Where did you get so much?
Begging didn't work
I jerked off a guy
He gave me one hundred
Are you having me on?
Honest, I only jerked him off
One hundred marks for that?
What should I have done, then?
I did it for you
What I told you was true
I did it for you
You did it for yourself, because
you were scared of going short
You'd have done it even if
I hadn't existed
This is all because we shoot up
But we'll make it, we'll start
to withdraw some time
We'll withdraw with Valeron
And I promise I won't turn tricks
with a punter
We'll make it yet
Christiane, hurry up
Why lock the door?
I must leave, I'll be late
Why are you taking so long?
You'll be late for school
Unlock the door, what's the idea?
What's the matter?
Get a face-cloth
Shall I call a doctor?
My child, what's the matter?
My circulation
- What are you doing here?
- Your mother called for me
At 'Zoo'?
So we can withdraw together
If we withdraw together,
that will be the end
Rubbish, not with us
I can't stand it anymore
Are you crazy?
Keep off that
Let me. Please, let me
Just a little sniff against the pain
Bernd, you're still alive, old boy
- Sure. And where have you two been?
- Take a good look at us
- You're clean, eh?
- Did you withdraw?
You bet
They've withdrawn
You really did it?
Yes, we really did it.
It wasn't all that bad
All you need is lots of Valeron,
Valium and suchlike
I think that's great
You can do it, too, Axel. Really
Shall we do it?
Really?
I'll get dough for Valeron
We can start with it next week
We'll tell Babsie and Stella,
they might join us
A cool, clean clique. We'll only
smoke grass sometimes
I could have started today,
but I've bought 'H' already
We can still shoot that
Sure, that's O.K.
We'll be back soon
That was really something, eh?
That really was crazy
On the first day already
If we keep it under control, be
careful not to get addicted to it
We know now that we can quit
So we can permit ourselves one shot
We could ask them if they have
a shot for us
O.K, let's ask
Axel, don't you know it's Saturday?
They're letting you starve
You've no water, either
- We can't just leave him there
- Want to take him with you?
Hurry up!
Why did he kill himself?
He didn't. Some pig
sold him strychnine
I can't stand this shit any more
I need a shot! I need a shot!
Where will you live now?
With my bloke
- The one with a crush on you?
- Who else?
You're a fine friend
Have you got a better idea?
You'd let any pansy shove his prick
up your ass
You think I like foreigners
humping you?
Do you know what you are? The
lousiest creature I've ever met
I'm sorry
I've never let them hump me
All I ever do is blow
Me, too
We must stop with this stuff
Yes, that's O.K.
But now I need a shot
Or I won't hold out
- But we haven't got any dough
- Shit! I'll get some
O.K. Fifteen marks
Are you crazy? Some are brand new.
This one's still in its wrapper
- Seventeen
- Let's say twenty
- Find someone else
- O.K., seventeen
Thanks
Babsie, Babsie!
have you got something for me?
In a year they'll be where we are
I'm giving it up
- Why are you still here, then?
- I'll really start tomorrow
I'll withdraw tomorrow
I think that's really great
Either I stop... or I die
You'll stop, for sure
And when I've made it, I mean after
the therapy... what then?
You know what? I'll give it up, too
I'll join you in therapy.
We'll withdraw together
- Really?
- You'll see, we'll make it yet
You bet?
What's this?
Come to me
Stay here
Look at me
I need money
Stay here
I only jerk them off
Look
It doesn't turn you on, eh?
Just a job
What can I do, then? Tell me
Have you seen Babsie?
Have you seen Babsie?
The little one?
It's been some time. She might have
kicked the bucket, or be in jail
Don't talk such crap
You need a shot, girl
I don't. I'm just looking for Babsie
If you've got one. You still
owe me one, anyway
Sure, but right now I haven't
got one myself
Tina, got anything for me?
Find your own stuff
Have you got the time?
You old pig, leave me alone
Berlin's youngest drug victim
She was only fourteen!
I survived
Mum took me to my Gran and Auntie,
in a village near Hamburg
I've been clean for eighteen months
It frightens me to think of Detlev.
I often think of him
I'd like to give him some of my
strength, and help him
But first I need the strength myself
Dedicated to Andreas W, "Atze",
Axel W., Babette D, "Babsie"
And all the others who lacked
the strength and luck to survive