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Cold Skin (2017)
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We are never very far from those whom we hate. For this very reason, we shall never be truly close to those we love. An appalling fact. I knew it well enough when I embarked. But some truths deserve our attention, others are best left alone. We set sail 67 days ago. September, 1914. Matches are as useless as teats on a bull above deck. Thank you. There's your island. Look, you see it? What are you running from? That was the first question they asked me when I decided to go to sea. Prepare to weigh anchors. That is a one man job, you don't need two. Russian ... Be careful, go to the back, don't get it wet. Careful with that. Don't throw stuff about. C'mon, come on! No birds. No weather offical to greet you either. Captain sir, where we leave the luggage of officer of Aaron Winds? Here inside. Tell the others to hold off with the rest of the ... No, no, bring it forth. With respect, I am responsible for your safe passage and this is hardly reassuring. You've already provided such passage. It had to be taken as an act of kindness, the Captain accompanied me onto dry land. Nothing obliged him. But during the journey we'd come to one of those understandings that sometimes arise between men of different generations. The captain always treated me with courtesy of an executioner. If he could do anything for me.. he would. GRUNER OWNS THIS FOUNTAIN Boys, go back to the boat. You in there? Open up! Can you hear me? Hello! Hello? Hey! Wake up! Water, toad. Wake up! Maritime signal technician, we are replacing the weather official, Aldor Vigeland. Can you tell of his whereabouts? I said, where is the weather official? Listen here, I'm a captain of a ship in transit, I had to change course to bring this man here, and take his predecessor away. Now where is..? Typhus. He's dead? Do you have any tobacco? Vodka? Where are the man's remains? Christ man, speak up! He went out one day. I never saw him again. For God's sake, it's an island! How far could he have gone? A swim.. Your name? Gruner. You like Frazer? That's not my book. You, you have tobacco? Not on my person, no. Mr. Gruner. Captain.. I appreciate your concern but I'm not about to turn back now. Take this. Don't mistake stubbornness with stupidity. I'll manage. Thank you for all you've done. Eat well. Work hard. Stay busy. Fair winds. And following seas. I would have to live in a solitude-like exile for twelve months, far from civilization, with a job as monotonous as it was insignificant: To log the intensity and direction of the winds. Mr. Gruner. Mr. Gruner. Mr. Gruner, if this is your idea of an initiat.. Open the door! Let me in! Gruner! Gruner! Gruner! - Please, let me in! - Should have stayed on the boat. Gruner! Gruner! When I have fears that I may cease to be, before my pen has gleaned my teeming brain, before high piled books and carrot tree hold like rich garnest the full ripened grain. When I behold upon the night-starred face, huge cloudy symbols of a high romance, and think that I may never live to trace their shadows with the magic hand at Garnis, and when I feel, fair creature of an hour, that I shall never look upon thee more, never have relished the fairy power of unreflecting love, then, on the shore of the wide world, I stand alone, and think, to love and fame to nothingness do sink. Mother of God! No! - Don't shoot! - Put your gun down! Put it down! Step back! Whatta ya want? Do I really need to spell it out? You said you had tobacco? Yes. Coffee? Yes. - Vodka? - Gin! And ammunition. Caliber? There's plenty more! - She's harmless. - Harmless? Come here, come.. here.. Come on. See? I think I'll call you.. Friend. You got bitten. Burned. - How many'd you kill? - Don't know. The previous weather official.. It wasn't typhus. You left him stranded here like me. - It's as good as murder. - We gotta go. Come on! Pain gone? - How long was I out for? - A day or two by my reckoning. Pissed your pants. One thousand eight hundred and sixty two. Now that's what I call an armoury. What's it doing? Stupid thing. Thinks stuff will float away. - You can speak with the beasts. - Not speak, command. Doesn't it try and escape? The dogs leave even the cruellest of masters. It's incredible. I never even imagined such things could exist. What we know it's a small island in the vast ocean of what we don't. I know that there are atolls that contain unique and endemic species of fish that have evolved completely independently. Hangover species that have survived in isolation, stuck in a kind of evolutionary stalemate. Maybe these beasts are like that, not.. quite.. human, or amphibian, reptile or fish. She's not quite like the others, is she? This one doesn't bite, that's all. What about that scar on your shoulder? It was one time, the only time. She learnt her lesson. Remember.. It's the still and silent sea that drowns a man. I adjusted the mechanism to sweep the coastline. For all I know it's the controls, like all infernal beasts. They shun light, human or divine. - Demons from Atlantis. - I believe in what I see. One thing I still can't understand is that you could have escaped 4 days ago on the boat that brought me here. - Escaped? To where? - To a civilized world. Nice place, that civilized world of yours. That why you gave it up? Here, I'm master of my own destiny come hell or high water. Well, you can keep it I'm signalling for the first ship that passes by. Really? Now this island is not on any commercial shipping lanes, the next ship here will be the one with your replacement. Come on Gruner, lighthouses are built where there's naval transit. There also built to balance navy budgets, and siphon funds. Got to empty your bucket before you can fill it up again boy. It is the second time in a week I'm forced to rebuild my life. All my belongings are burned. I've nothing from the person I used to be. In this remote part of the world, I feel a a sense of irreparable loss. I can't tell whether it arises from a longing for civilization, a prisoner's panic, or simply fear. Don't! Don't eat on that! It's not edible. It's a can.. Friend, get your rifle. Don't shoot til they reach the tower and don't waste bullets on their wounded. Given enough carrion, they'll devour each other. I don't see anything. You'll learn what to look for. Go on! Shoot, man! Use your gun! Come on! Shoot! ... No man is an island.. Or ship. Gruner is an island. Gruner does not need, any dead weight, no matter how much chocolate, and coffee, ladybird brought. Go fetch some water. One last chance. Hold. Hold fast. Wait. Hold. Steady. Behind you! Wake up, man! Wake up! Shoot, shoot dammit, shoot, shoot! One last chance! Gruner.. Gruner! wails Let me in! Gruner! Let me in! Gruner! Gruner and I settled into a curious sort of coexistence, based on routine. Monsters always swarm at night, their strikes growing longer every day. The Japanese philosopher Musashi said that only a few appreciate the art of war. A good warrior is not defined by the cause he defends, but rather by the meaning that derives from the struggle. Days are always the same. I abandon my post on the balcony at the break of dawn. Nature dictates the length of my slumber. I have to accept the most ungrateful tasks simply to keep my place inside the lighthouse. I've been meditating on my reason for coming to this island. I had been seeking peace through nothingness, but in place of silence, I found a monster-plagued inferno. It smells strange. - D'you know the herbs aren't bad? - Herbs are like people. They're neither good nor bad, they're just known or unknown, that's all. A herbs won't slit your throat for money. A farmer keeps cows, cares for them, he feeds them. Gives them endearing names. Like Daisy. But then he steals her milk, and he kills her children. Another riddle. It's a matter of necessity. Has it ever occurred to you that it might be her wailing that attracts the beasts? Then why would they attack some nights and not others? Why would she lure her own kin to die on the rocks? The only thing you need to understand, is that we are the invaders, which makes us the enemy. Kill and conquer, that's what we humans do. You want to conquer them, is that it? Oh no, I want to exterminate them. Need more timber. Why? Haven't attacked in weeks. You like sleeping in my lighthouse. Faded. Far away. Dissolved. And quite forgotten. My eyes have scrutinised every surface a thousand times. We speak of the lighthouse and its environs as if it were an entire state. Every nook and cranny has a name. Every rock, every stone. Maybe they migrate like the whales in winter. Or maybe the creatures reason they can't defeat us. They're beasts. They're out there gathering in numbers for their next attack. You're on watch. Although it may seem strange, the lulls between fighting are often worse than the battles themselves. This void is accompanied by the mascot's change in attitude. How could Gruner lie with one of the very same monsters that plague us every night? How did he manage to justify the act, in defiance of all the obstacles set down by civilization, set down by nature? How could he get closer.. And closer.. And not be repelled by her cold skin? I have decided to give her a name. Aneris. Down! - When'd we run out of potatoes? - We didn't, you're drinking 'em. You play? What civilized man doesn't? These beasts really are a fascinating species. Their blood, for example. I imagine that it must share the properties, of some Arctic fish, containing a kind of antifreeze helping them survive in sub-zero conditions. Have you noticed that they've got two sets of eyelids? The first very much like ours, but the second is a transparent membrane helping them when they dive, I would imagine. We could capture specimens, take them back to Great Britain or to the United States, present our discovery, and we would be celebrated.. Alright you've got me. I came down to the arsehole of the world to become famous.. alright? Check! Now shut up and play. Checkmate. Ehh, ehh, ehh.. it can't be. - It.. it just.. just can't be. - Now calm down Gruner, it's only a game. - King.. pawn.. - It can't be! We forgot the light. Galley deck. Come out, there's too many. There's too many. So whatta we do now? Starry night.. As I was sleeping. One starry night.. As I lay in bed.. I dreamed I heard.. Iron wheels creakin'. When we planned the story.. When lay me down. Look at us. We cannot survive another assault like that. We're running out of supplies.. Running out of ammunition, running out of will. Where you going? Hey! what is it? There's a boat. No! Gruner knows how to defend himself. Gruner rules the world. Gruner wants what he has and has, only what he wants. Ungrateful little.. - Get outa my way boy. - Please Gruner. No more people. I see what you are. A sad pathetic failure of a misanthrope. You're too afraid to let your friends leave! Too afraid to kill your enemies. Afraid of having no one left to hate. arguing Fuck you ... Look. Look. What has he done to you this time? You call this.. A boat. You see? What? I found a rowboat. I know of it. Sorry, what? Why didn't you say so? Wouldn't do you no good. I'm sure you'll make it off my island, and you'll be taken by hypothermia, starvation, storm. Most likely end up as toadfood, but hey, who am I to deny you the right to choose how you die? - Where'd it come from? - Along with some Portuguese. - Shipwreck? - Tremendous storm. Came to grief in the night. And I'm sure you did everything you could to save them. I did what I could. Those who made it to shore, were set upon trying to reach the lighthouse. Nothing left of them by the morning. Dragged back out to the depths. What were they doing so far from commercial routes? Was an illegal ship. Dynamite smugglers. Found some crates, washed up ashore. No good though, all waterlogged. - You want to dive that ship. - We recover the dynamite. Repair the rowboat, head out in the morning at low tide when it's safest. You're an idiot. What is it 'bout blowing up a thousand toads you don't like? Suicide mission, I'm not going down in that water. Scared? I'll do it. - All I require from you is to pump my air. - Won't work. I'm talking about toad extermination. No. I changed my mind. We leave right away. Remember, one tug on the rope, everything's fine. Two, load is secured. Three.. Three ... The second line is too close to the lighthouse. At this distance, the toads will be packed in nice and tight, like a can of sardines. We'll end up perched on the Leaning Tower of Pisa. The austral summer is fading timidly, but with grandeur. Now we are inexorably heading toward the winter, or rather the darkness. Time is a relative idea. Drops suspended from a spider web for centuries, before it falls. Sometimes, however, a week, passes in the blink of an eye. Come inside. Three weeks. Three weeks and nuthin'. - We can't eat that garbage. - Gruner! She told them! You told your friends, huh? You've warned them, didn't you? You.. fucking little toad spy. This is how you repay me, huh? You ungrateful bitch! - Gruner! - How dare you leave me! Dare you leave! - Gruner! - Try it, try it again! - Gruner! We ambush them. We leave the main door open and lure them inside, you pick them off on the stairs, I operate the detonator, once they're close enough. Gruner, main door's open. - Lanterns? - Burning. C'mon, c'mon, sing! C'mon, c'mon, sing, sing, sing for your supper, sing! barks like dog Sing! Sing! Sing! barks, howls like dog They're in! They here! It's not working! The contact! Get down! No, Gruner ...! Gruner. Gruner. Gruner can you hear me? Gruner. Under the widest starry sky.. Dig my grave and let me lie. Glad did I live and gladly die, and I lays me down with a will. Use your knife, don't waste ammunition. Look at what we've done. She'll do that for a time. Wail, wail like that. That's how I found her.. Entangled in a net, little tyke. Cute that way, aren't they? They don't stay that way. Cut it free. I saved its life I did. It'll come crawling back. She always does. They're mourning. Look at this. It's brilliant. We have to keep up the pretense, new, more powerful weapons. Keep puttin' the fear in them. I see you, king of the toads! Don't harm them, Gruner. A truce is what I think they want. Gruner, put your rifle down and show them that you mean them no harm. We were wrong. Gruner, we were wrong. Go inside. I said inside! Don't leave me. Noone leaves. Noone leaves. Noone leaves Gruner. Don't leave. You don't leave, you don't.. leave. Noone leaves Gruner. Gruner leaves, Gruner leaves, Gruner leaves.. You don't leave.. Gruner, no.. You don't leave.. Gruner leaves. Noone leaves Gruner! Gruner leaves! Wait. Gruner! Gruner! Gruner! Aldor Vigelands, you're no murderer! Love.. Love.. Love.. Mr. Gruner. Maritime signal technician Gruner. Alright, get up! We are here to replace the weather official with this man. Do you know where he is? Speak up! Typhus. This place is a pigsty. Look at yourself! You're in no fit state to hold a position of signal technician, we're at war, man. Get back here! I believe the poor soul is infirm from isolation, sir. - You know the saying ... - We'll have him seen to. Search the island. |
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