In mermory of Chi Mo (1973-1996).
Chi Mo suffered from haemophilia.
His blood was contaminated
from blood transfusion.
Which caused him to suffer from AIDS.
He died in the age of 23.
Brother
My beloved brother is so far away
just after a mere four years
But somehow, he always feels near
Like a guardian angel
I loved to sneak
under his quilt during winter
Feeling the warmth of his feet...
...then fall asleep
listening to his stories
But one day, dad wouldn't let me
into brother's bed
That year, mom came back with brother
from the hospital
Mom was crying
Since then, brother has
his very own eating utensils...
...from cup to toiletries
He become reclusive
Hello? Yes...
Where else can I go?
Dad... I regret...
...not taking little Fu for holidays
Yeah
We never even played together
It's my pleasure to present,
the mother of Chi Mo
Mrs. Tam Li Ming Chun
Hello
I feel a little nervous,
standing before you
Let's lighten the mood okay?
Lets sing a little song
Shall we?
You all should know this one song
Because this is...
...the favourite song of my son Chi Mo
Let the sunshine...
...show me my dreams
Keep me warm when I'm Ionely
Guide me across the ocean
Make my dreams come true
May this sunshine enter your heart
Bringing you warmth and light
Let this sunshine...
...show me my dreams
Keep me warm when I'm Ionely
Die Hard?
Hello, I'm Mrs. Tam
Lemon squash, please
- Anything else for you?
- No
Like to try...
No one wants to eat here
Excuse me
You should stop smoking
It's bad for you
What else can I do?
Be optimistic
Optimistic?
I'm so fine, happy, happy
That's the spirit
At least you can still say that
That's the right attitude
You are no ordinary housewife
You think I'm Susie Homemaker? Die Hard?
I can't tell what you're like
over the phone
Don't even know why I asked you out
I seldom see others
Miss Chan, the nurse told me...
I don't care what Miss Chan
or Dr. Cheung says...
...something cocktail party...
I don't want to listen anymore
You mean cocktail therapy?
Or world campaign
It's Global Campaign Against Aids
You've left out the word Aids
You're scared to even mention Aids?
Okay, tell me then
I'm an HIV carrier
- Game over, I have no hope
- Die Hard!
Right, Die Hard, I'm dead
Can you give up smoking?
You thought...
I'm a drug-addict didn't you?
Seeing they pick it up so easily?
No...
I'm worried when I see you
smoke so heavily
Maybe you think I'm a prostitute?
We usually call them...
Whores?
No, Commercial Sex Worker
Commercial Sex Worker
Sounds academic!
Right, sort of professional
People like you rarely call us
especially women
I really need... someone to talk to...
I need a friend...
I understand
As long as you don't
get upset or worked up
...you will find someone
Aren't we friends already?
Aren't you the happy housewife?
This was written by my son
Chi...
Chi Mo
He's gone now
Read it if you have time
He died three years ago, but...
I feel that he's near
Fu, now you try
On the count of 3, stand up!
Okay?
Okay, 1, 2, 3, stand up!
If you don't move,
your legs will go numb
Don't you want to walk again?
What if mom pretend to be Bouncing Man?
Like this, 1, 2, 3...
Okay?
Fu, be a good boy, 1, 2, 3...
Here comes the Bouncing Man
Fu, don't rely on
this wheelchair anymore...
Come on! Stand up!
Please, be a good boy...
Don't be like this or mom will get mad
Come on...
Fu!
Fu, Uncle Wong is going to tell a story
Over here
- Your son?
- Yes
- You're Yung's mother?
- Yes
Cancer?
No, hemophilia
He was born with it
Must be hard taking care of him all day
Mrs. Tam
Dr. Li says he'll be available
in half an hour
He wants to teach you how to inject
coagulated blood medicine
Thanks
In future, you can handle...
...minor injuries at home
no need to bring him all the way
here for treatment
Good, very good
- Don't panic
- I'm not
Try to smile
- It's that one, right?
- This one
Fu...
Don't be afraid...
Sit down
No... wrong!
Wrong?
Pull it out, try again
Sorry...
Don't cry...
Fu is a good boy, okay...
Don't panic...
Done!
Fu...
Don't open it
Let mom do it
No
You always hurt yourself
Please, back me up here
You'll stand by me, right?
That's a goodboy
Mom
Does it hurt?
You are my darling
Mom knows you suffered a lot
But it hurts me just as much
But let me tell you,
...hardship only makes you tougher...
Will I grow up?
Of course!
...as long as you look after yourself
And not play too rough with your friends
or do stupid things...
you'll grow up to be just fine
If that's the case,
I want a little brother...
...one as cute as him
Brother loves to write
One day he wants to write a book
But the year he entered university,
he became very weak
At night, I'd wake to find him
trembling, almost as if...
...his body doesn't
belong to him anymore
How I want to hold him...
...but he won't let me
fearing I have a wound
I'd tell him not to worry
because you're my brother
What are you doing?
Sorry, mom
Louser, Professor and Sly are here
Don't eat that, try this one
Chicken wing, tongue-scorching hot!
Uncle, you're an expert cook
It feels good
Leaves a good after taste too!
Sly!
Louser, don't just sit there,
come and help
A nick name sticks with you
wherever you go
Professor, now that's a great nick
What kind of Professor?
Don't be rude in front of aunt
Miser Fu gave me this nick
You dare call him a miser!
But he's a real miser
It's not inherited, is it?
On my birthday, when I was in F.5
...he gave me lots of presents
A cake, sports car, a yatch, Rolex...
all drawn by hand!
He's so cheap, he drew it
on one sheet of paper
Ted, what do you want for your birthday?
But can you draw as well as my brother?
Aunt, I have something for you
Miser Fu's album
How come?
Don't know why, I feel that he's near
Me too
Luk Chi Keung
I'm talking to you, Luk Chi Keung
You're the only one who haven't
handed in your homework
Submit it now
I haven't done it
Mr. Tang will be pissed?
I don't care
What's the meaning of this?
Mr. Tang will kill you!
Here, review of Story of Helen Heller
I've summarized it for you.
Just have to write it up
It'll help
This book was my first choice
But Mr. Tang says it suits you,
so I'll let you have it
Asshole!
Cripple!
Asshole!
You're nothing but an attention
grabbing Cripple!
A bloody teacher's pet!
Shut up!
You shut up!
I can't help walking like this
But you can help not being such a loser!
I'm a loser! So what!
I've repeated twice already
This is my third.
Expultion can't be worst.
You know something...
Mind your own damn business!
While you are deciding your Uni...
I'm still trying to pass F.4
and to find a job after I leave school
I'm 3 years older than
everyone in our grade
It's pathetic
You know what others call me?
Gramps
You hate me, don't you
You don't have to say it
You help me just to make
yourself look good
Well don't bother
You're not Jesus Christ
Don't drag religion into it?
Listen...
I know what I am doing
Just want you to know,
Luk Chi Keung, how lucky you are
What the fuck!
What the hell are you doing?
Look
Just like a Junkie
Attention ladies and gentleman...
Dotty the Drug-Addict!
Hemophilia...
Lymphatic gland
I've been in and out of hospital
since I was a baby
A non-stop experience, once a month
You know how I get this limp?
From all those damn injections
You think I wear long-sleeves in summer
just to be fashionable!
Lagging behind in my studies...
...seeing a hospital ward
more often than a classroom
I listen to lectures on tape
like they're rock concerts!
Don't have to come last you know
But success doesn't come easy either
You think you're get problems?
There's an Uncle Wong in hospital
He's been fighting
bone cancer for 5 years
He wrote this to me
Money is important
Yet money can't buy time, life...
...health or dignity
You've giving up without even a fight
There used to be a kid called Yung
Though he used a crutch
...with it he could move like the wind
His good friend ET...
She wore a neck brace...
...but alert as a cat
They had a friend
I want to be a bird, I want to fly
Wait
You'll get me in trouble!
Told you not to enter male ward
I'll be sent to special ward tomorrow
ET will be leaving Earth very soon
You won't die, E
They'll cut off my hair,
will you recognize me?
Of course we will
Lets play Rock, Paper, Scissors.
Whoever wins can have this
I'll treasure it
Brother, come, quick
Behave yourself, sit and read here
Okay? Be good
Madam
Children are not admitted in here
You must be new here
No one's available to babysit.
He'll have to wait here
He's used to this
Nurse, I'm late already...
Hello sweety
Don't worry
I'm fine, don't worry
You have to be more careful than this
Now you can't go to school for a month
You'll have to repeat this year
You always say God is testing me
and makes me suffer
Why doesn't God test other children,
why only me?
Because you're no ordinary child
See, even mom can't answer your question
This proves how special you are?
Finish the soup
Your brother's waiting.
Have to take him to school now
Mom
I won't be naughty again
Fu, with mom around
You'll grow up in no time
Because I'm no ordinary mother either
Right?
Very touching,
I've read it many times already
I really admire you. You're very...
Strong
Hey, you can be too
Fu is... very... sincere
...how shall I put it
I really hope he can convince you
Now I regret it
We never encouraged him to write
We only worried about his illness
But the rascal kept winning prizes
You going to smoke?
Can I?
I've cut down already,
just like you said
I am now... how to put it?
Waiting... to die?
You're only HIV Positive
You haven't gone full blown yet
Plus, you still look great
But when will I...
Normally, the C-D4 cell reading...
...ranges between 800 to 1200
If it falls below 200,
then there's trouble
It means day by day I...
That's why...
...you must stay healthy
and in good spirit
Don't let the virus spread
If there's a new drug one day...
lf?
No, WHEN there is
But don't worry
I've learnt Fu's theory
You know him?
Not personally
Men still notice you
What do you mean? You being sarcastic?
No, I mean it
Fion
F... I... O... N
Fion's my name
And you?
Mrs. Tam, Tam Li Ming Chun
Fion, you thought of telling others...
Never
No way! They won't understand
- How do you know...
- They just won't
Okay... take it easy
Just don't tell... okay
Excuse me, what time is it now?
Time to get lost
Bill, please
We're leaving, thanks
Fu has a pseudonym, Chi Mo
He told me: Mo means wild duck
One which can't fly high, just like him
You scared me half to death...
You should get more rest
Start again tomorrow
Leave me alone
Shall I make you ginseng tea?
Don't worry, go to sleep
Like father like son
What?
I say you're both alike
Fu used to write late into the night...
When I interrupted,
he would lose his temper
Now it's my turn
Must be payback
It's your fault
You've disrupted my inspiration
Why don't you use pen and paper.
Computers isn't your thing
Clumsy
If Fu can do it, so can I
I'm worried about you
You know what worry is now?
I know you've been blaming me
No
Yes
If I could turn back time...
...I would know what to do
I would spend more time...
...with our two sons
I'd rather be poor and be with Fu
so that he'd have 23 years of happiness
Your son will understand
He blames me more than you,
look what he writes
Narrow-minded
Daddy, why don't you also start writing?
You're crazy!
Is our child in heaven now?
Of course!
Of course, where else can he go?
I want to hangout with them
They get good grades, good at sports
Snobby too. We're nothing
Don't feel sorry for yourself
Never give up...
Thanks
What are you doing? You crazy?
Come on.
Does it hurt?
What do you think?
I started self-injection
when I was in F.2
What about before that?
Mom did it
Dr. Lee, you have a boyfriend?
Not trying to set me up
with your teacher are you?
Nah, only the head marker is good enough
He's educated, has good taste...
Okay, say no more
Why? You've been busy at school?
Lots of extra-curricular activities
Why work so hard?
Because I want to win
At least the teachers care about me
They're willing to stay behind to tutor
That's good
What's with the swelling?
Basketball
Didn't I write to your school
...excusing you from P. E?
Now you have to stay here a few days
ET...
No.3 bed of Intensive Care Unit
calling Dr. Kwok
I'm back
I said...
Fu is back
Uncle Wong
Back for holidays?
I've said that already
What do you mean?
What do you mean?
Don't want you to get Ionely
I don't need your company
Fu is back
Fu
Hey sexy!
I miss you
All yours
Don't worry
I won't give you any trouble
Put these on
- It hurts more and more
- Where?
Here
The cancer is out of control? How come?
Dr. Kwok tells me every time...
Pretty good
but I know I must die
They bring a bunch of
Medical students to prod me
They only speak in English
What do they say?
Who knows?
Still haven't found your mother?
Where shall we go next?
- Who knows?
- Tai Hao Wan!
Let's go!
I want the seat for the disabled
I've Octopus Card
I'll go to the upper deck
I'll be on the lower deck
I want to be an astronaut
I want... to be Tchaikovsky
No, I want to skateboard!
I want to ice skate!
Auntie
- It's for you
- Thank you.
Why didn't you tell me
you were in hospital?
You scared the hell out of me!
What's the point? I still have to come
What do you mean?
You should spend more time
with brother instead
You work so hard everyday
I can quit that job any time
I only took this job
when your condition stablized
Mom don't want to be left behind
You're becoming more rebellious.
Don't know what to do with you
I just want to be ordinary
Why did you work so hard to raise me up?
Wouldn't it be better
if I died at birth?
Better than being like this
Sorry, Mom, sorry...
I know you've been blaming me
But it's been hard on me too
Sorry, I didn't mean it
Since I gave birth to you...
...your grandma has been blaming me
Our relatives laugh at me, I don't care
I've been taking you
to hospital all these years
and yet you still blame me?
Mom, sorry...
Stop apologizing, I haven't finished yet
Okay, go ahead...
I thought you have grown up already
I don't have to look after you as much
I was wrong
I'll quit first thing tomorrow
My 2 years are up anyway
No way
Even Jesus spent 3 years
before he brought happiness to mankind
My only hope is that
you understand how I feel
But doesn't look like you will
Time's up, name a song now
Name a song...
A heart-broken mother
wants to tell her son
- Go ahead...
- Listen...
You mustn't give up,
no matter what happens
Got it
We're not afraid of the long road ahead
We must plan ahead
We mustn't be sad this moment
for we are together
The sky is bright
as time goes by
In a Ionely place
Take me to a new horizon
Let the sunshine...
Bone cancer
How do I say it?
I have bone cancer.
Very good, again
I have bone cancer. Thank you!
No need
Can you cure me, doctor? Please?
Kill me, doctor?!
Kill him?
It's 'cure', not 'kill'!
Cure!
How do you say extract bone marrow?
Let me think
It's a medical term...
Hi!
We want to...
Welcome you to our team
I don't need pity
especially yours
Go away
C'mon, don't be like this
What do you want, Sly?
- Let's have a competition?
- In what?
- The results in the mock exam
- You're on
It's not fair, he hasn't been to class
Okay, in order to defeat this bastard
we shall tutor him after school
We'll see who gets the highest mark
Do you dare? You can still back out
I don't need pity,
but friendship sounds good
It's good you three are here
What is the term for
extract bone marrow?
Professor...
How do you say bone marrow?
Extract bone marrow
By injecting a thick syringe
into the spine
...extract
To put it simply, take out...
Bone marrow...
Take out the marrow of the bone.
Something like that
Doesn't that hurt?
Like hell!
Uncle Wong, they still extract bone
marrow from you, even at this last stage?
Sure
So they can study
Though I can't be cured
I hope I can help people in the future
Sorry to interrupt. I better go
- Don't go, you're not interrupting...
- Welcome...
My husband, she's Fion
They're all primary schoolmates of Fu
They come and visit every month
They're so kind
Ho Bok Hong, nicknamed Professor
I'm Chan Man Sum, call me Man
I'm Luk Chi Keung
...nicknamed Louser, hello
Fion, I'm Lam Bo Fai
...nicknamed... Sly
You must be Chi Mo's brother
Tam Siu Ted
I read in his essays
that you're like brothers
He's 19 years old now
Come and eat something
- Sit down...
- No, I'd better not bother
Come on
I like their company
Livens up the place
Will I...
Don't worry
Relax
Your biggest problem is that
you don't trust anyone
Can't stay like this, you know?
He's Louser?
Chi Keung?
Chi Keung
Chi Keung, come here
Come here
Come and chat to Fion
Come here, sit down
Shit, my legs are numb
Are you okay?
Hello, you're Chi Mo's best friend?
Yes
How did he describe that period?
A time of friendship
Mind if ask you a question?
Did Chi Mo have a girlfriend?
It doesn't mention it in his essays
I find that the ones describing love...
...can't have been invented
You're studying Chi Mo's work?
I'm interested in Chi Mo
Instead worry about... the living
Sorry, this is mine
No, this is mine, that is yours
This is mine
Sorry, they're mixed up
Are you ill or something?
You don't feel well?
You can tell?
No, I'm just asking
I always make funny gestures
when I get nervous
I'm the nervous type
I'm fine, thanks
You haven't answered me,
did Chi Mo have girlfriend?
I don't know
- What are you doing here?
- Go away
- What is it?
- Go
You distributing Maths paper?
- Leave once you have read it
- Okay
Okay, go away...
My God!
Jesus Christ!
I passed, I passed!
Okay, congratulations...
Why are you holding the tree?
Go away, now...
Go away
There's a response.
You're not blind then
Watch your mcuth
You can't be stupid either
If you were blind,
I would have to tell you
...that this is a tree, not a bus-stop
I'm not waiting for a bus
Okay, I know the answer to this one
What answer?
You're a psycho
You're the devil
I'm sure there're 3 sixes
on your forehead
or else you can't walk like this...
Do you know how evil you are?
If you're not a psycho
...why are you here everyday
at the same time?
Why must I tell you?
You think you're special?
Just because you're in a good school,
doesn't make you special
I wonder why your school
only takes girl students in F.6
But let me tell you
I'll get into your school in F.6
I talked to her at last
Very blunt, but I like that
Then tell her directly
Forget it
Not pitying yourself are we?
Don't have to possess her to love her
Oh no
I must work harder
I need to get to F.6
It'll be bad if she joins
our school and I get expelled
I only want a pass in HKCEE
Say, if there's only
one vacancy left in F.6
Either you enroll, or...
That'll be bad!
It'd be... catching butterflies...
Many butterflies
Mr. Universe!
The year Fu was promoted to F.5
the doctor asked us all in
for blood tests
Because some sufferers of hemophilia
...had been transfused
with contaminated blood
...and got infected with Aids
I kept praying...
I hoped this wouldn't happen to Fu
Hello? Who are you looking for?
I want to die,
I don't want to live anymore...
Fion?
Fion, is that you?
- I don't want to live...
- Fion!
The report is out
It shows HIV Positive
It means Fu had been transfused
with contaminated blood
Even though he looks fine
but if the virus is provoked
it'll spread quickly
When the immune system
cannot suppress it anymore
it'll start destroying the immune system
and then we'll grow weaker and weaker
When we're physically weak,
we will get sick easily
Then, we'll be infected
with all kinds of diseases
This stage is what's known as
full blown Aids
Why does this disease
spread so vigorously?
As it has a long dormant period
When one doesn't know
he has been infected
It's easy to spread
the disease to others
Fu...
Fu, open the door
Open the door, Fu
- Fu
- Fion!
- Fion...
- Fu, open the door...
Fion, it's me
Fu...
How is she? Come in
What's wrong?
Fu, don't be like this
Fu...
Why did you look after me
when I was small?
Why didn't you just let me die?
Why?
Fu, don't be like this...
Yes, you're suffering,
but I'm suffering too
Mom feels miserable, Fu
Why did you give birth to me?
You said I haven't had a good day...
...Since I was born
Then why did you
bring me here to suffer?
Where are you going?
Let me die
Dying won't solve anything, Fu
I don't care, just let me die!
Fu, please...
I've always been good,
never had casual sex
Never even had a girlfriend
Why am I infected with Aids? Why...
Fu, be good...
You will say it's God's will
I want to ask him too
Why did he choose me...
Why must god punish me
and not others? Why?
Mom
Mom, blue is brother's favourite colour
Ted
Ted, this is a secret
Don't tell anyone
about your brother's illness
Why not?
Just don't
Not even your friends
Your brother will die
once you tell others
From now on, you mustn't use...
...his toothbrush
Neither must you eat the apple
he has bitten, got it?
Why not?
This will harm him
Will it kill him?
Mom do understand you
I feel so sad, I blame myself
Don't you know how much you upset me
every time you loose your temper?
Sorry
You keep saying: Sorry
I know you're suffering
but compared to some...
you're quite lucky
At least you are goodlooking...
At least you are handsome, right?
Look at the other patients...
...those who are unjustly biased against,
aren't they worst off?
But they won't die
Fu
If you're useless
what's the use of living long?
No one knows how long you have
Maybe there'll be miracle tomorrow,
a new drug maybe
You must cherish every single day
I've raised you up till now
have I ever given up?
I'm quite optimistic.
You're the only one that makes me cry
Sometimes you make me so mad
but have I ever blamed fate?
There must be a reason
God send you to be my son
Fu
When we meet God...
...I don't want him to see us fighting
What are you doing?
Mom, close the door
Sit down
We can create our own miracle
Miss Lam, the nurse, has just called
...Yung is dead
Yung asked me to give you this
What is it?
I keep writing about the hospital
My view is really too narrow
Very narrow...
What about me...
I don't even see the sky
Once there was a team of brave warriors
Who fought for their lives
Their biggest enemy is the God of Death
The warriors were cunning
always quick to adapt
never using the same move twice
because the second time round...
they will have another way to fight back
Even flowers in a greenhouse...
...sometimes die
Life is like a flowers
Even in the best circumstances...
...there are still no guarantees
Brother
Life's not about long or short
...it's...
...what you make of it
...and whether it is meaningful
If we can control life...
...and live to the full
...contribute to society
then this is life
Hey, coming...
Coming
Coming...
Even romance has a price
Your romance costs me an arm and leg
Do you have money?
For what?
Forget it
I have about nine thousand
That's good!
What're you going to do?
I want to buy a camera
I promised to take photos for the church
I also want to learn hair dressing
Grow your hair and be my model
This money was gonna be
your university fund
I won't get to university anyway
Let's wait and see
We're buddies right?
No matter how many hurdles ahead
We will overcome them
Don't ever be frustrated
We'll be together always
Herbal tea? $5 for one
- No
- It's hot and fresh, nutritions too
I am waiting for my son
Come in!
I'm waiting for someone
- Will I interrupt you?
- Come in first...
- I'm waiting for someone
- Come in first...
I want to wait outside
You're weird
Hi beautiful, first time here?
Fu?
Call me No. 6
What are you doing here?
Let me give you a new hair style...
What are you up to?
When did you learn hairdressing?
Don't worry, I'm experienced
My instructor
- Hi
- Hi
- You sure about this?
- Of course!
This is the hairstyle
designed by your son
This!
Forget it, no way...
No...
Mom
There's one more thing
What is it?
City University has accepted me
You want to go to University?
Doctor says...
- Now he...
- This is his wish
Well...
Let him go for it.
How much?
Figure out a way.
Go to sleep.
Sleep
Asleep now
Shit, how can I sleep in this hairstyle
I've won all these, pretty?
Yes
I must try to be a successful writer
I want everyone to remember me
Why?
Let me see.
Take a look.
Poor thing!
Why are your eyes red?
An infection
The virus is taking over me
Okay, enough already
Last one, Sister
Idiot
I mean my sister
I did ask her not to tell anyone
but now the whole world knows it
Everyone calls me a whore
A dirty slut even
Fion, take it easy
My brother-in-law gives me shit everyday
and all my nephews... fear me
I have moved out
I worry that my mother...
...will come to my office
and then all my colleagues will know
Come to the church with me
I know, you're trying convert me
What's wrong with that?
I need someone to love me
Will there be people
like that in church?
Of course
God loves us
Right...
Your son has fallen in love with a girl
Ted?
Impossible, he's just a kid
I mean Chi Mo
Brother has finally
accepted that he has Aids
...as a result of hemophilia
He is now as active as before
He takes part in lots of activities
Every time he goes
to the cinema or BBQ...
...he brings me along
Soon I found out his secret
That girl is called Wendy Ching
Everyone laughs...
Fion thinks that
this part can't be fictitious
This girl does exist, right?
Does she, Chi Keung?
In fact, Fu wrote this article
from his brother's viewpoint...
...to describe a brother
who is infected with Aids
Which means you wrote about him
Hang on... sorry
That means he...
He wrote... about you...
Ah, I see...
Right, I never thought of it this way
Yeah, why doesn't he tell of straight?
My brother always had a sense of humour
Was he?
He was joking with you?
What do you think?
Fu was only a teenager
He looked tough
...but no one knows...
...what's in his mind
Even Fu has moments of low esteem
There were times
when he couldn't face himself
It must be sad for him...
...seeing you grow up...
...while he was withering away
He wanted to look out for you
...but you are much stronger than him
He really cares about you
You have become his superman
...a continuation of his dream
You understand?
Only someone who has no hope
can understand this feeling
One must be brave to face oneself
You...
You must have seen Wendy Ching, right?
Fu really had a girlfriend?
I really want to know brother's taste
Right, dare you not tell us?
Madam, this is no police station
Fu really had a girlfriend?
No, I swore never to tell
I'll beg God to forgive you
Now tell me
I didn't swear to God,
so I won't tell...
Come on...
Brother become more religious
When he was a sophomore,
his illness suddenly worsened
He was in the final stage of Aids
but Wendy Ching still
cared for brother a lot
During the last days,
she held brother's hands...
...and kept saying...
Fung... don't die, don't leave me...
You hear me, Fung?
What a coincidence!
You must be Chi Mo
I've read your work, it's brilliant
Thanks
So we belong to the same church
Don't give up, Tam
Never say die!
You came all the way
just to tell me this?
I've always thought of you as a friend
Thanks
Don't be like this
You still have doubts about me?
Never
I'll be going to England soon
I enrolled into
British Royal Conservatory
I'm leaving day after tomorrow,
but I'll be back
I'll see you when I come back
- Don't give up
- You too
Try your best, work hard
I'll play piano for you when I return
Okay?
Okay
Goodbye
My love...
Daddy
Daddy, something's happened to Fu
I've been waiting here for two hours
but he hasn't shown up yet...
Here he comes, it's okay now
Where have you been? You scared me
You're two hours late, you know?
Sorry I forget
But we agreed to meet here
I forget where we were meeting
You could have called me up
you didn't...
You forget my phone number?
Why?
You could have called back home
You forget... our phone number also?
You forget our phone number?
You ask me out just to give me these?
My photos
There are many
Many precious memories
I will teach brother...
...to send you a carnation
every year on Mother's Day
Mom, Happy Mother's Day
Fu...
But Mother's Day...
is still a long way away
I know
but can I wait that long?
This is 2, looks like a duck,
doesn't it?
Granny, one letter is missing
Cloth is spelt, C-L-O-T-H
and the last letter
If you leave out the T, it becomes Clot
- Yes...
- Right?
Now this is cloth
Fu
Are you free, Beautiful?
Don't worry, I didn't...
Fu...
Fu
You've known... for ages
Yes, I learnt it when I was in F.5
Bastard
So what if you knew?
You think he'll be touched...
...seeing you pity him...
Think he likes that?
He's not me, he's Tam Siu Fu
He'd rather you laugh at him
...than see you burst into tears
Bastards, real bastards
Auntie...
His C-D4 reading has dropped to zero,
his immune system has shut down
It's a miracle he's still alive
Remember to inform the university...
We will
Chi Keung
As for the recreational centre,
you must...
We'll see to it
He's taken up so many activities...
I just don't know exactly...
Really so urgent?
Sorry
But I must resign, because...
there's really no time left
Let me decide
Give it one more month, okay?
Sorry
I must be with my son
It's his last days
Mom
Can I do without bone marrow extraction?
It hurts so much
I know, but doctors fear you
have an infection
This'll be the last time
I can take you home next week
You mean doctor has given up
Bullshit, doctor hasn't said anything
Not bad
I don't want to commit suicide anymore
Right
Just kill yourself
if you want me to die before you
No matter what happens in the future
I'll always be with you
Even...
...if I become really ugly
...or throw tantrums,
or don't recognize you...
...will you hate me?
Don't bullshit
You're my baby, I can never hate you
- You know?
- Yes, I know
- You understand?
- Yes, I understand
Mom will stay with you
till the very end...
I'll never abandon you
Don't worry, I won't get angry
like when I was small
I haven't done this for ages
You can do it
You found the vein yet?
Fu, how do you feel? Alright?
I'm okay
How's your appetite?
It's fine
Did you watch TV after dinner?
- I watched porn videos
- Very good
- What!?
- Yes
Does your mother know?
Of course, we all watched it together
We call it dessert
Dessert?
Thank you so much, mom
Don't flatter yourself
How can you say such a thing...
...as watching porn videos?
Just giving him shit
Instead, you got me in trouble
It was so embarrassing
in front of Dr. Kwok
He's such a prick
So full of shit
Mom
I don't blame God anymore
God has always been with me
I now see his miracle
I used to think a miracle is a cure
...but I never saw that
his plan for me...
...was to be a writer
Now I have lots of readers
The publisher told me that
I've changed many people's lives...
...by helping them understand Aids
In future they...
This is the miracle
I did it
Fu...
Mom, though it was very hard...
Mom...
I made it
Fu...
Take it
Fu
Why don't you call me Sexy?
I'm prettier
I'm prettier...
No, I am...
He's smart
What if...
...blink this eye if I'm prettier
blink the other if she's prettier
Don't blink both eyes though
- Who is prettier?
- This eye...
This eye...
Look, he blinks that eye
No, he's blinking both
He blinks both eyes
Fu
Fu, don't be afraid
Don't be ashamed
Chin up
Son, be proud
In fact...
Fu, everyone runs out of time
but always have dignity
Son, lift your head high
Stare at them if they stare at you
That's it
I'm useless...
I'm weak...
I'm not worthy of you
Fu, rest in peace
I know you care about mom and brother
I promise you I'll look after mom...
and brother
I love you
Son...
Hello, congratulations
Auntie
- Hello, Auntie!
- Hello!
Auntie, take your time
Okay...
- Congratulations
- Thanks for coming...
Remember our dinner next week
Hello...
- Thanks for coming
- May I have your autograph
You want an autograph too?
Sure, I want a big one
Go serve the guests
Okay, help yourselves
Congratulations
It's brilliant
Thanks...
- Congratulations
- Thanks...
- It's finally published
- Thank you all
- You're welcome
- Excuse me, may I have your autograph?
- You want one too?
- Sure
You want to follow Fu's footsteps?
What do you mean?
No?
You want to do all the things he did...
...all the things he liked
Because you loved him and still do
You think so?
Yes, till the end of time
It's forever and ever, Miss
Same difference
You think I'm torturing myself?
Of course not, I'm happy and content
Really?
Don't worry, I'm not lying
It's my character...
I managed to raise Fu
Even though I miss him heaps
but I'm quietly confident
I wrote this book
to finish what he started
not because I don't want to move on
She's here
Who?
The girl Fu fell in love with
Really?
The one in pink?
- Hello
- Hello
So you're Fu's mother
Yes, you must be Wendy Ching?
No, I'm Fanny
Ah, I see...
Excuse me... how are you?
Congratulations, Auntie
Thanks, good to see you again
Same here
Tell Dad to come here
You've just returned from abroad?
I've been in England for 4 years
I promised to play piano for him
when I return
but I didn't expect...
Well, you can still play the piano now
He can hear
Let me introduce, this is Fu's father
Nice to meet you
- She is...
- Wendy Ching?
Fanny
Right, Fanny
Nice to meet you
Likewise
You want to play piano? Go ahead
Sorry
Tell her
What?
Go and tell her Fu loved her
No way
Why no way? I'll tell her!
Are you okay?
I'm fine
Thanks
Everything's okay now
I am HIV Positive
that means I'm a carrier
For Fu's sake, no need to say it
File closed
Done
This book...
...is a continuation of my son's work...
Chi Mo's work
While I still miss him a lot...
I hope that everyone...
...from all walks of life
who have fallen to Aids
no matter what problems you face...
...or how overwhelming they seem
Please think of Chi Mo
Don't ever give up
...hang on to your dreams
Treasure every moment
and everyone...
I think Aids
is not a monster. Prejudice is
If we are more...
...understanding, then...
...prejudice will disappear...
Ever since childhood...
...I never wanted to disappoint mom
Sometimes when I see her upset
...I become upset
I love you, Mom