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Der Gang in die Nacht (1921)
Walking Into The Night
"Helene, I have a lot of work to do again. " February 25. Eigil is now a professor. More and more he is attaining a position as a physician and scientist that I've desired for him ever since our childhood together. This only concern about knowing himself at the height of fame has even become more intense after our engagement. And yet, the more auspiciously he approaches that goal, the more inhibited my passion for him becomes, about which he probably knows nothing, because I'm always afraid that my love might lead him astray. "A famous physician!" "A doctor! A doctor!" "I'm so terribly frightened! Please, do come again tomorrow to look in on me!" "You don't have to go yet, in that awful weather! Have a cup of tea...!" "Tell me something about yourself. " "Whoa! That must be boring!" "I suppose you didn't like me at all... as an artist...?" "I was dancing! Everyone was enthusiastic, only you were sitting there brooding and listless!" "You've got such a horribly awful tie!" "I've come... to fix a day... for our wedding!" "Set us free, Helene!" "Eigil... How... did... this... come... over you... " "I don't know. " And that's why I must never see you again. "I have received your letter! It isn't true that you never want to see me again!" "Why don't you look at me?!" "Look at me!" "But don't take too long with your round. " "I encountered him, too. He is a painter who has become entirely blind. He's been living in seclusion near the village for years. " "A thanksgiving prayer to God for the grace of vision. " "Madame went into the village... " "... but a sick peasant woman has been waiting for half an hour. " Eigil, I only like the truth between us. When I first saw you I knew that I would love you endlessly. My foot injury was just a trick, as it is now. But I've always been afraid to make this confession. Now I'm glad it is out. "That blind painter is coming to our house tomorrow. Perhaps I can heal him!" "Avoid him! Don't bring him here! I have such an inexplicable fear...!" "At six o'clock we'll see whether the healing of the blind has been successful. " ...has grown weaker day by day, and now Helene lies in bed, ill and completely exhausted. I regarded it as my duty to tell you about it... "At six o'clock the professor wants to bring the blind man out into the light for the first time since the operation. " "You are a noble person! Because you are helping the blind man, who is good as a saint...!" ...has grown weaker day by day, and now Helene lies in bed, ill and completely exhausted. "Even today I must go... far... far... away... from here... " "You have to stay here for another four weeks. As a doctor I have to demand at least this time for your further treatment. " ...has grown weaker day by day, and now Helene lies in bed, ill and completely exhausted. "Lily... would you... be... very... sad... tomorrow... perhaps for a day... to... the... city... " "Perhaps... you... really... must...?!" "If only I had... never... seen...!" "You... gave... him... the... light...!" "The next!" Professor Doctor EIGIL BRNE, who, as is well known, has dedicated himself for months entirely to ophthalmology, and who is blessed by hundreds of healed persons, has recently... "No thanks!... Duty!" "He... goes blind... again... " "No!" "Kill yourself! Then I will heal... him!" Professor Doctor EIGIL BRNE, who, as is well known... I don't accuse you. None of us is guilty. Laws were above us! But you needn't try to heal me anymore. You gave me the light once. I was allowed to see her. I return into my night. The End |
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