MY NAME IS JULIAN PO.
I'M 30 YEARS OLD,
AND I'M RECORDING
THE STORY OF MY LIFE
ON THIS TAPE RECORDER
FOR THE PURPOSE OF...
RECORDING MY LIFE.
NO.
RECORDING MY LIFE
ON THIS TAPE RECORDER
WHICH I BOUGHT 2 WEEKS AGO
AT THE PAYLESS FOR $29.
UH, IT'S GO NOISE REDUCTION, UH...
WHAT DO I SAY NOW?
I HAVE NO IDEA.
I TRIED TO KEEP A JOURNAL ONCE,
BUT THAT DIDN'T WORK OUT.
I'M NOT A NOVELIS OR ANYTHING LIKE THAT.
ACTUALLY,
I'M A BOOKKEEPER.
IT'S NOT WORTH
MENTIONING.
I'M JULIAN PO.
THIS IS THE STORY
OF MY TRIP TO THE SEA.
OF ALL THE PLACES
I'VE NEVER BEEN,
IT'S THE ONE
THAT I LOVE THE MOST.
NO, NO, NO. THAT DIDN' COME OUT RIGHT.
WHO'S GOING TO
HEAR THIS ANYWAY?
PROBABLY NOT EVEN ME.
[MAN SINGING LAZILY]
[LOUD RING]
[SOFT RING]
WELL?
WHAT THE HELL
DO YOU WANT?
YOUR, UH...SIGN SAID
YOU HAD A VACANCY.
IT ALWAYS SAYS THAT.
IT'S PERMANENT.
SO YOU
HAVE NO ROOMS.
WHOA.
AIN'T PUTTIN'
WORDS IN MY MOUTH.
SIGN THAT.
THAT'S 20 BUCKS
A NIGHT, IN ADVANCE.
THANK YOU.
UPSTAIRS.
MY SISTER WILL
SHOW YOU THE ROOM.
THANK YOU.
UH-HUH.
UM...EXCUSE ME,
COULD YOU TELL ME
WHERE 7 IS?
ROOM 7.
DON'T SEEM TO BE
ANY NUMBERS HERE.
THANK YOU.
ARE YOU DONE?
OH.
A BATH.
UH...I'M IN
SOME TOWN NOW...
I DON'T KNOW WHAT IT'S CALLED
OR WHERE I AM.
CHECKED INTO A HOTEL,
ROOM 7.
HMM. THE BED SQUEAKS.
JULIAN P-O...
WHAT THE HELL KIND
OF NAME IS THAT?
HELL IF I KNOW, MAYOR.
DON'T LOOK LIKE NO TOURIST.
COULD BE A SALESMAN
OF SOME KIND.
COULD BE SOME KIND
OF DRUG DEALER.
LET'S HAVE A LOOK A HIS CAR, RUN A TRACE
ON THE PLATES.
NO CAR.
HE WALKED INTO TOWN.
WALKED? NEARES TOWN'S 40 MILES.
YOU WANT ME TO
KICK HIM OUT, HENRY?
BETTER KEEP HIM HERE
AWHILE LONGER,
VERN, TILL WE
FIND OUT WHO HE IS.
LET ME KNOW IF HE
DOES ANYTHING FUNNY.
YOU KEEP AN EYE
ON HIM, LEON.
NAME COULD
BE AN ALIAS,
AND I GO A BAD FEELING
ABOUT THAT BOY.
I'LL STICK TO HIM
LIKE MUD.
Woman: HE COULD BE
A TERRORIST, YOU KNOW.
I WONDER IF HE'S UP THERE
MAKING BOMBS OR SOMETHING.
Po, on tape recorder:
ALL MY LIFE, I WANTED
TO SEE THE OCEAN.
JUST CAN'T IMAGINE
WHAT IT'S LIKE TO LOOK OU AND SEE ALL THE WAY
TO THE HORIZON.
PROBABLY MAKES A MAN
WANT TO LIVE FOREVER
TO SEE SOMETHING
LIKE THAT.
MAKE ME FEEL SMALL...
BUT I'VE NEVER BEEN.
WASN'T LIKE
I DIDN'T HAVE THE TIME.
THERE WAS ALWAYS TIME...
BUT I ALWAYS HAD LITTLE DETAILS
TO WORK OUT FIRST...
ERRANDS TO RUN...
BATHROOM SCALE'S BROKEN...
THIS TIME,
I'M GOING THROUGH WITH IT.
[THUD]
I COULD HAVE BEEN THERE BY NOW,
WITH A LITTLE LUCK.
I'LL FIND OUT WHERE I AM,
GET MY BEARINGS, AND GO.
NO ONE'S GOING TO STOP ME.
I'LL LEAVE TOMORROW.
YOU A NIGGER?
WHAT?
NIGGER BLOOD.
YOU KNOW...
MAYBE
YOUR GRANDDADDY,
YOUR GRANDMAMA
WAY BACK.
NO. NOT THAT I
KNOW OF. NO.
WELL, THERE'S
SOMETHING DARK
ABOUT YOU.
UM, I WAS JUST GOING.
I LEFT THE KEY WITH
YOUR SISTER UP THERE.
WHERE ARE YOU
GOING?
I'M ON MY WAY
TO THE OCEAN.
YOU IN TROUBLE
WITH THE LAW?
NO.
THEN WHY RUN IF
YOU AIN'T RUNNIN'
FROM NOTHIN'?
I'M NOT, UH...
RUNNING.
EXCUSE ME.
Po, voice-over:
NEVER SPENT MUCH TIME
IN A SMALL TOWN BEFORE.
NEVER REALLY SPENT MUCH TIME
IN A BIG ONE EITHER.
MOVED AROUND A LO WHEN WE WERE KIDS.
FATHER SOLD COPIERS.
ANYWAY, I'M PRETTY USED
TO BEING ANONYMOUS.
I DON'T MEAN THA IN A BAD WAY.
IT'S JUS THAT'S HOW I AM.
I DON'T THINK IT'S POSSIBLE
TO BE ANONYMOUS HERE.
[PO STRUGGLING
WITH LUGGAGE]
MAYBE I'LL STAY
ANOTHER DAY OR TWO,
SEE THE SIGHTS.
YEAH.
WHY DON'T YOU
DO THAT, MR. PO?
Woman: WHO IS HE?
LEON THINKS HE'S
A DRUG DEALER.
DRUG DEALER?
OH, MY GOD.
WELL, HE'S IN
THE WRONG PLACE FOR THAT.
NOBODY AROUND HERE WANTS
TO HAVE ANY KIND OF FUN,
MUCH LESS ILLEGAL FUN.
AT LEAST, ALMOST NO ONE.
[MUTTERING]
OH!
WHY DOES EVERYBODY
IN THIS TOWN LOOK AT ME?
WHAT, AM I SOME KIND
OF FREAK?
I CAN'T BELIEVE YOU'RE
JUST GOING TO SPRAY
YOUR DUMB TOMATOES.
YOU HAVE AN
OBVIOUS FELON
IN YOUR TOWN, HENRY.
YOU ACT LIKE
NOTHING'S HAPPENING.
WELL, ACTUALLY, SUGAR,
NOTHING IS HAPPENING.
YET. HE COULD BE
RIGHT OUTSIDE
THAT BARN
LOOKING AT US.
[LAUGHS]
HE'S GOING TO
KILL SOMEONE, HENRY.
I JUST KNOW HE IS.
LILAH, LEON'S GOT HIM
UNDER CLOSE SURVEILLANCE.
IF HE TRIES ANYTHING,
WE'LL NAIL HIM.
MUST BE SOMETHING
IN THE WATER AROUND HERE
MAKES EVERYONE A MORON.
[SIGHS]
Lilah: VERN TOLD ME
HE SITS IN HIS ROOM
AND TALKS TO HIMSELF.
Leon: MM-HMM.
SAID THE SAME THING TO ME.
Man: ARE WE SURE HE ISN' JUST SOME KIND OF TOURIST?
Lilah: WHEN WAS
THE LAST TIME WE HAD
A TOURIST, PASTOR?
I SAY HE'S PLANNING
SOMETHING RIGHT NOW.
Henry: LILAH,
YOU DON'T KNOW THAT.
Lilah: I CAN'T DO
EVERYTHING, HENRY.
YOU'RE
THE GODDAMN MAYOR.
FIND OU WHAT HE'S DOING HERE.
Henry: I'LL
HANDLE IT, LILAH.
WHO ARE YOU,
MISTER?
PO. MY NAME IS--
Leon: WE KNOW YOUR NAME...
AT LEAST WHAT YOU SAY
YOUR NAME IS.
BUT WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU
DOING IN OUR TOWN?
HERE?
THAT'S WHERE
WE ARE.
WHAT YOU GO IN THAT SUITCASE, SON?
YOU WAS HOLDING I PRETTY CLOSE.
NOW, IF YOU BRINGING
DRUGS IN HERE,
YOU COME
TO THE WRONG PLACE.
DRUGS. I DON'T, UH,
I DON'T HAVE ANY DRUGS.
YOU GOT THE LOOK
OF A MAN ON THE RUN.
I'M A BOOKKEEPER.
DID HE SAY
HE WAS A BOOKIE?
YOU A KILLER, BOY?
COULD BE ONE OF THOSE
MASS MURDERERS.
HE PROBABLY KILLED A
WHOLE BUNCH OF INNOCEN WOMEN SOMEWHERE,
THEN YOU CAME HERE
TO KILL AGAIN.
WHY DID YOU
COME HERE?
Po: MY CAR BROKE DOWN.
I WAS ON MY WAY
TO THE SEASHORE
FOR VACATION.
WASN' NO BROKE-DOWN CAR
ON THE ROAD NOWHERE.
I SWEAR.
LET ME SEE
YOUR CAR KEYS.
Po: I THREW THEM AWAY.
[LAUGHTER]
LISTEN, IT'S TRUE,
AND THIS JUST LOOKED
LIKE SUCH A PRETTY TOWN,
I DECIDED TO STAY
FOR A FEW DAYS.
THIS TOWN
IS A DUMP,
AND YOU KNOW IT.
JUST TELL THE TRUTH.
WHY ARE YOU HERE?
Lilah: YOU'RE GOING
TO KILL ONE OF US?
NO, NO.
LISTEN, I JUST,
I CAME HERE...
MAYBE I SHOULD
JUST GO.
SIT DOWN.
NOW, TELL US.
YOU BES CONFESS, BOY.
WHICH ONE
OF US IS IT?
OUT WITH IT!
ME...UH, KILL?
HE ADMITS IT.
NO, NO, I JUST--
I CAME HERE
JUST TO--
YOU SAID YOU CAME HERE
TO KILL SOMEBODY.
NOW, GODDAMN IT, BOY, WHO?
WHO IS IT?!
SPEAK, YOU BASTARD.
TO KILL...
OUT WITH IT.
SAY IT!
MYSELF!
WHAT DID HE SAY?
YOU, UH...CAME HERE
TO KILL YOURSELF?
YES.
IT'S JUST,
I WANTED TO, UH...
TO BE ALONE.
ARE YOU DYING
OF SOMETHING?
NO. MY HEALTH
IS FINE.
WHAT DID YOU DO,
LOSE YOUR JOB?
NO.
YOUR WIFE LEFT YOU,
A DEATH IN
THE FAMILY, MAYBE.
NO.
WHAT THE HELL
WAS IT, THEN?
HOW COME YOU WAN TO KILL YOURSELF?
GOT TO BE MONEY
OR A WOMAN. IT'S ALWAYS
ONE OF THOSE TWO.
YOU REALLY GOING
TO KILL YOURSELF, OR ARE
YOU JUST BULLSHITTING?
Po: EXCUSE ME.
Vern:
AFTERNOON, MR. PO.
HI.
UH, I WANTED
TO ASK YOU
IF THERE WAS A BUS
OR A TRAIN HEADING
OUT OF HERE,
SOMETHING GOING
EAST, SAY, TODAY?
BIG DOG USED
TO COME THROUGH,
BUT THEY CUT IT OUT.
WHAT?
BIG DOG, THE BUS.
GOES AROUND
MOUNT CARMEL NOW.
I SEE.
LISTEN, UH...
WHAT I SAID ABOU BEING A NIGGER,
JUST...
FORGET THAT, WILL YOU?
NO HARD FEELINGS.
SURE.
[KNOCK ON DOOR]
[KNOCK KNOCK]
HI. IT'S ME.
R-REVEREND BEAN.
PASTOR OF THE FORKS
OF THE WATER CHURCH.
I WAS VERY MOVED
BY WHAT YOU SAID
AT REVA'S.
MOVED...
AND TROUBLED. MAY I?
UM...
LOVELY ROOM.
VERY NICE.
AH, A BATH.
I'M A BATH MAN
MYSELF.
YOU HAVE TIME
TO THINK.
SO...
YOU'RE GOING TO
KILL YOURSELF.
WHY?
UH, IT'S
HARD TO SAY.
UNHAPPY?
AND YOU THINK
KILLING YOURSELF
MIGHT HELP.
HAVE YOU EVER
DONE THIS BEFORE?
KILLED
MYSELF?
NO, NO. OF COURSE,
YOU'RE ALIVE,
AREN'T YOU?
WHAT I MEANT WAS,
TRIED.
NO.
GOOD. GLAD TO
HEAR IT. WELL...
IT'S GOOD TO TALK,
GET THINGS
OFF YOUR CHEST.
IT'S NOT GOOD
TO BE ALONE.
TOO MUCH
TIME ALONE...
MAKE ANYBODY WAN TO KILL HIMSELF.
WELL, I'LL
LEAVE YOU ALONE NOW.
YOU COME BY MY CHURCH.
WE'LL TALK SOME MORE.
PROMISE.
OK.
HI.
HI THERE, MR. PO.
HOPE I'M NO DISTURBING YOU.
UH, WELL,
ACTUALLY, UM--
I KNOW YOU MUS HAVE A LOT OF THINGS
ON YOUR MIND RIGHT NOW,
WHAT WITH TYING UP
LOOSE ENDS AND ALL.
I WAS THINKING...
MY WIFE THOUGHT...
SO DID I...
SEEING AS HOW
YOU'RE NEW IN TOWN
[SOFTLY]
AND YOU PROBABLY
WON'T BE WITH US LONG,
WE THOUGHT...
MAYBE YOU'D LIKE
TO COME OVER TONIGHT.
KIND OF A LAST SUPPER
SORT OF THING.
IT'S...
IT'S A JOKE.
I'M SORRY.
SO WHAT DO YOU SAY?
6:30 OK?
I'M ACTUALLY KIND OF
BUSY TONIGHT.
THANK YOU, THOUGH.
HOW ABOUT TOMORROW?
[WATER DRAINS
OUT OF BATHTUB]
GREAT.
[KNOCK ON DOOR]
HELLO, MR. PO.
HELLO.
AREN'T YOU GOING
TO INVITE ME IN?
WELL, MY LORD.
I'D SAY VERN NEEDS
A NEW DECORATOR.
WHAT A RAT'S NEST.
HARDLY FIT FOR
A MAN LIKE YOU.
IT'S FINE.
OH, YOU DON'T HAVE TO BE
POLITE TO ME, MR. PO.
I'M A BIG GIRL.
FORGIVE MY BAD MANNERS.
I'M LILAH LEACH.
I BELIEVE WE'VE MET.
LEACH IS
MY HUSBAND'S NAME,
AND IF YOU
CALL ME MRS. LEACH,
I'LL STRANGLE YOU.
YOU WON'T HAVE TO
KILL YOURSELF.
CALL ME LILAH.
MAY I CALL YOU...
JU-JUNIUS?
UH, JULIAN.
JULIAN.
JULIAN, JULIAN, JULIAN.
WHAT A LOVELY NAME.
OH.
WELL...
HERE WE ARE.
Woman: I DON' KNOW WHY, HONEY.
HE JUST SAID HE WAS.
AND LILAH SAID HE SAID
IT WASN'T A WOMAN
OR MONEY AND HE WASN' DYING OF NOTHING.
WELL, THEN WHY
THE HELL DID HE
WANT TO KILL HIMSELF?
I DON'T KNOW.
I'LL GET YOUR FOOD
RIGHT NOW, SWEETIE.
STAY THERE.
Po: OH, JEEZ.
HELLO. WOULD YOU PLEASE
CALL THE POLICE?
SOMEONE'S STOLEN
ALL MY CLOTHES.
NO. LUCY WENT TO
GET THEM CLEANED.
SHE'LL BE
BACK BEFORE LONG.
I DIDN'T ASK YOU
TO DO THAT.
WELL, I TRIED
TO TELL HER.
I SAID, "LOOK,
HE AIN'T GONNA HAVE
A CHANCE TO WEAR THEM.
"WHY DON'T YOU JUS WAIT TILL AFTER,
CLEAN UP
THE WHOLE DAMN MESS
ALL AT ONCE?"
[KNOCK ON DOOR]
COME IN.
GOOD MORNING, MR. PO.
I'M SORRY TO
BOTHER YOU SO EARLY.
UM, IT'S OK.
UH...
I JUST THOUGH YOU MIGHT LIKE
SOMETHING TO READ.
OH...
THAT'S...
THAT'S VERY NICE.
IT'S THE "EASY
TO UNDERSTAND" KIND.
WELL, I MEAN,
FOR ME, ANYWAY.
MY HUSBAND,
PROBABLY, HE'D KILL ME
IF HE KNEW I WAS HERE.
HE'S ALWAYS
TELLING ME TO MIND
MY OWN BUSINESS,
LIKE WHEN I PICK UP
ALL THE STRAY DOGS
AND CATS IN TOWN.
GOT A HOUSE
FULL OF THEM.
I JUST CAN'T HELP IT.
WELL,
WHAT YOU SAID, I...
I FEEL BAD.
THANK YOU.
[BED SQUEAKS]
OOH.
"ARGUMEN ABOUT GREATNESS."
Po: EXCUSE ME.
Po: OH, BOY.
Po, voice-over:
WHAT DO THESE PEOPLE THINK,
JUST LIKE THAT I'M GOING
TO GO OUT AND END MY LIFE?
THAT'S NOT REALISTIC.
THEY DON'T--
THEY DON'T KNOW ME.
IN ANY CASE...
WHAT'S SAID IS SAID
AND, UH...
CAN'T BE UNSAID.
GO ON HOME.
I'M NOT GOING TO
KILL MYSELF TODAY.
YOU CAN ALL
JUST GO HOME.
Man: WELL, THERE'S
ALWAYS TOMORROW.
[KNOCK ON DOOR]
WHY DON'T YOU PEOPLE
JUST LEAVE ME ALONE?
I'M SORRY. I DIDN' MEAN TO DISTURB YOU.
WAIT.
UH...WHO ARE YOU?
MY NAME IS SARAH.
UM...COME IN.
I'M SORRY.
IT'S OK.
YOU LIKE A SEAT?
I HAD A DREAM
ABOUT YOU.
YOU DID?
THAT'S WHY I'M HERE.
I DREAMED...
WHAT?
I DREAMED THAT I
SAW YOU IN A FIELD,
AND THE FIELD
BECAME MY BEDROOM,
AND YOU WERE
STANDING BY MY BED
HOLDING A BIG KNIFE.
THEN SUDDENLY
YOU STABBED YOURSELF
IN THE CHEST WITH IT,
AND...I WOKE UP,
AND I KNEW YOU WERE
THE MAN I'D BEEN
WAITING FOR MY WHOLE LIFE.
H-HOW DID YOU KNOW
TO DREAM ABOUT ME?
WE'VE NEVER MET.
I SEE YOU.
I SEE YOU EVERY DAY.
AND I KNOW
WHY YOU CAME HERE.
YOU DO?
YOU CAME HERE FOR ME.
I DID?
MY WHOLE LIFE,
I'VE DREAM OF SOMEONE LIKE YOU,
AND THEN YOU CAME.
I KNEW IMMEDIATELY
YOU WERE FOR ME.
REALLY?
YES.
YOU'RE SO...
YOU'RE SO BEAUTIFUL,
I'D GO ON LIVING
FOREVER FOR YOU.
NO. I COULD NEVER
STAND IN THE WAY
OF WHAT YOU
HAVE TO DO.
Po, voice-over:
PEOPLE COME AND GO
SO QUICKLY HERE.
THIS GIRL
CAME TO ME TODAY.
SHE LOOKED LIKE AN ANGEL.
SAID SHE DREAMED
ABOUT ME.
SAID SHE'D...
WAITED HER
WHOLE LIFE FOR ME.
WHO IS SHE?
I DON'T KNOW
ANYTHING ABOUT HER.
SHE, UH...
SMELLS LIKE THE BEACH...
OR AT LEAS HOW I THINK IT SMELLS.
I CAN CHECK THAT OU WHEN I GET THERE.
[KNOCK ON DOOR]
GOOD MORNING,
MR. PO.
I BROUGHT YOU
SOME MUFFINS.
OH, THANK YOU.
WOULD YOU LIKE ONE?
OH, NO, THANK YOU.
I ALREADY ATE.
BUT YOU GO RIGHT AHEAD.
[DOOR CLOSES]
MMM. IT'S DELICIOUS.
OH, DO YOU LIKE IT?
IT'S MY SPECIAL RECIPE.
I ALWAYS WANTED
TO BE A BAKER.
WELL, YOU SHOULD BE.
WHY AREN'T YOU?
I WAS GOING
TO START A BAKERY
OUT OF MY KITCHEN ONCE,
BUT LEON
WOULDN'T LET ME.
HE'S SORT OF
OLD-FASHIONED.
HE SAID HE LOVED
MY COOKING SO MUCH,
HE COULDN' STAND TO SHARE I WITH ANYBODY.
OH, BUT WHY AM I
TALKING ABOUT THIS?
YOUR TIME
IS TOO SHOR TO BE WORRIED
ABOUT MY PROBLEMS.
EVERYONE'S TIME IS SHORT.
YOURS, TOO.
IT'S AN ILLUSION THA WE HAVE FOREVER TO LIVE.
MY GOD.
THAT IS SO TRUE.
WE ALWAYS WAIT TOO LONG
TO DO THE THINGS
WE WANT TO DO,
AND THEN,
BEFORE YOU KNOW IT,
IT'S TOO LATE.
YOU ARE SO RIGHT.
[KNOCK ON DOOR]
HI.
UH, SHE, UH, BROUGHT ME
THOSE FOR BREAKFAST.
THAT'S WHY SHE WAS HERE.
I LIKED
YOUR BREAKFAST, TOO.
IT WAS DELICIOUS.
VERY GOOD, TASTY.
I'M GOING TO
GO OUT NOW.
SEE YOU.
AHEM. BYE.
[DOOR CLOSES]
[KITTEN MEOWING]
IS THIS YOURS?
THANK YOU, MR. PO.
IT'S NICE
TO SEE YOU TODAY.
HELLO.
IT'S NOT THE WAY
I'D DO IT.
BEG YOUR PARDON?
IT'S JUST NOT THE WAY
I'D WANT THE LOVED ONES
TO REMEMBER ME.
THAT LAST GLIMPSE BEFORE
THEY CLOSE THE LID.
IT SETS
A MEMORY FOR LIFE.
STEP RIGHT THIS WAY
INTO MY OFFICE,
MR. PO.
WE'LL HAVE YOU
FIXED UP IN A JIFFY.
WELL, I WAS--
NO, RIGHT THIS WAY.
THANK YOU, MARY.
STEP RIGHT HERE,
SIR.
PEOPLE IN YOUR POSITION
OFTEN DON'T THINK ABOU A HAIRCUT, MR. PO,
UNTIL IT'S TOO LATE.
I'VE SEEN I A MILLION TIMES.
THE LAST HAIRCUT OF
YOUR EARTHLY EXISTENCE
DONE BY THE UNDERTAKER.
IS HE A TRAINED
HAIR-CARE PROFESSIONAL,
MR. PO?
I ASK YOU. HE IS NOT.
AND THAT'S WHY
IT'S IMPORTANT TO
THINK OF THIS BEFORE.
WHEN YOU LEAVE HERE,
YOU'LL BE SO
DARN-WELL GROOMED,
YOU MAY NO EVEN WANT TO DIE.
THERE. YOU THINK
AN UNDERTAKER
COULD DO THAT?
HMM.
OH, ON THE HOUSE,
MR. PO.
COME BACK SOON
IF YOUR PLANS
SHOULD INCLUDE
A SOMEWHAT LONGER STAY
THAN YOU'D INTENDED.
I'M ALWAYS HERE.
THANK YOU.
PLEASURE.
MR. PO.
WE HAVEN'T MET.
I'M TOM POTTER.
HELLO.
I'M SO GLAD
YOU STOPPED BY.
WHAT?
COME IN. I, UH...
HAVE JUST THE THING.
NO, NO. I'M NOT SHOPPING.
I WAS JUST, UH--
PLEASE.
INDULGE ME.
PERFECT.
CUFF THE PANTS...
AND WE'RE IN BUSINESS.
WELL, IT'S VERY NICE,
BUT, UH, I DON' NEED A NEW SUIT.
I ALREADY HAVE ONE.
A MAN IN YOUR SITUATION
SHOULD HAVE 2 SUITS.
IT'S VERY EXPENSIVE.
I CAN'T AFFORD IT.
GIFT.
WHY WOULD YOU GIVE ME
A GIFT? WE JUST MET.
YOU'RE NO AN ORDINARY MAN,
MR. PO.
YOU HAVE IDEALS
AND WILLPOWER.
I'M JUST A LITTLE MAN.
I'LL NEVER TAKE LIFE
BY THE THROA AND SAY, "YOU GIVE ME
THIS, OR ELSE..."
BUT YOU DID.
I WANT YOU TO WEAR
MY SUIT, MR. PO.
I WANT TO BE PAR OF YOUR ADVENTURE.
Po, voice-over:
THERE'S SOMETHING
HAPPENING TO ME
THAT HAS
NEVER HAPPENED BEFORE.
AN EVENT...
AN EVENT IS
HAPPENING TO ME...
OF SOME KIND.
I DON'T WANT TO SOUND
TOO OPTIMISTIC...
THERE'S A...
KINDNESS HERE.
Po: EXCUSE ME, MISS.
I NEED MY ROOM RIGHT NOW,
IF YOU COULD JUST...
LISTEN.
I CAN GET THE REST--
AH!
SORRY. I DIDN'T MEAN
TO FRIGHTEN YOU.
YOU DIDN'T HEAR ME?
YOU CAN'T HEAR OR SPEAK?
GOD, I HAD NO IDEA.
ARE YOU ALL RIGHT?
I MEAN, DO YOU
FEEL ALL RIGHT?
ARE YOU WELL?
HOW DO YOU UNDERSTAND
WHAT I'M SAYING
IF YOU CAN'T HEAR ME?
YOU CAN READ LIPS.
MY GOD,
IT'S LIKE A NOVEL.
NEVER SAW
ANYTHING LIKE THIS.
WELL, MY NAME'S JULIAN.
WHAT'S YOURS?
LUCY.
YOUR NAME'S LUCY.
WELL, IT'S NICE
TO MEET YOU, LUCY.
"WHY DO YOU WAN TO KILL YOURSELF?"
WELL, I DON'T,
REALLY.
I DO, BUT, UH, NOT--
I MEAN...
IT'S...
IT'S KIND OF HARD
TO EXPLAIN, REALLY.
THANK YOU FOR COMING.
UM...
LUCY.
I JUST WANT TO
THANK YOU FOR COMING.
THANK YOU FOR
CLEANING MY ROOM.
I'M GRATEFUL.
Po: WONDER IF THIS RIVER
GOES OUT TO THE SEA.
WHO KNOWS?
SARAH, WHAT ARE YOU
DOING HERE?
I FOLLOWED YOU.
WHY? YOU WANTED
TO SEE ME JUMP,
JUST LIKE
EVERYBODY ELSE?
I'M NOT LIKE
EVERYBODY ELSE.
I WOULD HAVE
JOINED YOU.
WHY?
I USED TO COME OU TO THIS BRIDGE,
AND I'D STAY
ALL NIGHT SOMETIMES,
JUST THINKING ABOU ALL THE THINGS THAT SCARE ME.
EVERYTHING SCARES ME--
WORDS, TALKING...
YOU SAY THINGS,
AND THEY COME OUT WRONG,
SO YOU SAY
MORE THINGS, AND...
THEN YOU JUS GET STUCK...
THEN YOU GO TO GET OUT.
HE DIED WHEN I WAS 5.
ALL I REMEMBER
IS HIS MUSTACHE
AND THAT HE ALWAYS
USED TO CARRY
CHEWING GUM WITH HIM,
AND HE'D GIVE ME
A STICK AND CALL ME
HIS LITTLE PRINCESS.
YOU MISS HIM?
NO, BECAUSE HE'S
ALWAYS WITH ME.
THE ONLY THING IS
I CAN'T TOUCH HIM
UNTIL I GO WHERE HE IS.
I MISS TOUCHING
HIS MUSTACHE.
HOW DID HE DIE?
LIKE US.
COME ON, JULIAN.
DOES IT FIT?
TRY IT ON.
I MADE IT FOR YOU.
MADE IT FOR ME?
WHEN? WE JUST MET.
I MADE THAT ONE
LAST YEAR.
OTHERS I MADE BEFORE.
THAT'S PERFECT.
HOW DID YOU KNOW
THE SIZE I WOULD BE?
WELL, I DIDN'T ALWAYS.
I MADE THIS ONE
WHEN I WAS 16.
GUESS I THOUGH YOU'D BE BIGGER THEN.
Po, voice-over:
MET SARAH AGAIN.
WHAT CAN I SAY
ABOUT HER?
SHE'S THE MOST BEAUTIFUL
WOMAN I'VE EVER SEEN.
SHE LOVES ME.
I DON'T THINK ANYONE
EVER LOVED ME BEFORE.
I DON'T EVEN KNOW
WHAT IT MEANS.
ALL I KNOW IS THAT SHE
MAKES ME VERY, VERY HAPPY.
SHE'S CONFUSED
ABOUT THINGS, THOUGH.
HERE YOU GO, MR. PO.
IT'S ON THE HOUSE.
THANK YOU.
SO, UH...
WHEN YOU
FIXING ON DOING
THE DEED, HUH?
UH, SOON.
BE USING A GUN,
WILL YOU?
I HAVEN' DECIDED YET.
MY BROTHER-IN-LAW DID I WITH BOOZE AND PILLS.
DON'T GET THE SAME MESS
YOU GET WITH A GUN.
YEAH, BU YOU MIGHT NO TAKE ENOUGH,
AND THE NEX MORNING, YOU
JUST WAKE UP
WITH A GOD-AWFUL
HANGOVER.
I HEAR
SLITTING THE WRIS IS PRETTY EFFECTIVE,
BUT YOU GOT TO DO I THE LONG WAY, SEE?
A LOT OF FOLKS JUS DO IT CROSSWISE.
THE BLOOD DON' COME FAST ENOUGH.
THAT'S, UH...
THAT'S GOOD TO KNOW.
YOU KNOW, YOU'RE
A REMARKABLE
MAN, MR. PO.
I AM?
ABSOLUTELY.
I MEAN,
YOU DECIDE
ON A THING,
YOU GO FOR IT.
I LIKE
YOUR STYLE.
HAVE ANOTHER BEER,
MR. PO.
NO, THIS ONE'S
ON ME,
STONEWALL.
HEY, TUG, YOU
LINE THEM UP
AND KEEP THEM
COMING,
ALL RIGHT?
OH...
THANK YOU.
OH, GOD, I DON'T REMEMBER
GOING TO SLEEP LAST NIGHT.
OR TAKING OFF MY CLOTHES.
I HAVE A HEADACHE.
THANK YOU.
OH, MAN.
Vern: MR. PO.
IS THAT YOU, MR. PO?
YOU CAN'T HIDE.
Vern: I CAN HEAR YOU
UP THERE.
THERE COMES A TIME
IN EVERY MAN'S LIFE, MR. PO...
LIKE THE SUN GOING UP,
THE SUN GOING DOWN...
YOU GOT TO LOOK AT IT.
AND HERE YOU BE.
COMING.
GOOD MORNING,
MR. PO.
MORNING.
LOOKING FOR A LITTLE
PRIVACY, ARE YOU?
OH, WELL...
I UNDERSTAND THA PERFECTLY.
I COME UP HERE...
SOMETIMES MYSELF.
YEAH, JUST YOU
AND THE BARN OWLS.
I BET YOU'RE
THINKING ABOU DOING YOUR BUSINESS.
I'M JUST THE BOY
TO HELP YOU OUT.
THAT'S ALL
I HAVE TO SAY.
BANG...
DONE...OUT OF HERE.
GONE.
QUICK AND EASY...
NO MESS.
WELL, THERE'S
NO MESS FOR YOU,
BUT A HELL
OF A MESS FOR LUCY,
BUT THAT'S WHA I PAY HER FOR...
IF I PAID HER.
THAT AIN' YOUR WORRY.
ONLY GODDAMN
WORRY YOU GO IS HOW TO GET OUT OF
THIS FUCKING WORLD
A.S.A.P.,
AM I RIGHT?
THIS BABY
WOULD DO IT.
THAT'S A .44 MAGNUM.
I PUT 3 SHELLS
IN THERE.
HELL, YOU CAN MISS
WITH 2 AND STILL
BE SITTING PRETTY.
I WANT YOU TO KNOW
YOU CAN COUN ON ME, MR. PO.
I FIGURED, UH...
THAT WAS THE LEAS I COULD DO.
UGH!
GOOD MORNING,
MR. PO.
MORNING.
HOW YOU DOING
TODAY?
FINE.
GUESS YOU DIDN' END IT ALL
IN THE NIGHT,
DID YOU?
UH, NO.
WELL, THEN SINCE
YOU'RE STILL ALIVE,
WHY DON'T YOU COME
AND DO A LITTLE
HUNTING WITH ME?
AND MY WIFE DARLENE,
SHE COOKS
THE BEST DAMN RABBI YOU EVER TASTED.
HUNTING--
I DON'T KNOW HOW.
THEN WE'VE GO NO TIME TO LOSE.
COME ON.
[GUNSHOT]
KILLING...
BRINGS SOMETHING OU IN A MAN.
ONE OF THE DEEPEST PLEASURES
A MAN CAN FEEL--
KILLING AND SEX.
YOU EVER KILL
ANYTHING, PO?
UH...BUGS.
THAT PERFECT MOMENT...
WHEN AN ANIMAL LEAPS
IN THE AIR...
ALL THE MUSCLES TENSE
IN A LAST EFFOR TO LIVE.
THEN IT FALLS,
THE LIFE GONE BEFORE
IT HITS THE GROUND.
MOMENT OF...ECSTASY.
I KILLED A MAN ONCE.
NOBODY EVER KNEW.
IT WAS JUST LIKE
SHOOTING A RABBIT,
EXCEPT IT WAS A MAN.
THE WORST...
GREATEST MOMEN OF MY LIFE.
IT'S WHAT YOU'RE
GOING TO DO,
AIN'T IT?
ONLY YOU'RE
THE HUNTER
AND THE RABBIT.
I ADMIRE YOU.
NOW, YOU DON'T THINK
KILLING'S A SIN,
DO YOU?
SIN? NO. UH...
IF YOU KILL A MAN,
YOU SET HIM FREE.
IT'S NOT A SIN.
IT'S A FAVOR.
BY GOD,
YOU'RE RIGHT.
WE BOTH NEED
TO KILL.
PO...
YOU'RE A HELL
OF A MAN.
Leon: NOW, JUST WAI TILL YOU SEE WHAT DARLENE
DOES TO THESE BEAUTIES.
YOU'LL THINK YOU
DONE ALREADY DIED
AND WENT TO HEAVEN.
HI, DARLING.
MR. PO.
WHAT THE HELL
IS GOING ON HERE?
MY NEW CAREER.
YOUR NEW WHAT?
YOU TELL HIM,
MR. PO.
TELL ME WHAT?
UH,
I DON'T KNOW.
SURE YOU DO.
MR. PO HERE SAID,
IT IS AN ILLUSION
THAT WE LIVE
FOREVER,
AND IF WE WAI TOO LONG
TO DO THE THINGS WE
REALLY WANT TO DO,
WE MAY BE TOO LATE.
NOW, I ALWAYS WANTED
TO BE A BAKER,
AND IF I WAI ANY LONGER, HELL,
I MIGHT BE DEAD,
LIKE MR. PO HERE,
SO A BAKER IS WHA I'M GOING TO BE.
THIS WAS YOUR IDEA?
I OWE IT ALL TO HIM.
[HUMMING]
WHAT ABOUT THESE?
Woman: LET'S GO.
Woman: GOOD LUCK.
Man: THANK YOU.
BUY A TICKET,
YOUNG FELLA?
GUESS THE DAY
AND WIN THE POT.
WHAT DAY?
THE DAY THE STRANGER
DOES HISSELF IN.
PAY A DOLLAR,
PICK YOUR DATE.
SMART MONEY SAYS
HE WON'T LAST A WEEK.
Man: GIVE ME ONE
FOR TOMORROW, EMMA.
MORNING, PO.
Emma: PO?
THE STRANGER?
WHEN YOU
GONNA DO IT?
WHY DON'T YOU
GIVE AN OLD WOMAN
A LITTLE HINT, HUH?
Po: SOON.
HUH?
PLEASE?
Po: TAKE CARE.
Emma: YOU WON' LAST FOREVER.
PICK YOUR DATE,
FOLKS.
YOU--
WHAT'S YOUR NAME?
WALTER.
WHY ARE YOU GUYS
FOLLOWING ME,
WALTER?
TO SEE WHEN YOU DO IT.
YOU WANT TO SEE ME
KILL MYSELF?
WHY?
'CAUSE WE AIN' NEVER SEEN NOBODY
KILL HIMSELF BEFORE.
YOU JUST BOUGH ONE OF THOSE
RAFFLE TICKETS,
DIDN'T YOU?
FOR WHAT DAY?
TODAY.
WELL, YOU JUS WASTED A DOLLAR.
I'M NOT GOING
TO DO IT TODAY.
DIDN'T YOU HEAR ME?
I SAID I'M NOT GOING
TO DO IT TODAY.
WHY ARE YOU GUYS
STILL FOLLOWING ME?
Walter: A GUY WHO'D
KILL HIMSELF MIGHT LIE.
MR. PO, I'M SO
GLAD TO SEE YOU.
IT'S NOT TODAY,
IS IT?
NO.
I SEE YOU'VE
MADE FRIENDS
WITH SOME OF OUR
YOUNGER CITIZENS.
WELL, THEY BET A DOLLAR
I'D DIE TODAY.
BOYS WILL BE BOYS,
BUT THAT'S EXACTLY
WHAT I WANTED TO
TALK TO YOU ABOUT--
DEATH AND SO FORTH.
I MEAN,
WHAT IS IT, EXACTLY,
THAT YOU EXPEC TO FIND THERE?
WHERE?
HEAVEN. YOU DO
BELIEVE IN HEAVEN,
MR. PO, DON'T YOU?
I DON'T KNOW.
ME, TOO.
I OFTEN WONDER
WHAT EXISTS,
AND SOMETHING MUST,
DON'T YOU THINK?
IF IT WERE JUS THE END, IT WOULD
BE TOO TERRIBLE.
YOU KNOW,
IN SUNDAY SCHOOL,
WE TEACH THAT HEAVEN
IS A KIND
OF A PICNIC
IN THE COUNTRY
WITH THE CHOIR
SINGING
ALL THE TIME,
BUT SUPPOSE IT'S
MORE LIKE A CITY
OR THE MIDDLE OF
THE OCEAN OR A CAVE
OR LIKE BEING
A BIRD,
ALWAYS
FLYING AROUND ALONE
ABOVE EVERYTHING.
WHERE DO YOU THINK
YOU'LL END UP?
UH, I DON'T KNOW,
BUT, UH...
PROBABLY GET WHA YOU DIDN'T GET HERE,
WHAT YOU WANTED
AND YOU DIDN'T GET.
IF YOU WANTED A CHURCH
CHOIR IN THE COUNTRY,
YOU GET THAT.
IF YOU WANTED
SOMETHING ELSE,
YOU GET THAT.
I THINK GOD--
IF THERE EVEN IS A GOD--
HAS A LO TO APOLOGIZE FOR,
AND HE DOES IT IN HEAVEN.
AND IF HE DOESN' FEEL LIKE APOLOGIZING,
THEN YOU'RE IN HELL.
I NEVER THOUGH OF IT THAT WAY.
SO, AT LEAST YOU
DO BELIEVE IN GOD.
WELL, SOMEBODY
HAS TO APOLOGIZE.
EXCUSE ME.
Lilah: MR. PO. JULIAN.
I THOUGHT WE MIGHT TAKE
A LITTLE DRIVE IN THE COUNTRY.
I PACKED A LUNCH.
OH, I GO TO GET OUT OF THIS TOWN...
TAKE SARAH WITH ME.
SAID SHE'S BEEN WAITING
HER WHOLE LIFE FOR ME.
MAYBE I'M THE ONE
WHO'S BEEN WAITING
MY WHOLE LIFE FOR HER.
Po, voice-over:
IS THERE SUCH A THING AS FATE?
THAT'S MY QUESTION...
SORT OF.
BECAUSE IF THERE IS,
THEN MAYBE I HAVE ONE.
MAYBE IT INVOLVES SARAH.
SHE LOVES ME...
BUT WHAT IF I'M NO WHO SHE THINKS I AM?
THERE'S NEVER BEEN
A SIMPLE ANSWER IN MY LIFE...
EVER.
Emma: PICK YOUR DAY.
PICK YOUR DAY, NOW.
PICK YOUR DAY.
HI, WALTER.
YES, SIR.
SO WHAT DAY
DID YOU GUYS BET ON?
TODAY. WE ALWAYS
PICK TODAY.
YOU DON'T THINK ABOU THE FUTURE MUCH,
DO YOU?
WE FIGURE IF WE
PICK TODAY EVERY DAY,
WE CAN'T LOSE.
WOULD YOU GO AWAY,
WALTER?
NO. I MEAN AWAY.
THIS IS AWAY.
MR. PO. MR. PO,
CAN I TALK TO YOU
A MINUTE?
I'M BOBBY.
HEY, APPRECIATE YOU
TAKING THE TIME HERE.
I'M REAL BUSY
RIGHT NOW.
I HEAR THINGS
IN MY BRAIN.
I DON'T HAVE TO THINK
OF THEM. I HEAR THEM,
AND I WANT TO DO THEM.
IF I DON' DO SOMETHING BIG,
I'M GOING TO EXPLODE.
I'M GOING TO EXPLODE.
YOU CAME HERE TO DIE.
THAT'S ALL YOU CAN
DO HERE.
YOU DON'T WANT TO LIVE.
I WANT TO LIVE.
I WANT TO BE
A MOVIE STAR.
WHAT?
ARE YOU TALKING TO ME?
ARE YOU TALKING TO ME?
THAT'S EASY, MAN.
I CAN DO THAT SHIT.
NOW, I JUST NEED
TO KNOW WHAT TO DO.
WHAT SHOULD I DO,
MR. PO?
I HAVE NO IDEA.
YOU WANT TO BE
A MOVIE STAR?
GO AND DO IT.
LIFE'S TOO SHORT.
WE'RE ALL GOING
TO DIE ANYWAY.
DON'T TALK ABOUT IT,
JUST DO IT.
LISTEN, YOU KNOW,
I'M MAKING
A NEW RULE. OK?
FROM NOW ON,
YOU GUYS STAY
10 PACES BEHIND ME,
YOU GOT IT? OK?
1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6...
AND NO CLOSER THAN THIS.
YOU GOT IT?
Walter: YES, SIR.
I JUST WAN A LITTLE PRIVACY.
THAT'S ALL.
[KNOCK ON DOOR]
HELLO.
HI.
COME IN.
THANK YOU.
SO WHAT CAN I
DO FOR YOU?
I KNOW HOW
YOU'VE SUFFERED.
I CAN TELL.
I KNOW
A WOMAN HURT YOU
AND THAT'S WHY
YOU WANT TO KILL
YOURSELF.
WOMEN CAN BE HORRIBLE,
BUT I WANT YOU
TO KNOW THA I AM NOT LIKE THAT.
I WANT TO HELP YOU.
YOU DO?
I'D DO ANYTHING
TO GIVE YOU COMFORT,
MR. PO.
YOU WOULD?
YES, I WOULD.
UM...ANYTHING?
ANYTHING, MR. PO.
WELL, TAKE OFF
YOUR SHIRT.
I BEG YOUR PARDON?
WELL, YOU SAID
YOU'D DO ANYTHING.
YOUR, UH,
YOUR SKIRT.
ALL RIGHT.
UM...
SHOULD I DO
ANYTHING ELSE?
NO.
OK.
THANK YOU FOR COMING.
IS THAT ALL?
YES.
THANK YOU.
[HUMMING]
WHOA, MR. PO.
I WANT TO TALK TO YOU
ABOUT THAT LITTLE GUN
I GAVE YOU.
FIND OUT HOW BIG
A PIECE YOU WANT.
HELL, YOU MIGH HAVE DIFFERENT IDEAS
ABOUT THE WHOLE
GODDAMN SUBJEC ENTIRELY.
IT'S A VERY NICE GUN.
THANK YOU.
MAN'S GOT TO CHOOSE
HIS OWN GODDAMN WEAPON.
I CAN SEE
YOU ARE IMPRESSED.
PIECE RIGHT HERE
MIGHT BE THE RIGH ACTION FOR YOU.
THAT'S A WINCHESTER...
LITTLE RIFLE
THAT WON THE WEST.
IT'S IN PERFEC WORKING ORDER.
I BROUGHT DOWN A BUCK
WITH THIS SUCKER
ABOUT 2 WEEKS AGO.
NOW, THE IDEA I HAVE
IS YOU JUST PU THIS IN YOUR MOUTH
LIKE THIS, SEE,
AND YOU PUT YOUR BIG TOE
ON THE TRIGGER...
BOOM! BINGO. GOOD-BYE.
[DOOR CLOSES]
TERRIBLE.
MAYBE YOU'RE A HANDGUN MAN
AFTER ALL.
CLARISSE,
THERE HE IS NOW.
MR. PO! MR. PO!
HANG ON A FEW MORE DAYS.
MAKE ME A RICH WOMAN.
COME ON.
[BELLS ON DOOR RING]
GOOD AFTERNOON,
MR. PO.
AFTERNOON.
LISTEN,
I NEED A TIE.
AH. WELL,
I HAVE LOTS OF TIES.
GREAT.
OVER HERE.
YOU EVER MARRIED,
MR. PO?
ME? NO.
ME NEITHER.
EVER IN LOVE?
YES.
IT'S WONDERFUL,
ISN'T IT?
WONDERFUL AND HORRIBLE
AT THE SAME TIME,
HORRIBLE IF
YOU CAN'T BE WITH
THE PERSON YOU LOVE.
I SUPPOSE.
THAT'S...
THAT'S MY
SITUATION, SEE,
NEVER TO BE WITH
THE PERSON I LOVE.
WHY IS THAT?
WELL...
FATE.
SUCH A TERRIBLE WORD.
IT'S LIKE A PRISON,
SOMETHING YOU'RE BORN WITH
THAT YOU CAN'T CHANGE
THAT MAKES IT IMPOSSIBLE
EVER TO BE HAPPY.
MY FATE IS NEVER TO BE
WITH THE PERSON I LOVE.
WHO DO YOU LOVE?
LEON.
WHO?
LEON...
THE SHERIFF.
I'VE BEEN
IN LOVE WITH HIM
SINCE WE WERE KIDS.
I NEVER TOLD ANYONE.
WELL, DOES LEON
FEEL THE SAME WAY
ABOUT YOU?
HOW WOULD I KNOW?
I COULDN'T POSSIBLY ASK.
HE'S MARRIED.
IF ANYONE FOUND OUT,
MY LIFE WOULD BE OVER.
WHAT CAN I DO?
A LOT OF THINGS I REGRET,
BUT NOTHING MORE
THAN THE THINGS
I WAS TOO SCARED TO DO.
LIFE'S TOO SHORT TO LIVE
IN FEAR, MR. POTTER.
NAH.
IT'S A PRESENT.
THANK YOU.
BOBBY LEFT ME.
WHO'S BOBBY?
MY HUSBAND.
YOU TOLD HIM
TO LEAVE ME,
AND HE DID.
HE SAID
THAT YOU TOLD HIM
THAT LIFE IS SHOR AND THAT HE
SHOULD FOLLOW
HIS DREAMS.
HE MISUNDERSTOOD.
I DIDN'T SAY
ANY OF THAT.
WHY DOES EVERYBODY
IN THIS TOWN
COME TO ME?
WELL, BOBBY
TRUSTED YOU.
SO DO I.
TELL ME
WHAT TO DO.
LISTEN, IT'S YOUR LIFE.
I CAN'T LIVE IT FOR YOU.
I'VE BEEN GIVING
YOUR SITUATION A LO OF THOUGHT, MR. PO,
A LOT OF THOUGHT.
HAVE YOU?
FASCINATING. A MAN
WANTS TO DO AWAY
WITH HIMSELF,
BUT HE DOESN' JUST DO I LIKE MOST PEOPLE.
HE TRAVELS TO A PLACE
HE'S NEVER BEEN,
ANNOUNCES HIS PLANS,
AND GOES ABOUT EVERYTHING
IN A MOST DELIBERATE WAY.
MAKES OF HIS SUICIDE
A WORK OF ART.
IT'S BEAUTIFUL.
YOU THINK SO?
DEFINITELY.
I EVEN, IN MY SMALL WAY,
IMAGINE THAT I MIGH BE ABLE TO HELP.
WELL, HOW'S THAT?
WELL, YOU SEE...
I'M A KIND
OF AN ARTIST, TOO...
WITH THIS.
MOST PEOPLE THINK
I JUST CUT THE HAIR,
SCRAPE OFF
THE WHISKERS,
BUT IT'S MORE
THAN THAT TO ME.
A FACE IS A CANVAS,
AND THIS
IS MY PAINTBRUSH.
YOU KNOW...
I NEVER SHAVED ANYONE
WITHOUT IMAGINING
WHAT IT WOULD BE LIKE
TO SLIT HIS THROAT,
BUT EACH TIME
I GET THE THOUGHT,
MY HAND STARTS TO SHAKE.
I GET SCARED.
I GUESS I'M JUS NOT CUT OUT FOR MURDER,
BUT WITH YOU,
IT WOULD BE DIFFERENT.
WOULDN'T BE MURDER AT ALL.
WE'D BE COLLABORATING
ON A WORK OF ART.
I'D STAR JUST UNDER THE EAR HERE,
THEN A QUICK SWEEP ACROSS
TO THE ADAM'S APPLE.
I GET THE EXTERIOR CAROTID
AND JUGULAR THAT WAY,
AND MAYBE ONE
OF THE INTERIOR ONES.
I LOOKED IT UP
IN A MEDICAL BOOK.
BE OVER IN HALF A SECOND.
YOU WOULDN' FEEL A THING.
WHAT DO YOU THINK,
MR. PO?
JUST GIVE ME THE WORD.
THANK YOU, JEAN.
I TAKE MY TEXT TODAY...
NOT FROM THIS BOOK...
BUT FROM A MAN
WHO LIVES AMONG US.
HIS EXAMPLE
CALLS US TO ASK...
WHAT DO WE REALLY KNOW?
DO WE KNOW WHO WE ARE...
WHERE WE COME FROM...
WHERE WE'RE GOING?
WE THINK WE KNOW,
BUT WE ONLY KNOW
WHAT OTHERS TELL US
AND WHAT WE FEEL IN OUR HEARTS,
BUT OUR HEARTS LIE,
SO WHAT DO WE KNOW?
NOTHING.
I DON'T WANT TO STAND HERE
AND LECTURE YOU.
I WANT TO SET YOU FREE.
I REALIZED THIS WEEK
THAT I DON'T BELIEVE IN GOD.
[CONGREGATION
GASPS AND MURMURS]
WHY WAIT FOR GOD
TO APOLOGIZE
FOR THIS HORRIBLE MESS
WE'VE MADE OF THINGS?
HE MIGHT NOT WANT TO.
HE MIGHT NOT BE THERE...
[CONGREGATION GASPS]
BUT WE'RE HERE.
SO TODAY,
MY FRIENDS...
I WANT TO SAY
I'M SORRY...
FOR EVERYTHING.
[BELLS RINGING]
Bean: I'M SORRY.
THANK YOU.
THANK YOU.
I'M SORRY.
THANK YOU.
YOU OUGH TO BE ASHAMED
OF YOURSELF.
YOU'RE GOING
STRAIGHT TO HELL.
I'M SORRY.
YOU FEELING
ALL RIGHT,
PASTOR BEAN?
NEVER BETTER.
I'M SORRY.
YEAH? WELL,
I SHOULD THINK
YOU MIGHT BE.
[SNIFFING]
SARAH.
WHAT, UH,
WHAT'S THIS?
WE'LL BE TOGETHER
ALWAYS, WON'T WE?
IT'S SO AMAZING TO ME
THAT YOU EXIST.
Sarah, voice-over:
MY DARLING JULIAN,
UNTIL YOU CAME INTO MY LIFE,
I NEVER KNEW
WHAT HAPPINESS WAS.
I THOUGHT I MIGHT HAVE TO WALK
IN THE SHADOWS OF THIS TOWN
UNTIL A SAD OLD AGE.
THEN YOU CAME FOR ME,
AND EVERYTHING WAS SO CLEAR.
LAST NIGHT, I SAW IN YOUR EYES
WHAT YOU WERE TRYING TO TELL ME,
WHAT I KNEW ALREADY
BUT COULDN'T SAY.
I HEAR YOU...
LIKE YOU'RE INSIDE MY HEAD...
TELLING ME TO PROVE MY LOVE,
TELLING ME TO GO FIRST.
SO I'VE GONE AHEAD,
MY DARLING JULIAN,
AND I'LL WAIT FOR YOU
ON THE OTHER, BETTER SIDE.
ALL MY LOVE AND THANKS.
FOREVER, SARAH.
[FOOTSTEPS]
Henry: OPEN UP, MR. PO.
WE KNOW YOU'RE IN THERE.
WE HAVE TO TALK,
MR. PO.
I'M BUSY.
GO AWAY.
AH, THAT'S NO GOING TO DO IT.
COME ON, LET US IN!
Henry: WE TRUSTED YOU.
WE MADE SACRIFICES FOR YOU.
WE THOUGHT YOU WERE
GOING TO KILL YOURSELF,
AND WE FELT SORRY FOR YOU.
YOU NEVER
INTENDED
TO DO IT.
IT WAS
A SCAM
ALL ALONG,
WASN'T IT?
YOU MADE A DEAL, MR. PO.
WE HONORED OUR SIDE
OF THE DEAL.
DEAL? I NEVER
MADE ANY DEAL.
THAT'S NOT THE WAY
WE LOOK AT IT.
WE THINK YOU MADE A PROMISE,
AND WE THINK IT'S TIME
YOU KEPT IT.
YOU WANT ME TO DIE?
WELL, YOU THE ONE
WHO SAID HE WANTED
TO KILL HIMSELF.
WHAT, A GUY CAN' CHANGE HIS MIND
IN THIS TOWN?
WELL, LITTLE SARAH
CAN'T CHANGE HER MIND.
THAT POOR LITTLE THING
IS DEAD BECAUSE OF YOU.
YOU OUGHT TO BE GRATEFUL
WE'RE GIVING YOU THE CHANCE
TO SETTLE THINGS YOURSELF.
DEAD BECAUSE OF ME?
I WAS THE ONLY ONE
IN THIS TOWN WHO EVER
CARED ABOUT HER.
YOU GUYS JUST WAN SOMEBODY TO BLAME.
YOU'RE GOING TO KILL ME,
AREN'T YOU?
NO. WE AIN'T GONNA
TOUCH YOU, SON.
IT'S TIME, THAT'S ALL,
TIME FOR YOU
TO DO WHAT YOU SAID
YOU WERE GOING TO DO.
ALL RIGHT. ALL RIGHT.
YOU WANT ME
TO KEEP MY WORD?
I'LL KEEP IT.
THAT'S THE SPIRIT, MR. PO.
I WAS HOPING YOU'D DO
THE RIGHT THING.
I'LL DO IT TOMORROW.
TOMORROW WILL BE FINE.
I APPRECIATE YOU BEING
REASONABLE ABOUT THIS, MR. PO.
IT'S EASIER ON EVERYBODY
THIS WAY.
[KNOCK ON DOOR]
Henry: MR. PO,
IT'S TIME TO GO.
COULDN'T ASK
FOR NICER WEATHER.
Po, voice-over:
MY NAME IS JULIAN PO.
IN 1967, I WAS BORN.
OF LATE,
I'VE BEEN HAVING A JOURNEY...
I'VE FALLEN IN LOVE,
I SEEM
TO HAVE SERVED A PURPOSE,
AND AFTER A BRIEF STOPOVER,
I AM ONCE AGAIN
ON MY WAY TO THE SEA.
ALL IN ALL,
I FEEL PRETTY GOOD ABOUT MYSELF.
Po's voice on tape recorder:
THIS TOWN BEHAVES ACCORDING TO
ITS WAYS,
AND, WELL,
THERE'S NO NEED TO APOLOGIZE.
I'VE LEARNED THAT THERE'S ALWAYS
ROOM FOR FORGIVENESS,
AND THIS--THAT ALL
THE RIVERS RUN TO THE SEA,
BUT THE SEA
IS NOT YET FULL...
OR SO I'VE BEEN LEAD
TO BELIEVE.