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Love as Much as Pain (2019)
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Many indigenous Filipinos still live in the mountains. They live too far away from medical knowledge. Hi. Hello. Are you sick? No. No, it's okay? Good. This medical missionary team visits regularly. The villagers line up to get a check-up. I'll give you the medicine. Just three times a day. Since they can't go the hospital they are thankful for the team's visits. Where is Dr. Park? Dr. Park died. In August, three months ago. He had cancer. My kids had tumors, so they had surgery. Really? 3cc, three times a day. Five days to one week. Why don't I see Dr. Park? Dr. Park died. On August 26th. He cured my son's boil. There was a big one here. I miss him. No one else took care of my children like him. Even when it was late, we welcomed Dr. Park. He was a wonderful person. We didn't understand each other, but he was nice to everyone. He died? He was so kind. He's not here anymore, but he helped me. I'm too heartbroken to anything else. I think God sent him to us. He built this church for us. I feel the presence of God and Dr. Park. I'm sad to think that he's gone. I didn't know he was so sick. He gave us this church and everything we need. I stopped coming here since I found out he died. He was like a father to me. He was so kind. Dr. Park. At the news of his death these villagers started to sob. Don't you pity them? Medical missionary Park Nu-ga traveled all over the Philippines to help those in need. He cared for patients while fighting cancer himself. Mt. Pinatubo is an active volcano. Its eruption killed about 800 people and destroyed 200,000 acres of farmland. Life goes on even in this harsh environment. This is Mt. Pinatubo. It's the volcanic ash from the eruption in May, 1991. He has been coming here regularly since 1996. The Aeta people lost their mountain homes in the eruption. Are you sick? Sometimes, I bleed. Let's go. He stops to check the pregnant woman's health. I'll give her some vitamins and bread. One box of vitamins. This should be enough. As a volunteer, he spends his own money to buy bread. These are multivitamins. It won't cause problems for the baby or your kids. Two times a day. Everyone can take it. Babies should take only one. - What's your name, sir? - I'm Dr. Park. His tires are stuck in the water containing volcanic ash. No matter how hard they push, the car won't budge. The villagers couldn't help him. The signal is weak. Hello? He can't even contact anyone. This situation is making me laugh. I can't help but laugh. Now that he feels better, he's hungry. Don't do that. You're spilling it. Stop spilling it. Why are you squishing it? Stop squishing it. Let's eat together. The kids' father shares a stew of meat and herbs. Is it tasty? It's good. - It's tasty. - Yes. Dr. Park is used to enjoying meals with local people. - How does it taste? - Excellent. - Is it filling? - I was hungry. Worry about yourselves. I won't be hungry again for a few hours. Thank you. It was delicious. He will do volunteer work until help arrives. This is the day that the Lord has made I will rejoice and be glad in it Rejoice in the Lord This is the day that the Lord has made Amen! He started out with a single backpack 30 years ago. He visited doctorless villages to save people's lives. He didn't know his own health was deteriorating. Is that a scar from surgery? Yes, for stomach cancer. I had to drain stomach fluid, too. I'll just put on my shirt. Your questions are making me shy. They've reached the Haduan village. He's the only doctor around, so the villagers line up. They mostly have skin diseases, colds and asthma. Many people catch colds in the mountains. It's hard to recover due to the lack of food. It's malnutrition. He brought all this medicine from Korea. 2cc per day, two times a day. It wouldn't be so serious if they had these ointments. Without Dr. Park, they could never care for their own health. His asthma might be dangerous this year. Dr. Park's hospital is in the outskirts of Manila. His employee Lafi takes care of the facilities. He tiredly walks back after a day of volunteer work. He takes care of poor people of the city, too. His home is a bed in the corner. Every day is night duty. If the bell rings in the middle of the night I have to let them in. The hospital opened in 2010 in this old building. I can only make bean paste stew and kimchi stew. The more ingredients, the better it tastes. And if you make it with love... For a guy, I make a decent dish. His cooking improved while being apart from family. 20 years hasn't changed his food preferences. I brought this bean paste from Korea. I can feel my mother-in-law's love. And my older sister always takes care of me. She sends me a lot of stuff. He won't go to a hospital but wants to fly here? He's been sick for a week. Are you well? All right, I hope you survive the cold weather. Okay. I'm from Gyeongsang province. 'It's me.' 'Did you eat?' 'And the kids?' 'Good night.' That's about all I say. He always had nice skin. I wish his looks won't change. He already changed a bit. I think my wife is prettier now. His wife and two sons went back to Korea for education. His hospital is always open to those who can't afford doctors. Every day, one time like that. I'll give you three days' medicine. That's all. No other problems. Mama, I can't do this. The bad environment causes boils and skin problems. - Okay, finished. - Very good. Very pretty. You should thank him. - Say 'thank you'. - Thank you, Doctor. Don't forget to apply medicine. Treatment is free for the locals. Ouch. This actually hurts. It hurts to stab yourself. He developed diabetes while doing volunteer work. It's higher than I thought. 361 is a shocking number. The lack of drinkable water made him drink soft drinks. Hard work and stress also caused liver cirrhosis. This is for my liver. This is diabetes medicine. A lot of Koreans take it. I want to be where people need me. That's where I want to keep working. What would someone like me do in Korea? I wouldn't make a difference. But in doctorless villages I can save a life with every action. He was the hope of a poor family with eight children. In 1989, he visited a doctorless village in the Philippines and chose a life of volunteer work instead of riches or fame. My plan was to escape after one or two years. But after almost thirty years, I'm more comfortable here. His hospital is still here. It was renovated to be bigger and nicer and now has a nurse. Is it a sharp pain or a twisting stomach pain? It's a twisting pain. Do you eat on time? - No skipping meals? - No. Dr. Park isn't here anymore. - No pain? - No. - Did you do a blood test? - Not yet. He left the hospital to his wife's niece, Ju-hee. He prepared everything before he died. Even things I never would have considered. To his dying day, he worried about poor, sick Filipinos. Whenever I saw him, he was planning medical missions. Dr. Park already had a medical condition. But he could still do medical missions. What about me? I'm perfectly healthy. That for me is inspiring enough. To be able to help others even though he himself is sick. I really want to be a part of the medical missions. Ms. Kim and I went there just for half a day. We were able to help some people. It would be my pleasure to continue Dr. Park's work. He was an ever-burning candle of hope to these people. He made the most of his short, precious life. It's working. He wanted to reach those without access to medicine. So, he learned to drive a bus. In 2005, he bought a used bus and converted it for that purpose. He drove this medical bus to over 50 villages. It's more comfortable than a normal car. But it doesn't go very fast. With this mobile hospital, he saved even more lives. It was his most valued possession. Montalban is one of the four landfill towns. 9,000 impoverished households were forced to move here. They pick up trash to survive, so they can't afford hospitals. The medical bus is a lifesaver to them. Lie down. Even at first glance, it looks serious. It's a good thing he's a surgeon. I checked what's inside. It's not cancer, so surgery should work. Meanwhile, the village hall also becomes a clinic. These kids are checking people's temperatures. Local Koreans often help him with volunteer work. His hospital can't afford to hire a nurse. Doctor, my swelling won't go down. You have to apply the appointment. They get their blood pressure and temperatures checked. Then, I'm given the results. I base my treatments and prescriptions on that. Make sure you explain the directions well. The Koreans here volunteer their food and time. I get a lot of help. I couldn't do this on my own. Are we leaving? Something is wrong with the bus. Is it broken? It says I'm out of brake oil. That's what this symbol means. This old bus breaks down quite often. The engine keeps shutting off. Just like the last time I got it repaired. It keeps going and then stopping. Once again, he's stuck in the middle of the road. He needs a lot of luck to get the bus to start. This bus is 12 years old. My car is 15, 16 years old. They're weak, just like me. Like owner like vehicle. We were made for each other. The bus, the car and the driver. In this bus, he traveled to Manila, Luzon, Cebu... Even Mindanao, where bullets fly because of Islamic rebel groups. Typhoid, cholera, dysentery, dengue, pancreatitis, hepatitis... He's faced death from such diseases many times. But one day, he felt a strange stomach pain. It was stomach cancer. In 2004, he was given six months to live. He begged God to give him more time. The poor prognosis was due to his liver and diabetes. His weight dropped to the 30s. He was just skin and bones. I knew about his situation. That's why everyone says it's a miracle he lived. He was so skinny that I didn't recognize him. But he managed to come back here. I think he still had a mission in this world. So, I told him to keep going. Doctor Park wasn't going to stop his mission. The creator didn't want to take him yet. One year after cancer surgery, he returned to this place. Patients who were waiting for him all line up. A small illness may develop into something dangerous. No matter how far away, he makes regular visits. Oh, you were in an accident. It was broken. It was a motorcycle accident. - How long ago was the accident? - Nine months. The surgery cost 30 thousand pesos and then 40 thousand pesos. After two surgeries, we have no money left. Even after two surgeries, he's in bad shape. It's still broken. They didn't do a proper surgery. Does it hurt? This will hurt just a little, okay? Okay, finished. It doesn't hurt anymore, right? Which hospital did you go to? They did a very bad job. Look at this bone. Pieces of bone were pressing against his skin. This is also bone. That's why it hurts. Do you understand? It looks like a knife. The bones press the skin, so it's very painful. Those bastards. What kind of surgery was this? I can't help but swear. They've made a mess... There's no staff to help with the surgery. It's hard to remove the bones lodged into the skin. - Is it almost over? - He's working on it. He's fixing the mistakes the last hospital made. He removed the bones and treated the infection. It took over two hours. Okay, God bless you. We're finished. - Thank you very much. - You're welcome. The patient's expression is a lot brighter. It wasn't an easy surgery. But he doesn't look happy at all. The couple goes home smiling. But Dr. Park is angry that he suffered in the first place. His heart breaks at the state of medicine in the Philippines. I've been sick, so I know their pain. That's why I want to reach out to them. When I was sick, everything felt bothersome. So, I want to love others as much as I suffered. The more suffering I have, the more love I will give. I thank thee for granting me more time. I will be the salt of the earth and the light of the world. Please turn my suffering into love for others. Let my feet become lighter so I can meet more people. He is fulfilling his promise to God by loving and healing patients. The endless medical missions make him exhausted. His diabetes and an 80% removed stomach make matters worse. I'm feeling some nausea. I'm out of energy. Recently, he has trouble sleeping at night. He's trying to stop himself from falling asleep. He sings everything from old pop songs to hymns. I buy from people who start work early in the morning. Oh, it's Gina. It's his go-to corn stand. Gina! Hello, how are you? Merry Christmas. Today, it's expensive. It's four pesos each. Why did the price increase? Not a lot of corn today. They're roasted over a real fire. That's what makes it delicious. It's the real thing. - Have a nice day. God bless you. - You too, thank you. You should text me if you're going to drop by. That's why the corn isn't that good today. Okay. It's small, so it's not very filling. The important thing is to enjoy missions and volunteer work. A lot of people fizzle out after a few months. If you want to do it for years, you should enjoy it. Think of it as going on a trip. That's the trick. The good people he meets and the beautiful scenery. That's what drives him. Look at this vast landscape. Five years have passed. He's still heading to remote villages. He's now accompanied by a nurse. He can't do mission work alone anymore. After 12 years, his cancer is back. - Edward! - Sir. Where are you going? Somewhere nearby? - I'm delivering this. - When will you arrive in Calapi? In two hours? Ma'am. - God bless you. - We'll give you a ride. No, we're walking. - You're not going far? - No, thank you. Have a good day. - Are you okay, Dr. Park? - He's doing chemo. - Is it working? - So-so. The villagers are worried about his health. Dr. Park, get well. May God bless you. Are you okay? You're breathing heavily. My stomach is bloated. It's no good. It might be fluid. This started last week, so I'm slightly worried. Stomach fluid is bad news. Maybe walking will make it go away. Let's head on. Dr. Park puts on a brave face. Hello. How have you been? Your blood pressure might be high. It's 180. Over 150 is very high. - Is there enough? - Yes. I'll give you medicine for one month and give you more next time. Take it every day. - One tablet? - Yes, one tablet. It's ripe. Let's eat it here. That's the stuff. It's tasty. This brings us together, so it's worth more than money. It's a token of thanks, and it quenches our thirst. Thank you. Don't forget your medicine. See you next month. A papaya from a villager is all he needs to be happy. Get a check-up! Medical check-up! 40 households live here. Medical check-up! Are you sick? Merry Christmas! Here, merry Christmas. A remote village far from civilization. This is where the Aeta people live. Give her cold medicine and some vitamins. Three times a day. Just 2cc, okay? It's easy to catch colds in the mountains. Before Dr. Park started visiting, some even died from colds. No life is perfect. I have some regrets, too. But I don't regret doing what I do. I enjoyed it. It's brought me joy and happiness. It's like catching up on homework. I can't quit half-way through just because I'm tired. Doing volunteer work gives him strength. The breeze feels nice. He's feeling many emotions right now. I know I can't keep doing this forever. I'm thinking about starting to make preparations. Will I see that boulder again? Will I see that tree again? Will I visit that house again? I have these thoughts... Even though this scenery is familiar to me I have a new viewpoint now. Sometimes, he sleeps in the medical bus. In fact, he lived in it for six years with his wife and sons. Two people here, and two people over there. It's spacious and comfy. Make sure you cover your stomach. It'll be morning soon. It's almost midnight. Good night, Doctor. The bus is also his sanctuary. The water pressure is suddenly weak. He also tried to help kids achieve their dreams. The doctor course, or the nursing course? If you finish the nursing course, you can work with me. - Say 'thank you'. - Thank you. The diaper is causing eczema. Keep this part cool. On this bus, some give birth and some die of old age. Two times a day, 5cc. It's cough syrup. God bless you. The medical bus saves them and gives them hope. This 15-year-old mother feels that way, too. When her baby developed boils, she didn't know what to do. She was relieved when the medical bus arrived. This girl with burns also feels a lot better. Don't shower today. How did your husband die? Oh, heart problems... Are your father and mother still alive? - You're 15, right? - Yes. If you need anything or you're having difficulties you call me. I can help you. - 'Dr. Park', for emergencies. - Thank you. God bless you. He can't turn a blind eye to those in need. Instead of riches or fame, he chose volunteer work. If I had become a rich, successful doctor in Korea I'd have a lot of money. But I would have lost my health in my forties. Thanks to this work, I made it to my sixties. I am sure of it. Regardless of religion, that's the truth. His stage four cancer has spread to his liver and lymph nodes. He should be concerned about his own health. While I was in the hospital, I couldn't help others. So, I have to visit even more places now. His stomach fluid is building up. He's going to Korea for chemo in a few days. I'm quite worried. He can't let his illness win. He's too busy giving love to others. Don't be so stubborn. - I'll take the shot tomorrow. - It'll hurt all night. - Tomorrow when? - Just give me fever medicine. I have to take your blood anyway. It's not like it will cure my cancer... Whenever I take it, I can't move or sleep... Your hands are freezing because of your fever. He's a chemo patient who drove and worked all day long. It's no wonder he's all worn out. A coin-sized chemoport has been implanted under his collarbone. It's a device that helps long terms chemo patients by making it easier to draw blood. He's taking care to dress well today. My hair is falling out. Your hair keeps falling out? Yes, it a side effect of chemotherapy. If you look sick because of your illness you should dress well to make your patients feel at ease. He's getting ready to leave. They shouldn't need someone like me. I want to help them until they don't need me. I hope that day will arrive in this country. There are still a lot of poor people in the Philippines. That's why he couldn't leave this place. This is a slum near the big city. It's called 'Sewage Town' because of the polluted ditches. The rich live beyond these shabby shacks. It's just like Seoul's shantytown. Are you sick? Is it a fever or a cold? Oh, it's both. 160 over 90. His blood pressure is high. - Hello, Elda. - Hello. - Elda. - Hello. - How have you been? - You're sick? That makes me sad. Don't worry. I'll live a long life. He's come here quite often. One week old? Ten days old? - Ten days. - Only ten days. Don't worry. His health is good. Give her cough syrup. - You want surgery? - Because of my skin. Does this hurt? We should remove that lump. Let's do surgery. - Can you bring her on Friday at 7? - Yes. You used to be healthy. What happened? Her skin hardened because she couldn't get treatment. The polluted water causes a lot of skin problems. I'll pray for Dr. Park's health. He's such a kind doctor. His kindness brings tears to my eyes. I thank him for taking care of us. I always pray for Dr. Park. I don't want him to go away. I'll keep praying for him. Thank you, Dr. Park. That's all. This town is where he started his volunteer work. I honestly don't know how much time I have left. I'm losing hope, but I don't express it. I don't want to make people uncomfortable. Plus, it'll be embarrassing if I live over ten years. Helping the hungry, the needy and the sick. That always made him happy despite his disease. His wife came from Daegu for his chemotherapy. Lying down makes me feel more like a patient. I suddenly feel woozy. Wearing hospital clothes can make a big difference. He lost a lot of weight in the Philippines. I wish he'd take it easy while he's sick. But he won't stop... It's upsetting. Even his family couldn't change his mind. Starting chemotherapy. He's fighting cancer for the third time. It's still hard for his family, too. She sold everything to follow him to the Philippines. After returning to Korea, she opened a restaurant to support him. All people have different ways of life. Sometimes we're apart and sometimes we're together. Faith kept us going. If one person has a dream, the other should be supportive. That's how my kids and I made it through all these years. Another cancer patient died this very day. He's been trying to run from his situation. The city lights are beautiful... I'm not certain anymore. I don't think it's greed. But there are things I have yet to do. Even in my personal life. I'd like to see my sons get married and have kids. His small dream couldn't come true. It's been three months since his death. Can we go today? Maybe, but sometimes it doesn't work. - What's wrong? - I ordered new generator parts. - Is the side mirror okay? - Temporarily, yes. It was his treasure. When he was healthy, he used to sleep in this bus. His hospital staff slept in it, too. I think of the bus as Dr. Park. What happened to it? I'm worried it won't make it to Dagupan. The ownerless bus doesn't work anymore. Still, they'll take it on one last trip. It's been two years since Dr. Park drove this bus. Now, it will retire and go to his best friend. I'm a little sad, but he'll take good care of it. He was Dr. Park's best friend. Former employee Lafi is also here. We went to Baguio, Dagupan, Pangasinan, Clark and Mindoro. This bus traveled for a long time. This is the last time, so I'm sad. He used to drive and sing... I'm very sad. After three hours, they've reached Pangasinan. This is where Dr. Park's friend Densio lives. As a rental car company owner, he helped Dr. Park a lot. He used to aid him during medical missions, too. Brother! He helped him spread love in the Philippines. Dr. Park isn't in there. It'll make me miss him every day. Densio converted this bus into a medical bus and sometimes helped with the mission expenses. Whenever the bus came here, I could see Dr. Park. I've lost my friend. Whenever it broke down in the middle of the road he would call me, and I'd go help him. Whenever it had problems, he contacted me. So, I've become attached to it. The engine sounds a lot better. I have a great friend. In life, even someone you meet by chance along the road can feel like a good friend you've known for a long time. That happened when I met Dr. Park for the first time. For some reason, he felt very familiar. Like he was my long-lost brother. Dr. Park never lost hope. He thanked those who sent him donations and well wishes. The sunlight feels great. That magpie must be happy to be so free. Birds in cages are miserable. After chemotherapy, he always hurried back to the Philippines. It was like he needed to help others to keep living. He suffered through more than 30 chemo sessions. He grew thinner and thinner because of chemotherapy. Even the fluid in his stomach couldn't break his will to live. During two years of treatment, he traveled 20 times. His wife gave me his ring and this dolphin charm. He left the Philippines in April of 2018, and never returned. I flew to Korea right away after receiving the news. He was already comatose. He was comatose for ten days. Then, without any last words... He died at the age of 68. They said their last goodbyes at the church he went to. The rain during the funeral felt like tears to them. He poured his blood, sweat and tears into Clark. He built a well and a church during his missions here. He turned this empty building into a house of worship. God, I thank thee for sending us your servant. Thanks to the life and work of Dr. Park we can spread your holy name in this land. He built a kindergarten and started after-school classes. He wanted kids to get education for a better life. He wished for a day he would no longer be needed. He knew that one child can make a big difference. He had hope in them... The children will always remember and thank him. I'm sad to think that he's gone. I didn't know he was so sick. He gave us this church and everything we need. I think God sent him to us. He built this church for us. He taught me about God and right from wrong. I feel the presence of God and Dr. Park. I stopped coming here since I found out he died. He was like a father to me. He was so kind. I'm so sad and heartbroken. It was very hard for me. My father died before I came here. Dr. Park was like my new father. Now, I've lost my father again. Since he served God, God is with him. He taught them that love makes everything possible. Now, Ju-hee takes care of the villagers in the mountains. It's my duty. I gave him a promise, so I'll do everything that I can. He changed this world with his love. Now, he will become a part of it. This is a strand of hair that was on his deathbed. It's the last piece of him. Since he loved Pinatubo I thought this would be meaningful to him. Will it blow in the wind? Dr. Park spread hope all over the Philippines. He has finally returned to the place he loved. God taught me by making me sick. First, I caught all of the infectious diseases. Typhoid, yellow fever, cholera... Every single disease in our textbook. I caught them all. If you want to treat disease, you should experience it first. How will you cure others when you've never been sick? That was His message. So, I've never misdiagnosed a patient for 30 years. People ask me how I'm still alive. If you just stay at home, you'll die sooner. For a long life, do volunteer work. For a longer life, do missionary work. For a long-ass life, do ministry work. Sorry for my language. I'm from Gyeongsang province. I don't have enough time to share all of God's plan. It'll take over three hours. Invite me again next year. I'll still be alive. If I don't show up, it means I'm in heaven. I just took some strong pain medication. My pronunciation won't be accurate for 15 minutes. I hope you can all understand my words. Why did He make me sick when I was spreading His word? I prayed every dawn for over a month. Then, He gave me the answer. |
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