Retake (2016)

(music, glass shattering)
(upbeat mysterious music)
- [Voice Speaker] Welcome to
Seattle International Airport.
(car engine racing)
- Hey, man.
I like the car.
You mind if I?
My name's Scott.
What's yours?
- Jonathan.
- K.
So your place cool
or we could go around
the corner and touch your thing.
- No my place is fine.
- Safety first.
It's okay.
Don't be nervous.
- Look.
Stop it.
- What is it?
- I want you to do
something for me.
You see the cologne over there?
I want you to wear that for me.
- Is there something wrong
with the way I smell?
- No.
I want you to do what I say.
Now wear it.
For me please.
- Okay.
- No, take your shirt off first.
Not too much.
Not so fast.
You ever do role play?
- What?
- [Jonathan] Keep
your eyes shut.
(photo snapping)
- Who am I suppose to be?
- You're a young guy, lost,
little rough around the edges.
Very temperamental.
- Not a problem.
- Put this on.
(groaning)
No, god damn it.
- What?
What?
Hey man I didn't
do any weird thing.
We could go get some G or.
- I think you should leave.
Come on.
- Now.
- Fuckin' weirdo.
You're a fuckin' weirdo.
- Hey.
- Hey.
- I like your jacket.
- Thank you.
It's not mine.
- It looks nice on you.
- The old man's got a broken
dick, it's a waste of time,
don't even try it.
- Scotty fuck off.
- I'm just trying to help.
- Fuck off.
- Good luck, asshole.
- Thank you.
It's not my first time.
- He'll make you dress
up like his mother!
- Your first time
in San Francisco?
- No.
- Strong, silent type.
I like it.
There we go.
Is that a little smile?
You're a little different
then the other guys
we usually see out there.
- How so?
- I feel like you require
something more intricate.
So what's your thing?
Edging?
Massages?
Bondage?
What do you like?
- Role play.
- I should've guessed.
There's that smile again.
Hmm?
Okay so what's my character?
Am I your student?
Your slave, your?
- You're a young guy,
you're, lost.
Little rough around
the edges but
you're very temperamental.
- I like that.
What's your name?
- Jonathan.
- [Man] What's my name?
- Brandon.
- It's a pleasure to
meet you, Jonathan.
I'm Brandon.
- You see the,
the cologne on the dresser?
- Yes.
- Would you put that
on for me, please?
Not too much now.
Hey.
(photo snapping)
- Wow.
Wasn't expecting that.
So when do we begin?
- It already started.
- No wait.
I'm rough around
the edges, alright?
What was the word you used?
- Temperamental.
- Okay.
Yeah.
Oh, fuck.
- Yeah.
Now come here.
- Oh yeah.
(moaning)
Oh yeah.
- Just give me a second.
(groaning)
- Yeah.
Fuck me.
Fuck me.
Yeah.
Yeah.
(groaning)
That was good.
(knocking on door)
Fuck.
- [Jonathan]
I'm sorry, this thing just--
- No it's okay.
I'm gonna go anyway.
- I didn't mean to wake you up.
- Thanks for the coffee.
- What are your plans
the next few days?
- Why?
- Thought I might keep
you around for awhile.
- Definitely more than
blow jobs and ass play,
that's like talking and shit,
personal stuff.
- I'll double your nightly rate,
give you 500 extra at the end.
- Why don't you give me
double my nightly
rate plus 1,000?
How's that sound?
- Alright.
- Well I'm gonna have to see
you know, half of that
upfront, like a deposit.
I'm sure you're good for it.
- Don't run off with that.
- Relax.
So where we headed anyway?
- The Grand Canyon.
Have you ever been?
- No.
- Me neither, this
will be great.
- We're not flying are
we? I get air sick.
- No we're driving.
- Good.
So what's in the Grand
Canyon, why are we going?
- We should set
some ground rules.
- [Brandon] Okay.
- Rule number one.
Don't ask any
personal questions.
- Are you kidding me?
It's a three day trip, I
can't ask you any questions?
- Personal questions, you
can ask anything you like,
but I reserve the
right not to answer.
- Okay, rule number two.
- We stick with the role
play, you're Brandon.
Always, I'm not gonna refer
to you as anything else.
- [Brandon] Got it.
- And rule number
three, if I ask you
to do something, do it.
- Okay but you're not
gonna ask me to like,
wear a diaper, clean your house?
Not that I'm saying I wouldn't.
Just,
like to know first.
Can we stop by my place?
Grab some clothes
before we leave?
- That won't be necessary,
everything's taken care of.
- Nice ride.
- Throw your arms up in the air.
Excited.
- Okay.
Like,
this?
Woo!
(photo snapping)
- Hold that.
- Why do you use that old thing?
Can't you like take
pictures on your phone
like a normal person?
- Has your hair
always been long?
- [Brandon] Kinda.
Why?
- I'm trying to
picture it shorter.
- I like it long.
Okay so help me out here.
I'm Brandon.
From?
- Kansas City.
- Ah.
Great.
Alright fill in more
blanks for me here,
let me do some research.
What is my
favorite movie?
- Breakfast at Tiffany's.
- Yeah, love me
some Audrey Hepburn.
Are we together?
- [Jonathan] Yes, boyfriends.
- How long?
- Three years.
- Well that's like
20 years in gay time.
- [Jonathan]
Something like that.
- Okay, how did we meet?
- We met in a bar.
- Scandalous.
What is my favorite book?
- [Jonathan] Brave New World.
- Yeah I don't know that book.
What if it was,
the Shining?
Or Carrie, fuck I love
Carrie, oh my god.
What?
Okay I take it you're
not a Stephen King fan.
Good to know.
Brave New World it is.
What is my favorite
thing to do on a
Sunday morning?
- Cook brunch, naked.
- Well is there any
other way to cook brunch?
What do I do for like
work and shit?
- That's a tough one.
You've tried
everything artistic.
Music, art, poetry.
But whenever something
doesn't work out you just,
move on to the next.
- [Brandon] What am
I currently in to?
- Music.
- Okay.
Very big question now.
Are we in love?
- Madly.
- [Brandon] Yeah what's my
favorite non-alcoholic beverage?
- [Jonathan] Dr. Pepper.
- I'll have a Dr. Pepper.
I don't smoke that brand.
- You do now.
Shut your eyes.
- Why?
- Come on.
- Oh.
Vintage.
Just like you.
It's gorgeous.
- Huh?
- The sunset, look at it.
Well would you look?
- Yeah.
- Pull over.
- What?
- Pull over, pull over,
right now.
- No I'm already.
- Pull the, Jonathan,
pull the car over.
Jesus.
Don't look at me.
Look out there.
Look out there, come on sit
down, Jonathan sit down.
- [Jonathan] I'm not gotta
side down on the side.
- Yes, yes, sit, sit.
Please.
Good.
Do you see that?
- Yeah it's a sunset,
it happens every day.
- No.
No you don't see it.
- I don't understand,
what are you saying?
You want me to get the camera?
- No, no, fuck
no, no camera, no.
I'm gonna do something.
I want you
to breathe.
Good.
And watch.
Take it in.
There's that smile again.
- [Jonathan] Let's go.
- Sorry.
I know you're in charge.
- Kiss me.
- Okay.
Yeah.
- I'm not buying that.
You don't have to stick
your hand on my crotch
to make me feel it.
Now kiss me.
- Better?
- How is it?
- It's nice and greasy.
How's yours?
- I've had better here.
- Have you been here before?
- Rule number one.
- Right.
Do not ask you anything.
So why the Grand Canyon?
- What did I just say?
- Well it's the reason
for the whole trip,
I just want a clue.
- A lot of people go
to the Grand Canyon.
- Well I would wanna go because
it is huge and beautiful.
Mother nature leaving
her mark you know,
that's why I'd go.
- Well I've never been,
good reason to go.
Let's talk more about you.
- So what about me?
- Where you from?
- Kansas City.
Right?
- Yep.
You ran away from your
bible beating parents
when you were 16.
- That's pretty close actually.
- Really?
- Mhm.
What about you?
Where are you from or do
I not get to know that?
- I'm originally from New York,
came out to San
Francisco, met you.
Here we are.
- You just have the
whole thing figured out.
So.
We met at a bar,
right?
Can you paint that
picture for me.
- I was sitting in the corner
and you saw me.
- And who made the first move?
- Well you sat next to me.
- Like.
Like this?
And what did I say that
turned you on to me?
- You said, "You got a light?"
- Oh my god, you are so cheesy.
I think you can do
better than that.
- I'm paying you, you should
show a little more respect.
- Okay you're right, okay.
You're right, I'm sorry.
That was
stupid, I'm.
I'm gonna piss.
Got a light?
- No, no I don't, I don't smoke.
- Oh.
Well that's,
that is good.
It's a terrible habit.
The good news is
that I in fact.
I already had one.
I just wanted to flirt with you.
I'm Brandon.
- Jonathan.
- We are gonna
fall madly in love.
Jonathan, we are.
I can tell.
Already.
- Already, huh?
- Mhm.
Well this is a step
down from last night.
Oooh, looky here.
They have a pool.
We should go for
a dip right now.
Right now.
(upbeat funk music)
Tell me now where
you got around to
Tell me now where
you got around to
When it all comes
Crashing down on you
You gotta roll
You better move
Cover your tracks on now
They'll be on you soon
When it all comes
Crashing down on you
When it call comes
crashing down on you
There ain't no love here
No one to use
There ain't no love here,
girl
No more excuse
When it call comes
Crashing down on you
When it all comes
Crashing down on you
- Ah, yeah.
- No.
We gotta be somewhere tonight.
- You're in charge.
- Morning.
- Where are my clothes?
- I packed them.
Wear those instead.
- These are a little old.
Don't you think?
Okay.
Will I get my clothes back?
- Of course, they
were just dirty.
Move that way just a little bit.
Rain comes in through
the cracks in the roof
And there I am still
sitting next to you my love
This is where I've
ended up my love
This where I've ended up
- [Jonathan] That's it.
Move your head towards me.
- Hard smile.
- No, put that down.
- Yes.
- [Jonathan] Give me the camera.
Stop.
All I have is all for you
It's not a lot
But it'll do
My love this where
I've ended my love
This is where I've ended up
- Jesus.
Christ.
Fuck my feet.
God, okay, alright.
These
boots are killing me.
Wish you had a size bigger.
What is it?
- [Jonathan] Nothing.
- What's wrong?
I lost you.
You retreated into
that head of yours,
you do that sometimes,
you know that?
I'm gonna go for a smoke.
- Yeah.
Hey.
You wanna hop in?
- No, I'm just dropping my bag.
- Okay.
It needs to be cleaned up.
But I.
Hey.
Can't sleep?
- Could ask you the same thing.
- This helps.
- Does it?
It's bad for you.
- So are a lot of things.
Give it a shot.
Come on.
Well you tried.
- [Jonathan] I'm too
old to pick up smoking.
- That's bullshit.
You're never too old
to try something new.
We should
go to bed.
Dad.
Come on.
- [Jonathan] Take a
step to your right.
Your other right.
That's a little too far.
- Who cares?
Okay.
I'm smiling.
(photo snapping)
This place looks nice.
Like,
table cloth nice.
- Hey.
- This is fuckin' sexy.
Oh yeah.
It fits great.
Do I get to keep this?
So many choices.
- [Waiter] You
decided, gentlemen?
- Yes, I'll have
ribeye, medium-rare.
House salad, no dressing.
- [Waiter] And you sir?
- He'll have the
prime rib medium.
Mash potatoes.
Would also like a bottle of the
Rosemont Cabernet
Sauvignon, please.
- [Waiter] I'll put
this in for you guys.
- Thank you.
- I was gonna order
the chicken, actually.
- Oh you'll love the prime rib.
- Sure I will.
- Come on, lighten up, Brandon.
Doesn't this place
remind you of that
dinner we had with
Jean and David?
- Who?
Who, Jean and David?
I'm sorry, I don't
know a Jean or David.
- They're friends of ours.
- Can you
do me a solid and
just drop this whole
role play thing just for
tonight, just for the meal.
That'd be so great.
- [Waiter] I'm sorry,
sir, you ordered
the Rosemont Cabernet Sauvignon?
- Yes.
- I'm sorry to say
we don't carry that
particular wine anymore.
- [Jonathan] You don't?
- [Waiter] No my manager
tells me we haven't
carried it in sometime.
- I've had it here before,
could you check again please?
- [Waiter] I'm sorry
we don't have it.
But I can recommend
a nice bottle of--
- Okay this is ridiculous,
is your manager here?
I wanna talk to your manager.
- Yes, let me find her.
- No, hey wait.
I like the sound
of the other wine.
Let's do that, let's
do the other wine,
that sounds great
to me, thank you.
That's perfect, he'll love that.
- What are you doing?
- Dude they don't have
it, so you gotta move on.
- Don't call me
dude, I'm paying you.
- You're paying me?
Oh so that gives you the
right to be a fucking asshole?
- [Waiter] Where are you
two visiting us from?
- We are from New York.
- [Waiter] What brings
you two out here?
- He's a fashion photographer,
I'm his assistant,
we're shooting nearby.
- [Waiter] Oh where?
- The dinosaurs up the way,
it's a cover for Vogue.
- [Waiter] Terrific,
nice little local gem.
- Yeah, oh yeah.
- [Waiter] Have I
seen your work before?
- I don't know.
Coffee table books?
He's got a bunch of them,
there's Cosmo Magazine,
so if you read that.
- I'd like to apologize
again about the wine, sir.
- Who the fuck do
you think you are?
- You got to lay down your
ground rules now it's my turn.
- I hired you for--
- My rules are that I wanna
- I was very explicit
- some fucking fun.
- about the fact
that I was in charge.
- Can you let me have
fun for one night?
Jesus Christ, keep your
fuckin' hands to yourself.
- Go.
Just go.
The doors behind you, go.
Go.
- Okay.
I'm gonna do that 'cause
none of your money is
worth this weirdness.
Enjoy your wine.
- Oh.
Could we get another
bottle of wine, please?
- [Waiter] Of course, the same?
- Sure.
- Okay.
Here's the deal, I'm
gonna finish this meal.
And then you
are going to pay me.
And then you'll never
have to see me again
since this clearly isn't
working out for you.
Does that sound like
a good idea to you?
- Did you know?
- What?
- Did you know that my
favorite shoot we ever did
was that one for vanity fair?
The one in Morocco.
- Morocco.
Yeah.
It's gorgeous in
the fall, right?
- Very beautiful.
- So how is that wine?
- [Jonathan] Let's not
talk about the wine.
- You're still alive.
That's good.
Come here.
Come here.
- [Jonathan] What?
- Just come here.
- What?
Come on.
- Look what's in there.
No.
- Yes.
- No.
- A pool.
- Now listen to me listen.
I shouldn't of even driven,
I drank too much.
- Well that's why we should,
that's why we should jump in.
- No.
- You know you want to.
- I don't.
- Okay, just wait.
Wait right here.
Wait, wait right here.
- Brandon don't do this.
- Wait one second.
- Brandon!
Brandon!
- Okay, okay.
Come on.
- No, no, it's late.
- Now.
- The pool's closed now.
- Now, now.
You're too loud.
Come on, you like to
swim, come on, come on.
Come on, come on,
come on, come on.
Oh the pool's so sparkly.
I'm gonna be the biggest
shark you have ever seen.
- [Jonathan] Alright, okay.
- Oh I have an idea.
- What?
- Why don't we
play
a game.
- I hate games.
- You hate everything.
Truth or dare?
Now.
- I'm too old to
play truth or dare.
- Okay well why don't we play,
never have I ever.
You will love it.
There are no questions.
- What is it?
- I'm gonna make a
statement about something.
And if it's true of you,
you have to take an
article of clothing off.
So for instance if I said,
never have I ever
smoked a joint.
Then we'd both have
to take clothes off
because we have
indeed smoked a joint.
And if I say never have I ever
listened to NPR,
then you take something
off and I do not.
Reversed.
- Never have I ever
been in a wedding.
- What?
That is very lame but okay.
Never have I ever,
driven a Dodge Charger.
- Well that's not fair,
you know so much about me,
I know very little about you.
- I know, that is what
makes this game amazing.
- What are you doing?
- You have to take your
socks off with your shoes,
that's part of the rules.
- Never have I ever
had sex for money.
- You dirty bastard.
Never have I ever
been in love.
- Really?
- [Brandon] Yeah.
- You're missing out.
- You know it's sex
and jealously and insanity,
just but not love.
- Someday you're gonna realize
you're wrong about that.
- This guy.
Come on.
- Never have I ever
gone skinny dipping.
- Oh well.
That ends tonight.
Never have I ever
been to the Grand Canyon.
What?
You kidding me?
I thought you were
lying about that.
- Never have I ever
had sex in public.
- Okay, all of mine are
sexual, that is not fair.
- Never
have I ever
voted.
Woo.
- I never pretended to
be somebody that I'm not.
- Last one.
I never
got my heart broken.
Come in, it's warm.
I love it when
you're adventurous.
- Why'd you come back in
the restaurant tonight?
- Why do you think?
- The money?
- You said I'd
love the prime rib.
- Brandon we should.
- Yes we should.
- [Man] Hey.
What are you guys getting into?
- [Jonathan] Oh sorry,
we shouldn't be here.
- We won't tell if you don't.
- You don't mind if
we join you do you?
- [Brandon] No, come on in.
- I'm getting out.
- No, no stay.
Stay, this'll be fun.
They seem fun.
(laughing)
- Oh you guys make
a cute couple.
- Why thank you.
- [Woman] It's a great
night for this isn't it?
- Oh yeah.
Hey babe, come on.
Aw, come on.
- I gotta get up
early in the morning.
You go ahead.
- That's no fun.
- Oh come on, stay.
We don't bite.
- Yeah.
Well I guess we're turning in.
- Well I hope we didn't
scare you guys off.
- No, no, it's just,
it's been a long day so you
guys have fun without us.
- Oh we will.
(giggling)
(somber music)
- [Machine] Hey babe.
- Hey.
- Hey.
So sweet to get us coffee.
Thank you.
So we should probably go.
Right?
- There's no need to rush.
- Okay.
Well do we have time to
maybe fool around a little bit?
Or at least like,
get a picture?
- Yeah, a picture.
- Is everything okay?
- Yeah.
(photo snapping)
Hey.
(groaning)
- [Brandon] Hey you
don't have to do that.
Hey, hey.
- What? You're always
getting me off.
Time to return the favor.
- Sorry.
I'm sorry it can be
hard for me to get it.
Okay, yeah.
Stop, stop, stop.
Stop, here.
Here.
Okay let me try.
Okay.
Yeah.
Kiss me.
Stop, stop.
Stop.
- Here, I can try.
- No, no, no.
Sorry.
- It's okay.
- Tada!
- Untuck that shirt.
- [Brandon] Why?
- You're dressed too nice.
- Well can I get a
please and thank you?
- Please.
Thank you.
- [Brandon] I thought
I was a wine guy.
- You like anything
that will fuck you up.
- Cheers to that.
- You're too far away,
come slide over here.
- Better?
- Well excuse me.
- Well I'll be god damned.
- [Man] I thought
that was you guys.
- Working up the
same trail, huh?
- Yeah, where you guys headed?
- Well we're
visiting from Europe.
- Grand Canyon.
You?
- Driving up over route 66.
It's been of dream
James since Scarlet.
- So, look, I feel
like maybe we intrude
on you guys last night.
So let me make it up to
you and buy you a drink.
- No, yeah, please
sit down, come on.
(laughing)
I said, "Do you have a light?"
(laughing)
- That's a great pick up line.
- It's so fuckin' cheap.
So cheap.
- So wait, wait.
How long have you
guys been together?
- Three years now.
- Wow.
So do you find the age
difference to be a problem or?
- Honey.
- [James] What?
- You guys don't
have to answer that.
- No, they're secure in their
relationship, I can tell.
It's a valid question.
- It is, no it is,
I mean, yeah sure,
I mean we have an age gap.
And we get looks.
But,
I know deep down that I,
I care for this man.
And he's got some scars.
Sure.
But he gets me.
And I get him and
love him.
Yeah, I mean it's an odd
joy to say I wouldn't
be the same person that I am
today if it wasn't for him.
You know lack of a better term.
He makes me...
shine.
- I don't know if
shine's the right word.
(laughing)
- Fuck off.
- But, no, he's right.
He had scars, I've been hurt.
Then he approached
me romantically,
I knew it wasn't over yet.
- [Woman] Aww.
You guys are so cute.
- [James] And drunk.
- No.
- Oh come on.
Just one shot.
- One shot.
- Oh yes, yes, we have to.
Alright.
Be very serious.
- Camera's are weird.
- K, smile.
- Oh that's good.
That's good stuff.
- One, two and three.
- Nice.
Meanwhile, I'm
almost empty here.
Another round?
- [Jonathan] No,
no, no, no more.
- One more round.
- No, no, no, no.
No more.
- Oh come on.
- Yes, yes, no he's
right, he's right.
shots now.
- Yeah.
- Shots, yes.
- Cheers.
I told the truth
to offer you my love
I lied to you
(rock music)
Jeanie had a whisky last
Dillion's out
there smoking grass
Sheila's gone
and made her glass
She's sippin' it slow
Rockstardom lights
it's only five o'clock
Hilary loves me
and brings me alcohol
This is our life
Oh my my
We live it up till'
the morning lights
This is our waste
The wingies done and
We're having fun
here down on the farm
Killer's on the tailgate
Six pack on ice
This is our life
on a Friday night
Trey's doing kicks
with some pretty girls
with sprayed on tans
sitting in their long chairs
Out by the fire
Dillion's skinny dipping
all he's wearing is his hat
Falling from the back
- You okay?
- [Jonathan] Fine.
This is our life
on a Friday night
We live it up 'till
the morning light
This is our life
on Friday night
We're getting crazy
'till the morning light
This is our brace
Where we get along
We're having fun
here down on the farm
- What got into him?
This is our life
on a Friday night
- Woo!
(clapping)
Woo!
- All done?
Partner?
You did me.
- 'Cause I can't get her anyhow.
- Hello.
Howdy hey.
Partner.
- No.
- Yep.
You're doing this
with me right now.
Come on, be a man.
What do we have here?
Yes.
17 dollars.
- [Woman] Alright,
see you guys soon.
- [Brandon] Alright.
Hey, hi.
- Enjoy your trip.
- Thank you, we will.
You too.
I think I should drive.
- No.
- Okay.
You are in charge.
- Right.
- [Brandon] Whoa, whoa, whoa,
whoa slow down, slow down.
- I'm fine.
- Jesus Christ.
No you're not, you're not
fine, let me drive, please.
- No.
- Slow down, slow down, stop.
Stop, stop, stop.
Let's just sit
here for a moment.
Jonathan.
I have to ask you something.
And you have to promise
you won't get mad, okay?
- I could never be mad at you.
- Who is Brandon?
Why am I wearing his clothes?
Were you in love with him?
- God, I love this song.
Let's dance.
- John, Jonathan,
what are you doing?
Our breaths were wide
just to sing it again
I sing it again
'cause it's true
This is what I wanna do
Make goes wide with you
Don't believe
you that it's true
This is who I wanna be
Jiffy's will not end free
Tell me if you
think this is love
Tell me if you
think this is love
Tell me if you
think this is love
Tell me if you
think this is love
Tell me if you
think this is love
Tell me if you
think this is love
- Hi there.
- Hi.
I like when you're adventurous.
Why are we on this trip?
- Why are we on this trip?
To fix you.
- Yeah?
- God you're a mess.
You're such a mess.
But you're a lovable mess.
You're a mess always
cleaned up by me.
- What do you love about me?
- Everything, I love
everything about you
for everything I'm not.
You're passionate,
you're fearless, you're
too fearless.
- Where am I?
- You're right here.
I found you and we
can be happy now.
- [Brendan] Jonathan,
you're not happy.
- From the moment I met
you, I wanted to marry you.
I did.
I did.
- [Brandon] Well that's
what I love about you.
So romantic.
- I can be impatient
though right?
I was always working
to get us happy.
Waiting for that
happiness to start.
I always thought
there'd be more.
Of it, you know?
You know what I didn't
realize at the time?
- [Brandon] What?
- That back then, those moments,
those were the happiest
I was ever gonna be.
That was my happiness.
I missed it.
You know?
I wish there'd been a
way to know at the time
that that was the
time of my life.
- [Brandon] I'm so sorry.
- You keep pitying me.
I hate that.
- No.
I just, I don't think you should
hold on to all this stuff.
- If I let go of
it, what do I got?
What do I have?
I need to sleep now.
- Okay.
(engine turning over)
Good morning.
- Afternoon, actually.
- Shit.
Thank you.
How are you feeling?
- How are you feeling?
- Do you remember
anything from last night?
- Not much.
Lots of shots.
And headlights.
Did we dance?
- [Brandon] Yeah.
We did.
Anything else?
- No.
Look we should get a move on.
I wanna make some headway
today, we're behind.
- Okay.
Can I just sleep
for one more minute?
- There's no late checkout.
So no, I really wanna
get out of here.
- [Brandon] I feel like shit.
- You can feel like
shit on the road.
- [Brandon] One more hour.
- [Jonathan] Look,
I'm paying you.
- Are you kidding me?
- You heard me, I'm paying you,
by the day, we're a day
behind, I gotta pay you more.
Jesus, I feel like
you're hustling me.
- I'm hustling you?
You're gonna say that
to me after last night?
- [Jonathan] Last night
after you got me fucked up?
- And danced.
And had a great time.
- Right, I did.
Look, I'm asking nicely,
just get dressed.
I'm gonna check us out.
And don't shower,
there's no time,
we're leaving in five minutes.
- [Brandon] Fucking outifts.
(men chattering)
- [Thug] Give me your wallet.
- [Jonathan] Back off.
- [Thug] Give me the wallet!
- [Jonathan] I said back off!
- [Thug] I'm gonna need you
to give it to me right now.
- [Jonathan] Are you
kidding me? It's my wallet.
- [Thug] Give it to me!
- [Jonathan] What the
hell's the matter with you?
- [Brandon] Fuck.
- Come on man.
- Fuck off.
- Give me the wallet!
- Get off of me.
- Get the fuck back.
Are you okay? Jesus Christ.
You leave for one second
and this is what happened?
- He asked me for some
money, I gave him a.
I gave him a few
dollars, he saw my wallet
and he grabbed at it.
God.
- You okay?
Let's just get you
inside, come on.
- [Jonathan] God.
- Okay.
Let's see this here.
There you go.
Here, there.
You alright?
- It stings a little bit.
- I bet.
Just keep icing it, I've
nursed a few of those myself.
- You saved me, thank you.
- I'm gonna check us out.
You should wait here.
- No, no, just.
Just stay here with me.
For a minute, okay?
- [Brandon] Well I
think the manager might
know that guy and.
- Just please.
Just hold me for a minute.
Please?
I am so sorry for everything.
I know I'm impatient with
you and I bark at you and I.
Even after that argument.
You still saved me.
I love you so much.
Now tell me you love me.
- What?
- [Jonathan] I love you, say it.
- I love you.
Hey.
I'm gonna be right back, okay?
Motherfucker.
What the fuck is wrong?
- [Jonathan] Are you
going through my things?
- You like how I
nailed this one?
This?
You did this to yourself, why?
Why?
Let me guess, you paid to
have that guy hit you, right?
That's how you get anyone
to do anything you want?
You know I figured it out
a few days ago, the motels,
the rest stops, the
fuckin' pictures.
Who is he?
- He's Brandon, he's you.
- Now stop that shit.
I don't wanna hear
that, who is he?
- [Jonathan] Why do you care?
You're in this for
the money right?
I give you money,
you give me comfort,
that's how this works.
- Comfort?
This isn't comfort,
this is sick.
- I don't owe you
an explanation.
You don't get to ask
questions, you're a hired fuck.
- That's all I am to
you after this whole
god damn trip, a hired fuck?
- Yes.
- You're gonna stand there
and you're gonna tell me
I don't mean anything
to you at all?
- Why? You're nobody.
You're some young dipshit
who doesn't know anything.
You're a different person
to every guy you fuck
and you wanna be
anybody but yourself.
Leave.
No, wait.
Sorry, I forgot to pay you.
- Fucking weirdo piece of shit.
Fucking fuck you.
- Come here.
- Stop, stop, stop, stop.
Stop.
- This stupid trip.
We always wanted to go
to the Grand Canyon.
It was suppose to fix him,
it was suppose to fix us.
It's a god damn
hole in the ground.
He told me he'd quit.
He promised.
- Look at me.
- I should've known, I.
Nothing changes.
Nothing ever changes.
I stood outside that door and
I knew what was on the other.
I knew.
I turned my back for 10 minutes.
I should've done something.
I did nothing.
- Hey, hey, Jonathan.
- Can we just go
back to pretending?
- No.
- Please.
- No we can't do--
- You can go back to sleep.
- I can't, I can't,
Jonathan, Jonathan,
I cannot do that.
Because this isn't
role play anymore.
This is morbid, this is morbid.
- [Jonathan] I thought you
were different than the others.
- Others?
- Thank you, you can go.
What?
Are you taking this personally?
You're a hustler, I'm
paying you so you can leave.
Take it.
Fine.
- Enjoy the rest of
your sad, lonely life.
(somber music)
Hey.
- Where are you headed?
- Wherever you're headed.
- What's your name?
I'm sorry was that a
difficult question?
- [Machine] Hey babe.
My guess is you're in the
ass end of Denver right now.
I'm at home with nothing to do.
So I'm playing a little music.
I miss you on your work trips.
So I decided to write
a song about it.
Enjoy.
Three hours left
before you leave
And already I'm missin' you
I've gotta write this song
right now
for my sweet baby boo
Can't stand to be
without your touch
Or kiss that fuzzy chest
The strength that
you wrap around me
Oh baby you're the best
So call me
when you find this
and don't hesitate just do
Waiting by the phone
for you
my sweet sweet baby boo
Sweet sweet baby boo oh my
Sweet sweet baby boo
Just call me
when you find this
Oh my sweet sweet baby boo
I'll see you when
you get home, babe.
- [Brendan] Got a light?
- No.
- Good.
Trying to quit anyway.
- Yeah.
- You were right about me.
I don't like being myself.
- I didn't mean any
of those things.
- Yes you did.
I don't know that many
happy people.
In my life or in
my line of work.
I wouldn't know what a happy
person would look like.
So forgive me if I can't
picture you happy with Brandon.
One of the things
in life I'm good at,
is starting over.
You.
You right now,
are in the worst of
it, this is the hardest
part in starting over.
- You don't know anything
about what I went through.
- I was 15 when I got
kicked out of the house
for being a little cocksucker.
Ever since then starting
over is all I've ever done.
- Look, I get--
- I don't know who I am.
I don't but you
know who you are.
You're way ahead of me.
I decided a long
time ago to live like
there's no tomorrow
because there isn't one.
And you have to
move on,
move forward and
start over again
and as soon as you figure
out what that is for you
then you do it.
And you don't look back.
You wanna move on, you wanna,
you wanna be happy but you
feel like you don't deserve it.
Jonathan.
You deserve it.
Never have I ever.
- What?
- I've never given my
real name to a client.
I'm gonna go to the bathroom.
And when I come back, I'm
gonna come back as me,
not as Brandon.
I'm gonna be honest
with you about who I am.
And where I'm from
and everything.
If you're not comfortable
with that then,
it's been nice knowing you.
I'm in charge.
(water surging)
Dear champion
Make you proud this time
But I lost my way
Along the way
She was waiting
And I never came I was
too young to know anything
That this love
goes on and on and on
- Hey.
Do you have a number
for a cab company?
Fuck.
- I don't think they let
you smoke that in here.
That's a terrible habit.
- I know.
That's why I'm trying to quit.
- No time like the present.
- [Bartender]
Another round, guys?
- Whatcha drinkin'?
- An old fashion.
- Nice.
Two, please.
So, where you from?
- Dayton, Ohio.
- [Jonathan] You
got a family there?
- Yeah.
Where are you from?
- New York.
But I'm in Seattle now.
- Couple nomads.
Aren't we?
- Yeah.
I'm Jonathan, by the way.
- I'm Adam.
My name's Adam.
- [Jonathan] Pleasure to
meet you Adam from Ohio.
That is a nasty drink.
- [Brandon] So New York, that's,
I've always wanted
to go to New York.
- [Jonathan] You've
never been to New York?
(somber music)
(somber music)
(engine racing)
- Hi.
- [Clerk] Hi.
Have a safe trip.
- [Adam] Thank you.
And there he lay
like the devil was a cropper
on my family's
farming proper
tiny bones and head
of copper in the loam
shivering to death
He wasn't moving
and I knew the antidote
pity rose up in my throat
and so I put him in
my coat to get him warm
Carry him back home
Well why should
I oversimplify?
It's good to be alive
So logically all
living things are good
If not misunderstood
and I will not
play God, arbitrating
Arrogantly designating
who should live
Well then it happened
I bet you already guessed
when I called the cursed
blessed he sank his fangs
into my chest and
through my shirt
Put his venom in my veins
As I was dying
Well I thought
it rather fitting
that my heart
produced the pity
That's the spot the
snake bit me and I know
Nature doesn't want changed
Well I should
have compromised
I didn't realize
The demon at my doorstep
But with one slash
of Sheol's knife
He cut down the tree of life
And stacked the
wood for kindling
and the laughter
that I'm sure will follow
after this life