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Servant or Slave (2016)
As I went down in the river to pray
Studyin' about that good ol' way and who shall wear The starry crown good lord show me the way I was originally born in Grafton, taken from Grafton to Cootamundra Girls' Home when I was four. I don't know why. It's not clear to me where I'm originally from. I know I'm from up there somewhere Up the Bundjalung tribe, that's what I was told. I'm still tryin' to find out. Not really important to me it's not. 'Cause I was too much in the institutions. Oh sister let's go down I was three and a half years old. Being so young as I was, I thought this was natural to be abused you know and thrown in the box room and whipped and things like that. The starry crown good lord show me the way Be a domestic service to be workin' in a white person's house to do their cleaning and their washing and lookin' after their kids and that's what we were doing. It was just literally a slave, to be there to do their bit of what they wanted you to do. As I went down in the river to pray We were like dogs, just given the rubbish you know? Had the leftovers. Hurts, to think what the wealthy have done to us. Pain that we went through. I still have nightmares. Oh sisters lets go down Lets go down, come on down Oh sisters lets go down Down in the river to pray In 1901, Australia became a federation. Under the new constitution, aboriginal people would not be counted in the census. And the commonwealth would have the power to make laws relating to any race of people in Australia, except aboriginal people. The federated states retained exclusive power over aboriginal affairs until 1967 when the constitution was amended in a historic referendum. When Australian's voted overwhelmingly to change these discriminatory clauses. Aboriginal people had been subject to oppressive legislation that varied on a state by state basis from the late 19th century. The notorious aborigines protection board had the power to forcibly move people from their traditional lands, onto reserves and missions and to remove children from their families and power over their financial affairs. The policy of protection, of smoothing the dying pillow of a doomed race, rapidly changed to one of control. With the end game of assimilation. Certainly when the pieces of legislation were first drafted in the late 1880s through to the early 1900s, what you do see is a reflection of this generally held assumption by the dominant culture in Australia that aboriginal people were a dying race. By the time you get to the 40s, 50s, 60s and it's very clear that the aboriginal population isn't dying out. The impetus behind the concept of protection becomes very different. You do find a large sort of broad similarity in terms of the assumptions about inferiority of aboriginal people, the problems that were assumed to exist or would be created if aboriginal children were left with their families. The importance of seeing assimilation of aboriginal people as a key way of progressing forward in terms of federal government policy. All of those sorts of big ideological pictures were pretty much existent across the board. I was born in Brewarrina. I didn't know my father but I had a step father who I really loved who was the only dad that I knew. We was playing outside in the dirt with our roly poly and then while mom and all the other ladies were playing cards inside, black car come there, just parked there. Jenny she had me by the hand and hanged onto me. And the welfare fella just picked us up and took us. Took us and mom didn't know. - There was certainly an assumption that the best time to remove children was the youngest you could possibly get them so there were lots of instances where aboriginal women would go into hospital, would be told their children had died and then later find out that they'd been adopted out. There was a view that if children were institutionalised or sent out to work, somehow these would be better ways of equipping them for life in white world then allowing them to stay with their families. - Well I was born at Peak Hill, in Peak Hill hospital. In 1932. That's a long time ago. Yeah no, you'd see me out on the mission there at Peak Hill with mom and dad. Well that's where we was taken' from there. I remember we was playin' out on the lawn out the front of the courthouse and that's where mom and dad walked away and left us there. I don't think they knew where I was going, I was only little, I didn't know whether they knew or not but we didn't know. I was only little, tiny kid. Train ride and ended up at Cootamundra. In 1911, the Cootamundra Domestic Training Home for aboriginal girls was opened by the Aborigine's Protection Board, in Country, New South Wales. Until it closed in 1968, hundreds of aboriginal girls were placed in the home, after being forcibly removed from their parents. The idea was to segregate part aboriginal children from their families, in order to assimilate them into the mainstream community as domestic servants. - Matron called out and said, "now girls, this is your new home. "You behave yourself and do as you're told, "things will be alright." And that's what she said. They never told us why we were taken, never. - I went to Bomaderry Children's Home , I was aged two with the other two sisters. And when I went to Cootamundra, about nine with me other sister Patty, they said we were gonna meet me eldest sisters and I didn't even know we had 'em. Only family I knew was the Bomaderry kids and the ones in Cootamundra, they seemed strange. I wasn't brought up with them. If you're not brought up with someone, how could you connect? The story of private John Wenberg of the second AIF and his wife Lily is one shared by many families. All nine of their children including sisters Adelaide, Valerie and Rita were taken from them. Some were taken before their younger siblings had even been born. Two of their children, Dorothy and John died of neglect while wards of the state. Despite their repeated pleas for the return of their children, John and Lily were formally advised that the removal of their children was justified due to parental neglect. - I got in the home when I was three and a half. Grew up, grew up not knowing they were my sisters. And grew up not wanting to know. You know, we're not close now. We're strangers. Same with our brothers, they're strangers. I was more or less on me own amongst about 45 girls or more. All in the same position I think that I was in. Taken and just put there, for the reasons unknown. I was a real devil then, I just wouldn't settle down to do nothin'. 'Cause I had an idea in my head that I shouldn't have been there. You know when you wake up in the morning and you think you're gonna wake up and see your mom and dad and you don't, you wake up and you're in a dormitory with about 14 or 15 other kids, all age groups, it's not very comforting. - When you became a women you know, you got your periods. I didn't know what was going on. I was down the toilet, I saw blood, "oh shit what's happened here"? And went up to the matron and, "Oh Adelaide," she said. "You're turning into a women." And all she did was handin' me these things, you have to wash yourself and that you know? So shit what's goin' on here you know? That's all we were told, nothing. There was no love up there, none whatsoever, none. In 1948, an Anglican missionary couple established the Marella Mission Farm known as the Hidden Mission, to accommodate aboriginal children on their private property in a north western suburb of Sydney. The first child arrived in 1953 and the subsequent hundreds of children who passed through their gates became an unpaid labour force that supported the farm, which already benefited from government funding and public donations. Soon after being taken from her family at the age of two, Rita Wright was transferred form the Cootamundra girls home to Marella where she remained until she was released aged 19. - I hate that place, I hate the name. I used to steal oranges off the tree and hide 'em under the floorboards. And then they'd make us start readin' the bible, "thou shalt not steal," you know? Like you have to steal to survive, just to have a feed you know? We were hungry. We were treated like slaves. Done all the work. We kept a dirty farm goin'. We kept it goin' and all the hidin's and, hidin's over just tiny little things. They put us there 'cause they say that my mom was a dirty drunken woman. We're supposed to have malnutrition. My auntie, she said "your mom was one of the cleanest women "up there in Brewarrina." - The first time I saw my father, he came up to the home. And in order to come up to the home, you had to have a letter from the Aborigine Welfare Board, to see your kids. He never had a letter, he just roamed in. I always remember he had this army coat. And he's holdin' out his arms, he's callin' out, "Valerie, Valerie." And he said, "I'm your daddy." - The matron rang the police and they got him off the property because he was drunk and weren't allowed to come up there like that. When we were all taken, he just took to drink. You know, all his kids were gone so what the hell? He had nothing to live for? - And poor dad wrote a letter to the welfare, "could I have my children back?" He said, "I'll get a home for 'em." He got a home for us. But they didn't, they wouldn't give 'em to him. - You know a girl came from Cootamundra. You know she used to tell me, she said Val, I asked her, I said, "have you got a mom?" And she said, "yes." And I said, "why are you in here if you got a mom?" I said, "I thought all the girls didn't have mom and dad?" And she said, "Val if you go out to the peppercorn tree, "put a cross on the peppercorn tree every night "and your mom will come." She never came. - You know I think for many of us have often heard our elders say, they said that this protection was kind of an ironic word just like welfare was. And that the motivations behind the policy were much more about protecting white people from aboriginal people. And although you know, in their usual way, our eldest sort of say that it's a kind of joke, I think that there's a lot of pain behind that. - Tried to bring them up as normal children and to teach them whatever we could as far as cleanliness and that was concerned you know?" And to live as white children, that was all we were trying to do. It was the only thing we could do with them? - I loved school, I loved it with a dear passion. I did very well at school. We were all sitting on the outside, the officers where they had their meals, on the steps and the matron said, "oh Adelaide's a very clever little girl." And one of the officers said, "what's the point of the her being clever? "She's only going to be a domestic." And that stuck with me and I'll never try it again, never. - Well what they trained you for was to learn to scrub and wash and clean houses. You know, for the white people. Iron their clothes, milk a cow. You know, had to get up early in the mornin' and milk a cow. - They teach ya to cook, they teach ya to wash, they teach ya to iron, clean. I used to muck up, being who I was, they sort of targeted me because I wasn't flexible like the other kids. Come and do all your duties, do that, do whatever. And I used to say, no I'm not doin' it. I would just walk away but I used to end up then bein' locked in a store room, like a box room they called it. No lights, no nothing turned on. You'd be sittin' in this little box room for hours more or less. - They'd get ya and they'd push you in. You may try not go in, but they push you in. You'd sleep in the box with no bed. No mattress. They don't bring in food or water for ya. And you gotta stay there overnight, it's real dark. You know and you get scared and I thought to myself I can't cry, because you're not allowed to cry. - Across the country, children taken into state care whether they were put in institutions or sent out into employment situations, suffered an enormous amount of abuse. Psychological, emotional, physical and sexual abuse. - I said to this officer Hailey, she said something and I said, "oh shut up." "That's the last time you'll ever say that to me" she said. I'll get you. Never thought anything of it. About a week later, she was on bath duty. There's two baths and they call you in. Betty Lee was in that bath and I was in the other bath. I was washin' myself quite happy, very happy, singin' away and Betty yells out, "watch it Adelaide, "watch it, she's coming." I felt this burnin' right across me back. I didn't cry, I didn't cry. I didn't give her the satisfaction. But that cat o nine tails, that bloke down near the stock yards gave one to the officers. That whip, to keep us in hand. And that's what they used to use on the cattle to get 'em into the different yards. - They used to call me a runner, I'm always on the run. I ran away from the home and the policeman picked me up, and I was about 12. And I was put in a cell and that's where he raped me. I kept that to myself. I kept the rape to myself 'cause I always thought well you don't say those things or you get into trouble. And they won't believe ya anyway. - They were so-called Christian missionaries. We was made to call him mom and dad. Or we used to call 'em little names on the side. I know you should not hate anybody, but he is one man that I really really hate. - Things he done was unbelievable and they were supposed to look after us. Used to hit us. Do other things. Things you wouldn't believe. He abused me bad. Done things, that I was too frightened to tell people. 'Cause I always thought no one would believe me and I'm still goin' in surgeries. From this day on I'm still havin' surgery over this. That messed me, I'd go there and I'm gettin' tubes put in me. I still let it happen to me you know? Made me sit on his lap and he used to bounce up and down. It was dirty, very bad. And he calls himself a Christian. The tree was shaped like a horse, like gettin' on a horse. I jumped on it one day, I made out that I was takin' off from Marella. Sittin' on a nose, "yahoo" and all this, thinkin' I was free. But the day had to end ya know? It was make believe days, stories. It's very very hard when you're in a home, being treated, treated like slaves. Little children, we were kids, just slaves. To me I don't like workers sayin' dogs, but we were like dogs. In 1897, the aboriginal protection and restriction of the sale of opium act was passed in Queensland. Under the guise of protecting aboriginal people from physical and financial exploitation by their employers, this legislation allowed the state government to assume complete control over aboriginal people's lives. Including the power to control their welfare entitlements and wages. A strategy repeated across the nation. - What happened for an aboriginal person sent out to work under the government control was that firstly you had no idea how much the government was selling your labour for. They didn't tell you what wage you were supposed to get. Secondly, while you're working, up to 80% of your wage, in theory was paid as, what they call pocket money, which was money that the employer paid you during the 12 month work period. But this pocket money quota, the government always knew from the very very beginning was probably never properly paid. It was so easy for employers to say, yes you got a shirt worth X amount, he got food worth X amount, he got tobacco and that takes up the whole 80%, so there's only 20% of the wage to be paid. - On many stations in to Kimberley right through until the late 1960s, all people were getting still was basic rations of meat, flour, tea, sugar and a ration of tobacco. For many aboriginal workers and their families on stations, that's all they got. Just this really meagre amount of food and tobacco rations in exchange for working full time. - One of the ways the government funded itself from aboriginal work was through the Aboriginal Welfare Fund. This had been set up in 1943 and was always notorious for it's mismanagement. And the fund comprised a levy on the wages of all aboriginal workers which had been in place since 1919, and was used supposedly for the benefit of aboriginals generally. - Aboriginal workers on stations just couldn't up and leave when they wanted to. They were bound by employment contracts and employment permits. In economic terms, they were making so much money for the pastoral station owners because they were being paid either nothing at all or a fraction of the award wages. One of the complaints that station owners started making in the 1940s and 1950s when agitation for wages was coming from aboriginal workers themselves, one of those complaints was, if we have to pay these people wages, we can't run the station. These pastoral stations simply weren't viable economic propositions without the huge economic contribution that aboriginal people made to the industry. So it was really a one-way transfer of economic resources, from the aboriginal community to the nation. - Well generally speaking I find them quite good. I think I prefer the native neighbour. Why? - I get along quite well with my girls. Well if I had one white housemaid, well if she resigned I'd get left with nothing, but I've always got another girl to take one's place. - Aboriginal girls were taken from their families at such a rate. This was partly fueled by the insatiable desire for cheap domestic servants. These young aboriginal workers and some of them were really little more than children themselves, they were paid so little. Like in their hand they only got a few shillings and the rest was managed by the aborigines department. What it meant was that, even really modest households could expect to be able to employ an aboriginal domestic servant. This is an area of stolen wages where I don't think you can actually separate the stolen generation's story from the stolen wages story, they're completely entwined. - When you reach 14 and a half or something like that, you get your report sent up to the home and the matron sends it up to the welfare, Aborigine Welfare Board. If they think you can't go any further, they stop you from going to school and then you're put out to domestic service. When you go on the farm, you're supposed to do the washing, clean the house, if there's kids there, gotta look after them. 'Cause you never had a day off, you just kept on going. - I was 16 or 15, matron put me out on a property and I didn't know how to milk a cow. I used to put water in the bucket. And I put the bucket on top of the kitchen table and next minute I could hear this man say, "Valerie, Valerie, get in here!" I went in there and he said, "you put water in this milk." And I was shakin' like a leaf, I didn't know what to do. So he said, "next time just watch it." And then one day I was vacuuming in the lounge and he came back and he said, "Valerie" he said, "get in here!" He said, "you haven't done the kid's room." And I, I'd done the kid's room. I'd went in and vacuumed and cleaned the kid's room up. And he just threw me on the bed and he raped me. And that night when he came home, I had a cup and a plate in my hand and as soon as I'd seen him, I broke the cup and plate and then he gets this big fence boy and he belted me with the fence boy. And I went runnin' out and I slept in the wooden box outside all night. It was cold. Then I woke up the next mornin' and I looked up and seen if they were gone. And they were gone, so I went, I dunno I just went back into the house not realizin' what he's done, I just got his shoes and I started to clean his bloomin' shoes. 'Cause I was frightened I was goin' to get myself in trouble with matron if I didn't behave myself. Then the knock came on the door and it was the police. And he said, "what's wrong Valerie?" And I said, "this man's been beltin' me "with this fence boy and he's done somethin' to me." And the police said, "you go and get your case "and pack your case, you're goin' back to the home." When I was goin' back to the home all matron would say, "now Valerie," she said, "don't mention or tell any of the girls "what has happened to you "and tomorrow I shall buy you a new dress." And tomorrow came, she bought me a new dress but I didn't know where I was goin' in the new dress. And a week later after that, she sticks me out onto another property. I was so frightened of the man, I ran away. Government control over their wages effectively condemned many thousands of aboriginal girls and boys to a treadmill of abuse from which their was little hope of escape. Internal investigations from the early 1920s reveal aboriginal wages were misappropriated by governments to cover their own liabilities, including the cost of removing people to missions and reserves and the forcible removal of children. In essence, aboriginal people unwittingly funded their own disenfranchisement. Even thought the racial discrimination act established a legal award wage in 1975, many aboriginal workers continue to be underpaid and had no control over their financial affairs. - There is almost no proper money trail of what happened to aboriginal savings, individual savings, because people were never given any record of what was being done to their money until 1968 when they were given bank books which showed just the amounts still sitting in their account, and for many people that was a tiny amount after perhaps three decades of work. So the profitability of the state, it was built on the backs of black workers and it was built to a large extent with the money, which black workers earned, but governments took. - Stroke of luck came. I was sent to Sydney. I was goin' on 16. I went to work for this beautiful woman at Double Bay, her and her mother. She was paralysed from the waist down. She gave me all the respect I needed and she was the only one that did. She always made sure if I was upset, she'd say to me, "what's your problem Adelaide?" And sometimes I couldn't tell her and then other times I could tell her. And she said, "oh we'll get through this." - I'd run away from Marella. I went in a red fern and lived in there for three months, on the streets. Stealin' milk and snow drop and takin' clothes off the lines and puttin' my clothes back on the line to survive. I seen these group of aboriginal people come towards me. I crossed the road, I was frightened. 'Cause you know, you grew up with the kids in the home but seein' the free people, you know people that was free? Havin' them do what they wanna do. - I used the bloody men, they used me and I used them. It wasn't for love. They might've loved me, but I never loved them. What the hell's love gotta do with it? I had to go with these white fellas, 'cause I believed that white fellas are a better race that me own people. I learnt different later, ha! I used these white fellas up. Reason why I used to go in the pub to meet me own people, I'm trying to find who I belong to, where I come from, things like that. - It's taken a long time for me to realise that I wasn't really white. That's how good they are, it's like a brainwash. You know, when I seen a dark person I used to cross the road, 'cause I didn't wanna associate. You're brought up that way. You accept things, you know? - They said not to marry an aborigine person, because they were dirty and the white race was better than the aborigine race. - I'm sure it gives people some comfort to think that these were things that all happened in the past. But the fact of the matter is that it's just not true. You've first of all got people who live in our community who lived this. To them it wasn't just yesterday, they live with this every day. The sorts of traumas that they've suffered as children. The impact of separation from their families. These traumas do get handed down. Their removal as children made it very difficult for them to be in a family. When I got married, I was lookin' for somebody to look after me for a change. It didn't work out that way. Used to come home drunk, you know? And all he wanted was you know what. And I thought to myself, I suppose it was meant to happen again. I got so used to bein' abused and I didn't trust anybody. I think that trust is a big thing. People say you've gotta move forward. How does one move forward when you still go that in your mind, what happened to you as a child? - As much as I love my husband, I did still have no trust in him you know? It was very hard. My husband never smoked, he never drunk and he never got into me. He taught me how to cook, but then he had to die from the dialysis. From this day on I still haven't got a boyfriend 'cause I'm too frightened, for what I went through. - When I did go out and have my own family, I used to check the kids every night. I put my hand on their chest to see if they were still breathin' or see if they were still in their bed because they had no idea, they're not takin' my kids. And in the end of it, I just reared my kids on my own, I worked and reared my kids myself. - I don't think I was meant to be a mother. I just haven't had it in me. I tried. We weren't brought up with a mother, so how do you expect to be a mother to your children when you don't even know how to be a mother to them when you've never had one, to help ya, to guide you. - I used to say to the kids, if you have a girlfriend or a boyfriend, I wanna know who they are and I wanna know who their parents are, because they could have been related, you know? You get around the same area where you come from, everybody's more or less related to this one or that one and I'm thinkin' well no, I wanna know who they are and who their parents are and where they come from. - I was just goin' on 26 when I found out I was pregnant. And I was cranky, cranky as hell. So I went to see an abortionist, I didn't want a kid, never wanted a kid, never wished to have any kids. If this is the way they treat aborigine kids, never will I bring a child into this world to be abused like this, that's how I thought. Well I had Robert, and I said to the lady, I'll leave if you like and she said, "no you're not, we'll bring him up together." And she brought him up. He wasn't mine. She took control of him. I was just the one who gave the birth. And I've never said to him I love you, never. 'Cause I can't. Because of what happened up at that home. Taught me not to trust people, not to love anyone, not even to love me own child. - I was goin' through depression pretty bad. I was havin' flashbacks so I had to go and see a psychiatrist. I told him what happened and he said, "why don't you sketch "what happened to you as a child?" And I've been doin' that ever since. When you're paintin' you're in a world of your own. Your mind's occupied by the paint your doin'. 'Cause if I don't paint, I start to have the flashbacks. I start to get panic attacks. - I do what they taught me to do. I just clean and look after myself. Play tennis and play bowls. Very sporty, I get out and play a lot of sports. I used to always play sports, years ago. Even had a go at football. - And when I went to Sydney, I couldn't understand why I was gettin' pains all the time. I was playin' tennis and I used to double up with pains. I used to play with these white people out at Rose Bay. Went home to the lady I worked for, I said, "I dunno I've got these two pains under here." She said, "we'll send you to the doctor." Now I went into hospital, not knowing what was going to happen. Not knowing. Doctor came around, looked at my chart, he said, "look girly I'm gonna ask you one simply question "and one simple question only. "You can give me that answer or not? "That kidney was caused through trauma. "Did you fall? "Or fall off a horse, fall down out of a tree?" That's what that bloody thing did, that whip. I didn't say nothin'. I said, nah I don't wanna talk about it. - Now it's gone, why'd he put me through that? I get angry and I swear, to myself. 'Cause you gotta get everything out you know? When you got that anger, you do anything. I threw plates, I wanted to jump on the railway tracks down Rooty Hill. And even when my husband died I said Doug what've you left me for 'cause I need ya but where are you? So I went back just to sit there. To see a little creek runnin' through. Now it's a recreation centre built there. And I wanna try and get a plaque put up for the Marella children that was there. In 2006, a senate legal and constitutional affairs committee established an inquiry into stolen wages nationally. Almost 170 years after a British committee first recommended that protectors of aborigines be appointed in Australia. The senate committee found extensive evidence of misappropriated trust funds, welfare entitlements and stolen wages. Estimated to be at least 500 million dollars in Queensland alone. It recommended that indigenous people be supported to tell their stories. Given unhindered access to government archives and that a national scheme be established to undertake preliminary legal research into stolen wages. Almost 10 years later, claimants are still waiting. - Reparations have been a really tricky legal issue. For an average person who hears what happens, to many of the people who were taken and then suffered horrendous abuse, have long psychological damage, it becomes a real question as to why there isn't a legal remedy for that? - In May 2002, Queensland Labour Premier Peter Beattie made an offer of reparations in parliament. He said, "we have no idea how much money has gone missing "from people's accounts over the decades." He quoted it was a least half a billion dollars over an 80 year period. From all of the whole range of funds that went missing and so he offered 55.6 million dollars was his offer. What it worked out to was $2000 per person for a younger claimant and $4000 per person for somebody 55 years and older. To get that money, you had to sign away your legal rights. There was such a poor take up of the offer, people were so disgusted that the subsequent labour government increased the amount to $7000 which again is still an absolute pittance. Certainly the Queensland government, in it's conditions said that only people who were alive on the date in May 2002 when they made the offer, only they could apply for the money, so anybody who's parents, grandparents, great grandparents had lost money under the system, they were out of luck. - I think it's important that what they do do is recognise that there was a structural harm that was being committed against a broad group of people. Their experience was continually denied. There's something very important about a formal structure that says, well yes it did take place and yes there were people who worked in these circumstances and were effectively treated as slave labour and we need to do something about it. When you look at the poverty within indigenous communities, the fact that there's so little that people had to hand down, in a material sense, it is a way in which people who have been exploited for their labour are unable to even bequeath that to their children and their grandchildren. - There really needs to be a political will at both the federal level and the state and territory level to drive this issue, until aboriginal workers and their families receive the justice that they deserve. - The money that should've gone to aboriginal workers was used to continue to remove children. And when you think that this was a policy that went form the 1880s informally, through to a very strong state structure by the early 1900s, right into the 1960s, you're talking about generations. You can even conceive where people would've been funding these bodies that would then come and take their own children. - An awful lot of the despair on the communities, is rooted in the institutionalised dis-empowerment over generations. And I believe that the government is responsible for the conditions today. Legally responsible. I think they had a duty of care. They gave themselves that duty of care in their laws and regulations. - There is probably a short answer to what you call someone who is in that circumstance, especially a child who is getting no wages or is severely underpaid. The United Nations human rights standards would say that is slavery. People will say, "well you know that's what happened "in the southern states of America "and we didn't have that here." But for the child who was working for nothing in someone else's kitchen with no other choice, cannot escape, is beaten when they don't do their work, is abused in other ways, it's slavery. It hurts, to think what the welfare done to them and what they done to us. The pain that we went through. To look back on my life, it wasn't a life. It just wasn't a life. I got my freedom. I got a lot of love and I got my children, my grandchildren. And now they give me support. They give me the strength, 'cause I can stand up and talk to them, tell them what's right from wrong you know? - I will never forgive them for what they done to me you know? I mean I wasn't the only one who got raped and abused. There was thousands of aborigine kids, boys too, they got raped, I wasn't the only one. - I was determined not to be broke, they wasn't gonna break me, I wanted to be me own self. I was seein' what happened with other kids and the way it affected them. A lot of them come out and all they wanted to do was they get on the drugs and they get on the alcohol and all this sorta thing. I never went that way, I was determined not to. I was gonna make somethin' of myself. But I ended up married with a mob of kids. Lovin' it though. - Why do you think a lot of these young boys and the men and the fathers went to drink and died? Because they lost their kids like my father. He had nothing to live for, nothing. So he just threw in the towel, they weren't going to give his kids back, he asked for them back, so what? That was it. - I had to go to TAFE to learn about my people. I was very proud you know? I was hurt to learn about them, very hurt, 'cause I was sayin' to myself, why didn't I learn these things while I was at school? And I'm proud to be an aborigine. And I always will be. I'm proud to be a proud black woman. Proud to be one. Okay? As I went down to the river to pray Studying about that good ol' way And who shall wear the starry crown Good Lord show me the way Oh sisters let's go down Let's go down, come on down Oh sisters let's go down Down to the river to pray As I lay down in the river to pray Studyin' about that good ol' way And who shall wear the starry crown Good Lord show me the way Oh sisters let's go down Let's go down, come on down Oh sisters, let's go down Down in the river to pray |
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