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They don't want me any more.
Don't think I'm crazy enough.
I think you're crazy.
Thanks for picking me up, Pete.
When you opened the boot and
you put my bags in the back,
it was a good feeling.
I mean, I really had
that leaving feeling.
You know that feeling,
that feeling of leaving?
And arriving.
I'm sorry I didn't
make the wedding.
Kind of tied up, hey?
I'd have been a good best man.
Got a book all
about it, how to get
educated on being a best man.
Oh, what did it say?
Don't know.
I never read it.
I'm sorry I didn't
make the divorce.
Yeah, well, you
didn't miss much.
Quick, wasn't it?
Yeah.
I mean it, Pete.
I'm really sorry.
You've been growing into
an old fart without me.
I'll be with you in a minute.
You all right, Pete?
Oh, yeah, I'm all right.
You all right?
Where've you been?
You know, here and there.
You know you're not supposed
to be drinking, don't you?
I was thirsty.
Just get yourself some breakfast
and take your
medication, will you.
You make me nervous.
Do you know what those are?
Yeah, I know what they are
and I know you need them.
They've like horse
tranquilizers.
Of a smack in the head
with a claw hammer,
if you know what that's like.
Do you want one?
No, thank you.
Calm you down.
Come on.
Here.
Swap?
No, no swaps!
Yeah, swap.
Ray, this is Mandy.
You ever need anything
and I'm not around,
she'll sort you out.
All right.
Hello.
Six for a pound.
Any color you like.
Got any orange ones?
Any color you
like, except orange.
I need an orange one.
Just what's there, mate.
Have another blue one.
No, I got a blue one.
I need an orange one.
Can I just take five?
Pay for five, I'll give you six.
No, just the five.
Oh, take six.
Push the boat out.
Five for a pound.
Come here!
Come here!
Where's that ring?
I've lost it!
Well, where did
you lose it then?
If I knew that, it would
not be lost would it?
That was a five stone sapphire,
...and a cluster,
a fucking cluster.
That was a good ring!
I don't want your stupid ring!
I want it you silly bitch.
Obviously you do want my
ring, which is why I want
it so I can get my money back.
Fuck!
That's it.
What are you going
to do with that?
I'll tell you what
I'm going to do.
I'm going to count
to three and then
I'm going to get fucking angry.
You are already angry.
Well, I'm going to
get even more angry!
Put the brick down.
Fuck off.
Go on.
You could put someone's
eye out with that.
It's dangerous.
Is it?
Who the fuck are you?
Huh?
Nobody.
Who the fuck is this?
Huh?
I don't know.
He's just some nut case.
A word of advice,
nut case, right?
A wee gem of wisdom, yeah?
Uh!
Don't ever, ever, ever fuck
with another man's misery.
Ok?
He was lucky.
He caught me when
I wasn't looking.
You ought to mind your own
business next time then,
won't you?
Done.
I think my nose is broken.
Can you stand up?
No.
Try.
It's the sitting
down that's done it.
I think I've got
um, what's his name?
Rigor mortis.
Lift your shirt up.
What are you going to do?
You probably cracked a rib.
What's wrong?
It's cold.
Does this hurt?
No, it's nice.
What's the date today?
I don't know, why?
When's your birthday?
23rd of August.
I'm a Leo.
How's your head?
Does he often do
this sort of thing?
Fling bricks about
and nut people.
It's not very nice.
There's a first
time for everything.
Now you just stop
asking stupid questions.
I've met his sort before.
He probably practices.
I mean it's not the first
time this has happened to me.
It's not first time
I've completely
unwittingly provoked somebody.
I just seem to say
the wrong thing
or look at them in the
wrong way and boom!
It just all goes off.
Look, I've got to go.
I don't mean to be rude,
but I've got an appointment.
Ok.
I'll be off then.
I'll be on my way.
What happened to your face?
Nothing.
You see your nurse today?
Yeah.
What did she say?
She said, keep up the good
work and come back in two weeks.
Two weeks?
Why two weeks?
Why not two weeks?
Well, was your face like
that when you went to see her?
Don't tell me you
walked into a door.
Always walking into
doors, weren't you?
Ever since you were a
kid, you'd disappear
off the face of the Earth and
walk into a door somewhere.
All right.
Don't get in a flat.
Two Kelly sausage, table five.
You weren't arrested
again, were you?
Because I'll tell you,
Ray, I'm not having it.
Not again.
Fucking coppers knocking on my
door at four in the morning,
just because you made
a tit out of yourself.
Two Kelly sausage, table five.
What the bloody
hell is going on?
...I just don't
understand it, you know?
Nobody understands it.
I mean, why can't you just
pull yourself together?
They changed their minds.
What?
They want pizza now.
Well, they can't have pizza.
You tell them...
I could give you a hand.
No.
I'll do the washing up.
Look, I've got an imbecile
to do that, thank you.
Hey!
Come on, leave the
stuff in there.
Jesus.
Remember when Dad was
there, I used to wash up.
It was his dream of having a
gaffe like this, wasn't it?
Was it?
All that simple stuff.
Liver, beans, and bangers.
He couldn't give it away.
Yeah, well I do all right
with it in a day's ...,
don't I?
And at night you do this.
Like a bistro.
Bistro.
I'll knock you one in a minute.
It's fucking Iranian, isn't it?
Pizzas and curly
sausage, gourmet pizza
with smoked salmon.
...sour cream.
The yuppies love it.
Pesto calzone for table four.
What did happen to your nose?
I met this bird.
Her old man was giving
her a bit of a hard time.
He was going to knack
her with a brick.
You just had to stick
your nose in, didn't you?
I just told him to pack it in.
Oh good plan, Ray.
I'm sure that worked a treat.
Jesus.
When you going to learn?
What was I supposed to do?
It's not your problem.
It's her problem.
Everybody's got their own
problems in this life.
Everyone has got a hand of
card that they're dealt.
And if someone's got a bad
card, you don't go and pick
out their bad card, do you?
You don't believe me, do you?
You've got your own
bad cards, mate.
All right?
Night.
Night.
See you in the morning.
Night, Mandy.
She your girlfriend, then?
She's my waitress.
You given her a tickle yet?
I never mix business
with pleasure, Ray.
You like her though, don't you?
I don't dislike her.
You're fond of her as a person.
I'm not not fond of her.
She's just staff.
Seems a bit unnatural
to me, that's all.
What's unnatural about it?
I just don't fancy
her that's all.
No, I mean, I'm here now.
I could work for you.
You can trust me.
I can trust her.
I wouldn't trust
that kitchen hand.
He looks like a
lazy prick to me.
Here you are, Ray.
What's this?
Money.
You can go and see
that woman tomorrow.
Oh, well, if you don't want it.
Ray, Ray.
Sorry.
Don't like those.
Give me the shakes.
Can't change unless you
try them properly, can you?
And they make my muscles stiff.
They really slow me down.
Well maybe you
need slowing down.
Well maybe you need speeding up.
Laura!
Laura!
Here.
Is this what you wanted?
Fuck off.
Well, where am I supposed to go?
A fucking youth hostel?
Catch!
Fucking bitch!
Stupid cow.
Laura, Laura, Laura, Laura!
Get off me!
Hello.
Hi.
Can I get a pint
of lager, please?
How much is that?
Is there anybody sitting there?
Does it look like
anybody is sitting there?
Can I sit there?
It's nice here.
All my friends come here.
They're not here at
the moment though.
Do you fancy a drink.
What I fancy is
to be left alone.
I don't want to talk to anybody.
I don't want to drink with
anybody, smile at anybody,
play let's get to know
each other with anybody.
I don't want to know.
I'm in a bad mood.
Why did you come here then?
Because I'm in a bad mood.
You all right?
I'm up the duff,
if you must know.
Anything else you'd like to ask?
I'm surprised people still
want to have babies these days.
Seems such an old fashioned
mumsy thing to do.
No, hold on.
What is the matter with you?
I just want to talk to you.
What about?
I don't know.
I just want to talk to you.
I want to get to know you.
You don't get to know
people by just walking
up to them in a pub and
talking absolute fucking
rubbish to them.
Yes, you do.
You have very beautiful eyes.
You don't give up, do you?
Not really, no.
Do you want a drink?
Vodka, double.
I'm Ray by the way.
Laura.
You know, you shouldn't be
smoking in your condition.
There's a lot of things
I shouldn't be doing.
Me too.
Personally I like to live as
if I'm going to die tomorrow.
You might do.
Can I have a feel?
I beg your pardon.
Here.
Look, I'm quite tired.
I'm going to go for a sleep now.
Oh, I hate sleeping.
It's boring.
Yes.
It is pretty boring.
I get nightmares.
It's probably because
I'm so intelligent.
What do you get
nightmares about?
Everything.
It's just your subconscious
sorting things out for you.
As long as you don't dream
your date then you're ok.
You're a good kisser.
Nice firm lips.
So, what shall we do now?
I'm not fucking
you, you realize.
It's out of the question.
I didn't ask you to fuck me.
I'm not fucking anybody
for the time being.
I don't want you to.
Fucking people isn't
the answer to anything.
I don't want to.
And I'm not... either.
I don't want to.
Well, now that we've got that
sorted out, I'm going to go.
Will I see you again?
What kind of a question is that?
It makes sense to me.
Giving up.
Fuck me.
It's...
No, it isn't.
I can tell.
How can you tell, you're numpty.
I've just got this feeling.
You don't believe in all
that bollocks, do you?
No.
They do.
They do it to show they
were here, that they exist.
Who?
Two pensioners with a plank?
See?
Two pensioners with
a plank were here.
It's fucking deadly.
Do you have any sea urchins?
Sea urchins.
I don't think so.
Thanks anyway.
Hello?
God, Ray.
Where are you?
Hastings.
Hastings?
What are you doing in Hastings?
I'm with that bird
I told you about.
Bird, what bird?
The one I told you about.
Oh, Jesus.
What's wrong?
She's just fast
work, that's all.
Yeah well, it's a
fast world, Pete.
Great.
Look, when are you coming home?
I don't know.
Maybe we'll come home tomorrow.
Maybe we'll come
home in two weeks.
Are you out of
your fucking mind?
Look, can I come and get you?
I can't hear you, Pete.
The pips have gone.
I've got no more change.
What did he say?
He said we could stay
as long as we like.
Do you always have to phone
him when you go somewhere?
No, He gets lonely.
Just ring him to
cheer him up a bit.
Why am I doing this?
Help keep your mind off things.
Really?
Well get out, go on, off it.
I'm letting you go.
Well, I can't do
anything right, can I?
Well, that's why
I'm letting you go.
Go on.
Now I'm doing his job.
Where's it going to end, hey?
You'll burn your fingers.
Wow.
Wow.
Now they know we're here.
You know what I'm thinking?
How could I possibly
know what you're thinking?
I'm thinking this is destiny.
I'm not being funny.
We met when we needed to meet.
Imagine if we'd never met.
Imagine if we'd each met
somebody else who we didn't
need to meet and we'd
spent the rest of our life
in a meaningless spiral of
mediocrity and disillusion,
never even aware of
each other, always
needing, but at the same time
always assuming that this was
as good as it gets,
that there's no cure,
that life's just
in black and white.
It's all repeats and the
fucking telly is broken anyway.
I did meet somebody else.
We thought we needed each other.
It's a sign.
What's it a sign of?
It's meaningful.
What does it mean?
I don't know.
I don't know what it means.
It's just meaningful.
Are you trying to
tell me something?
I just did.
And I told you, I
need to be on my own.
Why?
Because it's my destiny to be
moody and isolated sometimes
until I'm old and gray.
I wasn't asked me to marry me.
You never will if you don't
want to smack in the gums.
Kiss my eyes.
No, stop.
No keep going.
Here, on my mouth.
Now squash me, on top.
Why?
I want to fee your weight.
Like this?
Harder.
Squeeze the breath out of me.
Why?
It makes me feel safe.
Ow.
You're not very good
at this, are you.
Relax.
It's not a driving test.
Lower.
A bit higher.
Down a bit.
Just there.
You all right, man?
Hello.
This is exactly
what Dad used to do.
It's how he pissed
this place away.
He had a good thing going
here and he pissed it
away by drinking
and disappearing
and falling over everywhere.
Dad was a drunk.
That's what drunks do.
Is that how you want to end up?
Is it?
Because you never went through
with him what I went through.
You bought him out.
It was the one thing he loved
and you took it away from him.
I had no choice
Ray, and you know it.
He couldn't do it, could he?
You couldn't do it.
Well, could you?
Do I have to stand over you at
home, morning, noon, and night
every night for the rest of your
life and for the rest of mine?
I been looking for
those everywhere.
Haven't I got enough
to contend with.
Drugs are bad for you.
Everyone knows that, I'm
weaning myself off of them.
I'm going for a more
holistic approach.
You don't have to
worry about me.
I feel great.
I know.
I know, that's the trouble.
At least give him a chance.
Washing dishes is a lot more
complicated than it looks.
You got to be quick.
Letting stuff pile up, that
means I'm short of clean stuff.
Ok.
And you got to be
thorough and tidy.
No water on the floor.
Somebody sleep on their
bum and break their neck.
Ok.
And if I say I need
something in a hurry,
you drop what you doing
and you do it, all right?
And you're in charge of bread.
45 seconds in the oven
and you dump that in.
Ok.
And always listen
to the intercom.
It's a lot to remember, I know.
Ray, go down to the
cellar, fetch us six bottles
of Bulgarian and six Bordeaux.
We're not doing the
Bulgarian anymore.
Says who?
Doesn't go with
the cock-a-leekie.
It goes with the coq au vin.
Well, it's Romanian now.
Oh, big difference.
Coq au vin is so cafe.
Can't we think
of something else?
Basil risotto with
goat cheese bruschetta.
Scallops with avocado
couscous and fresh fennel?
Anything else?
I just thought you
might fancy a change.
Change is as good as a rest.
I just thought I'd
run it up the flagpole.
See what salutes.
And if it's not
broke, don't fix it.
Yeah, but you can't make an
omelet without cracking eggs.
I know how to make
an omelet, Ray.
Too many cooks spoil the broth.
No.
Just get downstairs, will you?
Everyone's a comedian.
I'm sorry.
I was only trying to help.
I know.
I know.
I appreciate it.
In fact, up to a
point, I like it.
Insecure, overweening pride.
Six letters, ending in I-S.
Penis.
That's five letters.
Make yourself at home.
Thanks.
Oh, no, go ahead.
No skin off my nose,
Do you miss her?
Uh, no, no.
But I never really
missed her, no.
Thanks.
She divorced me.
You missed Ray though.
Yes, you did.
I think you did.
He missed you.
Yeah, well, I missed
him for a while.
God knows why.
Then do you miss
your husband at all?
Well, he's not my
husband anymore, so no.
I miss having someone
to talk to sometimes.
I miss, I miss knowing someone
so well that, well, you
don't have to talk.
Don't have to talk.
That's true, isn't it?
Like you and Ray.
You're very lucky.
I suppose so.
You're different,
now he's around.
More fun.
More funny.
...funny strange or funny ha, ha?
Just more, more dynamic.
Dynamic?
Am I?
You're just different.
I think it's sweet.
So are you.
I mean, no.
I mean, I feel different.
I feel better.
Everything to your satisfaction?
Laura, this is Pete.
Hello.
Hello.
Laura.
Oh, dear.
Do you want to have a drink?
No, I'm all right, thanks.
You all right?
Look, I should be going.
No.
It's all right.
This isn't what it looks like.
So now you're having
girlfriends over, are you?
So do you.
I'm allowed to have
friends over, Ray.
I don't ask much, but I do
ask for a bit of sensitivity.
But no, it's always the
same with you, right?
Just me, me, me, me.
And never put anything
on top of your cheese
or it dries it out, all right?
When you're finished,
take one of these.
You know, I don't like it.
It's all or nothing,
Sunshine, all right?
Do you want it or not?
Lovely.
Thanks.
Two salmon and asparagus
pizzas for Table 10.
You know there's
two bases made up.
Why don't you start them off?
I can finish them later.
You have to try harder
than that, Sunshine.
There you go.
Just what the doctor ordered.
You said it, mate.
That's really good, that.
- There you go.
- Thanks.
Enjoy your meal.
Ray.
Yes, boss?
You're scraping your
plates, aren't you?
Yes, boss.
Before you wash
them, you scrape them.
All right.
Right, boss.
And don't call me boss.
Right, boss.
Hang on.
What the fuck is this about?
Why you do these things, hey?
You know I'm going
to go berserk.
Fuck me.
Have I got a giant red
button right here, with push
me on it in big white letter.
I've worked with some
fucking boners in my time,
but this is just vandalism.
God knows what's going to
happen to those poor people
when they get home.
Well you don't mind
me taking them, do you?
That's different.
How is that different?
...deserting me.
Oh, right.
You won't give it
to customers No, no.
You won't give it to them
because they're real people.
You know your trouble, Ray,
is you're just fucking selfish.
You're fucking selfish.
Oh, am I?
Well, maybe my wife
left me because I'm
the selfish kind who
worked his balls off
and I never went home.
Hey?
Yeah, yeah.
You were.
And when I tried to save
Dad and his dirty old cafe,
I was just being selfish.
You were.
I rebuilt that place.
You know, I'd have fucked off
years ago if I'd had a choice.
Yeah, I'd have pissed
off to the seashore
with some bird I met in a pub.
I'd have loved it.
Why didn't you, Pete?
Because it wouldn't
helped Dad, would it?
Well, help me!
I am helping you!
I just don't know whether I'm
...with you, you know.
I mean, is it you?
Is this what you think of me?
Or is it... Is it this?
Maybe there's nothing
wrong with you.
Maybe you're just
like this, hey?
Maybe it's your personality.
Maybe you're just a wanker.
Well, say what's on your
mind, Pete, don't be shy.
I mean, if it's all too
much trouble for you,
you only have to say it.
I'll take that as a yes then.
I'll make a deal with you.
You do what you're
supposed to do
and I'll help you find
another job and somewhere
to live, all right?
I've already found somewhere.
What will she think of all this?
It was her idea.
Oh, well, I mean, you've known
her for the whole of two weeks.
How well do you know her, Ray?
How well does she know you?
Does she know everything?
Are you going to tell her?
Just behave yourself, all right?
You know, make yourself
useful about the place.
Ok.
Don't fuck up, all right?
And if you have any bother,
you know where I am, don't you?
Oh, hello.
Hello.
Hello.
I've brought my things,
my worldly goods.
I see.
I see you have.
We weren't sure if you were
sure what time to expect us.
We can always come back.
You're a bit confused.
We're confused.
No.
There's not a real
problem, is there?
You, you got the wrong day.
I got the wrong day.
I got the wrong day.
Absolutely.
I remember now.
Well, come inside then.
You silly fucking...
Sausage?
Silly sausage.
Yes.
What are we like.
Feel.
He'll be wanting to
come out soon enough.
He'll be walking
about and talking
and expecting to learn things.
What am I going to teach him?
I dreamt I already had it.
It was.
Tiny it was about
the size of my thumb,
and it was blue and white
and red and made of plastic.
And it had a red
light on it that
told you it was still alive.
And I worked out that the
light meant how warm it was.
And I got worried that I
wasn't keeping it warm enough.
And I went to the pub
and when I got back,
the light had gone out.
It was dead.
I was so ashamed.
Which pub?
You're not even listening to me.
You're bonkers.
You're bonkers.
You're bonkers.
Look at you.
Your lights are on and
there's nobody within miles.
I'm serious.
So am I. You popped your cork.
You flipped your lid.
You are definitely off
the stock, as they say.
Oh, you think so, do you?
I do, yes.
Why else would you
put up with me?
I don't know.
You're a fool.
Give us a kiss.
Pete?
Oh, my god.
What have you done?
It's Ray's.
Realistic, isn't it?
Why so miserable?
He's gone.
Gone where?
Gone to live with
his girlfriend.
So, that's good, isn't it?
That's all medication
does for you.
Voices I bet you.
What are you whittering about?
I never even realized.
I was watching that.
I love watching you dress.
It's one of my most favorite
things, watching you dress.
Ray.
For fuck's sake.
Why do you listen to
this bollocks anyway?
I fancy a swim.
If it clears up later,
we can go to the Lido.
Hello.
What?
No.
No.
Look, I said no.
Who was that?
Take a wild guess.
What did you do that for?
It's time he learned.
Hello.
Has there been any change
in your circumstances?
Yeah.
I changed address.
Please fill out the form.
Put your new address.
Are you on housing benefit?
Yeah, why?
Are you two together?
No.
You're not together?
If you're living together,
you must fill out
a form to claim as a couple.
Fill out this form if you're
on any other benefits.
Is your partner on benefits?
Wait a moment.
Excuse me.
What did you do that for?
Didn't you see the way
she was staring at me?
She wasn't staring at you.
She was staring at me.
I hate it when they do that.
I'm fucking sick of it.
Sick of what?
Everything.
Ray.
Ray.
I'm hearing things.
Sounds, voices, whispering.
It's just the traffic.
People, like ghosts.
And the houses, they're talking
to me, asking me questions.
It's just the neighbors.
Somebody's telly.
I'm going mad.
How are you feeling?
What if something
happens, you die before me.
Don't say that.
Nothing is going to happen.
And this is going to
stop this as well.
Why?
Because I want you
to be old and wise.
I'll never be old and wise.
Old and stupid, maybe.
Look, you've just got to have
a little bit of faith in things.
It's what my mom used to say.
She wasn't a believer,
but she sometimes
used to read the Bible.
Said it reminded her
of happier times.
What do you do to remind
yourself of happier times?
These are happy times.
I'm happier than I've ever been.
See?
I know how to get you better.
Ray, I think you should spend
some more time with Pete.
He's your family and you
haven't seen him in weeks.
I mean, we can't spend
all our time cooped up
together like battery chickens.
You're the only one
who understands me.
Don't answer it.
Hello?
No.
No.
How many times do
I have to tell you?
Ok.
Ok.
Hang up.
Hang up!
He wants me to meet
up with him tonight.
What are you going to do?
He's going to find
out sooner or later.
Hello, Pete?
Hello?
Ray?
Ray, is that you?
Ray.
I just wanted to talk to you.
Wanted to see how you are.
...Yeah, me too, Ray, me too.
Look, why don't you come
over for Sunday dinner, hey?
Bring Laura.
You're always welcome.
Be really nice, Pete, yeah.
So you're all right?
No, no, I'm... yeah,
I'm fine, I'm fine.
Really, yeah.
Ta.
What did he say?
He wants to go back to Glasgow
with him for fuck's sake.
What did you say?
What do you think I said?
What are you thinking?
For fuck's sake.
I would sooner go to the moon.
Oh, my god!
What happened to you?
Hello.
I thought you'd
been hit by a car.
What are you doing?
It's an experiment.
Where's your clothes?
I don't need clothes.
I'm invisible.
Ray, cover yourself up.
You see the way people
are looking at me.
They're looking at me
like I shouldn't be here.
They're looking
straight through me.
But this means I'm here.
It's a spiral.
Oh, and well, look.
That's the direction of
the spiral, obviously.
What are you looking at?
Get inside.
Come on.
That's the thing.
They can't hear me either.
Get inside.
When I'm depressed,
I become invisible.
Maybe not.
I'm calling a doctor.
I don't like doctors.
They make me nervous.
I fancy a bath.
I'm stuffed like a pig.
I'm absolutely...
Mandy, have another drink.
I'll even pour it for you.
You can coach me
on my technique.
You don't need any coaching.
I think you've had
enough for one day.
That's where you're
wrong, Pete old boy.
I haven't even started.
Thank you.
That was delicious.
My compliments to the chef.
So when is it due?
Sorry?
I couldn't help
noticing you showing.
Sorry, am I being nosy?
In December.
Just in time for Christmas.
Is it kicking yet?
So now we're
talking about babies?
If it kicks you, kick it back.
Give yourself a
do-it-yourself abortion.
Save yourself the agony.
I mean, I'm not being funny,
but you should see the father.
Christ knows what's
going to hatch.
Ray!
Fuck.
She's having a baby
for Christ's sake.
Have you consider
the implications?
I tell you what.
Why don't you
consider them for me?
Take a picture.
It lasts longer.
You leave her alone.
What have you done to him, hey?
You cast a spell on him?
What don't you mind
your own business?
When's it due?
Is it kicking yet?
Am I being nosy?
Yes, you are, you
stupid fucking tart.
How dare you?
Well, you must be.
No one's shagged him
in at least five years.
Enough.
Yeah, you're right Ray.
It's not my business and I
can't make it my business.
Now get out.
Hey?
Go on.
Piss off.
Just let him go.
I'm sure it's for the best.
How do you know
what's for the best.
Nobody knows what's best.
Haven't got a fucking clue.
It's just your
opinion, isn't it?
You're just guessing.
It's a fucking mystery and it's
ugly and complicated and scary.
Nobody has the answers
and the only way
to deal with it
is to hit a bottle
and panic and lose my shit and
that's the way it should be.
Would you at least
think about it?
Where are you going?
I'm not going anywhere.
Look, I know I'm in trouble.
I can tell things
are going wrong.
But I love you.
What the fuck is going on here?
Who is this?
Ah, Christ.
Don't you ever give up, pal?
Hey, hey, what the
fuck is he doing?
Huh?
He's fucking idiotic.
Now you know what
happened last time.
Don't get me angry
here, pal, ok?
Look.
What did you think was
going to happen here, huh?
You think she's going
to settle down with you?
Have a family?
He's a nobody.
You're nobody here.
Is this what you want?
Master and Mrs. Fucking Nobody
and all their little fucking
nobodies, yeah?
You can be quite funny
when you want to be.
I'm a fucking scream
when I want to be.
You're fucking mad.
Period.
What's he doing, huh?
Leave.
I've had enough of this.
Leave.
Oh!
Is he going to be all right?
He's ok.
Yeah, he's going to be fine.
It just looks really bad.
Are you ok?
I'm fine.
He didn't mean it.
Ray!
Ray!
Come on.
Stay in the car.
Got a light?
Jesus, what are you doing?
This is where it all
happened, isn't it?
This is where the
wheels fell off the bus.
This is my work, Ray.
All right?
This is my life.
Yeah, and Dad's life before you.
And my life once.
You're ill.
All right?
You were sick.
Remember?
Yeah, I suppose I was.
After I killed Mom.
What?
Well, that's what
people think, isn't it?
That's what Dad thought.
She died of breast cancer, mate.
It was nothing to
do with you, was it?
I drove Dad to drink.
Because of me.
No, he was always like that.
He couldn't make
this place work.
It was just circumstance.
Yeah, but you
could, couldn't you?
Well, you never missed a trick.
What if something
happens to you?
Nothing's going to
happen, all right?
Now come on.
Things move by themselves.
Things change color.
But only when I'm here.
I make things happen.
Stop fucking pissing about, Ray!
It's a sign.
What's it a sign of?
I don't know.
It's a sign.
Fuck.
Jesus.
Fuck.
Just one more time.
No.
Just to be sure.
Fuck.
Ray, come on.
Shh.
Ray.
Shh.
I'm concentrating.
What's it you're hearing, hey?
What's it say to you?
All kinds of things.
Ray!
I can't stand this any longer!
They say some pretty
weird things to me.
Fucking spooky things.
I know, Ray.
But listen.
You got to listen to me.
What do you think it is?
Do you think it's God?
I don't believe in God.
Well, neither do I.
You know what would
have made me happy?
I have no idea.
If I'd turned out
a bit more like you.
At least you can cook.
You know what I think?
I think I've wasted my life.
Ray, don't fucking do that!
Please!
I expect this will be the only
cooking you ever see me do.
Ray!
Go fuck yourself!
Enough!
Enough!
Last one!
Fuck off.
Ray, don't.
Ray.
Tell me you can see me, Pete.
What?
Tell me I'm here.
What's going to happen to me?
Nothing.
Nothing's going to happen.
All right?
Nothing ever?
What do you want to happen?
Don't want to go
back to hospital.
All right.
It's all right.
Yeah.
It's all right now.
Isn't it?
Yeah, I know it's all right.
I know.
It just doesn't seem all right.
Hello.
Hello.
How are you feeling?
I'm all right.
You look tired.
I'm all right.
It's a nice room.
Yeah, they let me paint it.
Used to be pink.
Pink is supposed
to cheer you up,
I find it a bit
depressing really.
Can you come for a walk?
I'm going to go home
to have the baby.
With Dave?
Don't be stupid.
Have you seen him?
He's been seen staggering
around various Glasgow pubs,
ranting about the
horror of London.
Will you come back?
Not for a while, no.
Not until you've had the baby
and you feel a bit better.
Not for a while.
Not for a long while, no.
How long?
I can't say exactly.
Roughly.
I don't know, Ray.
You got no idea at all.
A few months?
How many months?
Six?
Six.
Yeah, maybe six.
Six months ok.
Six months, exactly or less?
It's just a guess, Ray.
Don't be upset.
I'm not upset.
I just never met
anybody like you before.
You will again, one day.
No.
I don't think so.
Onions.
Always fry them in butter,
especially for soups.
Well, we've got a tin
of soups in here anyway,
but if you want to
make pasta sauce,
always use butter or oil.
Laura always used to use butter.
And always put your onions
well in before your garlic,
all right?
Garlic burns too quick.
Onions before, got it.
And never use tins of...
They're too watery.
Laura always bought tinned.
Well, it's not advisable.
She get off all right?
Yeah, yeah, she's gone.
Took her to the station.
What do you want to put in now?
Mushrooms.
She was a lovely girl,
wasn't she, Pete?
Very beautiful, very special.
Everything about her
was just special.
And you know, just very
thoughtful and nice.
Sure she's thinking
about you now.
I'm sure you'll never stop
thinking about each other.
No.
Happens to the best
of us, you know?
You're on your own for a while
and then you meet someone
and then you're on your
own again, you know?
Swings and roundabouts.
Come on, it's the basil now.
Always use more than
you think you'll need.
Doesn't grow on trees,
but use it like it does.
Be generous with it.
Like that?
Yeah, yeah.
Here you go.
Make sure it doesn't
stick to the edges.