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Walking Out (2017)
You have a good year?
Uh, yeah. Sure well, you sure grew some. This year we have a moose tag. A moose. Yeah. I got one picked out. A bull. I stalked him for two weeks. Up there. At the crazies. Way up. There's still plenty of time to scare up some grouse before dark. Come on, David. Put your legs into it. Let's go! We're burning daylight. Remember, David, what did I tell you about grouse? I don't know. Grouse are stupid and slow. Not like ducks or grebes. They even sound stupid. Not like a quail, huh? Come on. Let's hear your best quail. I really don't remember how. Of course you do. You were getting good at it last year. Louder. Louder. Loud enough for me to know where you are if we get separated. It's how hunters say, "I'm here" without tipping off the prey. Your mother. How is she? Uh, I don't know. She's... Alright. Are you friends with her? Am I friends with her? Um. Yeah. I guess. Is she still a beautiful lady? I don't know. What do you mean, you don't know? Of course you know. Yeah, she's still a beautiful lady, I guess. She tell you any messages for me? Yeah. She.. Said that I should.. I should send you her love. Well, thank you, David. That's kind of you to say. The next one's yours. We're not going home until you get your first bird. Now! Find him. Get behind him. Come on up on him. Come on up on him. You blinked. David! David! It's alright, relax and get your dinner. Come on. Breathe. Safety. Don't close your eyes. You can't quit. It's hard, I know. Then it gets easier. Alright? All of a sudden it gets very easy. It's not easy. It'll never be easy. You'll get a bird. I know you will. Just use your muscle memory. Easy, easy. You hit him. - You sure? - Yeah, I'm sure. You winged him. He faltered and dropped. I don't understand it. You crippled him. He couldn't have gone far. I probably just didn't hit him. You hit it, David. I don't know how you couldn't see that. You never leave what you shot behind. If you had a dog, we could find it right away. We had a dog when I was little. Why don't you have one now? Since you're.. You know... Already alone. Isn't that what dogs are for? I don't know what dogs are for, David. All I know is I don't give that much love to a creature who would only live a dozen or so years. That bird must have run off and hidden itself to die in the darkness. I'm sorry. You used to sleep like a puppy in the crook of my arm. I remember that day. It's like a memory of a memory. Yeah. That whole damn set-up was your mother's idea. She even got me to put gunk in my hair. That's a good picture of grandpa. - Did you take that? - Mm-hmm. You remember him at all? Your grandfather? I remember his funeral. Oh, wasn't his best day exactly. That's all I really remember about him. That and his face scratching me when he kissed me. Oh, yeah. - Sandpaper. - Yeah. He always smelt of pipe tobacco. Gunpowder. Jack pine. What about those moose? What about moose? Are they stupid and slow, like grouse? No. No, moose are different. They're regal. Up in Alaska they get so tall a grown man can walk under a moose's belly and never touch fur. Oh, yeah. You'll see. So... Why kill them then? If they're so... Royal? Well, they make 600 pounds of delicious meat. A winter's worth. It is way better than a Thanksgiving Turkey. I told mom I'd call her when I got here. Well, you won't find a signal up here. Should have called her from town. About time you cut loose from Katie's apron strings anyhow. What, so there's.. There's no way I can talk to her? Well, there's always the two-way in an emergency. Emergency. Are moose dangerous? They're no joke. Won't be like one of your asinine games. Can't start over at the first sign of trouble. This year we hunt big game. This year you'll get your first kill. David. Put that away. Well, put that damn toy away. I don't want to see it again. If I do, I'll smash it to smithereens. You wearing long Johns? It'll be freezing up above. Long Johns, wool socks, mittens. Mom went over that checklist you sent and doubled it. She remembers how cold it gets up here. Mittens. Mittens for her kittens. Here. Here's something she didn't double. That's simpler than the over-and-under you used yesterday. It's heavier. Packs a hell of a punch. This is the rifle I shot my first moose with when I was 14. Your grandfather gave me this gun. Safety. Click. It's not moving like those grouse though. Well, if we come up on that moose quiet like we're meant to, he won't be moving either. Be a tad bit bigger than a coffee can too. His heart's about the same size. Now breathe out slowly. You won't need that where we're going. What if it keeps snowing? Or we get lost? You worry too much. Like your mother. I'm just not used to being so.. Remote. Well, you're not remote. You're with me. And we are here. Just up that drainage. At the head of the creek. How far is it? Five miles, give or take. We won't barely break a sweat. Is that where you saw the moose? No. That's where I saw the Sheepman's hut. The moose is up further. How much further? All the way further. It's up on top. We have to sleep in a hut? Yeah. Why didn't we just bring a tent? Why should we haul a tent up there when we already have a perfectly good hut? I.. I don't want to sleep all squashed up next to you.. In a smelly Sheepman's hut. You just think what you'll tell those kids back in briar Meadow. Hm? How primal you'll feel knowing you came home from a good kill. I don't want to kill a moose. It's an old Sheepman's hut and it's near where we're going to hunt and I can fix it up dry and warm and good. I thought you might like that. I thought it might be more fun than a tent. But we don't have to do it, alright? We can drive back to town and buy a tent or I can drive you back to the cabin and we can hunt birds. Whatever you want to do. Or I can put you right back on a plane. One leaves every single day. No, I.. Want to. Are you sure? No. I just.. Just want to. Oh! Whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa. - You alright? - Yeah, I'm fine. - You okay? - Yeah. Who made this trail anyway? The Sheepman? No, deer and elk. They know the shortest way between the seasons. I thought you said the moose were above the hut. At the top. We have to be careful now. We may scare up a bear. - A bear? - Yeah. Dad, you didn't say anything about a bear. Yeah, there's no need to worry. Okay? You don't have to be faster than sir bear. Just faster than your old man. Come on. Come on. I don't think I am faster than my old man. You're stronger than you know. I know. I was you once. Yeah, well. I lose every race at school, so.. Well, they don't have actual bears out in Briarwood, Texas, now, do they? No. I'll put myself between you and any bear. I promise. So what's the story with the Sheepmen? Spaniards from near the border with France. They weren't wanted there so they migrated here in clans. Kept to themselves. Were quick with knives. Sometimes you can still find their sardine cans and snuff boxes. This was some kind of wild out here back then. Back then? Here's to the Sheepman. So far from home. Red Fescue. Crusted wheat grass. Cotton woods. Killdeer. Choke cherry. Kingfisher. Buffaloberry. Your grandfather always let me be fire master. He brought me up on this mountain when I was 14. Well, that was the last year he hunted big game.. First time I tasted whiskey. You want some? No. No. And I was the same age as you. Did you know he was 50 years older than me? And I'm almost 30 years older than you. And someday you'll have a son and you'll be 30 years older than him.. And you'll want so badly for him to know who you are that you could cry. You know? What do you know, David? What do you really know? Um.. Nothing much, I guess. Nothing much, I guess. I don't know what you want me to say. Why was it the last year he hunted? Grandpa Clyde? He was 64 damn years old.. But that wasn't the reason. We took a moose and a goat that year. God, that goat. Every inch of its hide was covered with ticks. I don't know why he quit. I'd say it was my mother dying so young. You know, I guess when death is in the air.. When a man feels himself getting older.. He didn't much want to kill anymore. And I was just then getting the taste for it. Out. Hey, dog. Cranes. Your mother loved them. Flying home. Later.. Years later he'd still go out after birds by himself. So he didn't stop hunting completely. He usually just went out and missed every shot on purpose. Rise and shine. Rise and shine. We're gonna get our moose today. You know, landmarks can save you. In case we get separated or if you get lost you go to high ground and find them. That bull pie snag with the forked crown? It marks the head of the creek valley. From there, we can wait and watch the whole Meadow without being seen. Is this.. This whole mountain's ours? Well, today, yes. We own it. I'm hunting moose with my father. I'm getting my moose today. Where's that bull pie? Over there. Let's go! Better wait for your old man. Sir moose comes once in the morning. And once again in the evening. Least that's what his tracks say. He may not come for hours. Or at all. You can't tell. If you could, it wouldn't be hunting it would be shopping. He may even know this is the last week of the season. So he may be on his guard and go somewhere less open to drink. But he may not be all that clever. He could make a mistake. Hey. David. What is that? An old male griz. - Are we gonna shoot him? - No. No. Why not? Because we don't want to. Because that's not hunting for the meat. That's hunting for the fear. - He saw us. - No, he smelled us. They can smell a hundred times better than we can. Let's take a look at that beaver pond. Stay close. Yeah, there's something rotten down here. Goddammit. Three days. Maybe four. Four days since what? Someone tracked me tracking it. Come closer, you need to know this. Fourteen, fifteen, sixteen seventeen, eighteen. Eighteen goddamn bullets. From some pissant's goddamn squirrel rifle. Why'd they do that? Goddamn asswipes! You think they're still around? I hope so. You hear me, you redneck fuckers? You goddamn hear me? Goddamn it. Goddamn it. Two weeks I follow you two mother-loving weeks. Get to know your habits your scent, your scat. Get taken by some goddamn tourist. Follow one's star, huh, Katie? Yeah, you bet you followed it. Right on back to Texas. You couldn't hack it here. What did you ever know about me anyhow? Did you ever even know me? Musk thistle. Milkweed. Kinnikinnick. Oh, Steller's Jay. Steller's Jay. Steller's Jay. You look like a damn koala bear. Or one of those cat posters? "Hang in there." Hang in there. That's funny. You sure as hell aren't gonna sneak up on anything clowning around like that.. Especially not the bull elk we've been following these last two miles. A bull elk? See these tracks along here? Walk one, wait five. Okay? Don't skyline yourself. Stay low. Shh. Sometimes the best stalking is standing still. Yeah. There we go. Shh, shh. Gun down, gun down. Put your gun down. Right on top of that ledge right there. - You see it? - Yeah. Yeah. Quiet yourself. You gotta be so quiet right now. It's way up close. - Alright? Just follow me. - Yeah. Alright. You got eyes on him? Alright, safety off, safety off. Now, deep breath now. Yeah. Just let it out as you squeeze the trigger. And then you pull it soft, but sure. Alright? You got it! Always approach from behind so he can't lash at you with his hooves. Get hold of his rack, in case he's not dead. Good. Get it out of your system. I need you to help me dress out our elk before nightfall. We'll drag him to cover and quarter sir elk in the morning. You ready to gut him? It's right here. Take it, David. Hm.. I guess I'm getting to be like your grandfather. He was a railroader. Route manager. After school I'd stop by the station. He'd be asleep, face flat on his desk timetables damp with drool. After we checked mom into St. Anne's for the last time it became chronic.. They called it narcolepsy. It got him his pension.. But I think he just didn't care much for being awake alone for so many empty hours. It used to be a tablespoon and then she wrote in half a tablespoon. Ah.. I still love that part. Stomach cancer. Your grandmother Chloe was only 51, David. And her last three years were total hell. Don't you dare let me go out that way. You never told me about your moose. You said you, you killed a moose when you were my age. Oh, yeah. For my birthday my father gave me the .30-30 I gave you. He said it was lucky. Said it was a man's gun. I was so sure I'd get my moose my hands were shaking. Your grandfather called it buck fever. My heart was in my throat. My mind was mush. What does a moose look like? Did you just ask me what a moose looks like? What's he gonna do when he sees me? What kind of thing is he gonna do? I need to know. Right. He's gonna be pitch-black, a little stupid. He might not even see you or he could charge you. Alright? Hey.. Just don't mix this up. I'm the ugly one in the Elmer-fudd hat. Alright? I was furious with myself. And I was sure that moose would be gone. You're done in. You'd best get to bed. Big day tomorrow. Let's go, David. Now. Come on. The snow is not our friend. I had half a mind at breakfast to let the bull lie and pack us straight down out of here. Probably smarter, easier in the long run. I could come back on snowshoes next week but by then it might be three feet deep and starting to drift. We'll get two quarters out today. It'll make it easier for you later. Is that alright? I expect I ought to leave it up to you. The snow... It's beautiful. If it stops soon, we're fine, but.. No, dad... I don't want you to do anything different because of me. I wanna know how to do this. David. Fresh kill. Here you go. That blood's still warm. What happened? It looks like the work of our griz. No. No, it must be a mother bear. She's got a cub with her. How can you tell? Do you see those smaller tracks? It looks to be wounded, dragging its feet. That might even be two cubs. Dad. What is that? Dad. Oh, Christ. That's one of the cubs. A yearling. Brains have been licked clean out. Come on, David. Now! Quick, follow me now. What? What? Good sight lines, all directions. The brains. Why did she do that? Oh, she didn't. Another bear got her cub. A male. She fought him for the body and won. If we see her, you pick the nearest big tree and you climb it, alright? If she comes up after you you stick your gun in her mouth and you fire. - Okay. - You can't miss. - Okay. - You got it? Yeah. - Is your rifle cocked? - Uh, hang on. Cock it. Put on the safety. Yeah, we'll make fast work of Mr. elk and be headed home. Hey. Eating snow takes more energy than it gives you. That's surefire dehydration. I'm thirsty. Dad. Alright. Alright. Why don't you fill our canteens? It's heavy work hauling meat. You stay where I can see you. David! David! Aah! Aah! Get up, David! Grab hold! You climb! That sow, she's gonna come back for her cub. - Now, come on! - Dad. Climb as high as you can. Come on! - David, take this. - Ah.. Dad, I can't hold on to the tree and the gun. Dad. - David. - Dad, I can't do it. - David, take it. - Dad. No, dad. - I can't breathe, dad. - Hurry! Dad, I can't hold on to the.. Ah! Dad! Dad. Dad! Dad! - Uh.. - Dad! Dad! Dad, the bear! Come on, dad, get up. Get up, dad. Dad, the mama bear! Get up! Dad. Wake up! - Dad, I'm scared. - Alright, it's alright. We're both gonna bleed to death. Let me see your hand, David. I'm not gonna hurt you. Okay? How bad is the exit wound? It's bad. It's a really big hole. It's, it's a lot of blood. Tourniquet. It went through my knee. I'm not gonna be able to walk. Here. Help me get to that tree. - Come on. Here. - Ah! Come on. David, you can find your way back to the cabin. - You can. - Dad, no. Dad, I'm not leaving you. Alright, you listen. You listen carefully, alright? We don't have to worry about freezing. And your hand is gonna be alright, okay? The doctor will fix it up good as new. I promise you that. If I try to walk out on this leg it's gonna bleed and keep bleeding. I could bleed to death. You hear me? I'm staying here and burrowing in and you're walking out to get help. I'm sorry. It's what we have to do. You can't possibly get lost. Alright? Just follow that trail down the way we came up and you'll come to the Meadow and the pond and you point yourself toward that big pine with the forked crown. You remember? - Hey! - Yeah. - You remember? - Yeah. Alright. That way you'll find our creek. Now, you may not, you may not see it at first but you make yourself quiet and you'll hear it okay? You listen for running water. And once you find that, you follow it down you'll pass the Sheepman's hut. You'll come to the Land Rover. Dad, I've never driven a car. You haven't? No. That's okay. That's okay. Alright, it's simple. The clutch is the only hard part. You just have to learn... Dad, dad, dad. I.. I can't. Just up over that hump and it's all downhill, alright? Come on. - Ah! - Come on. Dad, come on. Dad. Hand me your rifle. The lucky one. Click. The safety. Remember? - Click. - Alright. I should have made sure. You must always make sure. Come on. Damn. This crutch is useless. Useless! You'll have to drag me. Okay, we can, we can make some kind of sled. A sled? Yes, a sled, a goddamn sled, David. Okay, well, just, just tell me what to do and I'll do it. I'm pretty good at making things. No, no, no. Ah, it'd take too long. We have no rope, no runners. What we could cobble together won't skid for shit. We'll lose too much time. I can carry you. It's the one thing I'm good at when they make us work out. Dead lift. Dead lift? That's pretty funny. - I can do it. - Alright. Gravity's on our side. Yeah. I never would have thought of it but your dead lift may just save you. Save us, dad. Yeah. - You ready? - Yeah, I'm ready. Okay. Three, two, one. Ah, god! Okay. - Ooh. - Okay. Okay. Okay. - Are you okay? - Yeah. Whoa! We'll stop for a while and let you rest. Alright, you can set me down here. You can set me down, David. I get it. No resting. No talking. You're not gonna get your first kill. Not this time around. That's okay. Next year. Just tell me about yours. Mine? Your first kill. Your moose. Yeah. Sir moose. Where was I? Stuck in the muck. I was sure that moose would be gone but there it was, bigger than life. The damn thing honked like 11 elephants in a circus-train fire. I thought it was charging at me but it was heading for the river. I was as alive as I've ever been. - You okay? - Yeah. - You okay? - Yeah, I'm alright. I'm alright. Oh, that's not good. Not good at all. We'll rest now. - I'm not tired, dad. - We'll rest. - I can keep going. - We'll rest. I'm tired. Yeah. To get off this mountain.. We're gonna have to feed you. It should cut easy. We're not gutting him. We just want his belly meat. Alright. Alright. Give me that knife. There. Eat it. The fat too. Especially the fat. Now we'll cook the rest further on. I don't wanna build a fire here and taunt mama griz. There you go. Good. Baby-bear Sushi. It's getting cold. Bitch cold. Come on. Let's go before your sweat freezes. - Are we at the hut? - No. We're not even at the Meadow. You're shivering, dad. We need to build a fire. - A fire. - Yeah. - Before dark. - Yeah. Dad. Dad. The, uh, the sky's clearing up. Why? Yeah. Yeah, it's clearing up. Here you go. Thanks. Good as any brisket in Texas? It's better. Hm.. Dad? Click. Click. Click. Click. Dad? Dad? Dad, dad, what's happening? Are you choking? Dad? Dad, what's wrong? - You're scaring me, dad. - I'm cold. I'm so cold. Okay. You're okay, dad. You're okay. You're okay. You can't die on me, dad. You can't die on me, dad. You can't die on me. You can't. You can't. You can't die on me. You can't. You can't die on me. You can't. Meadow. Pond. Snag. Trail. Hut. Creek. Land Rover. Meadow. Pond. Snag. Trail. Hut. Creek. Land Rover. Road. Cabin. Meadow. The Meadow. But where is the beaver pond? Where's the beaver pond? The pond, dad. Do you see it? Yes. A bull pine. The snag, dad, the snag. I can't tell if it's the right one. I don't know where the pond is. I... I don't know which way down is. I don't know where the canyon ends. There. That way. Are you sure? Yeah. Yeah. Okay. Okay. Okay, just talk to me, dad. Just tell me what I need to do. You're doing what needs doing. Finish your story, dad. Oh. You need to know this. You need to know. Sir moose, he knew he'd be safe if he could cross the river.. But the current was heavy. He was swept within 20 yards of my father. My father said he never saw more personality come into the face of a wild animal. He said that he and the mountain were one. Hey! I wasn't gonna let him get away. I got him! I got him! - What are you doing? - I got him! I got him! What do you think you're doing? What are you doing? Why didn't you shoot him? You had him dead to rights. That's because he looked me in the eye. He knew I could kill him, but I couldn't take him. The river was gonna take him. What you did.. That isn't hunting, Cal. That's killing. That was the last day my father and I hunted together. I should have known better. I should have known. I should have known. I never killed another animal I didn't need for meat. I'm sorry, David. Shh. Dad. We never should have gone back for that elk. We'll get to the tree and the creek. - Yeah. - Yeah. Then we can talk some more, okay? Yeah, yeah. Yes. The bull pine. Is that it, dad? Is that gonna lead us to the creek? Just talk to me, dad. I can't find it. I've crossed the goddamn Meadow I found the goddamn tree I can't find the creek, dad. It's okay, dad. We'll just, we'll just keep going, right? I get it. We'll just.. We'll just keep going. Running water. Okay, walk one.. Wait five. Quiet yourself. Just breathe. Aah! Aah! Okay. No, no, no, no, no. Oh, okay. Come on, David. Come on. Oh, shit. You can't possibly get lost. You can't possibly get lost. Landmarks. Landmarks. Go to high ground and find 'em. Alright. Go to high ground. That's.. That's the wrong creek. This is the wrong creek going the wrong way. Ours ran to the right. This one's going to the left. I know that much. I don't care. This will lead us to the Shepherd's hut right, dad? Or to a river? All water leads to water. All rivers lead to men. Yeah. We'll follow the creek then. At least it knows where it's going. Hey, dad. Wake up. Come on. Dad, dad. Dad. Here. Come on. Here. Come on. There you go. Okay, just chew on it. Okay? Just chew. Just chew. Chew. Dad. Dad, come on. You gotta eat, dad. Okay? Come on. Here. Come on. No. That's good. Hey, dad. Don't... don't you worry. We'll make it ho... home. I'll get you home. I promise you. I promise. I promise. See that sky there? That's, that's tomorrow's sky. Yes. Cold tonight and, and clear tomorrow. It's gonna be, it's gonna be.. It's gonna be bitch cold tonight. It's, it's gonna be bitch cold. Just, just, just.. Here. This is yours. All of it. It only forever belongs to you. Hope you're hungry. We're cooking elk steaks. Our elk. How's your hand? Hm. Uh, son.. Love. It's so cold. It's so cold. Burning daylight. I'm burning daylight. Yes. Best get a move on. I said I'd get a grouse and I did. I'm damn sure I did. We had a, uh, a Land Rover.. Parked somewhere, but.. I can't find it. This is my father. Oh! I've got you. We need a doctor. A man's been shot. Yes, it's bad. That's right. Very end of river road. Thank you. Hey. Here. Drink this. Slowly. - He what? - Carried him out. "Carried him out?" - On his back. I saw it. - How could he? I don't know, I suppose he couldn't.. But he did. I'm sorry, son. I'm gonna have to take a look at you. What's your name, son? David. David, I'm sorry. Your father is dead. He's been dead for some time. Probably since early this morning. I know. I know that. |
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