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Western Stars (2019)
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Western Stars is a 13-song meditation on the struggle between individual freedom and communal life. There are two sides of the American character. One is transient, restless, solitary. But the other is collective and communal, in search of family, deep roots, and a home for the heart to reside. These two sides rub up against one another, always and forever in everyday American life. The barn. We've got a 100-year-old barn on our property built in the late 1800s, and the hayloft is simply a spiritual space. It has a high cathedral ceiling that used to be packed with enough winter hay to reach from the floor to the roof. Since we've had the place, we've held barn dances, weddings, harvest parties up there. So it's a space filled with the best kind of ghosts and spirits. When we knew we were going to filmWestern Stars, due to the instrumentation, I knew we'd need some place that could fit a 30-piece orchestra. Our barn is a structure that speaks to you. Its natural beauty, the artistry of its construction, the aged wood. It's like a fine instrument itself. And it sounds good. It's just got soul. So for a few days, we got to play for a few friends and entertain the horses down below. So come on in, 'cause we're about to start our tale with a man just standing by the roadside. To having a great time. Thumb stuck out as I go And I'm just travelin' Up the road Well, maps don't do much For me, friend I follow the weather And the wind I'm hitch hikin' All day long Got what I can carry In my song I'm a rolling stone Just rolling on Catch me now 'Cause tomorrow I'll be gone Family man gives me a ride Got his pregnant Sally At his side Yes, indeed, sir Children are a gift Well, thank you kindly For the lift Well, I'm hitch hikin' All day long Trucker gears His engine down Says, "Climb on up, son I'm highway bound" Well, dashboard picture Of a pretty girl I'm ridin' high On top of the world I'm hitch hikin' All day long Gearhead in a souped-up '72 Wants to show a kid Just what this thing'll do Telephone poles and trees Go whizzin' by Well, thank you, pal She sure can fly Hey, I'm hitch hikin' All day long Well, I'm hitch hikin' All day long Hey, I'm hitch hikin' All day long Cars. This is my 19th album and I'm still writing about cars. Writing about the people in 'em, anyway. Why? I don't know. I guess the car remains a powerful metaphor for me. We still live a lot of our lives here in America in cars... just trying to get from one place to another, from one place to another. Now, I suppose 40 years ago, they were a potent metaphor for open roads, freedom. Today, not so much. At best, they're a metaphor for movement. When we're in a car, we can feel like we're always moving forward, over the rise, around the bend, into the future. It can settle the spirit sometimes. But are we moving forward? A lot of the time, we're just moving. It's the same sad story Love and glory Goin' 'round and 'round It's the same old cliche A wanderer on his way Slippin' from town to town Some find peace here On the sweet streets The sweet streets of home Where kindness falls And your heart calls For a permanent place Of your own I'm a wayfarer, baby I drift from town to town When everyone's asleep And the midnight bells sound My wheels are hissin' Up the highway Spinning 'round and 'round You start out slow In a sweet little bungalow Something two can call home Then the rain comes fallin' The blues come calling You're left With a heart of stone Some folks are inspired Sitting by the fire Slippers tucked Under the bed When I go to sleep I can't count sheep For the white lines In my head I'm a wayfarer, baby I roam from town to town When everyone's asleep And the midnight bells sound My wheels are hissin' Up the highway Spinning 'round and 'round Where are you now? Where are you now? Where are you now? Come on! I'm a wayfarer, baby I roam from town to town When everyone's asleep And the midnight bells sound My wheels are hissin' Up the highway Spinning 'round and 'round I'm a wayfarer, baby I'm a wayfarer, baby I'm a wayfarer, baby Wayfarer, baby - I'm a wayfarer, baby - Wayfarer, baby - I'm a wayfarer, baby - Wayfarer, baby - I'm a wayfarer, baby - Wayfarer, baby - I'm a wayfarer, baby - Wayfarer, baby - I'm a wayfarer, baby - Wayfarer, baby Come on, Charlie! Change. How do you change yourself? I've spent my 10,000 hours, and then some, learning my musical craft. But I've spent a lot more time than that, some 35 years, trying to learn how to let go of the destructive parts of my character. They did not go easily into that good night. For a long time, if I loved you and if I felt a deep attachment to you, I would hurt you if I could. It was a sin, and I still have days when I struggle with it. But I've gotten better. Through the love of my family, my good friends, I've learned how to love. And to be compassionate with those close to me, and to try and live with some small honor. "Tucson Train" is about a guy who's trying to follow his better angels, working in the sun for a new start. He's trying to change. -One, two, one, two, three, four. I got so down And out in Frisco Tired of the pills And the rain I picked up Headed for the sunshine I left a good thing behind Seemed all of our love Was in vain Now my baby's coming in On the Tucson train I come here Lookin' for a new life One I wouldn't Have to explain To that voice That keeps me awake at night When a little peace Would make everything right If I could just Turn off my brain Now my baby's coming in On the Tucson train Well, we fought hard Over nothin' We fought Till nothin' remained I've carried that nothin' For a long time Now I carry My operator's license And spend my days Just runnin' this crane My baby's coming in On the Tucson train Hard work'll clear Your mind and body The hard sun Will burn out the pain If they're lookin' for me Tell 'em, buddy I'm waitin' Down at the station Just prayin' To the five-fifteen I'll wait All God's creation Just to show her A man can change Now my baby's coming in On the Tucson train On the Tucson train On the Tucson train Waitin' on the five-fifteen Here she comes Western Stars is the heart of the record. It was my reference point when I was searching for who my character was and where he, I, was headed. You've got a fading Western film star watching the world change around him. Watching it pass him by. He's left doing Viagra commercials, and weekend rodeoing in the desert, east of Los Angeles, with some Mexicancharros who've come across la frontera. He lives in the Hollywood Hills, frequents LA watering holes, where he's the oldest guy in the room. But he's still got an inner compass that doesn't allow him to bullshit himself. He knows exactly who he is, what he's done, the good, the bad and the ugly of it. It's his small redemption... and he's made a relative peace with himself. He's losing old friends quickly, a lot of empty boots. But he wakes up in the morning, glad that his are still on. I wake up in the morning Just glad my boots are on Instead of empty In the whispering grasses Down the Five At Forest Lawn On the set The makeup girl brings me Two raw eggs And a shot of gin Then I give it all up For that little blue pill That promises to bring it All back to you again Yeah, ride me down easy Ride me down easy, friend Tonight, the western stars Are shining bright again Here in the canyons Above Sunset The desert Don't give up the fight A coyote with someone's Chihuahua in its teeth Skitters 'cross my veranda In the night Some lost sheep From Oklahoma Sips her mojito Down at the Whiskey Bar Smiles and says She thinks she remembers me From that commercial With the credit card Hell, these days There ain't no more Now there's just again Tonight, the western stars Are shining bright again Sundays I take my El Camino Throw my saddle in and go East to the desert Where the charros They still ride and rope Our American brothers Cross the wire and bring The old ways with them Tonight, the western stars Are shining bright again Once I was shot By John Wayne Yeah, it was Towards the end That one scene's bought me A thousand drinks Set me up and I'll tell it For you, friend Here's to the cowboys And riders in the whirlwind Tonight, the western stars Are shining bright again And the western stars Are shining bright again Tonight The riders on Sunset Are smothered In the Santa Ana winds And the western stars Are shining bright again - Come on And ride me down easy Ride me down easy, friend Tonight, the western stars Are shining bright again I woke up this morning Just glad my boots were on Saturday night, let's rock and roll! You've got to have a Saturday night. I used to take my bike up into the Santa Monica Mountains, where there was a weekend club. Hundreds of bikes, a live band, folks dancing from afternoon till night. I'd have a few tequilas, and watch the parade. One, two, three, four! There's a place Out on the highway 'Cross The San Bernardino line Where the truckers And the bikers Gather every night At the same time At seven, the band comes in And locals Dance the night away At Sleepy Joe's Cafe I drive on down From the big town Friday When the clock strikes five As the red sun Sets in the ocean I start to come alive Summer girls In the parking lot Slap on their makeup And they flirt the night away At Sleepy Joe's Cafe Joe came home in '45 And took out a GI loan On a sleepy little spot An army cook Could call his own He married May The highway come in And they woke up to find They were sitting on top Of a pretty little gold mine Whoo. Saturday night The lights are bright As the folks pour in From town Joe keeps the blues playin' At the bar May lays the beers down I come through the door And feel the workweek Slip away See you out on the floor And Monday morning's A million miles away At Sleepy Joe's Cafe At Sleepy Joe's Cafe At Sleepy Joe's Cafe Come on, Charlie! One more time around, Charles. Come on! -Whoo! In "Drive Fast," I had that metaphor... of the stuntman. Which is always a metaphor of risk, and of, uh, this idea that we all have our broken pieces. What frightens and what exhilarates and inspires us, are often very close together. Those feelings are the essence of what drives us to risk... in life and in love. Everybody's broken in some way. Physically, emotionally, spiritually. In this life, nobody gets away unhurt. I wrote a song about a guy not just finding the fearlessness to do his job, but the fearlessness to risk being with somebody that you love. We're always trying to find somebody whose broken pieces fit with our broken pieces, and something whole emerges. So, it was just a good metaphor for a story like that. One, two, one, two, three, four. I got two pins in my ankle And a busted collarbone A steel rod in my leg But it walks me home At nine, I climbed high Into the boughs Of our neighborhood's Tallest tree I don't remember the fear Just the breeze Drive fast, fall hard I'll keep you in my heart Yeah, don't worry About tomorrow Don't mind the scars Just drive fast, fall hard At 19 I was the king of the dirt Down at the Remington draw I liked the pedal And I didn't mind the wall 'Midst the roar Of the metal I never heard a sound I was looking for anything Any kind of drug To lift me up off this ground Yeah, drive fast, fall hard I'll keep you in my heart Yeah, don't worry About tomorrow And don't mind the scars Just drive fast, fall hard We met on the set Of this B-picture That she made She liked her guys A little greasy 'Neath her pay grade We headed down to Baja In the desert We made our stand of it Figured maybe together We could get The broken pieces to fit Drive fast, fall hard Keep me in your heart Yeah, don't worry About tomorrow And don't mind the scars Just drive fast, fall hard I'll keep you in my heart Yeah, don't worry About tomorrow And don't mind the scars Just drive fast, fall hard I got two pins in my ankle And a busted collarbone A steel rod in my leg But it walks me home It's easy to lose yourself... or never find yourself. The older you get, the heavier that baggage becomes that you haven't sorted through. So you pay the price. And the older you get, the higher that price is. But in the past, putting yourself on the line, putting your heart on the line, has bred nothing but pain and failure, so you run. I've done a lot of that kind of running. You lose control of your desires, your appetites, your temper, and you reap what you sow. You run until you've left everything that you've loved and loves you behind. Guess it was somethin' I shouldn't have done Guess I regret it now Ever since I was a kid Tryin' to keep My temper down Is like chasin' wild horses Chasin' wild horses Chasin' wild horses I left my home Left my friends I didn't say goodbye I contract out to the BLM Up on the Montana line Chasin' wild horses Chasin' wild horses We're out before sunup We're in after sundown There's two men In the chopper Two under saddle On the ground In the evenings We'd hop in the pickup Head into town for a drink I make sure I work till I'm so damn tired Yeah, way too tired To think You lose track of time It's all just storms Blowin' through You come rollin' 'Cross my mind Your hair flashin' In the blue Like wild horses Just like wild horses Just like wild horses A fingernail moon In a twilight sky I'm ridin' in the high grass Of the switchback I shout your name Into the canyon The echo throws it back The winter snow whites Out the plains Till it can turn you blind The only thing Up here I've found Is tryin' to get you Off my mind It's like Chasin' wild horses Chasin' wild horses Chasin' wild horses Chasin' wild horses Oh! Sundown. A new day in a new town. I had a gal in New Jersey who broke my heart, ripped it to shreds, trampled on it, and sent it to me, COD, in a paper bag. So, I was out of there, on the first ride west, no looking back. I was going to build a new life in California, 3,000 miles away from the pain. But it didn't, uh, take long before my luck ran out and my money ran out. And it just wasn't gonna happen, so... Well, this song was my shot, my tribute to all the great Jimmy Webb songs about character and place. Here, we find my brother in heartbreak, a long way from home. Trying to work it off, sweat it out, over a long, lonely summer in a faraway town. I'm twenty-five hundred Miles From where I wanna be It feels like a hundred years Since you've been near to me I guess what goes around Baby, comes around Just wishing You were here with me In Sundown Sundown ain't The kind of place - You want to be on your own - It's all long, hot Endless days And cold nights all along I drift from bar to bar Here in lonely town Just wishing You were here with me Come sundown Come sundown Sundown the cafes are filled With lovers passing time Sundown all I've got Trouble on my mind So I work all day out here On the county line - I tell myself It's all just gonna Work out in time When summer's through You'll come around That little voice In my head's All that keeps me From sinking down - Come Sundown - Come Sundown When summer's through - You'll come around - You'll come around That little voice In my head's All that keeps me - From sinking down - Sinking down - Come Sundown - Come Sundown I wrote this song quickly at the kitchen table one morning. It's just about being lost on the highway of life. Lost is something I'm... I'm good at writing about. Sometimes you've been too beat up, or haven't healed enough of the fear out of you, to know a good thing when you've found it. Sometimes you just gravitate to the pain. It's what you're used to. It's how you recognize yourself. It feels like home. It feels more familiar to you than love. So that's where you go. You don't know how to hold onto love, but you know how to hold onto hurt. Came into town With a pocketful of songs I made the rounds But I didn't last long I'm out on this highway With a bone-cold chill Here, somewhere north of Nashville I lie awake In the middle of the night Makin' a list of things That I didn't do right With you at the top Of a long page filled Here, somewhere North of Nashville For the deal I made The price was strong I traded you for this song We woke each morning With hearts filled Bluebird of love On the windowsill - Now the heart's unsteady The night is still All I've got's this melody And time to kill Here, somewhere North of Nashville Here, somewhere North of Nashville Here, somewhere North of Nashville Lies. They will devour everything you have and everything you will ever have. Faith. Hope. Trust. All those things that are hard to come by. That's what grows your garden of love. Lies will try to make a fool out of all those things. But without them? All you have is stones. I woke up this morning With stones in my mouth You said those are Only the lies you've told me Only the lies You've told me I pulled my collar To the wind And spit them on the ground You said those are Only the lies you've told me Only the lies You've told me Sat on the edge of our bed In the sun I felt them gather On my tongue I woke up this morning With stones in my mouth You said those are Only the lies You've told me Only the lies You've told me The dirt-brown winter field A thousand black crows Cover the ground You say those are Only the lies You've told me Those are Only the lies You've told me Autumn wind blows Through the trees The dark leaves Come tumbling down You say those are Only the lies You've told me Those are Only the lies You've told me I walk a highway Washed in sun I feel weight Gather on my tongue I woke up this morning With stones in my mouth You said those are Only the lies You've told me Only the lies You've told me Those are only The lies you've told me Only the lies You've told me Those are Only the lies you've told me Only the lies You've told me Those are Only the lies you've told me Only the lies You've told me Those are Only the lies you've told me I woke up this morning With stones in my mouth I woke up this morning With stones in my mouth "Miracle" is a Southern California pop symphony about throwing away the best thing you ever had. That's the perfect ingredient for an epic pop single. Love is one of the only miracles God has given us daily proof of on earth. And while we do our best to disprove this idea, love is there to better us. But you must work for its blessings. Love and the creative life it births is a small, sweet sign of God's divinity within us. Now, my man in this song knows the rules. Works to abide by them. But sometimes our fears, our old habits and our insecurities get the best of the best that's within us. And there goes my miracle. Sunrise, sundown The street's gone Golden brown Auburn skies above I'm searching for my love I'm searching for my love There goes My miracle Walking away Walking away There goes my miracle Walking away Walking away Moonlight, moon bright Where's my lucky star Tonight? Streets lost in lamp light Then suddenly in sight Suddenly in sight There goes My miracle Walking away Walking away There goes My miracle Walking away Walking away Look what you've done - Look what you've done Look what you've done Oh, oh Look what you've done Look what you've done Look what you've done Oh, oh - Look what we've done - Look what we've done - Look what we've done - Look what we've done Look what we've done Oh, oh Heartache, heartbreak Love gives, love takes The book of love Holds its rules Disobeyed by fools Disobeyed by fools There goes My miracle Walking away Walking away There goes My miracle Walking away Walking away Walking away Walking away There goes My miracle Sunrise, sundown A love song. It's the redemption of your heart. Your soul transformed through hard thought, hard times, and hard realizations. We drive out of the darkness into sunshine and love. Quote, "You fall in love with lonely, you end up that way." I wish on you and yours only love, companionship, God's blessing, and a guiding light through the dark for all your days. Had enough Of heartbreak and pain Had a little sweet spot For the rain For the rain And skies of gray Hello, sunshine Won't you stay? You know I always liked My walking shoes But you can get a little Too fond of the blues You walk too far You walk away Hello, sunshine Won't you stay? You know I always loved A lonely town Those empty streets No one around You fall in love with lonely You end up that way Hello, sunshine, Won't you stay? You know I always liked That empty road No place to be And miles to go But miles to go Is miles away Hello, sunshine, Won't you stay? Yeah, miles to go Is miles away Hello, sunshine, Won't you stay? Hello, sunshine, Won't you stay? Hello, sunshine -Here we are. When Patti and I got together, there was nothing guaranteed. We didn't know where our love was gonna take us. All we had was the next day, and the shaky faith that it would lead us somewhere. We had to sneak around so I'd meet her on the same bench in Chelsea, across from the Empire Diner when I came into New York City. I'd bring some beer in a paper bag and we'd sit and talk. That was the bench I proposed to her on, and where we brought our first son, Evan, and carved our initials into the wood. That was some 30 years ago now. And marriage still doesn't bring along its guarantees. Just the faith and love you have in one another and the next day. There's a place On a blank stretch of road Where nobody travels And nobody goes The deskman says These days 'round here Well, two young folks could Probably up and disappear Into rustlin' sheets A sleepy corner room Into the musty smell Of wilted flowers And lazy afternoon hours At the Moonlight Motel Well, the pool's filled With empty eight-foot deep Got dandelions growin' up Through the cracks In the concrete Chain-link fence Half-rusted away Got a sign says, "Children Be careful how you play" Your lipstick taste And your whispered secret I promised I'd never tell A half-drunk beer Your breath in my ear At the Moonlight Motel Well, then it's Bills and kids And kids and bills And the ringing of the bell Across the valley floor - Through the dusty Screen door - Dusty screen door Of the Moonlight Motel Last night, I dreamed Of you, my lover And the wind Blew through the window And blew off the covers Of my lonely bed I woke to something you said It's better to have loved Yeah It's better to have loved As I drove, there was A chill in the breeze And leaves tumbled From the sky and fell Onto a road so black As I backtracked To the Moonlight Motel She was boarded up and gone Like an old summer song Nothing but an empty shell I pulled in And stopped into my old spot I pulled a bottle of Jack Out of a paper bag Poured one for me And one for you as well Then it was one more shot Poured out Onto the parking lot To the Moonlight Motel Yeah, let's move on. That was good, Tommy, that was good. But the one last night... You never know what's going to happen with new music. Especially when it's played live. I love collaborating with people from my past. But I also love the challenge of finding and working with new collaborators. Now, during the filmmaking process, we took some chances and a certain kind of magic took place. Just the right amount of mistakes happened. And as you hoped it would, the music began to take on a life of its own... as it bounced around the wooden shell of our old barn. So when the music's over at the end of the day, life's mysteries remain and deepen. Its answers, unresolved. But if your heart is open, and you're thinking hard, and living and loving in good faith, the questions you are asking yourself grow deeper, better. So you walk on in pursuit of those better questions, tentatively putting one foot in front of another through the dark. Because that's where the next morning is. Travel safe, pilgrim. 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I've been walkin' These streets so long Singin' the same old song I know every crack In the dirty sidewalks Of Broadway Where hustle's The name of the game And nice guys get washed away Like the snow and the rain There's been a load Of compromisin' On the road to my horizon But I'm gonna be where The lights are shinin' on me Like a rhinestone cowboy Oh, riding out on a horse In a star-spangled rodeo Like a rhinestone cowboy Getting cards and letters From people I don't even know And offers Comin' over the phone I really don't mind The rain A smile can hide All the pain But you're down When you're ridin' that train It's takin' the long way And I dream Of the things I'll do With a subway token And a dollar Tucked inside my shoe There'll be a load Of compromisin' On the road to my horizon But I'm gonna be where The lights are shinin' on me Like a rhinestone cowboy Riding out on a horse In a star-spangled rodeo Like a rhinestone cowboy Gettin' cards and letters From people I don't even know And offers Comin' over the phone Like a rhinestone cowboy |
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